Fushigi Yuugi Fan Fiction ❯ Sweet Little Boy ❯ Sweet Little Boy... ( Prologue )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: Keiko Bug 
An unseen seishi hits the brink of sanity because of rejection...Hate, anger, depression...
Note. Attempted suicide.
Anime/Manga: Fushigi Yuugi Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 10.26.2002 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.6K | Visits: 398 | Status: Completed
An unseen seishi hits the brink of sanity because of rejection...Hate, anger, depression...
Note. Attempted suicide.
Anime/Manga: Fushigi Yuugi Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 10.26.2002 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.6K | Visits: 398 | Status: Completed
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Hello, my name is Johnny
Well hello my name is Johnny
I would like to explain myself
And I would like to complain in vein
The young man sat in the dark corner of his room, an eery smile plastered on his face.
"Toroki desu." He hissed, over and over again. His door was locked, his windows were shut, he
was alone. It was what he wanted. Nothing more. No one seemed to notice Toroki's absence. He
pulled out his dagger, running his tongue over the sharp blade. Blood dribbled from the side of
his mouth and down his face. Smirking, he grasped the blade in his hand, clenching his hand
tightly, enjoying the sharp blade cutting into his skin. He didn't care the pain. He was alone.
She didn't love him...he thought she did. He could of sworn that he loved her...but she didn't.
She loved him. He cursed him...
Sweet little boy JOHNNY!
Sweet Little Boy
JOHNNY!
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
*Days ago*
"Toroki?" Suzuno walked up to him, blinking. "Daijoubu desu ka?" He turned and looked at her,
smiling. "Hai, Suzuno-chan. I'm fine..." he replied, patting her on the head. Suzuno smiled,
then stopped. "Ne...Toroki....ano...about what you said last night...you...didn't mean it...did
you?" She asked, suddenly looking uncomfortable. He blinked at her. "What I said...?..." He
looked away. "Suzuno..." he whispered.
"Did you, Toroki?" She asked, sounding more persistent. He turned and looked down at her.
"Suzuno...hai. I meant everything I said to you last night. You...you said you'd think about
what I said..." He said, giving her a needy look. "Do...you love me?....like the way I love you?"
Suzuno backed away. "Toroki..." she sighed sadly, and shook her head. "Iie. I love Tatara...
demo...you and I...you and I can still be friends...right? I mean...this won't change our
friendship, will it? It won't change yours and Tatara's friendship....will it?"
'ello my name is Roger
Well hello my name is roger
I would like to proclaim myself
A god
And likely ordain myself
Toroki's smile faded for a moment, then suddenly twisted up into a wicked grin. "No need for
Toroki..now is there, Miko-sama? I mean...I've been useless since the beginning, haven't I?
Always in the way....sweet little Toroki...all he can do is float stuff...while Tatara can
control plants...feh.....he should hang himself with those vines...." Toroki growled darkly.
He was talking to himself so much he didn't acknowledge the knock at the door. It was soft and
quiet...like the voice that called, "Toroki?"
Toroki shut up instantly. "S-...Suzuno?" He stammered. "Ano....can I come in?" she asked.
Toroki leapt to his feet and fumbled with the door lock. "H-Hai..." He continued to stutter,
as though he felt afraid or nervous of her presence.
Sweet little boy
ROGER!
Sweet little boy
ROGER!
Suzuno entered the room and looked at him. "Are..you okay? We haven't seen you for a few
days...and we're all worried." She said. Toroki turned around and sat on his bed, his back
facing her. "Funny. I thought I was just a speck of dust...wow....people noticed me? Feh....I
don't care. I'm staying in here....this is where I plan to die." He growled, staring at the
blood coming from his hand. Suzuno walked up, giving a small gasp. "Toroki-kun! What happened
to your hand?!" She cried, kneeling down and beginning to dab at the blood. "You're such a
sweet little boy, Toroki...how could you do this to yourself? I've known you the longest of all
the Seishi... I...hope we can still be friends...?" she ended her sentence, dabbing at the blood,
not meeting Toroki's cold gaze.
