Gravitation Fan Fiction ❯ Yes. ❯ Resentment/Love ( Chapter 3 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
Tohma Seguchi's office was large, unnecessarily so. It was a semi-circle of glass, and if you looked at the right angle it appeared as if his desk floated high above the other buildings of downtown Tokyo. Tatsuha was sure Seguchi had done that on purpose.
Two plush green chairs sit in front of the desk, Tatsuha takes the one on the left, Shuichi, the right.
Tohma turns towards them as they sit.
"So" he says "what can I do for you boys?"
Before Tatsuha gets a chance to explain Shuichi is off, "well you see I know Sakuma san has been really tired lately, the Tatsuha showed up at Yuki's and I thought...--" Tohma nodded and smiled accordingly as Shuichi spun his tale and when it was over her just looked at Tatsuha and said, "Is this true Tatsuha?" All he could manage was a nod. He was suddenly and inexplicably terrified, a fear that went straight down to his bones. He knew he had lost.
Tohma smiled a sickeningly sweet smile.
"Unfortunatly boys, you where mistaken, Ryuichi-san is just fine and in no need of—“
He was cut off by an angelic voice all to familiar to Tatsuha's ears.
"Oh, I do not think that is completely true Tohma." Ryuichi said as he walked confidently in the room.
"Sorry for eavesdropping, but I felt it was fair as the conversation was about me." Ryuichi smiled, perching on the left arm of Shuichi's chair.
"Personally, I think it is a fantastic idea." Ryuichi stops for a moment, looks straight at Tatsuha and begins addressing him directly.
Ryuichi- "when can you start?"
Tatsuha- "Immediately".
Ryuichi-" Are you able to be available at all hours of the day?"
Tatsuha-"Of course".
"Can you drive?"
"Boat, Motorcycle, and car".
"Previous wages?"
"No formal previous job."
"Alright." Ryuichi says, standing form his spot on the chair and dragging Tatsuha along with him.
"Tohma. As of today Tatsuha is under my personal employment, he is to have access to any and all of rooms and places I do. Wherever I go, he goes. And since he is my personal employee, the only person who he answers to is me. Do you understand?" He says shooting Tohma an icy glare.
"Yes Ryuichi-san, I understand perfectly."
"Good", he replies walking from the room with a confused Tatsuha in tow.
Ryuichi lets out a gust of air and leans up against the door of the stairwell the two had just entered, sinking to the floor. He closed his eyes as he slid to the floor gracefully.
"Sakuma-san?" Tatsuha says tentatively.
The childish man stares at him warmly and says "Ryuichi. My name is Ryuichi."
Tatsuha smiles and sits down opposite him, "Ryuichi-san..?"
The petite rock god glares.
Tatsuha lets out a laugh, "Ryuichi, sorry, I'm--"
Ryuichi cuts him off, “I know who you are Tatsuha."
The boy looks at him questioningly.
"You are Usagi Tatsuha, third child, born May 1, 1991. And you have been in love with me since you where twelve which, coincidentally, is the last time I saw you."
Tatsuha stared at him blankly. “You remember me?"
"Of course I remember you. I mean you were the only person that significantly underage to try and molest me."
Tatsuha ducked his head in shame.
Ryuichi just stared. "I told you to wait for me".
Tatsuha looked up wide eyed.
"Did you not believe me when I said I would come get you?"
Tatsuha shook his head violently, "I was afraid you forgot. Or didn't care. It was too long and too much. I waited six years. I just couldn't."
Ryuichi nodded. Understanding.
"I was trying to wait a bit longer, until you were older.", "You know I still remember the day you where born".
"I know Ryuichi, and your songs still put me to sleep".
They where silent for a moment until Tatsuha spoke up.
"So you have been keeping an eye on me?"
Ryuichi smiled. "Of course."
Tatsuha nodded, and Ryuichi's eyes darkened.
"Tatsuha. The women, the booze, the parties, the alcohol, that motorcycle! You could not have made everything a bit easier on me?"
Tatsuha looks at him seriously. "Easier for you? You where the one who left, no goodbyes, no word. I was twelve and desperately in love with you and you disappeared. I thought I was going to die. I didn't get out of bed for weeks and I just about stopped talking completely!"
"Tatsuha I didn't have a choice! You think it was any easier for me? I broke Nittle Grasper up and went to America trying to deal!"
"Yes, you had a choice; you could have chosen not to leave!"
"...It was not my choice"
"Well then whose goddamned choice was it!?"
"Tohma knew."
"..What"
"He saw you... when you kissed me."
"…"
"I told him what had happened and what I told you, but he saw that there was only so long I would deny you. So he made sure I didn't have the chance. He told your father and Mika, they agreed I was not to see you again. When I said that I would come back I intended when you where no longer living at the shrine."
Tatsuha just nodded, saying nothing.
"Tatsuha, if you no longer feel anything towards me I will--"
"No, Ryuichi. Six years. I will not pretend a day longer. This, sitting here, talking to you, is the most complete I have felt in years. At this moment the thought of you being any further away from me than you are right now terrifies me, and I never want to be any further away."
"I know. You know people will think it's strange."
"I know."
"You know if you have me start acting on these feelings I am not going to be able to stop."
"I feel the same."
"You know I will be extremely possessive of you."
"That works both ways."
"You will live with me."
"Yes."
"For the immediate future we this is as far as we will separate from each other…"
"I wish to be closer."
"Not yet Tatsuha we still have a work day to get through.. Somehow."
"I feel like I might die Ryuichi."
He sighs as Tatsuha slides closer to him.
"Don't touch me" he half shrieks franticly
Tatsuha looks taken aback.
"Sorry, there are cameras. Tohma may be watching. Follow me."
They dash down the sixteen flights of stairs Tatsuha two steps behind Ryuichi the whole time. They hit the bottom floor and Ryuichi pushes Tatsuha into a hidden room that looks like a sound booth. Sort of.
"The only room in NG without a live video feed. So I can erase the tapes."
Tatsuha nods and slides his hands under Ryuichi's shirt. He gasps. And then the frenzie begins. Neither one of them can stand any centimeter of space between them. They rip each others clothes off, no time no thought of foreplay for this time. They just have to be close. Ryuichi flips them so he is on top and sinks himself down on to Tatsuha with a scream. Tatsuha quickly realizes his love is in pain and swiftly flips them back and begins kiss Ryuichi's tears away. The rock god is no longer particularly lucid, stuck in a world between pain and pleasure, gasping and begging for more and to stop at the same time. Tatsuha tried to calm him down while mentally thanking his lucky stars that the booth seemed to be sound proof.
He kissed Ryichi full on the lips and said firmly "Ryuichi, look at me" It seemed to get the rock stars attention because he looked straight at him.
"Breath" Tatsuha said, "It's going to be alright, remember? I'm here. We are together. No more fear. "
Ryichi nodded, teary, and pleaded with Tatsuha to move. As soon as he does Ryuichi looses what little lucidity he had attained, but this time it's okay. This time he has a smile on his face.
They laid there for awhile. Unwilling to let each other go, to return to the real world.