Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Saiyuki Outside ❯ Part 2, Chapter 15: Torn Between Love and Mission ( Chapter 7 )

Chapter 15: Torn between Mission and Love

Shyirin approached Hikari in the stables. She was hoping for some forgiveness from her. Hikari was grooming her dark Arabian horse, up to down. Hikari looked a bit demented. She had not been seen for at least 3 months. Her hair was a misplaced work of art, she seemed a little grubby and she was singing to herself like no one's listening.

"Excuse me…"

"What do you want? Oh, it's you… I've tried to protect him from you… looks like the worse can't be evaded…" Hikari sneered.

Shyirin looked puzzled and replied, "What do you mean? What's protecting Sanzo away from me all about?"

Hikari laughed and pointed her finger at Shyirin, "You must tell everyone that I have gone demented and lost in the forest."

Shyirin nodded at her strange request.

"Remember that you were ordered to bring down the Godhuntress? Right, but there was something else that they mentioned about the portal that brings both worlds together and destroying it. That thing is your beloved Genjo Sanzo. He is the cause of all portals opening and your other mission was to destroy him."

Shyirin stepped back. Her heart stopped a while.

"Is it true?"

"Yes, indeed…" said a familiar voice.

It was Kanzeon Bosatsu.

"You're lying, right? Please tell me this is just a joke!"

"I'm not. I'm sorry. It was in your mission as well." she replied grimly.

"NO WAY! YOU'RE LYING TO ME!"

"Shyirin, we are gods under the power of the Heavens and we have to respect their orders. The safety of the world is our main priority. I'm sorry."

Shyirin fell to her knees as soon as she heard those words. Tears fell from her diamond eyes.

"Don't you have any feelings? Was he not your nephew?!"

Kanzeon Bosatsu looked grim and coolly replied,

"My nephew died a long time ago. I'm a Goddess and I'm not allowed to let my feelings get in the way of our mission. That goes the same for you, too. I'm sorry because that is what you're here for. We'll give you time to think about it but please, if matters get worse, we'll kill him ourselves. For the sake of the world, please think about it."

Shyirin got up with her head down and replied, "I understand but please give me time…"

She wiped her tears and ran as fast as her legs could carry her back to her room. Kanzeon Bosatsu shook her head and disappeared without a trace. Hikari looked around and began singing her demented song again, which became a haunted voice, echoing the halls.

In the room, Shyirin held her pillow tight and spilled her tears onto the pillow. Must it be like this? Does anybody care about here feelings? Just then, Sanzo entered the room and saw Shyirin was crying. Upset… he thought as he removed his robe. He put her arms around her and she began sobbing continuously on his black shirt. Shyirin calmed down a little and pushed herself tighter to Sanzo.

"What's wrong now?" Sanzo enquired softly.

"… I just had a bad dream about killing you and saving the world but I led my life into an unhappy one. I just can't imagine life without you, Sanzo!"

Shyirin rubbed her head against his warm chest. Sanzo sighed and replied,

"Shyirin, this is just a bad dream. I'll be with you, no matter what. You can believe me in what I say."

Sanzo put his head on Shyirin and said,

"I had a dream too. Only that it was just one of my many fantasies. I dreamt of making love to you many times… but I realize this kind of fantasy will not come true…"

"How `bout I give it to you right now?" Shyirin asked.

Shyirin wiped her tears and leaned Sanzo back, shushed him and planted a deep kiss onto his lips. Then, their motion began wilder and wilder. Shyirin felt her heart soar and her hunger was barely enough. The kiss was demanding each time and Sanzo can't help but give in to the power. As the temperature rose, the thirst for each other grew stronger. Both of them could barely breathe and the dream seemed completely real. But the moment collapsed.

"STOP!" Sanzo cried out.

Shyirin pushed her hair back and stopped in motion.

"Look, Shyirin, I shouldn't have told you that. I know I want to but the feeling inside was wrong. I had no intuition of letting you down but… I guess this just isn't the right time."

Shyirin began to cry and replied, "I thought that now would make me powerless. I would've lost my god powers, the only burden for me now. I respect that decision, Sanzo. I thought that that was the only solution I had to release my pain now… I'm sorry, Sanzo… just leave me alone and I'll be fine… somehow…"

Sanzo put her hand on his heart.

"I honestly love you, Shyirin… I'm sorry I can't fulfill your wishes…" he replied softly.

Shyirin cried softly as Sanzo left the room. She put her hand on her forehead.

"I'm so sorry, Sanzo…"

The next day, Shyirin looked frail and broken apart. Her face was pale and her eyes were damp still. She still can't get over the fact that Sanzo must die.

"I wish I wasn't here. I wish I never existed."

Shyirin saw Sanzo coming and turned away. She got up slowly and walked away. Sanzo caught up and held her soft hand.

"Shyirin… is it because of yesterday?"

Shyirin shook her head.

"I was wrong. Sanzo, I want you to do me a favor."

"Look, Shyirin, I didn't mean to turn you down. I…"

Shyirin turned around and smiled thinly.

"Sanzo, I want you to forget about me."

Sanzo stopped at her sentences.

