Gundam SEED Fan Fiction / Gundam Seed Destiny Fan Fiction ❯ Destiny of Love ❯ love and hate ( Chapter 11 )

Tossing and turning within her bed, Lacus found that she couldn't sleep. It was nearly one in the morning and she felt as if it wouldn't be getting any better. She tried going to bed early that night but it seemed to be impossible.

 

The problem she was having was with her thoughts. Just knowing that Kira wasn't too far away and that she had yet to talk to him was really bothering her. She'd tried to find him a few times during the day but he seemed to disappear. `Probably trying to avoid me. I just hope that I'll be able to talk to him at least once before I leave. I probably won't get another chance afterwards.'

 

Throwing her covers off her body, Lacus stood up and walked into a connected room to the small suite she rented for the event. That was the room that Shiro slept in but she always kept the door open so that she was alert to the smallest of noises that he would make.

 

Lacus knew that she probably wouldn't be having this much of a problem under normal circumstances. This was really because of a conversation that she had with Cagalli just after she put her son down for his afternoon nap.

 

***Flashback***

 

Finishing up the lovely tune, Lacus looked at her son and saw that he was fast asleep with the most peaceful expression on his face. She smiled when she realized just how much he really looked like his father while he slept, like he didn't have a care in the world.

 

`You are truly a lot like your father. I'm very glad that it could be that way,' she thought before she heard a knock on her door startling her from her thoughts. She turned her head and saw Cagalli standing there. “Please be quiet, he's asleep,” she said quietly as she walked towards Cagalli.

 

“I can't help but admire what a beautiful kid you have Lacus,” Cagalli admitted getting a quick look at the small baby who was resting so peacefully in his crib. “It's hard to believe that it came from a man like Trent,” she continued with a small chuckle.

 

`It's not that hard to believe since Shiro isn't his,' Lacus thought while smiling. She had a feeling that if it came from Trent that the child would probably be hard to control and wouldn't listen a word anyone said.

 

“I guess so,” was Lacus's simple response as she turned towards the other room and walked into it with Cagalli following. “So what brings you here Cagalli? We weren't supposed to meet for another hour,” she said taking a seat by the windows followed shortly by Cagalli.

 

Taking a seat across from Lacus, Cagalli turned and stared out the window. “Oh nothing much. I was really just passing by when I heard you singing. Kira and I just ended up listening in. I swear you can mesmerize just about anyone with your song,” Cagalli said chuckling a bit.

 

The sound of Kira's name made Lacus's heart skip a beat. `He was listening? Why didn't he try to talk to me?' she couldn't help but ask herself. `It hurts to know that he won't even try to talk to me,' she thought forcing a few tears back before Cagalli could notice them. “Really?” she asked trying to sound as if she wasn't as interested as she really was.

 

“Yeah and he had this strange expression on his face. I don't know what that's about though,” Cagalli said with a laugh but didn't notice how Lacus's face seemed to take on more and more of a pained look as Cagalli kept talking. “He's been like that for a while though. I can't seem to figure out what's wrong but he's been rather moody for the past few months,” she continued looking to be in deep thought.

 

`I just know that's my fault,' Lacus thought but forced a smile on her face. “Well I hope things get better for him soon. He was always such a nice person when we would talk,” she said hoping it would get better for him if she could just talk to him and explain everything that happened.

 

***End Flashback***

 

After that talk with Cagalli, Lacus immediately set off to look for him leaving her father to look after Shiro who was still sound asleep. She found little success though since it appeared that Kira had vanished from the building. `Or he was avoiding me,' she thought with a deep frown.

 

Looking out the window, Lacus saw absolutely nothing even though she knew there were several men out there to make sure she didn't try to escape. She had no worries about them watching her. Trent put them far enough away so that they couldn't watch her since he was very possessive of what he believed to be his property. Yet they were close enough to notice her should she try to run.

 

`He hates me. He wishes I was dead. Yet he's possessive enough so that he wouldn't want anyone else to see me,' she thought rolling her eyes as she relaxed within the seat while looking at her son listening to his soft even breathing.

