Gravitation Fan Fiction ❯ I Need You ❯ Chapter 3 ( Chapter 3 )

I Need You

By: Lily (Lena) Evans

Summary: With his divorce underway, Tohma is kicked out of his house and has to stay with a friend, namely Ryuichi. During his visit there he slowly begins to realize things about himself that he had never known before.

Pairings (for now): Tohma/Ryuichi. Maybe others… later…

Rating: PG-13 (may go up or down, depending on if I change my plan)

Genre: Romance

Warnings: Yaoi (duh), most likely OOC-ness … that is all… for now.

Disclaimer: Gravitation is not mine. Note the word fanfic.

A/N: More romance in this chapter. I do not know what probed me to write the first couple scenes, but it was late at night (as it always is when I write my fics). BTW, I do not write lemons. Never have, and I do not think I ever will. Sorry to all the fans of lemons. Not my style. Anywho… Enjoy! Read and Review!

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[I need you]

"No, To-chan," Ryuichi said, pushing the taller man away. "No."

"Ryuichi," Tohma moaned.

"No," Ryuichi repeated. "You need to sleep. Goodnight."

"Ryuichi…" Tohma said again, almost pleading with him. No, that was silly, Tohma never pleaded with anybody.

"Goodnight," Ryuichi said again.

"I love you…" It was almost a whisper. Ryuichi was not sure he heard it.

"What?" he asked, clutching Kumagoro to him again.

"I love you," Tohma said. He looked almost sober. Ryuichi shook his head, letting the thought escape him.

"Goodnight, To-chan," Ryuichi said. He left Tohma alone, expecting him to sleep. Ryuichi himself, however, could not sleep. Were those not the words that he had always wanted Tohma to say to him? But he was drunk; it did not matter to him. Ryuichi curled up into a ball and held Kumagoro to him. "It doesn't matter to him."

Tohma was surprised to wake up in the morning without Ryuichi's smiling face by his side. It seemed rather strange. Despite the horrible headache he had, he quietly walked up to Ryuichi's room to find him curled up in a ball, asleep, with Kumagoro clasped tight to him. Tohma smiled at the scene. The singer was rather cute when he was asleep.

"To-chan?" he asked groggily.

"I'm sorry, Ryuichi," Tohma said, surprised that he woke up his friend. "I was worried. You can go back to sleep."

"No, I'm not tired," Ryuichi said. Tohma could tell that the sound of his voice was not weariness after all, it was sadness.

"Are you all right?" Tohma asked.

"Mm hm," Ryuichi held on to Kumagoro tighter.

"You can tell me," Tohma said, seeing straight through his friend's lie. "You can tell me anything."

"No, I'm okay, To-chan," Ryuichi lied, trying (but failing miserably) to sound cheerful.

"You can't lie to me," Tohma informed him. "Or do you not want to talk about it?"

"No," Ryuichi said. Tohma nodded and began to walk out. "Yes." Ryuichi had changed his mind and this word stopped Tohma in the doorway. The taller man came and sat down on the bed next to the singer.

"What's wrong?"

"Last night," Ryuichi started. "You-You told me that you loved me."

"…"

"And then you… you kissed me." Tohma's eyes went wide.

"Ryuichi…" Tohma said. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean-"

"But I wanted you to mean it!" Ryuichi shouted. "I wanted you to be telling the truth! But you were drunk and it didn't mean anything! It didn't matter to you! It still doesn't! You don't care!"

"Ryuichi…" Tohma said quietly. He had not realized how much the singer really did love him. He had always suspected it, but he had not realized to this extent. "I-"

"I don't want you to lie to me, Tohma." This took Tohma by surprise. This was the most serious he had seen Ryuichi since their last concert, maybe even more so.

"I would never lie to you," Tohma said. "So listen to me. I love you." Ryuichi looked up. He had tears on his face.

"What?"

"I love you," Tohma repeated. "Like I said, I would never lie to you."

"Tohma, I told you-" He was cut off as Tohma's lips met his. He fell backwards on the bed with the other man on top of him. Tohma was not drunk now, a thought that made Ryuichi deepen the kiss. Ryuichi tasted his own salty tears, but did not really mind. Right now, nothing could bother him.

