Fushigi Yuugi Fan Fiction ❯ Till Death Do Us Part ❯ Chapter 1: The Beginning ( Chapter 1 )

Title: 'Till Death Do Us Part: The Beginning (1/?)

Author: Mousie

Warnings: yaoi pairings, lemon (semi-NC-17), angst, (in this part) Nuriko's POV

Notes: Pairing is Tasuki and Nuriko (and all the "official" ones)

/…/ denotes a "conscience" or something like that…

I couldn't sleep.

Well, it wasn't just that… I… I needed…

I needed… *something*.

I just felt so cold inside… It's weird. I guess that Amiboshi's death really unnerved me. I mean, I know that he was really part of the Seiryu Seven… but it's very hard to believe that such a young child should have to be allied with… them.

… and then to just throw his life away like that… It was really scary. Smiling as he plummeted to the dark, rushing, roaring waters… [1]

It's not that I really liked the kid. Yeah, he was annoying and all, but no one deserves to end up that way…

But it's not like I've never seen anyone die before…

/Korin… Yes… death is nothing new…/

He wasn't innocent. But he wasn't guilty as well.

Miaka is right. No one of a cold heart could play such beautiful music… I felt so… sad that he had to die.

I didn't know what I should do. Who to turn to…

Well, I didn't exactly want to bother Miaka… she had enough problems of her own, with the ceremony majorly screwing up… And Tamahome, while he's a good friend, he's probably too worried about Miaka… Despite the… ahhh… "arrogant" personality I can get sometimes, I really don't like to be a burden on anyone.

And the Emperor… well… I don't really want to go for him to help; though he is so incredibly gorgeous… I felt like I was going to break down and I definitely did not want to do that right in front of him. I don't know how he'd react… He's a kind person, but…

We were never very close to begin with…

/What about Tasuki?/

I quickly gathered myself up and rushed to the other Seishi's room. The moonlight shone prettily while I quickly made my way there.

"Tasuki? Tasuki! Are you awake? Tasuki!" I called quietly. I heard some rustling and then the door opened.

"Nuriko, what is it? Somethin' wrong?"

"Tasuki, I---" And then I felt guilty. It looked like I woke him up; he was only wearing his pants and his messy hair was even messier than usual. If that's possible. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bother you," I started to say to my friend.

"That's ok, wasn't really sleepin' anyway. Come in," he gestured.

I nodded and went into the room. "I…," I started.

"Hey, Nuriko… you don't look so good… you ok?"

"I don't know… I don't know what's wrong with me… I just feel… I don't' know… like… like… like I'm so cold and empty inside and…"

His eyes narrowed, trying to understand me.

I shook my head in frustration. "I… I don't know… just seeing that kid die like that… It's like I… I couldn't… " I whispered, water welling up in my eyes. I felt a breath shudder out of my lips.

And… somehow I ended up in his strong, muscled arms…

He looked down at me with a soft smile on his face that I've never seen before and I found myself drowning in his eyes… his pretty amber eyes… warm…

/I thought you were in love with Hotohori…/

I am… but…

And then, for no reason, the tears started streaming down my face.

/What *is* wrong with you, Nuri-chan?/

Maybe I've been pretending to be a girl too long.

"Hey, hey, Nuriko… don't cry," he soothed, brushing the tears away. "Nuriko, you don't seem all that great… Maybe you should just sit down or something…" he said leading me to the small, round table in the middle of the room.

I sat.

"He shouldn't have died," I whispered as he sat down next to me.

"No one should die like that."

"He was an annoying, pest of a kid… but still.." I said, shuddering. In response, he brought me close to his chest and held me there. The warmth of his chest radiated though my shirt.

"Everything'll be alright in the in the end, though… hu?"

I nodded against his vibrant hair.

We sat there, for Suzaku knows how long, in quiet, tranquil silence until my soft laugh broke the silence.

"What?"

I smiled and pulled away a bit "… I just realized that in the past half hour, you haven't said a single curse word."

He blushed, smirking. "Yeah, well, you kinda do that to me…" he mumbled.

"Hm?"

"Uh… well…"

He sighed softly. And then his strong face cringed, and he looked away.

"Nuriko… you see… the thing is… that… I… I…"

"What?"

His amber eyes met mine again, and they were soft with hurt and… something else… He swallowed evenly and hesitantly touched my face. He sighed.

"Nevermind."

I felt myself blinking several times.

