GetBackers Fan Fiction ❯ Anguish for the Lonely Series ❯ Tempted Hearts ( Chapter 1 )

The sky was a dark grey as it rained down heavy; I, Amano Ginji was walking down the street. People ran past me, even those with umbrellas were trying to get away from the rain…everyone but me. I just wanted to think, I didn't care if I was wet, if I got sick or even if I was knocked to the ground because someone was going to mug me. I wouldn't fight back, it's not like I have any money on me anyway. Ban-chan had all the money; he was in charge of that. Oh god how I feel like I want to hate that name at the moment but I can't. Midou Ban, the name that gives me pleasure to know but yet gives me pain at the same time. As I walk down the street I look up for the time that I have been walking around, the first thing that graces my eyes is Infinity Castle. How ironic that my feet would bring me here, to the place where I first met Ban. Yes I'll admit I, Ginji am in love with Midou Ban but what does it matter anyway he doesn't return those feelings I can tell you that now. As I look at Infinity Castle, I feel like I want to go back, to get away from here but I can't I'm not Raiten anymore, I wouldn't be wanted and besides I am now a Get Backers Retrieval agent. I turn away from the dark castle where I have lived most of my life, I might as well go back to The Honky Tonk, Kazuki; Juubei; Shido; Emishi; Hevn will be waiting for me, I doubt that Ban-chan and Himiko will be their the whole reason I am like this.

It started about a month ago, when I was coming back from a carnival that was in town…

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I walked into The Honky Tonk with my arms full of stuff toys and Kazu-chan following behind me with the rest of the toys that I couldn't carry. Kazu-chan had promised that he'd take me to the carnival because I had helped him out with trying to find away for Juubei-chan to get his eye sight back.

"BAN-CH…" The sight that my eyes saw was one that will probably be burnt into the back of my eyes forever was of Ban and Himiko kissing tenderly. "…an"

My voice turned from my usual happy voice to a barely hear able whisper. I remember the utter shock that I felt; it must have been on my face because everyone was just staring at me as my mouth hanged open. Ban turned to me as he heard his name, his purple glasses in place like always.

"Ginji, you didn't spend all of our money did you?"

I didn't answer, my mind was still trying to realise what was going on. I couldn't hear anything for those few moments.

"Ginji? Oi Ginji!"

I looked at a Ban-chan, my face confused.

"Ha? Did you say something Ban-chan?"

"Forget it just give me our money will you"

Ban sighed and I dropped all the toys I got when I hand him the small money purse that we keep our money in. He checked the purse and then looked at me strangely.

"Is something wrong Ban-chan?"

Ban looked at the money again and back at me, then at the toys.

"Why is their no money missing? There is extra money in here then there was before."

I smiled happily and pick up the toys and start handing them to everyone.

"I found some money on the ground on the way to the carnival"

"He found $50 to be exact, he took it to the police station but they said he could have it"

Kazuki sat on a stool at the bar next to Juubei who was drinking some form of herbal tea.

"You mean Ginji didn't spend everything on these toys?"

Kazuki just nodded. I skipped over to Ban-chan and stood just a few centimetres away from him then place a green snake stuff toy in front of him.

"I won it for you; see it even has a pair of glasses like you"

I showed Ban-chan the glasses that were in plain sight I thought it looked like you so I just had to win it before anyone else could get it. I could feel my cheeks slightly redden as I realised how close I was to Ban-chan. I placed the head of the stuffed toy on Ban's shoulder and wrapped the tail lightly around his neck but made sure it doesn't strangle him. Ban-chan just gave me this unimpressed look.

"What? You don't like it?"

I could feel the tears well up in my eyes as he didn't say anything.

"Y…you don't have to keep it if you don't like it. You could just throw it out."

I couldn't stand being in the café any longer, I had to leave. I ran out the door before the tears could escape my eyes.

"Ban-chan you meanie!"

No one ran after me, not that I really wanted anyone too.

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By the time I got back to the small apartment that Ban-chan and I were renting it was about 3:00am. I walked into the apartment and closed the door quietly. I started heading towards my room when I noticed Ban-chan was sleeping on the couch, his glasses were still firm on the bridge of his nose which meant that he fell asleep waiting for him. The thing that caught my attention the most was that he still had the stuffed snake wrapped around his neck. I couldn't help but giggle a bit. I then noticed that Ban-chan was shivering as he slept, `he must be cold' I told myself as I went and got him a blanket. Returning with the blanket I lightly placed it on him but as I was about to cover his arms his eyes shot open and he grabbed my wrist.

"Ban-chan! Don't scare me lie that! I thought you were asleep"

He didn't let go of my wrist and I felt weird as he eyes pierced mine but I knew he wouldn't use his evil eye on me…well I hoped. I tried to pull my wrist away but he wouldn't let go.

"Ban-chan let go you're hurting me"

He still didn't let go and it seemed like he wouldn't. I didn't want to use my electricity against him; I promised myself that I wouldn't.

"Ban-chan let go! Please you're hurting me."

His grip got stronger and stronger on my wrist. I couldn't take it anymore; I just dropped to the floor, my knees pressed to my chest as he continued to hold my wrist.

"What has been with you today?"

The question was so simple but yet I could not answer it. I felt him let go of my wrist as I sobbed, my head resting on my knees.

