Gundam SEED Fan Fiction / Gundam Seed Destiny Fan Fiction ❯ Destiny of Love ❯ never ending ( Chapter 8 )

A stinging in her cheek was the only think Lacus felt barely five minutes after returning home. Her husband stood over her with rather annoyed eyes as he stared down at what he thought of as a possession rather than a wife.

 

“You know, if you would just listen to me then everything would be so much easier. Why is it that you think you can do what you want?” he asked her rolling his eyes as she got back to her feet with blank emotionless eyes.

 

“Because your demands are unreasonable. Just because you ask doesn't mean I'm just going to give myself to you,” she muttered wiping away a small trail a blood that fell from her lip. She didn't care how much she got hit though. She refused become his sex slave like he wanted her to be.

 

Before she could even react, she was sent flying back to the floor with another powerful hit. “You are supposed to do what I say. You are my wife and will do what I say. I thought sending you one a vacation would make you more open to me for my generosity but you have just become more stubborn,” he said looking at her eyes which refused to show him any emotion.

 

Lacus couldn't help but laugh at his words. “Generous? You did it because I wouldn't sleep with you and you just wanted more time with your whores to please yourself,” she said bitterly before getting kicked in the stomach. She coughed loudly and started gasping for air.

 

“I swear you're impossible. Doesn't matter whether you like it or not since you will be mine forever. You should just get used to it and start following orders like is expected of you,” he said turning and he walked away towards his room since he knew he wasn't going to get anything out of her.

 

Despite the pain, Lacus got to her feet and was helped up by one of her maids. “I'll be fine. There's no need to worry about me,” Lacus managed to say even though she was still short of breath.

 

“But I'm worried Lacus,” the woman said helping Lacus towards the stairs. She knew Lacus could use some rest. “You should get some rest. Maybe things will be better in the morning,” she continued even though she knew that people like Trent Peters never changed. Despite this fact, she only continued to work here for Lacus's sake.

 

“Thank you,” Lacus muttered lying down on a bed in on of the guest rooms so that Trent wouldn't try anything. She knew he'd get the wrong idea if she went and took a nap in the master bedroom.

 

The maid knew that Lacus had to go through some painful things by being married to such a brute. It was common for Trent to force Lacus to do things she didn't want. Last time she could remember was barely a week before Lacus left on her vacation. She was rather surprised how well Lacus look when she came back.

 

She came back and was found by Trent in less than five minutes. He had ideas on his mind that she refused of him so he hit her for it like he always did. All she could do was stand back and watch until the man left before she could give Lacus some help like she always did.

 

It wasn't that she was afraid of what he might do to her but how much more he would hurt Lacus. Last time someone tried to help Lacus he beat them both up even worse than what he first did to Lacus right before then.

 

`I can just hope that this won't be her constant fate for the rest of her life,' the woman thought before turning around and left the room but not before locking the door behind her. She wanted Lacus to get a peaceful rest so she didn't want Trent going in there or finding her easily.

 

*****

 

Lacus felt like she couldn't take anymore. She felt as if all hope of her being able to leave that place was slipping away little by little with each day that passed. Trent was becoming even more unbearable than ever and there were a few times she almost wasn't able to stop him from forcibly taking what he wanted from her. Luckily she was barely able to stop him.

 

Pulling her knees to her chest, Lacus sat in a dark room cursing her life for being like this. `How can I possibly get away? Trent isn't leaving me alone so he'll know if I try anything,' she thought as a lone tear fell from her eyes.

 

Just a few minutes prior, Trent had been really demanding on her and almost forced her into bed. The idea of his hands on her and him doing stuff like that to her just made her feel sick. He'd dragged her towards the bedroom before an important call came that he had to take. Lacus took that opportunity to run and she found herself here.

 

Her stomach felt really queasy. That event really scared her and made her sick to think about what he was about to do. He was touching her really intimately and it made her feel like she was betraying Kira. It made her just want to throw up to think about what he tried to do.

