Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ Sweet Dreams ❯ Roy's Decision ( Chapter 3 )

Sweet Dreams

 

Sorry the last chapter was so short, guys, It'll be longer this time, hehe. I just really had to do that cliffhanger, it was too tempting..Though it really sucks that I have such writer's block! >.<

 

A fullmetal alchemist yaoi >3

 

Disclaimer: I own this story… but not Ed or Roy -pouts-

 

Pairing: RoyxEd

 

Rating: M (due to later chapters)

 

Recap:

 

When he heard the door open, he lifted his head off the couch and sat up half way, resting his body weight on his arms. His eyebrows rose curiously as he recognized the familiar head poking through the door. To his surprise, he found none other than….

 

Chapter 3 - Roy's Decision

 

…Edward poking his head into the room, looking around, not seeing the Colonel sitting on the bed right in front of him. He entered the room, looking a lot more shy than he had ever looked before. Still not seeing the Colonel, he closed the door silently, as if not to be loud. Roy used the fact that Ed still had not realized his presence and quickly lay back down, feigning sleep. Roy heard footsteps nearing him. Edward looked down at him, tilting his head.

 

“The guy sure falls asleep fast… and I really wanted to talk to him about it…” Edward mumbled to himself.

 

Instead of leaving like Roy initially thought he would, he felt as if Ed was staring down at him or something. Soon enough, he felt the hesitant touch of Ed's hand to his face. The younger male trailed his fingers along Roy's jaw line, much like what the older alchemist had done to Edward earlier. Edward felt his own face flush as he gazed down at the “sleeping” man laying down right in front of him. He felt his face inching closer to Roy's… not quite sure if it was involuntary or not.

 

Roy heard a small `thump' and realized that the boy was not only on his knees, leaning on his chest, but the warm puff of breath tickling his lips told him that Edward was mere centimeters away from his lips. It took all of the Colonel's self control not to capture the boy's mouth with his own and ravage it hungrily.

 

Just then, as Edward was mere millimeters away from touching his soft lips onto Roy's own… A loud knock protruded from the offending door. Edward jumped, Roy almost feel face first onto the floor, and they both had the utmost desire to kill the person on the other side of the door. Roy, though awake the entire time, pretended to have woken up at that moment, looking up at Ed with groggy eyes.

 

“F-Fullmetal? -yawn- What're you doing here?” He asked, inwardly smirking at his acting skills.

 

Edward blushed slightly and stuttered, “I-I…um… wanted… to warn you that you… s-sleep walk! Yeah! Um.. you were sleepwalking and you came into my room and…” he flushed again”…uh… you kis- I mean kept m-muttering about how….you were gonna…uhhhhh… Fry me to a crisp and call me fried shrimp!! I was gonna throw a tantrum until I saw you sleeping over h-here… so … yeah… and um… someone's knocking on your door… so you'd better answer it…. Bye!”

 

Edward then bolted out of the room so fast that Mustang couldn't quite register the fact that he left until he was gone… and apparently so did Hughes as he walked in asking, “What the hell just passed me? A speeding bullet?!”.

 

“No… just a flustered midget…” Roy mused, smirking.

 

“What'd you do to the kid now, Roy? Tell him that he's shorter than his temper?”

 

“Nothing of the sort, Hughes! On the contrary, the pipsqueak's temper is shorter than he is” He replied smugly, “Anyway… Let's just say his flushed face wasn't because of anger…” Mustang finished smoothly.

 

“I always knew you were a closet gay, Mustang…” Hughes stated slyly with the funniest of smirks plastered on his face, “And now you've even admitted to being a pedophile! What a plus!!”

 

Roy glared over at his long-time friend and his eye twitched. Hughes just laughed and walked over to the annoyed Colonel. His smirk was replaced with a knowing smile as he placed a hand on his friend's shoulder.

 

“Don't get so heated, Roy. I always knew that you had some feelings for the kid, I just hope that neither you nor he get hurt in the process. There are a lot of people who are against these types of relationships because they don't know what it's like… They've never felt a love so strong that gender nor age matter… Therefore, they cannot accept it. Make sure that when and if you decide to tell Edward how you really feel, that you're willing to protect him with your life, without hesitation.”

 

Hughes then took his hand off and made his way to the door. He stopped in his tracks as he heard Roy's voice from across the room.

 

“I'd protect him with my very being… And if anyone ever tried to take Edward away from me… I would kill them with my bare hands, Lose… no… Quit my position in the military, and run away with him…” Roy stopped for a second, the seriousness in his voice was enough to make Hughes shiver, and then continued. “Because… a life without Edward… isn't a life I'd ever accept.”

 

Hughes's eyes opened wide, then returned to normal as he smiled warmly and replied, not even facing his superior, “Good, I didn't have to force it outta you. You've grown up, Roy.” Then, without another word, Hughes left the Colonel to his thoughts.

 

`I don't care what anyone says… thanks for helping me realize that, Hughes… You're always there for me when I have no idea what to do… Roy then sighed and his eyes closed.