Ryuichi began to pop buttons off of Tohma's shirt; his own shirt had already been taken off. He felt Tohma's delicate hands on him, the same hands as the night before, only it meant something this time. It meant the world… to both of them.

Later, he lay in Tohma's embrace, still feeling the sensation of those hands on him. Tohma was asleep. Ryuichi moved over to kiss him on the cheek.

"I love you," he whispered.

"I love you too." Ryuichi was surprised to hear a response.

"I thought you were asleep," Ryuichi said.

"No," Tohma said. "I can't sleep." Ryuichi smiled, looking down at the floor to make sure that Kumagoro was still face down, just like he put him. "What are you looking at?"

"Kuma-chan," Ryuichi said. "I was just trying to make sure that he wasn't a naughty boy."

"Let's hope not," Tohma smiled. They heard the doorbell ring from downstairs. Tohma cursed and fumbled around for his clothes. Ryuichi mentally cursed whoever it was that interrupted them, but smiled and got dressed himself.

"Coming!" Ryuichi called cheerfully when he was near the door. He opened it to find the angry face of Mika.

"So," she said. "This is what happens. Not a week after I file for divorce you're already having an affair." Ryuichi was confused until he realized that Tohma was right behind him.

"What are you talking about, Mika-san?" he asked innocently. Ryuichi fought back the urge to giggle.

"Look for yourself," she snapped, tossing him a newspaper. He caught it and opened it up. He frowned a little and looked back up at the fuming woman on the doorstep.

"Mika-san…"

"As I said," she interrupted. "I'll see you in court." She turned on her heel and stomped off. Tohma stood dumbfounded, a sight that Ryuichi realized that he had never seen.

"To-chan?" he asked. "What's wrong?"

"That girl," Tohma said.

"Which one?" Ryuichi asked. "Mika-san?"

"No, the one from last night," Tohma clarified for him. "The one we had dinner with."

"What about her?"

"She followed us," Tohma said.

"I don't understand, na no da." Tohma handed him the paper, letting him see for himself. There were some snapshots of the two of them on the couch when Tohma kissed him the night before.

"Shit," Tohma cursed. He walked over to the couch and sat down.

"What are you doing To-chan?" Ryuichi asked feeling confused.

"I need to see something," Tohma said. He turned on the news and, sure enough, there was a reporter, using the same pictures from the newspaper. What surprised Ryuichi is that she was the woman they had dinner with the previous night.

"Look out ladies, you've got competition," the girl they had known as Karen was saying. "It looks like us women have got no chance with any musician of any kind. We were tipped off by an anonymous source this morning, that Seguchi Tohma and Sakuma Ryuichi are having an affair, three days after Seguchi's wife filed for divorce."

"That explains a lot," Ryuichi said, glancing over at Tohma.

"Anonymous," Tohma repeated. "Yeah, right…"

Tohma turned off the television and put his head in his hands, looking very upset. Ryuichi put his hand on Tohma's shoulder, trying to comfort him.

"I'm sorry," Tohma said. "I'm sorry, Ryuichi."

"Why is that To-chan?" Ryuichi asked.

"I didn't want to drag you into this," he told him. "I'm so sorry…" Ryuichi lifted Tohma's head and kissed him softly.

"It's okay, To-chan," Ryuichi said. "I don't mind."

"Ryuichi…" Tohma smiled sadly.

"Now, you can't watch this." Ryuichi took the TV button away from Tohma, forbidding him from watching another television show. "This is supposed to be your vacation. This doesn't relax you."

"Thanks Ryuichi," Tohma said. "But, I need to go to the office."

"No you don't," Ryuichi said. "It's To-chan's vacation."

"Then can you do me a favor?" Tohma asked. "Find out where that Karen girl lives."

"What are you going to do?" Ryuichi asked. "Is To-chan going to be a naughty boy?" Tohma smiled devilishly, which was all Ryuichi needed to assure him that Tohma was, indeed going to be naughty… very naughty.

END CH. 3

A/N: They just keep getting shorter, don't they? I need to find a good way to make my chapters longer. Oh, well. Anyway, if anybody has any good ideas on how they want Tohma to get revenge on Karen let me know. I'm stuck for ideas right now. Until then… Review the horribly short chapter!

Love always,

Lily