"No, really… What's wrong?" I laughed.

He was silent. Silent for a long, long time. He turned his head away and it bowed down, hiding his features.

Then he turned back. "… I want you," he finally said, bringing his sad, unsure face close to mine so that our foreheads touched.

My eyes widened in horror? Surprise? Shock?

He swallowed again, almost painfully, and now the eyes were wet. I'd never seen him like this.

"Aww, fuck…" he sighed.

I started to speak, ask what he meant, but all I got out was a "Tas--" before he leaned over and covered my surprised lips with his fiery ones.

I stiffened in shock at the initial burn of the scathing lips, but after a few warm, soft moments, I could feel my body melt and meld against his.

It felt so good, so hot. I dug my fingers into his fiery orange hair and branded my lips hard on his.

He has soft, silky hair… I would have never have guessed that from a bandit.

I felt his lips part to take my tongue into his hot, wet mouth and then use his own tongue to stroke mine. I moaned in his mouth and I could feel him smile and pull me closer.

I felt the new mouth, excitedly, wanting to touch everything, feel everything and explore the hidden, warm crevices. Then I felt him move to touch me the same way, and I shuddered. His tongue was roaming all over my mouth, over my teeth, up to the roof…

After a blissful eternity, we broke away, needing to breathe.

He continued though, as I gasped for cooling air, moving up my chin to play with my ear. He bit it gently, burning it with his teeth, and then swathed his cooling tongue to heal the wounds. I could feel his heated breath lick like flames against my skin.

"Nuriko…"

I couldn't help but have a fuzzy warm smile of pleasure on my face as he retreated from my ear to kiss my face again, traveling across it lightly and gently. Then he moved to kiss the small mole near my left eye, and it made me laugh softly.

He got up from his hard, wooden chair and pulled me up with him. My legs were wobbly from the heat and leaned on him for support.

/Why did he stop?/

He brushed his hand across my cheek and I looked up at him.

He was smiling, softly, sadly, guiltily?-- and one of his cute little fangs flashed from between his lips-like he didn't know what to do next. Like he was holding something back…

Finally, he let out a deep sigh.

"Gomen, Nuriko… I… I know you don't need this right now…" then he drew me up close and in a soft, soft voice, "… but I've wanted you for a long time. I like you. A lot."

"I… I like you a lot too, Tasuki," I replied, in a hushed voice. /You're always there for me/

"Really?"

"Yes."

"But… aren't… you angry at me… for kissing you like that?"

I blushed in the slight darkness and remembered the kiss we shared, just moments ago. "Actually, it wasn't that bad," I said.

He laughed at that. "Baka!" The moonlight was shining brightly through the paper windows and I could see him pause, and then hesitantly, he smiled. "Then you won't mind if I do it again, hm?"

"Wa- mmph…"

His lips came down again and that warm feeling returned. Mmmm… It came even stronger this time. In that moment, I forgot all about that little kid falling into the water and how he had betrayed and made us miserable, how we had horribly screwed up the ceremony, how we'd have to hurry to collect that Shinzahao to save Konan from total destruction… and it was just… warm.

I felt Tasuki nibble at my lip, the sensation new and exciting. It tingled and burned for more. Then his tongue slipped out to trace the line my mouth made. My eyes slid shut, only feeling that warm feeling. Everything slipped out of my mind except for him touching me.

His hands wrapped around my back tighter and I automatically did the same. Then massaging my back, he kissed me deeply in the mouth and I just melted against him. His tongue touched every bit of my mouth and it caught me totally off guard when he started to move. I nearly tripped on my own feet, but he caught me and smiled.

My mind stopped.

It must have shown on my face, because he laughed and returned to kiss me again. The kisses traced down my face and then I could feel him nibbling at my neck. I shivered in his strong arms.

Absently, I realized we had moved toward his bed and I felt the soft mattress fall upon my back. I opened my eyes to see him, floating above me. I never realized how big he was.

But it wasn't scary. In fact, it was comforting.

He cared for me and wouldn't hurt me. I trusted him.

"Nuriko… you're so beautiful," he whispered softly as he descended and sucked on my neck. I felt his warm hand undo the sash around my waist and slip underneath my shirt. The hand slid its way up to play among the muscles there. I squirmed under his touch, but it felt so good. Then the hands opened the long shirt, and pulled it away [2].

