Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Secret Lover~ A Fury Love Story ❯ Secret Lover~A Fury Love Story ( Chapter 1 )

Secret Lover

 

 

By Mija

 

 

Disclaimer~Dont own any of the Charactors of FMA. This is for a Fury/Anyone but Havoc or Roy challenge, don't even know if I will end up posting it there, since my spelling and grammer so suck, and it may not even be long enoough to meet the requirements, but I thought I might give it a shot. This is meant to be a one shot fic. Huggles and smiles Mija...:-)

 

 

 

 

~~~Cain Fury cuddled next to his lover and sighed dreamily. Lover. No that word did not even begin to describe how he felt for the person intertwined in bed with him. His Love. His Secret Love. Love. It was the only way to decribe it. It wasn't a fling, an outlet for frustration or something to let go of some steam. No. None of that could ever be said about the way he felt for this person, or the way this person felt for him. How could it? They had fallen in love years ago. Oh at first they had been aquintances, semi-coworkers, then friends. When exactly had it went from there to love? Fury did not know really. One minute they were talking, passing the time, finding they had alot of similar intrests, which was odd, considering how oppisite they were, but it had happened none the less.

 

~~~For years it had been nothing more than talking and sharing mutual loves and hobbies, then some small banter and laughter, a few looks passing between them that would make him blush, when ever those bright eyes looked in his direction. Of course no one knew about the feelings that were blossoming in Fury, or in his Love for him. No one would of guessed or had a clue, and if they had, they would of thought him crazy, thought them both totally insane. But it had been unavoidable really. When that voice spoke to him, Fury could feel his insides turn to mush and his face heat up. And although the other didn't show so much emotion, Fury could tell by the quiver in his voice, that he felt the same as well. Of course for a long long time niether did much about their new found love. But when the oppurtunity struck them, they would sneak off and go for long walks in the park or down the busy market district looking into windows and talking.

 

~~~Some of Fury's most fond memories were of sitting on a park bench with is secret love, either he or his love reading passages from some romance novel or book they both were intrested in. Sometimes when they were at Fury's place they would listen to music and even dance. It had been awkward and sometimes painfull. His love hadn't known how to dance at the time, but Fury had taught him and relished the feeling of being the one able to show his love this or that for the first time. Sometimes when at the park they would hold hands and just sit there, looking at the sky, or people walking, both silent but enjoying the silence as long as they were together. Of course it had to be a secret. Their time together could not be revealed to anyone, lest one or the other got hurt. And Fury, not violent by nature, would do anything in his power to make sure that his love would not suffer any harm, and his love felt the same way, his love had told him, had said that nothing would ever happen to ever harm Fury, and Fury believed him. How could he not? When his love spoke, he spoke with a conviction that you could not doubt at all.

 

~~~In retrospect. Who couldn't love this person? He was the most sweetest and understanding person Fury had ever met in his life. He was so full of joy and love for everyone. He respected everyone and everyone respected him. Lots of people had said that he couldnt feel, that he couldnt love or be sad, that he couldnt be happy or angry. But Fury knew diffrent. He had seen his love angry, sad, happy and he had seen the look he would give Fury, telling Fury with nothing but a look, that he loved him. Again, if anyone, including Fury had been told that he would fall in love with a suit of armor, Fury himself would of laughed in thier face. But again it had been unavoidable. Al was so loveable, so kind and sweet, everything his brother was not. He understood Fury like no one else ever had, or ever would, and Fury understood him.