"...still...friends?" He whispered harshly, eyes flashing. He grabbed her shoulders tightly,
shaking her. "Stupid bitch. You and I won't be friends. We CAN'T be friends....just as you
and your pretty pansy can't be together! It's not possible! He's a damn character in a book!"
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
Suzuno looked at Toroki. He had never acted this way...something was wrong. "Toroki-san...!"
She cried, trying to get free. Toroki threw her down onto the floor, landing on top of her.
His hands quickly wrapped around her neck. "Do you understand? You and Tatara can never be
happy. Sadly, Pansy doesn't know the truth...does he? He's too thick. He can't go into your
world. Hell, you barely exist in our world. You're a real human being...we are just characters
made up by another real...human being...like yourself. Why should you be all happy and shit
when we are suffering for you? Don't you care about us? Or do you only care about getting
back to your family so you can be in high school?" He tightened his grip. Suzuno cried out for
him to stop, her voice strangled by his grip. "Yamero...! Onegai!" She sobbed, gasping for
breath. "IIE!" Toroki screamed, shaking her. "You're always so damn happy! You don't even
notice your seishi suffering! Look at me! I'm a damn orphan! My real parents died and I have
lived a lie for 18 years! And...and Kokie! She has been orphaned because of you! Her father
sacrificed HIS life for YOUR happiness! And you go around flaunting about, acting all happy...
how could you? Don't you care about us? Or only about yourself...?"
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
Toroki released his grip and stood up. Her neck and face was streaked with blood and her face
was flushed. Suzuno sat up, rubbing her neck and gasping for breath. She stared at Toroki,
tears forming in her eyes. "Toroki-san...dousihte?" She murmured in a strangled voice. "Why
do you suddenly hate me?" Toroki looked down at her, his once friendly, full of life grey eyes
that were now cold and dead looking. "Get out." He pointed to the open door. "Now. I don't
care if you go crying to the seishi, telling me about what I did. Just go and leave me alone.
I don't ever want to see you again."
"Demo...Toroki...."
"GO DAMMIT! Before I change my mind and kill you!"
Sweet little boy
Johnny
Sweet little boy
Know as roger
Toroki sat back in his corner, his knife clutched tightly in his hand again. He eyed it, the
pressed it against his wrist. "Why must I have pain?" He pondered, staring at it. "What have
I done to deserve it?" He sighed, taking the tip of the blade and tearing the skin of his arm
open. Blood welled up, gushing out, all over his lap and floor. Pain tingled in his arm. He
ignored it. He wanted pain. He wanted to die..he didn't want to live anymore. He just wanted
to die. No one would miss him. He just attacked Suzuno, no one would forgive him for that. He
was surprised Tatara wasn't in here beating him to death with his plants...
Why hasn't anyone come yet? They must of not cared enough for him....
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
It must of been late. Toroki was asleep in his corner. He gave up staying away, deciding no one
was coming to get him. He was wrong. Toroki was awoken by someone tapping his cheek.
"Toroki-kun?" A soft voice asked. Toroki's eyes fluttered open, and he blinked.
"Eh? Karasuki?" He replied, holding up his cut arm to block the candle's light. "Itai..." he
whispered. Frowning, Toroki looked at his arm. It was bandaged.... Karasuki looked worried.
"I hope your arm is okay..." he murmured. "...are you alright, Toroki?" Toroki curled up,
edging away from Karasuki. "Does everyone hate me for what I've done?" He asked.
"Tatara's not thrilled...and...minna is scared...demo...when I heard what happened, I ran
here....I wanted to make sure you were okay."
Toroki eyed him. "Why?"
Karasuki blinked, then smiled. "I love you, Toroki...you've always been kind to me....I really
love you for that....I don't want to see you pained because of Suzuno's choice..." Karasuki
replied, edging over to Toroki and wrapping his arms around him gently.
Toroki's eyes filled with tears, and he relaxed against Karasuki.