 

As if her body was acting upon her disgust, she felt a churning in her stomach and stood up quickly before running to the bathroom and releasing the contents of her stomach within the toilet.

 

When she was finished, Lacus laid back against the shower door and caught her breath. `I've always been repulsed by his touch. It just seem worse than ever since I came back, especially within the last few days,' she thought taking in a big breath of air.

 

A month had already passed since she last saw Kira. She had no idea how to contact him without Trent finding out. She missed him so much that it was starting to hurt. `How can one person have such an effect on me? How can one person make me love someone so much?' she couldn't help but ask herself wiping away the tears.

 

At that moment she felt so weak, physically and emotionally. She wanted nothing more than to be able to have her friends and her true love by her side but she had a feeling that it wasn't going to happen.

 

`What's wrong with me and my life?' she asked herself before heaving more of her stomach into the toilet. `Why can't he just leave me alone? Why have I so sick lately?' she asked herself standing up and leaning over the sink. There were bags under her eyes from lack of sleep and her actually eyes were really red.

 

`What are you thinking right now Kira?' she thought as her hand reached up to her neck and smiled when she didn't feel anything there. She once had a piece of jewelry that was of great value to her personally.

 

***Flashback***

 

Lacus clung to Kira's arm tightly as he walked her back to her hotel the last night that she was supposed to be there. She just closed her eyes and trusted for Kira to lead her the right way, although she did have to admit that she would prefer for him to go the wrong way so that they'd have a little more time together.

 

Kira sighed when he saw the place come into view. “Two months just seems like such a long time to let you go,” he said pulling her tightly into his arms. “Do we really need to be separated tonight?” he asked burying his nose into her pink hair and smelt the beautiful scent that was her own.

 

“This is one night that I have to be there. I need to get everything packed so I will be ready to leave tomorrow since the flight is at eleven in the morning,” Lacus said looking towards the ground while she listened to the sound of his heart beat.

 

“Will it be that bad if you're a little late for your flight? Maybe it will allow you to stay here a little longer,” he said but she just silently shook her head. Kira just sighed and rubbed the back of his neck. “I still stick with what I say about you running away with me,” he said pulling her into him even tighter.

 

“If we miss the flight Trent will wonder why and will no doubt find out about you. You would get hurt and I couldn't stand that thought,” she said looking up at the building and then to her love. “Listen Kira, I have something for you,” she said hesitantly reaching for her purse.

 

She pulled her hand out of the purse firmly shut. Her free hand took Kira hand and held it palm up as she placed the item in his hand. It was a small ring. “This once belonged to my mother and now I want you to have it. Please, always keep it close to your heart,” she said giving him a small smile.

 

Looking down at the small ring and then towards Lacus, he clutched his hand tightly around the small ring. He'd keep it safely on him forever since Lacus was entrusting such an important thing to him. “I promise you that I will keep this safe and close to my heart,” he said leaning down to capture her lips in a sweet kiss.

 

It was a few minutes before either of them pulled away from each other. Lacus was the first to do anything as she slowly backed away fearing that she wouldn't be able to separate herself from Kira if she stayed in his arms a moment longer. “I guess this is it. Please be there tomorrow,” she said looking deep into his Violet eyes.

 

“I will be there. You have my word,” Kira said before she turned and ran into the hotel. Kira couldn't really blame her since he also had the same feelings that she did on the matter. Both wanted to remain in each other's arms forever but knew that it wasn't possible. `Just be sure to come back to me.”

 

***End Flashback***

 

She gave it to himself because she loved him and knew she could trust him. That was what her father wanted for her to do when he gave her the ring. She just couldn't trust herself to ever give to it Trent even before she realized what he was truly like.

 

A soft knock came on the door and Lacus reluctantly walked towards it. She knew she didn't have to fear it being Trent because she knew he just plain didn't have the patience to knock on a door without a lot of force behind it.

 

Behind the door stood her trusted maid Eileen Canaver. She was a woman that worked for her father close to the time that Lacus was born. She helped raise Lacus when Lacus's mother died of an illness when she was only two. This made her a mother figure to Lacus, She was also very young looking despite her age. No one would've thought just by looking at her that she was a few years younger than Lacus's father who was already fifty.