I could hear the cloth make a soft noise as it hit the floor, despite my heavy breathing. He paused, straddling my hips, content to look on me.

I felt a blush creep up my face. Though I don't know if it was visible. The moon was the only light and shone softly though the windows. The only other illumination was from the glowing symbols-- on my chest and on his forearm. When they had started glowing, I had no idea.

Then he leaned in, soft smile on his face and--

And I realized that he was aroused. Very much so.

And so was I.

My breaths became shallow, and I could have sworn my eyes turned into saucers. I didn't understand--- aside from the fact of the kisses Tasuki was placing on my chest was making it even harder to concentrate. I had though that the only man that could make me feel like this was the Emperor---

/Had./

Tasuki brushed his lips over the 'willow' character on my chest and I felt myself arching up against them.

"Nuriko…" I heard him whisper as his lips descended at the junction between my neck and shoulder. And I can't deny it-- it felt *good*, but absently I thought something what went along the lines of /I'm going to have to wear something with a close collar tomorrow…/ as he sucked gently at the flesh there… then harder, adding his teeth to the mix…

I couldn't breathe. I didn't want to, for fear that the sensation would lessen.

He kept his lips on my neck, as if he were attached to it somehow, but I felt him moving.

And then… Oh, Suzaku, then…

I felt the cloth around my legs clear away, the air rushing all around.

"Tasuki??"

"Shh… Nuriko… It's ok," he whispered. Then he bent down to kiss me on the lips.

I moaned in his mouth as his erection touched mine and then I felt a heated, callused thumb run down my chest, my stomach… all the way down until his slender fingers brushed past the strands on hair surrounding…

I gasped and shivers ran all around my body as he grasped me.

"Tasuki!" I cried and the pressure around me moved up and down, faster and faster. Gods, I could feel the pure pleasure pool there… slowly at first, but then it built and built… until… it stopped.

I moaned at the loss. It was so close, I could feel it…

"Hey, Nuri-chan… don't worry… it gets better," I heard Tasuki whisper in my ear casually, his breath coming out in short pants, hot on my earlobe. Then he nibbled on my ear as he took a long, rough finger and pressed it gently against my tight opening.

/What was he doing?!/

I squeezed my eyes shut because of the pain- though I've felt worse… But this was different… it felt good too…

The finger went deeper and deeper until it brushed---

And I felt my world implode on itself as I let out a cry in pleasure and gripped at the edges of the bed. I think I made dents in the wood frame of the bed…

Tasuki gently coaxed it until he was able to had another finger… and another… Better… Feels so good… Massaging…

And then he slid his fingers out, slowly… but when they were gone, I felt lonely… empty… even worse than when I was before the kiss… before him holding me…

"… Ta--Tasuki…," I heard my voice whimper pathetically.

"Shhh… It's all right."

"Tasuki… why… what?" I stammered in coherently.

Then I felt him press up against me and I gaped for breath. Then he bent down a kissed my lips gently. So gently.

His rough fingertips pushed my legs apart slowly as he continued kissing me. Then he moved.

Slowly going deeper and deeper until he was fully inside of me and I couldn't breathe.

It was tight.

It hurt.

But then he started to pull out slowly, then back in, and it felt more good than hurt.

"Nuriko…" he murmured into my lips, nibbling them.

He continued rocking back and forth into me. I was lost.

Then a hand wrapped itself around me, and began stroking. My mind left with every thrust and every touch he gave me. I was burning. Floating. Falling. Flying.

It was over in moments, it seemed. He choked out a scream and exploded within me.

I was panting for breath, eyes wide.

And then I came, my fingers clamping down on the wooden bed frame, splinters of wood breaking off…

The last thing I thought was /I'm not a virgin. The emperor's concubines must be virgins/.

And the last thing I felt were tears drip from my eyes as everything faded to black.

Owari--- part 1

(Finished Friday, February 6, 2003; 3:50 AM… finally.)

Notes

[1]: In the manga, Yu Watase just shows Tamahome holding back Miaka as Amiboshi falls into the river… let's just pretend Nuriko was there also, ok? ^-^``` Ok ok… but… at least he *heard* what happened… you know?

[2]: Hmm… I don't really know what to call it… Is it a shirt? It's sort of like a robe thingy tied in the middle with a sash… and FROGS! LOL! Frogs are the little cloth button things that Chinese people have one their clothes. (o__O` I was rather obsessed and wanted to make it at one point… studied it very much… -___-```)