"Onegai....don't leave me...just hold me..."
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The end. ^^; I don't own FY or any characters. The song is Johnny, by System of a Down. I
felt like writing that...because I participate in an RPG where I play Toroki, and it is planned
that later he will have a break down and attack his miko...so....Yea. ^^;;
Hello, my name is Johnny
Well hello my name is Johnny
I would like to explain myself
And I would like to complain in vein
The young man sat in the dark corner of his room, an eery smile plastered on his face.
"Toroki desu." He hissed, over and over again. His door was locked, his windows were shut, he
was alone. It was what he wanted. Nothing more. No one seemed to notice Toroki's absence. He
pulled out his dagger, running his tongue over the sharp blade. Blood dribbled from the side of
his mouth and down his face. Smirking, he grasped the blade in his hand, clenching his hand
tightly, enjoying the sharp blade cutting into his skin. He didn't care the pain. He was alone.
She didn't love him...he thought she did. He could of sworn that he loved her...but she didn't.
She loved him. He cursed him...
Sweet little boy JOHNNY!
Sweet Little Boy
JOHNNY!
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
*Days ago*
"Toroki?" Suzuno walked up to him, blinking. "Daijoubu desu ka?" He turned and looked at her,
smiling. "Hai, Suzuno-chan. I'm fine..." he replied, patting her on the head. Suzuno smiled,
then stopped. "Ne...Toroki....ano...about what you said last night...you...didn't mean it...did
you?" She asked, suddenly looking uncomfortable. He blinked at her. "What I said...?..." He
looked away. "Suzuno..." he whispered.
"Did you, Toroki?" She asked, sounding more persistent. He turned and looked down at her.
"Suzuno...hai. I meant everything I said to you last night. You...you said you'd think about
what I said..." He said, giving her a needy look. "Do...you love me?....like the way I love you?"
Suzuno backed away. "Toroki..." she sighed sadly, and shook her head. "Iie. I love Tatara...
demo...you and I...you and I can still be friends...right? I mean...this won't change our
friendship, will it? It won't change yours and Tatara's friendship....will it?"
'ello my name is Roger
Well hello my name is roger
I would like to proclaim myself
A god
And likely ordain myself
Toroki's smile faded for a moment, then suddenly twisted up into a wicked grin. "No need for
Toroki..now is there, Miko-sama? I mean...I've been useless since the beginning, haven't I?
Always in the way....sweet little Toroki...all he can do is float stuff...while Tatara can
control plants...feh.....he should hang himself with those vines...." Toroki growled darkly.
He was talking to himself so much he didn't acknowledge the knock at the door. It was soft and
quiet...like the voice that called, "Toroki?"
Toroki shut up instantly. "S-...Suzuno?" He stammered. "Ano....can I come in?" she asked.
Toroki leapt to his feet and fumbled with the door lock. "H-Hai..." He continued to stutter,
as though he felt afraid or nervous of her presence.
Sweet little boy
ROGER!
Sweet little boy
ROGER!
Suzuno entered the room and looked at him. "Are..you okay? We haven't seen you for a few
days...and we're all worried." She said. Toroki turned around and sat on his bed, his back
facing her. "Funny. I thought I was just a speck of dust...wow....people noticed me? Feh....I
don't care. I'm staying in here....this is where I plan to die." He growled, staring at the
blood coming from his hand. Suzuno walked up, giving a small gasp. "Toroki-kun! What happened
to your hand?!" She cried, kneeling down and beginning to dab at the blood. "You're such a
sweet little boy, Toroki...how could you do this to yourself? I've known you the longest of all
the Seishi... I...hope we can still be friends...?" she ended her sentence, dabbing at the blood,
not meeting Toroki's cold gaze.
"...still...friends?" He whispered harshly, eyes flashing. He grabbed her shoulders tightly,
shaking her. "Stupid bitch. You and I won't be friends. We CAN'T be friends....just as you
and your pretty pansy can't be together! It's not possible! He's a damn character in a book!"