 

~~~Of course for years there wasnt much they could do to really consumate thier love, there was only somethings a suit of armor could do, and none of it very pleasant. But Fury guessed thats what made it even more special. They hadnt fallen in love by physical sight, or by prowess or what not. They had fallen in love the way true love should be, over years of respect and mutual intrests. Fury had never seen what Al looked like other than a suit of armor but to him it didnt matter. If Al never got his body back Fury would love him till the day he died. The subject had come up once, Fury recalled. Al had been fretting and had finally asked Fury what would happen to them if Al never got his body back. It had been after one of his and FullMetal's busted missions where their hopes had been dashed yet again. If anyone would take a moment to look, they would have seen the sadness in those shining eyes, the quiver of fear and sadness in his hollow yet loveable voice.

 

"So what if it doesnt happen Al?? Will you stop loving me because your not flesh and blood?" Fury had asked, fearfull. He didnt want to loose Al. Al was his one shining star in his life, the only thing he looked foward to everyday. It would break his heart if Al rejected him.

 

"Of course NOT!..but Cain?? what if I dont become flesh and blood at ALL? How can you even love something like me? I mean we cant kiss or do...anything..else? How can you live like that? How can you love something like that?" Al had asked with so much sorrow in his voice that Fury had held him the best he could without getting impaled on one of his amors spikes.

 

"Love is more than physical contact Al...and if I couldnt have anything in this world but you, your voice, your love and just holding hands then I would die a happy man...becaue I love you...dont you see that? I didnt fall in love with the physical you Al, I fell in love with the person, the spirit, the soul inside the armor...I fell in love with YOU Al...and nothing is ever going to change that...your all I think about..all I dream about at night...my heart races everytime you look at me, or speak my name..I get all knotted inside when ever Im near you...not because I know that we will be spending the night in bed or something like that, but because I know that I will be spending time with the one person in this world I truely care about, the person who understands me and accepts me for who I am...and who I accept for who they are...your everything to me Al...and if you never get your true body back it wouldnt make one single diffrence in how I feel about you...I love you and that wont change...even if you stop loving me...I dont think I could ever stop loving you." Fury replied, his eyes shiny with tears, sadness for the ache Al was feeling, but his heart full and happy, knowing that his words were true. He loved this person with every fiber of his being, and nothing in the world could make that change.

 

"I love you too Cain..nothing in this world could ever change that with me either...but...I...I want...I want to so badly to touch you...to feel your flesh, to feel your lips on mine...to hear and feel your heart beat against your chest...I want to give you everything Cain..and Im affraid...affraid I wont get to do that...and you deserve soo much more than I can give you like this." Al explained sorrowfully and Fury smiled.

 

"I never thought I deserved much in this life...but God blessed me with someone to love, someone I admire and truelly care for...thats all I need...or could ever truelly hope for."

 

"But dont..dont you ever...want?" Al asked with a look that Fury could tell would be a blush if armor could blush.

 

"I would love to feel your flesh pressed against mine...to feel your lips and watch you smile a real smile...to hear YOUR heart beat...but if it doesnt happen then I have the most important part of you."

 

"Whats that?"

 

"Your love...your soul...thats all that matters to me in the long run...that you love me and I love you."

 

~~~They had hugged then, it had been an awkward one, and a carefull one, but one filled with how they felt. And they went on. They continued with thier secret love affair, and Fury missed him when he was out on missions. Sometimes he thought his heart would break when ever they heard news that the Elrics had gotten in some scrape or another. But Al always returned to him and Fury had been grateful. Then it happened. One day Ed and Al dissappeared. No one knew where they were. And Fury's heart had broken. He zealously hung to every lead they heard about. Even Mustang had been out of sorts, worring about the two brothers. The whole office wondered and waited. Everyone holding their breaths for bad news, news that told them that the brothers were gone for good...dead. Each time someone mentioned something like that, Fury would jump up from his desk and run to the bathroom, where he cried his eyes out and prayedto God that Al would come back to him.

 

~~~As the time passed, everyone sort of got used to Fury's emotional rollercoaster, although no one had actually asked him why he seemed more upset than most of them, and in their minds they had known the Elrics more than he. Well they knew Ed, but Fury knew Al. No one but maybe Ed himself knew Al better than he. They wouldnt understand and Fury wasnt much inclined to tell them. Everyday he waited and he cried into his pillow wishing and praying to hear something, anything, just so he knew one way or the other. It would kill him to find out his one and only true love had died, but even knowing that would finally fill this empty space in his heart, his soul. He would be able to grieve, to move on, not that he was sure he could, but not knowing ANYTHING was ever so worse. He hated it.

 

~~~After a year and a half most of the crew had given up hope that they would ever see the Elric brothers again. The military had put out a reward poster up and asked about leads to the deserter the FullMetal Alchemist, and his companion and brother Alphonse Elric, known to wear a full suit of Armor. But Fury did not give up hope, although it was hard. He couldnt sleep, he couldnt eat, he couldnt concentrate. Many times he often day dreamed that he saw Al walk toward him and his face would light up. Fury would start running towards him, not caring who saw or what they thought, he just wanted to hold him again and hear his voice. He always woke from those day dreams only to realize that thats what they were, only dreams and Al was still gone, it always broke his heart all over again.

 

~~~Finally Fury's hope had faded till it was almost all gone. He didnt look well, he looked pale and had circles under his eyes. Not to mention he was alot thinner than was healthy. This had the Colonel and the others worried, but no matter how much they pried Fury never spoke of his secret lover. It was personal and special, something only they shared and he wouldnt tarnish it by having them know about it and probably making fun of the most precious thing he ever had in his life. Finally the Colonel had ordered im to take leave. Fury looked horrible and everyone was worried. Fury didnt even protest. He took his leave and pretty much shut himself up in his room and closed out the waking world, his life spent in dreams where he and Al were together, happy, in love. Most nights he would fall asleep with one of their favorite books and curl up against a pillow crying, and calling out his loves name over and over till his voice was raw.

 