 

“You look rather pale Lacus, are you feeling alright?” Eileen asked stepping into the room closing and locking the door behind her so that the two of them wouldn't be disturbed.

 

Lacus sighed and walked over and took a seat in a chair with Eileen taking a seat across from her. “Yeah, I've just been feeling slightly ill the last few days. I don't supposed you would have something to help me would you?” she asked rubbing her forehead where a migraine was starting to form.

 

“I think you just need a good nights sleep. You haven't had much of that in the past month,” Eileen said looking guilty. “I'm sorry that I can't do anything to help you Lacus. It kills me little by little to have to watch him do such things to you and know that I can't do anything about it,” she said placing some tea in front of Lacus which was the reason she came.

 

“There's no need to be sorry. It wouldn't change my fate even if you did anything. It would just add another victim to his rage. I wouldn't want anything to happen to you because you're the only kind person left for me to talk to,” she said feeling a bit queasy again.

 

Eileen noticed the way that Lacus looked and grew worried. “Lacus?” she asked but Lacus just stood up and ran into the bathroom to relieve her stomach for a third time. Eileen was quick to follow. She knelt down next the woman she thought of as a daughter and rubbed her back in a soothing manner. “Doesn't seem like you're only slightly ill,” she said in a worried tone.

 

Lacus didn't say something as she stood up and got a glass a water to help clear the bile taste from her mouth. “I want to go to the doctors but I'm afraid,” Lacus said just leaning over the sink with her eyes closed.

 

“Listen Lacus, I'm really worried about you. I'll call and arrange an appointment. I want to find out what is wrong. So please, just lie down and rest,” she said leading Lacus over to one of the guest beds again. She didn't voice it but she felt like she might know what was wrong with the young woman. She just prayed that she was wrong.

 

*****

 

Anybody that was around him could tell that something wasn't right. They all pretty much knew that he hadn't been sleeping much lately and that it was really starting to have an effect upon Kira.

 

Kira groaned as he leaned back in a seat behind his desk. His hand came upon and smeared itself down his face. Dark bags were under his eyes showing his unrest. He stared up at the ceiling about ready to fall asleep in his chair.

 

It seemed like it was becoming impossible for him to fall asleep. He was worried about Lacus since she hadn't called. Not to mention that Fllay was always turning up at the most inopportune moment. It seemed like everything was against him at that moment just refusing to let him get some sleep.

 

Fllay hadn't left him alone since he broke up with her. She'd turn up at his place or office day or night. He just didn't know what he was going to do about her. As long as his heart longed for and loved Lacus, he could never love anyone else. Fllay just seemed to assume that she was all he needed.

 

A few moments later Athrun came walking into the dressed in a neat business suit. “You look worse than ever Kira. You're going to get sick if you don't do something about your sleeping problem soon,” he said in a worried voice before taking a seat across from his best friend.

 

“I know that,” Kira stated in a rather weak voice. “I've been trying but it seems like something always happens to stop me from getting one decent nights rest,” he said slamming his fist down on the table.

 

“Fllay still harassing you?” he question with sympathetic eyes. He was glad that Kira finally broke up with that she devil but he knew it was just causing Kira a lot more problems. He then frowned when Kira just nodded his head. “Somehow I get the feeling that there's much more to this than that,” he said looking Kira over again. Kira just nodded his head again. “Care to talk about it?” he asked but Kira shook his head no. This just caused Athrun to groan in frustration.

 

Standing up, Athrun started to walk towards the door but stopped just before he reached it. “You should really take the day off. You are no good to anyone if you fall sick. I'll take over the rest of your meeting for today,” he said with a tone of finality. He wasn't going to let his best friend get sick.

 

“Fine,” Kira said being more than happy to agree. He didn't know how he'd be able to face Lacus if anything like that happened. Sure she had yet to even call him but he was still hopeful. The fact that she had yet to call really worried him. He was afraid that something might have happened while he wasn't there. That she could be seriously hurt or worse.