 

`I wish for you to have a happy and loving family. That's impossible while Trent is around but I will make sure you have that eventually,' she thought leaning over and placing a light kiss upon her son's forehead. Shiro didn't wake up at all from the slight contact and Lacus couldn't help but smile at that.

 

Looking back out the window, Lacus's eyes widened when she saw that Kira was walking around below her. Her heart sped up at the sight of him. She stood up and damn near ran out of the room before pulling herself together. `I can't just leave Shiro alone,' she thought looking at her son and then out the window.

 

She was torn about what she would do. She wasn't sure when her next chance to see Kira would be since she'd be too busy the next day to look for him. She knew she'd see him but to talk to him would be a completely different story.

 

Stepping out her door, Lacus looked around hoping that any of her friends would be around to give her a hand. She only frowned when she saw how empty the place was. `Who am I kidding? I highly doubt anyone will be up this late at night anyways,' she thought with a deep frown.

 

The sound of footsteps approached Lacus's ear. She turned her head and couldn't believe her luck when she saw her father approaching. `How convenient,' she thought with a hint of amusement. “Father?”

 

It was only then that Siegel noticed his daughter standing in the doorway to her room. “Oh, Lacus. I'm surprised to see you up this late at night. Is something the matter?” he couldn't help but ask.

 

“Of course not. But I was wondering if maybe you could watch Shiro for the rest of the night. There's something I need to do right now and I'm not sure how long it's going to take,” she said since she knew it was the truth. If Kira refused to talk to her it would be a short night. But if he did talk to her then she wasn't sure how long it was going to take.

 

“Of course, I don't mind. But do you mind if I ask what it is that you need to do that is so important this late at night?” he asked and immediately saw that she looked a bit anxious about something. “You know what, never mind. You just go and do what it is you have to do,” he said and couldn't help but smile when she did and watched as she ran off.

 

Chuckling, he walked into the room and towards the crib with his grandson. “Sometimes I don't understand your mother. Pretty sad since I'm her father,” he whispered quietly so as to not wake up the baby.

 

Shiro's eyes slowly started to open and pitiful wailing started to come from his mouth. `Uh oh,' Siegel thought trying to think what he was supposed to do. He'd hadn't been around a baby since Lacus was one and that was a while ago.

 

Siegel knew this was going to be painful. If what Lacus said was true, then Shiro wouldn't quiet down until Lacus got back. `I hope you hurry up Lacus. I don't think this kid will calm down without you,' he thought picking his grandson and started to rock him within his arms trying to get him to fall asleep again.

 

*****

 

Rushing through the halls, Lacus was vaguely aware that she was only dressed in her sleeping gown with a robe thrown over it. It didn't matter to her though. `It's not like anyone else will be awake to actually see me,' she thought rushing down the stairs instead of waiting for an elevator.

 

`Will he even be willing to talk to me?' she mentally asked herself as she finally got to the bottom floor. She immediately ran outside and towards the area that she'd seen Kira in only a few minutes prior. `Please be here!” she begged feeling short of breath but anxious to see her beloved again.

 

Coming to a stop, she looked around but frowned when she saw that the area was completely empty. `He's not here,' she thought sadly while pulling her robe tighter to her body as a chilly breeze passed by. `I guess my luck is never that good,' she thought taking a seat on one of the benches.

 

Looking out into the ocean that was situated right next to the resort, Lacus felt herself at ease. Despite this she still couldn't get over the sadness that came with the thought that she missed her best opportunity to talk to Kira.

 

“I guess I'll just have to find some other time to talk to him,' she thought standing up and started to walk in the direction of the front doors again but not before taking a look at the ocean.

 

Finally taking her eyes off of the ocean, she continued her walk back inside. Warmth hit her as she went inside and she started heading towards her room when she suddenly stopped when she noticed someone else was there.