~~~He was still on leave when a knock came to his door. He didnt want to answer it. He didnt want to face the world, a world without Al in it. He would much rather spend it dreaming of Al. But the knocking wouldnt cease and finally Fury got up to answer the door. He looked at the tall sandy blonde haired young man on his doorstep and stared at him. Neither said a word and Fury was getting frustrated. What did this boy want? Didnt he know that his world was crashing down around him and he had no time to just stand there staring. Then he spoke. And Fury feinted.

 

~~~Fury was sure it was a dream. It had to be. That gorgeaous young man on his doorstep couldnt be who he thought it was, but the voice. it was familiar, so much like Al's yet more husky and grown up, and it had no metalic tang to it. But when he woke up he found himself on the bed and the young man was sitting on the bed looking at him with huge green gold eyes and a look that Fury would of recognized anywhere. AL!

 

"You okay Cain?? you had me worried..you scared me to death...I couldnt wait to see you and came back as soon as I could and find you like this??..are you ok?" asked the now fully restored Alphonse Elric, and Fury couldnt even dare to believe it wasnt another dream. In all his musings he had never once believed Al could be as beautifull in flesh and blood as his soul was. But thats what he was, beautifull, and here. All Fury could do was pull Al into his arms and hug him tight, affraid he'd dissappear in a mist and realize it was yet another cruel dream.

 

"Ive missed you Cain...I tried to get back to you as soon as I could..but when brother restored me I was sick...I had been deprived of sensation for so long it took awhile for my body to get adusted to it all...it took awile but as soon as I could I came right away to see you....we had to be carefull though..they are hunting brother and I dont want him harmed...he did what he promised me he got my body back and became a deserter for it." Al explained and still held on to Fury as he cried on Al's broad but lanky shoulder.

 

"Is..is it really you Al...please tell me Im not dreaming?" came Fury's response, riddled with hiccups and sobs. Al held him tighter.

 

"Yes its real its not a dream Cain...I always wondered how it would feel to hold you in my arms...my flesh and blood arms...to feel your body pressed against mine...to hear your heart beat against my ear...and its the most wonderfull thing Ive ever felt in my life."

 

"Ohhh Al..Ive missed you soo much I tought you were gone for good..I thought I would never see you again." Fury cried, touching Al everywhere, tracing his hands over the beautifull face that looked at him with love and apologies. Fury wanted to map that face and every inch of him in his memory. He never wanted to be parted from his love ever again.

 

"I know Cain and Im soo sorry about that..truelly I am..but like I said..it couldnt be helped...Im sorry...I will understand if you hate me...if you...you...dont ...love me anymore." Al replied with hopefulness yet fear. And Fury looked at im like he had grown two heads.

 

"Are you kidding me?!...now that I have you back Im NEVER letting you go..I dont give a damn WHO knows about us...Im never letting you go ever again Al." Fury replied with utmost conviction and Al laughed.

 

"Good...cause I thought I might have to transmute you into a teddy bear or something if you didnt love me anymore...I mean...I was affraid to hope you still loved me...but if you didnt?? well, I wanted to make sure I sitll had something of you with me." Al chuckled and Fury chuckled as well, giving him another hug that Al fully returned. That night they shared thier first kiss, thier first everything as far as flesh and blood bodies could. Both had been shy and a bit awkward in all, but Fury had loved every moment of it.

 

~~~Al had told Fury that he eventually told his brother about them. At first Fury was a bit worried about what the hot headed Ed would do to him, but Al assured him, that after some colorful words and letting some steam off, Ed was glad Al had found someone to love, someone who had loved him as Al, and not Al the armor. Now Fury lay there with the heart beat of his lover gently beating against the hand he held on his chest and sighed happily. Never in his life did Fury ever dream that he would find someone so special to love, someone that would love him back, but to have this gorgeous young man still love him after he'd been restored was a miracle. A miracle Fury was not ever going to take for granted. He also mused that his secret lover would soon not be so secret anymore. Although at one time that might of scared him, he found that he could care less who knew now, in fact he wanted everyone to know. He wanted everyone to know that he loved Alphonse Elric and that Alphonse Elric loved him too. Life was wonderfull.

 

 

 

A/N~ok ok this came out alot sappier than I intended to. And yes I did not describe the love scene but some how I didnt feel like it needed to be said. Anyhow I know it sucks but for half an hours work and since its like 5:05 in the am, its as good as it gets. Huggles Mija.