Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Humanity ❯ Realization ( Chapter 2 )

Remember Episode Eight? Yeah, the one with Barry the Chopper. One of my friends told me that she thought Ed was crying because he had hit his younger brother. Of course, this was far too wimpy an explanation for me, and just didn't make sense. So here it is: my episode eight insert, with much Edward angst.

 

Chapter Two: Episode Eight Insert: Realization

 

The fear was still coursing through my veins: a pure, raw emotion, the most primitive of all. Even at the end, it filled my mind.

 

But it was more than the fear that surrounded me: the memory of the manic glint in that killer's eyes was almost inhuman: almost, but it wasn't. He is only human, as am I.

 

And with this realization comes the knowledge that even this wasn't humanity at its lowest - the lowest were those who claimed righteousness, but slaughtered the moment their societies gave the go-ahead. The State. The one I had given my life and soul to but a few days before.

 

The tears are not something I'm used to - but they came so easily when I saw my blade at where my own brother's heart would have been. Here I am, the lowest of the low, claiming that I'm better than he, but ready to kill the moment my life is endangered. He was right - deep down, even those of us who give their lives trying to help others have that spark inside of them, the one that will kill the moment the slightest need arises.

 

If this is what humanity is, I'm not sure I want to be a part of it.