Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Gojyo's diary ❯ Chapter 1

Gojyo's diary

I got this diary from Hakkai today. He told me it was good for me to write down ny feelings. It would make it easier for me to deal with my past, he said. Ch, I better get him a diary too. If anyone needs help to deal with his past it's him. Come to think of it, I better get Sanzo a diary too. And Goku. Hell, we all carry our wounds from the past. What a pitiful team we are!

Anyway, I am sitting here while the others are sound asleep. Writing obediantly to 'get my feelings on print' as Hakkai so charmingly put it.

I wonder what Hakkai would write in a diary? I'll bet he would write something like this: 'This night I spent with my lovely red-haired half-youkai. He's sooo good. I love him so much.'

Heheh. Well, maybe not. Even if it was true he had spent the night with me. It often is true. And I think he is sooo good. And I love him so much. See, I'm so obediant. Writing about my feelings, just like Hakkai said.

But maybe Hakkai would say something about my red hair. How it reminds him of blood. I wouldn't mind. He's the only one I don't mind doing that.

Sanzo then, what would he write? 'This night I spent with my lovely red-haired half-youkai. He's sooo good. I love him so much.'

Naah, Sanzo would never write that. And it would certainly not be true. Sigh. Not yet anyway. But I haven't given up hope. Not that I love him or anything, but I desire him. Like I desire all these girls I pick up for one-night stands. But with Sanzo I'd hope it would be many nights. Yum, yum. Geez. What the hell am I thinking, I haven't laid him once yet. But he sure makes my pulse go speeding. I wonder what Hakkai would think if I did get Sanzo in my bed? Hmm, probably nothing. I suspect Hakkai knows more about Sanzo's beautiful body than I do.

What would Goku write? Nothing about lovely red-haired half-youkais, I'm pretty sure about that. Even if I can see that his eyes recently has started to trace Sanzo's body from face to groin. Guess, he's growing up that bakasaru. I wonder if Sanzo has noticed. Who can tell what that damned monk sees or not? He only lets us know if he thinks it's necessary, or fun to tell us. His kind of fun that is.

When I go to bed I better hide this diary from the others. I'm sure everyone of them would love to see what that perverted kappa - that's me! - is writing. Even Hakkai. He can be so sneaky my green eyed lover. Behind that smile is a man so full of different emotions, feelings, wantings and needs, that I haven't figured out half of it yet. He can be hurting behind a smile. Or joking behind a straight face. You'll never know when it comes to Hakkai. He is mysterious. Even in bed. He can do things with me... wow, it's all I can say.

Nng... the thoughts of what Hakkai can do makes it tight in my pants. Maybe I'll stop writing this stupid diary and go see if Hakkai is awake. If he's not, I might just wake him up...

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Well, let's see. What feelings will I write about today? I'll just write the first things that comes to my mind. Oh, surprise, it's Hakkai! Geez, who would have thought that?

Mmm, Hakkai... A beautiful face on a beautiful body. And those green eyes, giving me looks I can't resist. His smile, I know exactly if he fakes it or if it's real or when it means "I want you".

I remember the first time I saw him, or Cho Gonou as his name was then. He lay in the rain, bleeding to death and I was in love. Silly, me. I picked him up, took him home and took care of him after my abilities. I even prayed he would survive. When the doctor had assured me he would live, I felt much better.

Every night before I got to bed I stood looking at him a couple of minutes, or more. I wondered so why I wanted him so much. Hell, I had never been with a man before, and yet he made my little Gojyo awaken. I didn't even try to get a girl those nights. I just longed for him.

When he woke up and I could see his eyes too, I barely could hold myself from jumping him every time I saw him. I wanted to bounce him all night, but of course I didn't do anything. Rape has never been a turn on for me.

After all that happened and he came to live with me as Cho Hakkai, I thought I was going crazy of pure joy. I had big plans on what I would do to make him love me and wanting me. Hmph, never try to plan anything including Hakkai while forgetting to include him when you make your plans. Things didn't turn out the way I had planned. I never seduced him, he seduced me. Oh, my Hakkai, I really love you. But I was sore after that night, I can tell.

Today was a busy day. We had two big fights with youkai trying to kill us, and Hakuryuu got a flat tire so we had to walk all the way to the nearest town. When we get to it there was no available rooms so we still had to make camp outside. Often I don't like that because it's more difficult to have privacy around a camp fire, but this night we're in a forest. So when Hakkai asked me if I wanted to go for a walk I gladly accepted.

I could see in his eyes he wanted me, and I wanted him so much. When we had come far enough away from the monk and the monkey, we stopped. Hakkai turned to me folding his arms around my neck and kissed me. I recognized that kiss. It was the kiss that said, it's your turn to be on the top. I love that kiss, and Hakkai knows it but sometimes he takes the top anyway, and when he has decided to do so, you have absolutely nothing to say in that matter. Hehe, not that I mind that. Both ways gives pleasure.

I laid my hands on his waist, and kissed him back. Our tounges played and I sucked on it and felt Hakkai's eager to continue. My hands found their way under his shirt and I stroke his back, down his spine. We let go of the kiss and helped each other out of our clothing. I lay down and dragged Hakkai with me. I kissed his neck, bit in his earlobes and caressed his chest and stomach, not touching what he wanted me to touch, not yet. Hakkai moaned and tried to wriggle to make me touch him everywhere. But he had to be more patient.

My lips went from his neck to his face, kissing every inch of it, getting down to the chest. I licked his nipples, at the same time stroking his stomach in circular movements. His nipples went hard and I sucked them while I also could feel his penis getting erected over his stomach. I was quite hard too, but I didn't want this to end too soon. Instead I let my fingers gently caress his little Hakkai, while big Hakkai moaned and arched his back to make my fingers give him more friction. For a little while I teased him some more, then I took it in my mouth and licked on its tip. Hakkai gasped, I love those noises he makes when we have sex. I variated my actions with putting his whole erection down my throat with those small lickings. I could tell Hakkai was close to come so I stopped. That made Hakkai groan and begging me to continue. I decided I could do it a little more but carefully, I didn't want him to come yet. I gave him my fingers to suck and he did so while I suck his cock.

By then, I couldn't stand it myself so I stopped the sucking, found a little bottle with lube in my pocket and used it on Hakkai's opening. He willingly opened up his thighs to let me have free way. I laid his legs on my shoulders and entered him. Oh, such pleasure, we both gasped and moaned. With one of my hands I gave his penis a little extra attention, and it payed off. We both exploded in a mutual orgasm that was beyond words.

After we lay in each other arms kissing and caressing. Hakkai had snuggled up with his face against my neck and I stroke his hair. Those moments after sex are lovely too. They are never that good with a girl, maybe because with Hakkai it's more than just desire. I really love him. Heh, guess I have said that already. Well, if I'm to write down my feelings and it comes to Hakkai, I can't say that enough. I love him, I love him, I love him.

Guess it's time for bed again. Maybe I can snuggle up in Hakkai's arms for a while. I think Sanzo and Goku are asleep but you can never be sure. What the hell, I doubt they'll be shocked if they saw us. Well, not Sanzo anyway, for a monk he's quite tolerant, even if he likes us to think he's not.

So, now I've written down my feelings for Hakkai. I hope this will make Hakkai happy. But I don't think I let him read it. I'll just tell him I wrote about him and let him wonder. If he looks sad when I tell him I'll kiss him, if he looks happy... I'll kiss him anyway.

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