"Answer me Ginji! It's 3am and you have only got home. Where have you been all day? Why have you been all weird?"

I still didn't answer, I continued to cry. I didn't even look at him. How could I tell him that I was crying because I loved him and that he was now with Himiko. What was I meant to say, `oh hi Ban-chan did you know I have had the biggest crush on you ever since we practically met. I think it's actually love that I feel for you.' How do you say that? And besides he was happy now and I'd have to deal with that. I felt Ban-chan place his arm on my shoulder and hug me. It felt nice but I couldn't take it, I charged up the electricity in my body and sparks flew out of my body. Ban-chan pulled away and I quickly got up and ran to my room. I sat on the bed crying until I eventually lied down and fell asleep.

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I woke up the next morning, my eyes sore and feeling like they had been glued closed making it hard for me to open them. I walked into the bathroom glad that both bedrooms had doors to enter the bathroom because I didn't think I could face Ban while I was in the state that I was. I locked the doors went to the toilet and turned the shower. I stripped off my clothes and stood in the nude as I tested the showers temperature to make sure that I didn't burn myself. I stepped under the warm water, my hair got heavier as it got wet. I just let the water run free down back as I remembered about the dream I had that night. It was the same as always, Ban-chan on top of me, slowly kissing me the kisses sweet and passionate but I could feel him feel him easing in and out of me in a slow but comfortable speed. Ban-chan was so nice and sweet, not his usual rough and deceiving self. We both hitting our climax close together but him reaching his first, but his climax quiet as he grunts trying to keep it quiet as I reach mine as well but my need to scream out forced back in my throat as if it is forbidden for anyone else to hear.

The dream is the same, with the same result; I lose realisation of where I am when I think about the dream and I can't help but lose it which means back to the daily job of scrubbing the shower after I'm done. I wash my hair and my body and enjoy the warm water until it shows sighs of going cold meaning my queue to get out so the remanding hot water can be used to clean the shower of my…mess. After the cleaning is done I walk out of the bathroom, towel wrapped around my waist, my dirty clothes dumped in the bathroom clothes basket. I went through my drawers and pulled out clean clothing. I noticed that in drawer that my pants are kept in there was the smaller version of Ban-chan's snake and the little yellow, green vested bear I got were in my drawer. I smiled faintly and closed the draw, I hadn't needed that sight at that moment but I just brushed it off. Fully dressed I walked into the kitchen and got a cup of coffee since I wasn't in the mood to eat. I sat down at the table; Ban-chan sat there a piece of toast hanging out of his mouth as he looked at me.

"What was with you yesterday?"

"Nothing"

"Why'd you take off?"

"For no reason"

"Bullshit!"

I got up from my chair and placed my cup in the sink, I had drunk my coffee without even realising it. I walked to the door and put my shoes on.

"I'll be a bit late getting to The Honky Tonk"

"Where are you going?"

"To think"

The door closed behind, had Ban said anything else I wouldn't have known.

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I arrived at The Honky Tonk around 10:30; I opened the door and ran over to Ban-chan all happy despite how I felt.

"Ban-chan!"

I threw my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. As usually he tried to pry me off and I turned into my small and adorable form and I sat on his head…that was until Himiko showed up. She kissed and hugged Ban-chan and all I felt like doing was hitting her or even electrocuting her but I knew if I did it'd be a waste of time me acting against how I felt. Ban-chan never asked me what had been up with me for the rest of the time so I figured he had forgotten.

I returned to normal as far as Ban-chan could tell, I did on the occasionally accidentally let a few sparks appear when Himiko kissed or hugged Ban-chan too much.

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So here I am now drowning in my own misery, as I walk I wonder if it is just a physical attraction towards Ban-chan or if it is real. I think it's real because I get angry when he doesn't come home at nights and when he comes home the next day or when we wait for customers all I can smell on him is `her' scent and I hate it. I arrive back at The Honky Tonk I walk in slowly and came back to find Ban-chan once again having a mild make out session at the back of the café. I automatically turn the other way and leave again. I run back out into the rain, I don't care how sick I get but I can't be around them no more. I can faintly hear voices calling out to me and people those voices belong to call out to me. I stop, my face pointing down to the ground as I cry once again.

"Ginji! Oi Ginji."

I feel Ban-chan place his hand on my shoulder. I don't move an inch, I can hear Kazuki and Shido behind Ban about 4 metres.

"Ginji talk to me you have been like this for about a month now. It's kind of starting to piss me off"

"Fine let it piss you off."

My voice is hardly auditable that Ban-chan couldn't even hear it

"What you say?"

"I said Fine let it piss you off! It just might make up for all the crap I'm going through."

I dare not do this in the past but I can't control myself. I turn towards Ban-chan, grab his shirt and suddenly kiss him. It was only for a few seconds because the next thing I know is that I am running away from a shocked Midou Ban and Kazuki and Shido are calling out but they aren't coming after me. I run until I can't run no more and not turning back even once.

To be continued...

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Well what can I say…okay I feel really sorry for Gin-chan *pouts* I'm in the middle of writing the 2nd chapter now but I also have other people on my back about getting my 2nd chapter of my Naruto story. Well please review, your reviews keep this sad writer going.

Anguish for the Lonely: Tempted Hearts

Page 4 of 4 Author: Mitsuki Nakazato