 

Turning her head, her eyes widened in shock when she noticed Kira standing there. She just couldn`t believe it. sure she had been looking for him but for some reason it still startled her to no end. “Kira,” she whispered as silent tears of happiness started to come to her eyes.

 

Kira was standing in much the same way to shocked to even move a muscle at the sight of the woman that his heart had both been longing and dreading to see again. “Lacus,” he whispered just the same way as she did. He had no idea what to do right then. He was torn between kissing her and running away.

 

As if acting on some unknown force, Lacus's legs finally started to move and they ran towards Kira as fast as she could. She was going purely on instinct at that moment and her instinct told her to never let him go.

 

Kira still found that he could move even as he saw her rushing towards him. His heart sped up as she finally reached him and wrapped her arms tightly around him and buried her face in his chest.

 

He felt a sense of calm come to him at her closeness but dread eventually took over afterwards. He dreaded letting her go. He dreaded having to say goodbye. He dreaded the thought of never being able to see or hold her again. It was all becoming to much for him to bear.

 

“It's you!” Lacus said happily as she tightened her hold upon him. “I was beginning to think that I'd never be able to see or talk to you again,” she said pulling back to look at his face while staring at him lovingly.

 

Looking off to the side, Kira found that he just couldn't face her. `I guess it really is time for me to say goodbye to her,' he thought hating the idea with all of his being but he knew it would be for the best for both of them. He didn't see how it was possible for them to continue to love each other under these circumstances.

 

Turning to face her again, Kira suddenly found her lips upon his own. His mind was reeling at that point. `This feels so nice nut…' he thought finally pulling himself together enough to push her away. “What are you doing Lacus?” he said in almost a whisper but it was loud enough for Lacus to hear.

 

Surprised at his sudden action, Lacus took a step away from him. “I was just…” she tried to say but found that she'd lost her voice. Being rejected like that by the man she loved hurt her worse than she showed.

 

“You can't just do that anymore!” he said a little harsher than he meant to. The words were just coming out of his mouth. “You have a son now and I don't think Trent will approve!” he continued turning his head away so that she wouldn't see the tears that were threatening to fall.

 

“That didn't matter before, did it?” Lacus asked as he turned around. All she wanted was for him to listen but the words that came out of his mouth were really hurting her. “I don't care about what Trent thinks of us! I love you Kira!” she said in a slightly higher voice.

 

“So you say yet you stayed with him Lacus!” Kira yelled out feeling his heart breaking with every harsh word he said. “Do you have any idea how much I worried! I waited for months for some word from you telling me that you're at least ok! You never once called or at least tried to get some sort of message to me! You left it up to me to find out about all this the worst way possible!” he yelled releasing all of his pent up emotions in the worst way possible for them even though he didn't mean to.

 

“Don't you think that I would have if I could?!” she started to yell back at him. “It tormented me every day knowing that I couldn't talk to you and tell you what was happening,” she said calming down and spoke in an unsteady voice.

 

“Well it's too late for that now Lacus!” Kira yelled as his body shook with his oppressed sobs. “I guess my feelings just weren't enough. I guess what we had just wasn't enough,” Kira spoke in such a saddened tone that it alone was enough to break Lacus's heart more.

 

Lacus hesitantly took a step towards him. “Don't talk like that Kira. Every moment we spent together was perfect. I put all of my love and trust into what we had with each other,” she said in such a soft tone that it wouldn't be possible for anyone to hear unless they were as close to her as Kira was.

 

Kira snorted and turned away. “Love and trust? You didn't even trust me enough to tell me about what happened!” Kira said growing angrier. He knew that he was going too far now but for some reason he just couldn't stop. “Bet you trusted Trent too. I swear you put your so-called trust in someone way too easily!”

 

Taking a step back, Lacus was horrified with what he just said. He might not have said it directly but she knew that was basically saying that it was her fault that she was stuck in such an abusive relationship with Trent. All because she put too much trust in Trent in the beginning. “Do you really mean that Kira?” she asked as tears started to easily fall from her eyes.

