Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ The longing of two souls ❯ Tomorrow, be kind ( Chapter 6 )

Tomorrow, be kind: Chapter 6

The next morning,

Sanzo woke up to find himself alone. Where is that coward? What am I to him? A whore to be left behind just like that?

"I'm a Sanzo for gods sake!"

"Yeah, We know that!" Goku answered him while munching on his bun.

"Ne, Sanzo is it very hot last night? Is that why are you naked?"

"Urusei!"

"Demo, Sanzo."

SLAM! He used the door to shut him and his interfering questions.

"Woah! He was so scary!" Goku said to Hakkai. Suddenly, he realized that "Hey, I 'm alive! Still alive!" He said touching his chest unbelievingly.

(Hakkai)

Alive to tell the tale, huh? I, on the other hand will probably not be so lucky. Well, it's been nice knowing all of you. At least he can kill me quickly, just one shot to my heart.

Then Sanzo, the thundercloud came into the restaurant. At the sight of his face, everyone fell silent. His eyes caught hold of mine, burning with purple flame. With the sound of every step he took, I felt my blood ran cold.

"Hakkai, I have something to say to you." With that he turned around and walked out of the restaurant.

I'm so dead. "Hai." Well at least I get to die in his arms. I forced down the laughter, really Hakkai this is no time to laugh. Talk your way out of this. By the time I face him I have composed myself.

"Don't look at me like that." His annoyance evident on his face.

"Like what, Sanzo?"

"Don't play dumb with me. I'm talking about that stupid smile on your face. There's nothing funny about this! I had enough of your fake expressions!"

"All right, let's be honest with each other then. Do you love me? Did last night meant anything to you?"

(Sanzo)

No. Of course, it meant nothing more than satiation of our lust. But why can't I say it? Why can't I say it to his face?

"What? What did you said?"

"I said I love Genjo Sanzo and last night meant so much to me that I want more than just one night with you. I wanted to wake up to find you in my arms every morning." He looked down at the floor.

"I was too scared. So I just ran. I can't face the reality of the morning. I 'm afraid of getting hurt again. So please, if you have something to say that would hurt me don't say it. I can't stand it." His eyes met his, pleading for his understanding.

(Sanzo)

I'm like him. Too afraid of reaching out for love yet wanting it, afraid of hurting. We don't want to go back to the time when we knew we let our loved ones down by letting them die.

When every beat of your heart, every breath you take reminds you that you are alive because they are dead; that you are the one who killed them with your incompetence, your utter failure of protecting them.

The endless what ifs your mind thought up to torture you. The endless days and bleak nights that stretches throughout eternity, robbing you of your hopes and will to live.

You can't hope for anything when you, yourself won't let you forget. Much more forgive.

Not even in your dreams would you find solitude for if it's a sweet dream, you will be reminded of all that you have lost.

If it's the nightmare, you'll relive the moment when you kill them with your helplessness. All you could do is just watch. Like the time it happened, over and over again.

You can't even scream out. Stop! I can't bear it. Please no more! Someone help me! The pain was relentless.

The darkness feels so constricting, choking you until you can't even breathe. Where is the light I need to chase away the darkness? I killed it with my own hands. Look, its covered with his blood.

"Sanzo!"

"Sanzo! Sanzo! Please!"

I opened my eyes and saw his worried eyes, felt the pressure of his desperate strength on my shoulders.

"You don't have to say anything! Just let me love you and stay by your side, onegai!" Hakkai cried.

"Hakkai."

I can't hold on. I need his gentleness to heal the wounds of my still bleeding heart.

(Hakkai)

I felt his lips on mine, kissing me with the desperation of a drowning man. I'm like him. Please don't leave me in the coldness of the darkness. Please don't turn me away from your warmth.

"Ahum! Err… your coffee is getting cold." Gojyo said. Then he left them, disappearing into the hotel.

(Gojyo)

Kuso! I'll kill you Sanzo if you hurt him, I swear!

My whole body is shaking with conviction of my silent promise. It took all of my self-control not to tear them apart especially that Monk.

It almost killed me to sound so casual. Can I stand this excruciating pain every time I thought about them together?

A tear? I never cried since that time.

(Flash back of his childhood.)

If only I die, then her tears would stop. But what I saw was more tears.

"Gojyo! What's going on? What did Hakkai did to make him so mad? Is he dead? Is that why you are crying?"

"Urusei! Baka saru! Who's crying! And no! The only one who is dead is you!"

"Ow! Don't kick me and run away, you erro kappa!" Goku cried out.

"Oi! Come back here and fight like a man!" Goku shouted at his retreating back.

Gojyo turned around, feeling all of his anger just boiling in his blood. Wanting to free it, lash out at him. "What do you know about being a man? You are just a monkey!"

"I know enough to know when are you hurting. You are hurting now." He replied quietly, looking at the floor.

Gojyo tried to make light of it by loosely draping his arm around Goku's shoulders " Hey, you're not in love with me, are you?"

"Who would love a red cockroach?!" He burst out and sock him one.

"Nani?! Why-you- little..." So began another fight between the red cockroach and the golden-eyed monkey.

This chapter is a lot shorter than the last one but whether it is long or short I hope you enjoyed it as much as I had writing it. So as usual reviews are much appreciated.