 

`I must believe that she is ok. But if she is ok, then why hasn't she even tried to contact me?' he mentally asked himself which just fed the worry that continued to grow within him. `I must believe in her,' he thought packing up his stuff and then left the room silently.

 

His head was down as he walked towards the elevator but because of this he didn't notice someone walking out of a room directly in his path. He ended up colliding with the unsuspecting person sending them both crashing into the ground.

 

“Ouch! You need to watch where you're going kid,” the person said causing him to look up and see one of the CEOs of the company, Mwu La Flaga. Mwu stood up and then reached out a hand to help Kira to his feet. “Hate to say this but you look like crap,” he said looking at how bad Kira looked.

 

“Sorry about running into you Mwu, I'm just not feeling too good,” he said rubbing his eyes while stifling a yawn. He was really starting to feel all those sleepless nights at that moment. He just wanted to curl up in his comfy bed and fall fast asleep.

 

“Well you definitely look the part,” he said with a frown before turning to walk in a different direction with Kira following after him. “Oh yeah, that reminds me. Just to give you a bit of a heads up, Fllay Allster is looking for you,” he said and heard Kira groan at the mention of her name. “What's going on kid? Weren't the two of you together not too long ago?” he couldn't help but ask.

 

“We were, but not anymore. I broke up with her a month ago but she won't leave me alone about it,” Kira said looking around with a worried expression. He was too tired and didn't want to have to deal with Fllay right then.

 

“So that's what George Allster was so pissed off about,” Mwu said before Kira gave him a confused look. “He's been pretty mad about something the past few weeks but no one could figure out why,” he explained and Kira just nodded his head understanding the rest.

 

Kira had always tried to avoid George Allster even while he was dating Fllay. The man was very ambitious and it tended to worry Kira. He now knew that his daughter was exactly the same. “Where are you heading?” he asked as they came to a stop at the elevator.

 

Mwu was silent for a few seconds before a broad grin spread across his face. “Marketing,” was his simple reply which just caused Kira to roll his eyes. Mwu was infatuated with the woman that was in charge of their marketing apartment. Kira was pretty sure that the feeling was mutual as well.

 

“Good luck with that. Hope she doesn't slap you like last time,” he said before getting into the elevator. He heard the elevator come to a stop and just knew that Fllay was on it. `Just barely missed her,' he thought with a sigh of relief as the door closed but not before catching a glimpse of her walking towards his office.

 

“That was a close one, wouldn't you say?” Mwu asked with a chuckle since he'd seen the same thing as Kira. “A few more moments and you would've been stuck talking to her when it's clear that you don't want to,” he said before the elevator stopped on his specified floor and he got off. “Be sure to get some rest. You're going to get sick at this rate,” Mwu continued to say before the door to the elevator closed.

 

*****

 

Rushing through the halls and towards her room was all Lacus could think to do. Her mind was a complete mess and she knew everything could be lost because of this. `How could this have happened?' she thought wiping away the tears that were freely falling from her eyes.

 

`You're pregnant,' was all that she could remember the doctor saying before she burst out of the doctors office. She didn't want to hear it. She refused to believe that it was really true. She wanted to believe that he just made a mistake.

 

`Kira,' she thought falling onto her bed and let the tears just rush out. She just knew this was from their time together. It wasn't old enough to be anything of her husband's. Sure there was that week before she left but he was so drunk at the time that he couldn't even finish what he started even if he currently thought that he did. He would think that that was the time if he found out about this baby. He would think it was his.

 

`I need to get out of here,' she thought in a panic as she got off the bed and grabbed a suitcase. She refused to allow this child of Kira's to be corrupted by Trent's twisted ideals. She knew she had to do this quickly though, before he found out. He would never let her go if he found out. He'd make sure to have one of his men watching her at all times. Making sure that she didn't run off with what he would believe to be his heir.

 

“Just where do you think you're going?” a clearly angry voice asked her making Lacus stiffen up and turn her head to see the object of her thoughts standing in the doorway looking ready to kill.