 

Kira himself was stunned with his own words. He really didn't mean for his anger to go that far. The words he said weren't how he meant for them to come out. He knew it wasn't her fault so he wondered why those words came out of his mouth.

 

“Maybe you're right,” Lacus continued as she tried her best to suppress her tears yet failed at it. “Maybe I do trust people too much. I thought I could trust you Kira. Now I see that you're no better than Trent. You just come and take what you want from me and then hurt me in the worst possible way!” she yelled before turning around and running away from him as fast as she could.

 

Kira turned around quickly to see her running off. He desperately wanted to call out to her. To tell her that he was sorry. That he didn't mean all those harsh words. Yet he just couldn't seem to find the words. His legs were frozen to the spot as he watched her leave his life once again.

 

“I'm sorry. I'm sorry!” he said finally managing to find his voice but it was too late since she was already gone. “What have I done? How could I have said such cruel words to her?” he asked himself as he collapsed onto his knees and let the tears fall freely.

 

“Maybe she's right. Maybe I am no better than Trent. I never wanted to hurt her yet I did and in the worst possible way. Now she hates me and I don't think there's anything I can do to change that,” he said as he weakly pushed himself to his feet.

 

Standing up straight, he looked in the direction that Lacus disappeared in. “Even if she does hate me. I need to talk to her. I need to tell her that I'm sorry,” he said just looking at in that direction as if hoping that she might come back out of there at any moment. “Maybe I should just give her some space tonight. I just hope she'll listen to me tomorrow and hopefully forgive my stupidity.”

 

Walking slowly towards his room, Kira continued to wallow in his grief. “No matter what the circumstance, I should never have said that. I was so confused, hurt, and angry but I should have never taken it out on her like that. I didn't want things to end like this,” he said angrily at himself. He knew that no pain he felt could ever equal what Lacus must be feeling at that moment.

 

*****

 

Lacus didn't run back to her room immediately. She didn't want her father or her son to see her in such a horrible state. No good amount of acting would be able to hide just how hurt and broken she had become with just a few words spoken.

 

`How could he say such a thing?' she mentally asked herself as she ran out one of the back doors. “I'm such a fool,” she whispered as she finally came to a stop and took a seat on a bench that faced the ocean and listened to the sounds of the wave hoping that it might help mend her shattered heart.

 

`I gave everything I had to him. My love and trust. I told him things that I never did with anyone else. I never felt so strongly about a person. I really thought he was different but I guess I was wrong,' she thought as the tears freely flowed down her face. She probably cried more in the last few minutes than she had in her entire life.

 

`Maybe he doesn't deserve to know he has a son!' she thought angrily while hastily wiping away the tears that continued to fall. `Why should he know? He's pretty much made it clear that he no longer wants anything to do with me!'

 

Lacus's hand came up and she placed it over his heart. `Why do I still love him though? He hates me, he made that clear. He said such cruel things to me. Yet my heart still longs for his,' she thought feeling her shattered heart with her chest.

 

`Why should it? Everything between us, everything we went through. Was it all just a lie? Was it really worth it to put my safety on the line just so that I could love him?' she asked herself while staring at the ground just trying to get the tears to stop flowing. To have that control that she'd always had over her emotions.

 

Lacus knew the answer to her own question. If she had the chance to go back and stop it from happening, she wouldn't. `No matter what is happening between us now, I know that those moments would be ones I would never want to forget,' she thought finally getting a bit of a hold of her emotions.

 

A small smile graced Lacus's lips. `If it wasn't for back then, I wouldn't have my son right now. He's everything to me. I wouldn't trade him for anything,' she thought while wiping away a few more tears.

 

`Why is it everyone I come to like turns out to be more different than I thought?' she continued to ask herself. `Was Kira just angry or did he actually mean what he said? I just don't know what to think anymore. Why did it have to turn out like this?'

 

Standing up, Lacus slowly started to walk towards her room. Her mind was a complete mess right now and she figured she could use a good night's sleep. “Maybe I'll be able to think things through a little more clearly in the morning.'