"What-"

"Sanzo, this is the only thing I begging you to do for me. Please, for your own sake, try to forget whatever we shared together. I'm sorry, but if you continue to love me, your life will be in danger because of me. Sanzo, I'm just so sorry."

Suddenly, Shyirin saw something went across and hit her face. Sanzo slapped Shyirin hard. The blow felt like a smash to the skull.

"What are you saying? After all we've been through, you finally decided to leave and asking me to forget everything? Shyirin, what are you trying to hide from me? Tell me!"

"I'm forced to kill you!"

Those words stopped Sanzo back a while. The atmosphere became still. Shyirin began crying once again and Sanzo felt a little guilty. She continued,

"My new mission was to kill you… I didn't want to… I love you, Sanzo but I don't want to kill you! Why can't you understand? All I'm asking is for you to forget me and everything will be over. I would rather kill myself than to kill you with my own hands! Please forgive me…"

Shyirin continued sobbing and tried to turn away but Sanzo couldn't let her go.

"So, this is what you wanted… I told you, I'll be with you always…Even if I die because of you, I will still be with you…"

Shyirin fell into Sanzo's arms, hoping for his forgiveness. Sanzo put his hand on her brunette head. Shyirin's heart throbbed in pain for a moment and she clutched it hard. She couldn't breathe for a moment and her sight grew dim. Shyirin fainted on the cool floor.

"Shyirin!?"

He put his hand on her head. Hot… he thought. Sanzo brought Shyirin to the room after she fainted in the middle of the doorway. Shyirin began sweating continuously. Li Shi commented,

"Shyirin is sick… I don't know the reason but this is nothing my powers are capable of…" Hakkai looked closer. Shyirin seemed to be…changing her skin.

"Li Shi, stand back. Stand away from her now."

"Why?" Mei Shi enquired.

Goku's pork bun was snatched away from Hakkai.

"Watch!" he said as he placed the pork bun on top of Shyirin's body.

The pork bun dissolved like ice thrown in lava. There was yellow smoke flowing out. "Hold your breath people! It's some kind of poisonous smoke mixed with sulfur!"

Everybody stood down and held their breath. Hakkai quickly opened the door to let the air out of the room. When the air was gone, everybody took a deep breath.

"What was that?"

"That was a symptom from the Yellow Willow Seed Effect. Someone must've been feeding yellow sulfur to the willow seeds mixed with a chemical I can't explain myself but all I know is that anyone who touches it or smelt the gas will most likely… die."

Li Shi eyed at Shyirin for a while.

"Then, why is her skin peeling off?"

"That's because something or someone must've placed it on her while she wasn't looking. The skin will be attacked first, soon the flesh, and the organs and then, it's time for a visit to Hell."

Shyirin let out a cry of pain and screamed loud.

"No, Sanzo! Don't touch her! You'll be infected as well!"

"I don't care what happens! All I know that she's in pain and that I must help her!"

Hakkai pushed Sanzo aside.

"Sanzo, don't you care what happens to yourself?!"

Sanzo snarled back, "Leave me alone!"

Sanzo went over and touched Shyirin's forehead.

"Sanzo!"

Shyirin was in Sanzo's arms. Miraculously, Sanzo didn't get burnt. Shyirin looked too thin, too frail, and too sick that no one could recognize her face anymore. Sanzo walked out of the room with Shyirin in his arms, slowly, carefully not to drop the girl he loved. Shyirin now looked deformed. Her skin turned scaly, her hair kept changing color from normal to bright neon. Sanzo called out,

"Godhuntress, what do you want? Show yourself, you coward! Or shall I call you by your real name…Li Qien Ping!"

Everyone looked surprised by Sanzo's words. Li Qien Ping, the Godhuntress? This was all too shocking. Then, there was a faint clap. The Godhuntress jumped down in her dark cloak and shook her silvery white hair.

"So, Genjo Sanzo, you found out… how clever of you. Does that girl mean more to you in the world even if she was going to kill you?"

"Yes, I'd rather die than see her suffer like this…"

"Even more than Komyo Sanzo?" she asked maliciously with a hiss at the back of her words, shaking the antidote in her hand.

Sanzo looked down and gazed at Shyirin's face.

Time was running out.

"Long ago, I wanted something who no longer in need of my protection. After Master Komyo Sanzo passed away, I knew that I only had hands to take care of myself. But now… it's different… there is still someone that needs my protection."

"Hahaha! How touching… Yet, do you think I'll let her off that easily? You've got to be kidding! You'll have to make me!" she laughed out.

Sanzo looked at Goku, turned to her and said,

"Free Shyirin before I start to get serious."

Qien Ping laughed again. This was Sanzo's only chance. He threw Shyirin in the air, punched Qien Ping in the stomach and snatched the antidote while Goku caught Shyirin in time.

"Why, you--!"

"Didn't think you had the chance to think about it!" he said as he held the antidote in his palm. Qien Ping coughed out,

"I'll be back!" and fled off like a thief in the night.

Sanzo poured the antidote into Shyirin's mouth and watched the medicine work its way. Within a second, Shyirin returned to her normal color and gasped for air. Sanzo grinned and carried Shyirin back to his room.

"Sanzo's one heck of a guy," Li Shi commented.

Hakkai laughed and replied,

"Agreed."