Gravitation Fan Fiction ❯ Sorrowful sins ❯ chapter one ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Chapter one

Shuichi’s pov

I open the door to my dull apartment full of light shining in from the small windows that line along a wall of the room. Closing the door behind me I slowly walk up to my bed and collapse on it letting the exhaustion take me over. As I drift off to sleep I hope to dream a dream of peace, happiness and relaxation.

I awaken to the sound of my alarm. I raise my hand and tap down on the button to silence the shrill tone. I wearily walked towards the window, lifting a hand towards the window pane I let out a sigh as I felt the cool sensation of the glass up against my hand. Looking out the window I see birds singing, the sun shining and children laughing. The smiles that decorated their faces would make ice melt. Their happy faces. Sweet smiles of innocence. Peace surrounds them like a protective embrace. They have no idea what lies ahead of them. The children run around in circles chasing each other and hiding. Giggles and playful screams fill the air. The scene before me reminds me of a memory I would rather forget. A memory of my childhood. Before the problems. Before my mind created this fake mask in which I hide myself. It was when my sister was still alive. She was energetic and hyper which reminds people of me. That’s why my family despise me. I am the perfect example of my loving sister’s personality.

I loved my sister so much, whenever I was upset she would cheer me up. Whenever I was bullied in school she would chase the bullies round the school yard and whenever I had problems she would solve them but then she went…

*Flashback*
“This is your entire fault your sisters gone. It’s all your fault. You’re to blame. It’s your entire fault.”
*End flashback*


Those were the words my mother spoke to me the day Maiko died. Those words shocked me like a sting from a bee. I was forever tainted of them words and was brought to believe that it was indeed my fault that she died. After that day my parents threw me out of the house but luckily my aunt took me in. She let me live with her till I was Eighteen then told me I had to start looking after myself and said I needed to be responsible. So I now live by myself in a one room apartment with barely enough money to live off. In my years living with my aunt I had always been depressed. I have been going to work with a mask that deceives my true feelings but not my true nature. I blame myself for her death. I keep thinking that if she had not been using all her remaining time chasing after bullies then she would have never died so early. Everything she did in her life made all the difference to how much time she had left yet she spent all her time looking after me but I think she knew this so why? Why would she spend all her time and last breath on me?

A beeping sound brought me out of my deep thoughts. I pressed the button on the side of my watch. It said 9:30 am which meant that I was supposed to be at work in thirty minutes. I am a lead singer of a band called bad luck; two of my friends are in the band with me. Hiroshi Nakano although I just call him Hiro and Suguru Fujusaki who is the synth player. I think they are the greatest friends anyone can ask for but I lie to them about not being depressed so I don’t worry them. I don’t like them to worry about me. They do enough of that. Hiro who has been my best friend since high school is a tall brunet with a muscular body but not so much that it looks gross but just enough that he looks a little strong. He has bright blue eyes which narrow when he gets angry. He has always been there for me. If I had to entrust my life to someone it would definitely be him. Suguru Fujusaki I only met when he joined NG productions. He has neck length hair which is coloured a greenish tint. His eyes are dark brown and circular. His personality matches that of Tohma’s who just happens to be my boss. He is cousins with Suguru. They are alike in most ways even when they get angry which is something I have witnessed and let me tell you it’s not a pretty site. Suguru is a good friend but his personality’s mostly serious so his humour is a little cruel. But he is great all the same.

I was startled out of my thoughts by my cell phone ringing. Twenty guesses who that is. Hiro no doubt. Telling me to get my ass to work. “Hello?” “Oh hi Hiro” “sorry Hiro” “Yeah I will be in soon” “Yeah” “Ok bye”. After putting down the phone I started getting ready for work grabbing my orange jumper before I exited the apartment.

I was walking down the concrete path though I had not been paying attention when I bumped into somebody, a solid body colliding with mine. “Oh s-sorry I-I…” when I looked up to apologize I found myself staring into beautiful golden brown eyes that belonged to a handsome stranger. I wasn’t ashamed to admit his gaze sent welcome tremors down my spine and for a moment I almost felt that sadness melt away to give room to an excitement.