 

Without even realizing it, Lacus suddenly found herself standing in front of her door. Wiping away as many tears as possible, she opened the door and walked in only to be assault by the sounds of her son's crying. “I'm back!” she yelled trying to sound as normal as possible.

 

A few moments later Siegel came walking into the room carrying the crying Shiro. Almost immediately he noticed that something was wrong. Her eyes were read like she'd been crying. “What's wrong Lacus?” he asked walking up to her quickly.

 

“It's nothing,” she lied even though she knew it was anything but that. She reached out and took her son into her arms and immediately started to do what she could to calm him down. “It's ok sweetie. I'm here now so there's no need to cry,” she spoke in a soft tone. `If you keep crying then I might start to cry again,' she thought forcing back the tears that threatened to come forth once again.

 

“I'm really worried now Lacus. I know that there is something wrong. So will you please talk to me about it?” he pleaded with her. To see his daughter, who normally had such a strong control over her emotions, crying. Siegel couldn't help but worry that something really bad must've happened.

 

Moving silently around the room, Lacus pondered whether she should talk to her father about it. Her father had always been so protective of her. If he found out what Trent really does to her, he might overreact and do something rash. She'd seen it happen a few times.

 

“Father… what would you say if I told you that I wanted a divorce?” she figured that was the best way to go about it. She didn't want to mention how he beat her up just to be on the safe side for both of them. Even if Kira didn't want to be with her anymore, she still wanted to raise her son in a friendly and loving environment. Being with Trent wasn't giving her son that opportunity.

 

“Why are you saying this Lacus?” Siegel asked in shock. He never expected for that to come from Lacus. “You have a son now Lacus. Don't you think you should try and work it out with Trent in order for Shiro to have a family?” he asked looking into her eyes worriedly. He didn't want Lacus to get married to him in the first place but he just wanted what was best for his daughter and grandson. He felt that Shiro needed a complete family right then, a mother and a father.

 

“I don't think there's anything we can work out through talking. I've been thinking over this for a while and I just think I could really use your help,” she said in a pleading voice. He was the only one she could really turn to at the moment.

 

“I don't think that is wise Lacus. Before making such a huge decision, I want you to talk to him and try and get things sorted out. You might regret it in the future if you don't,” he said with a frown.

 

“Even if we did, he wouldn't want a divorce. That is why I'm asking for your help. I know that I want to but am not sure of any way that I can actually pull it off,” she responded but Siegel just frowned a bit more.

 

“I know we didn't exactly agree on your marriage to him and in a way I still don't but I don't want to see you make a decision you will later regret. First talk to him and if you still want to then I will be more than glad to help you,” he said standing up and straightening himself out. “You look exhausted, you should get some rest.”

 

Knowing that it would be pointless to argue right now, Lacus just nodded although she really had no intention of trying to talk it out. “Father, can you please not tell Trent about this discussion we had?” she asked quietly and was glad when she just saw him nod his head before leaving the room.

 

Lacus knew that if she told her father the truth he would immediately go to the police. She also knew that it would do little good as it would just tell Trent that she told someone. No matter what she'd have to go back and it would just cause greater trouble for her and Shiro if she did. `It looks like I'll have to find a way out on my own for now,' she thought rocking Shiro in her arms.

 

*****

 

Growling loudly, Cagalli looked at the dress she was wearing. “Why does it have to be a wedding dress? Why couldn't it be a wedding pants and shirt? I hate wearing dresses!” she growled out as she was getting ready.

 

Despite her situation, Lacus couldn't help but laugh at what Cagalli just said. `Typical Cagalli,' she thought shaking her head. “It's only for one day Cagalli. I'm sure you can handle that,” she said with only a halfhearted smile.

 

“Speak for yourself. You actually like to wear beautiful dresses. I just find them to be nothing but an inconvenience. I swear I am never wearing a dress ever again after today!” she said while fidgeting around in the dress.