 

Her face paled a little but she forced a smile on her face hoping that he hadn't noticed it. “I-I'm going to visit my father for a few days. I haven't seen him in such a long time and I really miss him,” she said in a mostly convincing voice. It wasn't completely a lie. She was planning to stop there first to get his help.

 

Little emotions flickered through Trent's eyes as he stared at Lacus. “I don't think so. You're not going anywhere!” he said advancing towards her which caused her to stumble back and fall onto the bed. “I got an interesting call not too long ago,” he said coming to a stop.

 

“C-call?” Lacus stuttered finding herself getting really nervous about what it could be. She really hoped that it wasn't what she thought it was. All of her plans to be with Kira would be worthless then. “I didn't hear the phone ring,” she said which wasn't a lie.

 

“You wouldn't since it was clear that you were trying to run away,” he said and she grew nervous but was wondering why he wasn't hitting her around like he would usually do. Cold eyes met hers and he smirked. “A doctor called and was talking about needing to schedule another appointment. When I questioned him about it he told me something very interesting, that you were pregnant,” he said with a proud grin spreading across his face thinking he'd finally gotten what he'd been wanting for a while.

 

Lacus just wished that she could just die in that moment. She didn't want him to know about this. This child was Kira's, not his. This man didn't deserve to have a child of his own. He would only twist the child into a mini version of him. Someone who thought their word was final and that anyone that didn't listen would have to be hurt.

 

She knew she was in really deep trouble right now. To run away would mean to be constantly chased by him since he'd want to keep the kid he thought was his heir. If she was to tell him it wasn't his, he'd more than likely kill the child and than her for cheating on him either way she knew that there was no hope.

 

“I'm not trying to run. Like I said I'm only going to see my father,” she said with a sad sigh. She would gladly give her life in exchange for Kira's child to live a safe life. She'd make sure that this child would live even at the cost of her own freedom and happiness.

 

“And I still told you no! You're not going anywhere! Knowing you, you'll end up doing something stupid that will endanger the life of my heir!” he yelled at her causing her to flinch. “You can't just do what you like from now on! I swear, I gave you too much freedom before!” he yelled before turning and leaving the room but not without slamming the door first.

 

Turning over, Lacus buried her head into the pillow and started to cry all her sorrows. She let out all the pain she felt for what she'd have to go through to protect her child. `Please forgive me Kira!' she begged inside of her mind even if she knew that it wasn't possible for him to hear it.

 

The sound of the door opening again caught her attention but Lacus didn't do anything. The person walked over and sat down next to her and rubbed Lacus's back as she cried into the pillow. “You have such deep pains, things you never wish to show,” Eileen said feeling bad for the young woman.

 

“I don't want to be here!” Lacus screamed into her pillow. `I want to go back to Kira,' she thought not willing to discuss this for fear that Trent might overhead if she was to tell Eileen about what she'd done.

 

“I feel the same. You shouldn't be forced to go through such torment day after day. I wish that there was more that we could do,” she said feeling her heart break the more she watched such a strong woman like Lacus finally releasing all the tears she'd been keeping in for the past month.

 

“There's something you can do,” Lacus whispered into the pillow but it was loud enough for Eileen to hear. “Please just leave. Go back to work with my father, you'll be safe there. You won't have to go through any of this,” she said trying to force back her tears with little success.

 

Eileen knew that Lacus was only trying to protect her. “I can't do that Lacus. Your father trusted me to take care of you and I know I've already failed his trust. I'm not just going to abandon you when you need me the most,” she said in a stern voice hoping that Lacus would see that nothing would change his mind.

 

“Please, you have to. As long as I stay I don't think he'll do anything to you if you were to leave. I just don't want to see anymore of the people I love get hurt,” she said thinking about how angry and hurt Kira would be when he heard if what she was going to do.

 

“I'm sorry Lacus but I can't do that. It would hurt me more knowing I abandoned you. Not to mention that I'd never be able to face your father again after that. I will stick by your side no matter how tough the situation gets,” she said in a soft tone.