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
Suzuno looked at Toroki. He had never acted this way...something was wrong. "Toroki-san...!"
She cried, trying to get free. Toroki threw her down onto the floor, landing on top of her.
His hands quickly wrapped around her neck. "Do you understand? You and Tatara can never be
happy. Sadly, Pansy doesn't know the truth...does he? He's too thick. He can't go into your
world. Hell, you barely exist in our world. You're a real human being...we are just characters
made up by another real...human being...like yourself. Why should you be all happy and shit
when we are suffering for you? Don't you care about us? Or do you only care about getting
back to your family so you can be in high school?" He tightened his grip. Suzuno cried out for
him to stop, her voice strangled by his grip. "Yamero...! Onegai!" She sobbed, gasping for
breath. "IIE!" Toroki screamed, shaking her. "You're always so damn happy! You don't even
notice your seishi suffering! Look at me! I'm a damn orphan! My real parents died and I have
lived a lie for 18 years! And...and Kokie! She has been orphaned because of you! Her father
sacrificed HIS life for YOUR happiness! And you go around flaunting about, acting all happy...
how could you? Don't you care about us? Or only about yourself...?"
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
Toroki released his grip and stood up. Her neck and face was streaked with blood and her face
was flushed. Suzuno sat up, rubbing her neck and gasping for breath. She stared at Toroki,
tears forming in her eyes. "Toroki-san...dousihte?" She murmured in a strangled voice. "Why
do you suddenly hate me?" Toroki looked down at her, his once friendly, full of life grey eyes
that were now cold and dead looking. "Get out." He pointed to the open door. "Now. I don't
care if you go crying to the seishi, telling me about what I did. Just go and leave me alone.
I don't ever want to see you again."
"Demo...Toroki...."
"GO DAMMIT! Before I change my mind and kill you!"
Sweet little boy
Johnny
Sweet little boy
Know as roger
Toroki sat back in his corner, his knife clutched tightly in his hand again. He eyed it, the
pressed it against his wrist. "Why must I have pain?" He pondered, staring at it. "What have
I done to deserve it?" He sighed, taking the tip of the blade and tearing the skin of his arm
open. Blood welled up, gushing out, all over his lap and floor. Pain tingled in his arm. He
ignored it. He wanted pain. He wanted to die..he didn't want to live anymore. He just wanted
to die. No one would miss him. He just attacked Suzuno, no one would forgive him for that. He
was surprised Tatara wasn't in here beating him to death with his plants...
Why hasn't anyone come yet? They must of not cared enough for him....
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
It must of been late. Toroki was asleep in his corner. He gave up staying away, deciding no one
was coming to get him. He was wrong. Toroki was awoken by someone tapping his cheek.
"Toroki-kun?" A soft voice asked. Toroki's eyes fluttered open, and he blinked.
"Eh? Karasuki?" He replied, holding up his cut arm to block the candle's light. "Itai..." he
whispered. Frowning, Toroki looked at his arm. It was bandaged.... Karasuki looked worried.
"I hope your arm is okay..." he murmured. "...are you alright, Toroki?" Toroki curled up,
edging away from Karasuki. "Does everyone hate me for what I've done?" He asked.
"Tatara's not thrilled...and...minna is scared...demo...when I heard what happened, I ran
here....I wanted to make sure you were okay."
Toroki eyed him. "Why?"
Karasuki blinked, then smiled. "I love you, Toroki...you've always been kind to me....I really
love you for that....I don't want to see you pained because of Suzuno's choice..." Karasuki
replied, edging over to Toroki and wrapping his arms around him gently.
Toroki's eyes filled with tears, and he relaxed against Karasuki.
"Onegai....don't leave me...just hold me..."
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The end. ^^; I don't own FY or any characters. The song is Johnny, by System of a Down. I
felt like writing that...because I participate in an RPG where I play Toroki, and it is planned
that later he will have a break down and attack his miko...so....Yea. ^^;;