 

“You say that every time you wear a dress and yet you still have to wear one every once in a while. There's nothing wrong with wearing them. Besides, you look beautiful,” Lacus responded while she was putting on her own dress in a dressing room.

 

“Flattery isn't going to make me stop complaining. Whoever came up with the idea of dresses should be killed,” she growled finally managing to get the dress on. To her, dresses were an inconvenience to put on and an inconvenience to wear.

 

Lacus rolled her eyes as she came out of the dressing room wearing the same dress from the day before. “A little late for that. They've been dead for a very long time,” she said looking at herself in the mirror once more to make sure she looked ok. Her face was tired but beautiful as always and the bruise was well covered up.

 

“Then let their soul burn in hell!” Cagalli replied as she gave a sigh of relief when she finally managed to get it on right. “How much longer until we get started? I want to get out of this thing soon!” she complained with a sigh of frustration.

 

`Yep, typical Cagalli,' Lacus thought with a fake smile on her face. She was happy for her two friends since they were finally getting married but her mood was still pretty down after the horrible confrontation she had with Kira the night before. “It shouldn't be much longer.

 

Are you feeling nervous?” Lacus asked and Cagalli nodded her head slightly. “It's ok though, it's quite natural for a bride to be on her wedding day. I know I felt nervous as well.” She said with another fake smile. `Of course mine was more about the argument I had with my father. It wasn't that bad before then,' Lacus thought looking as happy as possible yet feeling the exact opposite.

 

A knock on the door snapped both of them out of their thoughts. “It's open!” Cagalli yelled since it was her and Lacus were already dressed. They were the only ones in there at that moment since the rest of her bridesmaids were off wondering around somewhere.

 

The cracked open a little and Kira's head popped in. “I was told to tell you that there's only ten minutes left,” he told Cagalli who nodded her head. He then took a look in Lacus's direction and his eyes saddened. His regret for the previous night was weighing heavily upon him.

 

Lacus was doing her best not to look at him. The words he said were fresh on her mind. Yet her eyes ended up drifting over and their eyes crossed. She saw such sadness in his eyes as well as guilt. `Is he feeling guilty about last night?' she asked herself before looking away quickly.

 

Seeing her reaction, Kira felt even worse. “Just… make sure you're completely ready by then since you tend to procrastinate,” he said Cagalli before rushing out of the room to avoid her wrath.

 

Cagalli's eyes twitched in annoyance but she didn't do anything else. At that moment her nerves were on end and she was really beginning to feel nervous as the time that she was supposed to go out there and pledge her marriage vows to Athrun. She was scared but knew that she was never so certain about doing anything this much before now.

 

Not knowing what she was thinking, Lacus stood up and rushed to the door as fast as she could in the dress she was wearing. “I'll be back in a few minutes Cagalli. Just remember to remain calm,” she instructed and Cagalli nodded as Lacus rushed out the door. She felt like she needed to know if Kira was really feeling guilty or not because of what she saw in his eyes.

 

Stepping out the door, Lacus looked around and spotted Kira's retreating figure. She started to walk a bit quicker. “Kira!” she called out to him. She noticed him flinch a bit but came to a stop. “I… need to talk to you… about last night,” she said quietly. She wasn't sure if he was still angry or not and didn't want to push things. Yet she had to know if he meant what he said or not.

 

“I'm busy right now,” Kira said in a low tone. He then started to walk away leaving Lacus alone before he suddenly came to a stop. Kira's head turned slightly but his eyes remained downcast as he spoke. “We'll talk later,” he said in a soft voice before he continued walking in the direction that the groom's room was in.

 

Lacus really didn't know what to make of that. When he first spoke he sounded mad and then he sounded like he did back in the days when they first met. `Is he still mad at me? Or is he mad at himself? I can't seem to figure him out right now,' she thought before slowly turning to walk back to Cagalli.

 

Walking back into the room, she saw Cagalli sitting and waiting for this thing to get started. Lacus wanted to know more about what Kira was going through these past few months. She wanted to know just how much pain her stupidity inflicted upon him. “What's wrong with Kira? He seems different.”