 

Edward… I have to tell you the truth, or these dreams will never go away… I have to tell you, or I'll never get another peaceful night of sleep without you by my side. . .

 

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Edward once again sat in his room, just like the night before, staring up at the ceiling. For quite a couple days, no… weeks… Thoughts about Mustang had been plaguing his mind, preventing any sleep from overcoming him. He sighed, wondering what he was going to do about his feelings towards his superior. He had, before, contemplated all solutions. Some which included hypnotism, hitting his head on a wall until he had amnesia, or the ever popular… avoidance of the object of affection. Naturally, the only one he had tried hadn't worked… After all, when you work for the guy you're in love with, it's hard to avoid him. Not to mention the other two were completely illogical and impossible.

 

Secretly, when he'd first found out about these feelings, he'd hoped that they were nothing more than a mere crush and a stage in his life that would eventually fade away. He was hoping that he was mistaken and what he thought was love was merely friendship and a healthy adoration for the colonel. Maybe even a brotherly love… He was definitely mistaken about that. He once stupidly considered that he should just tell the man and maybe he could help...

 

But no… Edward had been oh-so-intelligent to have decided to keep these feelings for his commanding officer completely bottled up until he thought they would burst under the pressure. Countless times, he'd found himself in the shower, stroking himself until reached his highest peak, screaming out Roy's name out into the nothingness of the bathroom, then unraveling back down to earth panting heavily with flushed cheeks.

 

Not only that, but he also just wanted, if nothing more, than to be able to sleep in the same bed as Roy, and have the chance to be the one cuddling up to the man's side, just to be with him. He wanted to be loved by the man he'd harbored such deep feelings towards for years on end. Yet, he couldn't ever seem to be able to tell him. He was so afraid that Roy would reject him… or worse, be completely disgusted by the younger male's feelings. He was just so worried.

 

`Goddamn… I'm so weak… I can't even admit my feelings…' Edward thought to himself, his self-abusive personality nagging at him over and over.

 

`If only I could somehow know just what he feels for me… If only somehow he'd just come out and tell me, I'd be ok… I want to know… Then I could…finally be able to decide on what I should do…

 

That had been one of the last thoughts that entered the young man's mind as he began to drift off to sleep. Just as his mind began to go completely hazy, he whispered one thing…

 

“Roy...”

 

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I'm gonna tell him, no matter what…

 

 

A very nervous yet excited colonel made his way, once again, down the hallway to Ed's room, only this time he was conscious. Roy held the small piece of paper in his hand as a back up, in case he froze up or something. He took the time to write out a note to the blonde boy, though throughout the entire message, he hoped he wouldn't mess up when he got there.

 

He found himself in front of Ed's door and took in a deep breath, then, he placed the note into his pocket for storage. Just as he reached for the door handle, he heard something that diminished his fears almost instantly.

 

“Roy…' He heard through the door as he laid his hand on the door handle.

 

Well… I guess here goes nothing… Roy thought to himself. Then he swiftly and quietly opened the door and revealed the younger alchemist already sleeping in his bed. He let out a sigh of relief and walked over to the boy, staring down at him lovingly. He tenderly cupped Ed's cheek, lightly brushing his thumb against the higher point of his cheek. Then, he lifted his hand back up and took his note out of his pocket. He held it in his hand for a minute, then lightly placed it on the nightstand next to his bed, in plain sight for the boy to see the next day.

 

The Colonel looked down at the but for the last time for the night and smiled gently, leaning down to place a slight kiss on Ed's cheek before walking to the door, then stepping out of the room, heading back to his office to pack up for the night and go home for some very much deserved sleep.

 

He walked out of his office, locking it behind him this time , then for a reason unknown to anyone but the Colonel, and soon the sleeping blonde as well, he placed the key far back into a plant he'd put in front of his office the day before.

 

He walked out of the Central Headquarters with no other intention other than to go home.

 

-----(10-15 minutes later)-----

 

 

The older male made it to his home in record time, due to the certain hour of the night it was. He stepped out of his car and walked up the steps to his humble home, inserting the key into it's position before turning it and opening his door, stepping inside. As he made it inside, Roy hung his trench coat on the coat hanger and placed his keys on the front table. Then, the Colonel slipped off his shoes and didn't glance in a single other direction as he walked upstairs.

 

He sighed as he made it up to his room, soon undressing until he was only down to his with undershirt and black boxers.

 

As he climbed into bed, he imagined how it would be to be able to have Edward laying in his bed with him, clutching onto his and sleeping peacefully by his side. Roy smiled at that thought and plopped down, getting under his covers. Soon, his fatigue allowed him to sleep for once in the past couple weeks, freeing his mind from his fantasies.

 

Sometime during the night, Roy somehow acquired a pillow and soon snuggled into it, a certain blonde-haired shrimp that he'd fallen for taking every crevice his mind.

 

 

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Oi, that took me forever to come up with!! I had writer's block only until a couple of days ago when it just hit me and I began writing, lol. Anyways, read and review please!! =3 Until next time, Ja Ne!!

 

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