Gensomaden Saiyuki Fan Fiction ❯ Vignette ❯ Goku ( Chapter 1 )

Vignette: Goku

Fanfic: Saiyuki

Charac: Sanzo, Goku, Gojyo, and Hakkai

Parings: GokuxSanzo, slight HakkaixGojyo, GojyoxSanzo

Warnings: Yaoi Angst….

Goku looked behind toward the seemingly emotionless blond. He was looking around for the various items that needed to be replenished as the journey wore on. Goku smiled slightly as he saw the violet eyes flicker to glance at him. Sanzo seeing the smile looked away with a scowl.

No matter what Sanzo said about not buying him any food along the was, he'd gladly tag along anyway. Sanzo was a very great guy, after you get to know him. 'Also, He's very…beautiful,' Goku thought. He went forward to gather more perishables. As he turned back to place the armful, he saw that the blond was leaning over the counter top looking bored. Sanzo has gone to wearing just the skin-tight top and his pair of jeans for this trip. To some he may just be good looking, but to Goku… Sanzo was breathtakingly gorgeous, better than any meal that had satisfied his hunger. He could look at the violet-eyed, beautiful, fair-skinned, trigger-happy, handsome, sexy blonde forever.

"Oi, Chibi Saru. Are you done yet?" Sanzo asked all too aware that Goku had been staring at him. Goku gave him that sweet, endearing smile of his and nodded. "Let's go. We don't have all day." Sanzo looked away to pay. The golden-eyed teen could tell that Sanzo was uneasy. 'Partly because of my staring, I guess,' He thought.

Sanzo was indeed bothered a bit about it. "If only…" he thought aloud.

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Hakkai looked down from the window above. He knew the two were coming back, mainly because of the ruckus they were causing. Strangely, it was less than usual. Gojyo wasn't back yet from his nightly activities. Hakkai's heart fell as he thought about the redhead. 'No, mustn't think about him now. He'll come back soon, alone, I hope,' Hakkai thought.

He met the two downstairs and helped then bring the groceries up. It wasn't as if the two weren't capable of carrying the things, it was just a sign of politeness. No, actually he came down to see whether the redheaded flirt was back with them.

True enough, his hunch had been correct. The half-demon had arrived a few minutes after the two and the three being downstairs together wasn't making much of a racket as usual. Goku was whining less and Gojyo was not taunting Sanzo or Goku as much. Sanzo was keeping his gun at bay, keeping his end of the small treaty. All in all, it was strangely peaceful.

They stored the goods in Gojyo's room (Sanzo had booked four rooms this time) and they retired for the night. They were going far tomorrow hoping to reach the next village or town this week or next, and that was with interference.

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It was late into the night when Goku was awoken by the rumbling of his stomach. It was as per usual he took his midnight snack. He opened his personal store of food. Careful not to eat too much, he munched slowly as he went through the day's events. He was halfway through his daydreaming of his dear Sanzo when he heard a 'Thump!' and a protesting groan coming from across the hallway. Curious, he went to check.

It happened that Sanzo's room was just right across his. Gojyo had sneaked into his lover's room that night to 'relieve some nightly tensions' as he put it. Sanzo has nothing much to say about it. In fact there was nothing he could say as Gojyo intercepted his mouth in a lip-lock. They were soon deep into the tongue tango dance and were soon undressing each other. It was in that position that Goku found then to be in.

Sanzo had a look of bliss as Gojyo nuzzled his neck grunting his appreciation at appropriate times. The two lovers did not notice him in their moment of passion. Goku was peeking through the tiny slot of the door when Gojyo hadn't been careful enough to close it properly. Goku didn't say anything. No, not a peer of disgust or a gasp of shock nor was there a sob of sadness. He did not trust his voice in fear that it will betray him. He just closed the door tightly behind him, head bowed low in despair.

'Sanzo wasn't mine. He'll never be mine.' Goku thought sadly. 'He has Gojyo to be with him. He'd rather be with Gojyo…" The train of thought continued from there, following the same depressing thought. 'Bur I love him. Am I happy enough that he already has a lover? Do I ever love him enough just to see him happy, even if it is not with me' He walked slowly back to his room, As he laid his head on the pillow, his thought continued. "Yes, I am happy that he's happy," he said quietly to convince this himself. But he didn't notice, as he slept, two droplets of tears escaped from his eyes as kept pouring as he slept.

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Owari, ka?

21/4/2003

Scichan Hirameki