 

Taking a deep breathe, Cagalli look up at Lacus. “He's been like that for a while. At first it was like he was moping but a little more than five months ago he snapped. Something happened and he ended up putting his hand through a wall crushing it in the process. Pretty gruesome actually,” Cagalli said remembering how nasty his hand looked after that.

 

`Five months? That's about the time that we ran into each other and he found out I was pregnant,' she thought with a grimace. “Did he… mention what happened?” she found herself asking even though she knew exactly what happened.

 

“Not really. He didn't mention any specifics except for one thing. He said that it was because he lost something precious to him. To this day I still don't understand what he meant by all that. Why all the questions about Kira?” she asked looking at Lacus with an inquisitive look.

 

“It's nothing. I was just curious about why he seemed so different from when we last talked,” Lacus said before frowning at the thought of just how much pain she made him go through for her. `I was that precious to him?'

 

`I was a fool. I should've just left with him the first chance I could but I was too afraid of Trent to do so. I just knew that if I didn't come back that he'd hunt me down and hurt me as well as Kira. I just didn't think I could handle letting that happen,' she thought taking a seat in one of the chairs in the room. `I left him then to stop him from being hurt but only ended up hurting him even worse myself,' she thought hating how she was the one that hurt Kira herself.

 

“Did you and Kira have an argument or something like that before you left?” Cagalli asked since she knew that Kira and Lacus got to talking a lot when she was still on vacation. Cagalli just guessed it was because the two of them had so much in common.

 

Looking at Cagalli, Lacus just shook her head since it was the truth. “Not really, why do you ask?” she asked wondering if Cagalli might have figured out what had happened between herself and Kira during that time.

 

“It's nothing really. It's just when Kira found out that you went into labor he outright refused to go see it even though you invited him. I got the feeling that he'd rather put his hand through the wall again instead of going. Didn't the two of you become good friends after you met?” she asked with a curious look on her face.

 

“I guess you could say that. He was just someone that was friendly and easy to talk to,” Lacus said even though she knew he was a lot more than that to her at the time. “I guess that's why he didn't come. I wouldn't know why he was like that though,” she outright lied since she knew exactly why he didn't come.

 

“Oh he came with me. I had to force him though,” Cagalli said with a bit of a laugh. She didn't notice how Lacus's eyes widened a bit in surprise and a bit of happiness. “I pretty much had to literally drag him there to get him to come along.”

 

`He really did come?' Lacus asked herself becoming happy. Sure, Kira and her weren't on speaking terms but it was still his son and she was at least glad to know that he was there. `I wonder if he even got to see Shiro at the hospital,' she thought with an expression that seemed to be a mix between a frown and a smile.

 

Looking up, Cagalli saw the expression on Lacus's face and couldn't help but laugh. “What's… with… the face… Lacus?” she said between her laughter. For the moment she forgot all about how nervous she was.

 

`Well at least something good happened. I managed to get Cagalli to calm down,' Lacus thought as a smile came to her face. She looked up at the clock and smiled before looking at Cagalli again. “Looks like it's time.”

 

Cagalli's heart was pounding inside her chest. Never had she been so nervous. She made a last minute touch before she stood up and tried to put on a courageous face but anyone could still tell how nervous she was.

 

A few minutes later, everyone was setting up just waiting to go out. Little by little they started to file out and walk down the aisle until it was only Cagalli standing there waiting for her cue to head out.

 

A few moments later the music started up and the doors in front of her opened. Doing as she practiced several times, she walked out of the doors with as much grace as she could muster. She was escorted by her adopted father Uzumi Nara Athha.

 

Looking up, she saw Athrun standing at the end of the aisle. Kira was next to him as his best man and Nicol, Yzak, and Dearka were the rest of his groomsmen. Looking to the opposite side, she saw Lacus standing there watching her as her maid of honor. Next to Lacus were three old friends of hers Juri, Asagi, and Mayura.