 

“Thank you… mom,” Lacus said even if it wasn't completely true. In her mind she was the mom Lacus barely knew. She was glad to have someone like that in her life right now considering how chaotic it had become.

 

“Anytime,” Eileen said smiling down at the young girl. She wished for some miracle to happen. For something to set Lacus free from her pain. She knew that wishing wasn't enough though. It didn't mean that she couldn't hope for a miracle.

 

`It seems that I'll have to force myself to remain here in order to keep Kira's child safe. I wish I could tell you what happened but have no way of doing so without him finding out about us. He's watching my every move and listening to every conversation I have,' Lacus thought as her hands clenched into fists taking some of the sheets with her.

 

`I have no choice but to stay,' she thought as intense grief came over her. `If I run away it's likely he'll find out, get me, and kill our child since it's not his. Worst part is that he can probably get away with it too. I'll protect our child and make sure that Trent won't force it to turn out like himself,' she thought as her body started to shake under the pressure of her unshed tears.

 

*****

 

A sharp pain went through Kira's heart all of a sudden. “What was that?” he asked placing his hand over his heart but didn't feel anything wrong afterwards. “I guess I'm more tired than I thought,” he muttered to himself when he didn't feel anything wrong afterwards.

 

`That's not it,' he thought as an afterthought. `Something is definitely wrong. I just wish I knew what it was. I hope Lacus is ok,' he thought before shaking it off to head to his car. The nagging feeling didn't go away but he tried his best to ignore it.

 

Rubbing his forehead, Kira pulled out of his parking space and decided to grab a bite to eat before heading back to his place. He only drove for about five minutes before he pulled in front of a small restaurant that some friends of his owned.

 

Kira came to a stop and walked into a small yet cozy building. He was greeted by a young man who had light green hair. “Hello there Kira,” the man said giving Kira a smile as he walked up to him. “Normal table?” he asked in a friendly tone.

 

“Yeah, thanks Nicol,” Kira muttered walking behind him. “And if you see Fllay, tell her I'm not here,” he continued and just got a nod and a look of sympathy in response.

 

“Kira!” a happy female voice said upon seeing him. “It's good to see you again. It's been a while,” an old friend by the name of Miriallia said walking up to him wearing the outfit of a waitress.

 

“Yeah. I see that things are the same around here. How are you and Dearka doing?” he asked and an extremely annoyed look crossed her face. Kira immediately wondered what Dearka had done to piss her off this time. They had been going out fort a while and it seemed they were breaking up every week only to get back together the next week. “What'd he do this time?” he asked trying to hold in my laughter.

 

A blond haired man came walking out from the kitchen. “Who the hell said I did anything?” was the first thing that came out of his mouth instead of a greeting. “Oh yeah, pick on poor old me without any proof first,” he said rolling his eyes which everyone just chuckled at.

 

“Dearka… you're the one that's always at fault,” Kira said and laughed at the face that Dearka made. “Let's see, there was the time you started to flirt with that girl when Milly was around,” he started since he knew what Dearka's next question would be. “Then there was the time you weren't listening and answered yes when she asked you whether she looked fat,” he said and everyone in the room was trying to hold in their laughter.

 

“Alright, alright; enough of this nonsense!” Dearka yelled walking back into the kitchen and towards his office since he was the one that owned the restaurant. That was the only reason that Kira knew Miriallia was even working there in the first place.

 

Miriallia couldn't help but laugh at the situation as well. “Moving on! Will you be having the normal today Kira?” she asked him and he just nodded and took a seat before she headed off to get his order.

 

`I envy them. They all have it so easy,' Kira thought looking at the group that was running the restaurant. `Why won't you call me Lacus? Do you just not want to walk to me anymore? So much can go wrong. You'd call me if that were the case, wouldn't you?' he couldn't help but ask himself letting out a groan.

 

`What's going on? Why do I keep getting this feeling like I'm missing out on something when you're not with me? Please, I need to know what's going on with you,' he thought feeling himself getting desperate to see her.