 

For what seemed like eternity she walked down the aisle. When she did get there she gave her adoptive father a hug before he took his seat. She then took the few steps needed in order to stand next to Athrun.

 

Looking at Athrun, Cagalli couldn't help but admire how he looked in his tuxedo. Dirty thoughts started to form in her head before she shook them off. `Down girl. Wait till later,' she mentally reprimanded herself before turning her attention to the priest as he started the wedding ceremony.

 

After a while, it got down to the vows. Taking the ring from Kira, Athrun started to say his vow. “When we first met, I thought I saw an angel until you yelled at me for staring. That never got me down though. I was always a bit too scared to make a move though and it took several years before I mustered up the courage to tell you how I truly felt. It all paid off though as you felt the same. I don't think Kira's forgiven me quite yet for keeping it a secret for so long,” he said and that got a chuckle from a few people. “If given the chance, I know that I would never want to do anything different. The times we spent together will always be precious to me no matter what happens in the future. That's why I know I can promise to cherish, love, support, protect, and forever remain faithful to you for the rest of my life,” he said slipping the ring onto her left ring finger.

 

Cagalli's normally tough personality crumbled and she felt a few tears of happiness run down her face. She thought his vows were great and just hoped that her own could match up to his.

 

Lacus held the ring out to Cagalli who took it and turned back to Athrun. “I'm not what you'd call a great speaker. Not like Lacus who seems to know what to say when it is needed. I would always say stupid things that would piss people off. Yet you never cared. You always stayed by my side; first as my best friend, and then as the love of my life. To tell the truth, I never thought I'd see myself in this position. Everyone told me I needed to act more like a girl or I'd never find a man that I would marry. I knew that if I did change who I am, I just couldn't be myself. You accepted me for who I am and not what others wanted me to be. For that I will always love and cherish you as my best friend and love. I promise you that I will always remain by your side, be faithful, and love you until the end of time,” she said slipping the golden ring upon his left ring finger.

 

Staring into each other's eyes, neither of them realized that the priest started to speak again. “If there are any here who object to this marriage, speaker now or forever hold your peace,” he said but no sound came from the audience and it was only then that the two really turned their attention back to the priest eager for the next part. “By the power invested in me, I now pronounce you man and wife. You may kiss the bride.”

 

Not wasting any time, Athrun pulled her into his arms and crushed his lips to hers as cheer erupted around the two of them. Each was unaware of anything else as they were swept away in the love the kiss represented between the two of them.

 

Turning around to leave, the newly weds pretty much ran out of the building. Both were a bit eager for the night but they knew they had to go to the wedding reception first.

 

Everyone else started to leave after that. The bridesmaids left being escorted by the groomsmen. Much to Kira's discomfort, it was his responsibility to escort the maid of honor out of the building afterwards.

 

It felt like forever but they got out and separated. Kira was afraid he might do something rash again. He didn't mean to do that last time and it just happened. For that he could never forgive himself. He didn't want to make the same mistake again and just make things worse for her. He was determined to apologize to her though when they talked later.

 

*****

 

The ball room for the wedding reception was beautiful and huge. That was Lacus's thoughts as she made her entrance into the beautifully decorated room. The tables were all set up around the room except for a space that was open for people to dance it. Red roses were set up all over the place since they were some of Cagalli's favorite flowers.

 

Walking further into the room, Lacus started to talk to a few people. It wasn't long after that that Athrun and Cagalli arrived after being announced as Mr. and Mrs. Zala. `Cagalli Zala. It has a unique ring to it,' Lacus thought as she watched the two of them walk into the room.

 

Walking into the room, Athrun and Cagalli took to greeting as many guests as possible and by the end probably managed to greet just about every guest that was at the reception. It was after they were done that they went and took their seats at the main table in the front of the room.

 

Time passed and eventually it got to the point where Athrun and Cagalli had to make their first dance as a married couple. Standing up, Athrun held out his hand to Cagalli. “May I have this dance my beautiful bride?” he asked with a grin on his face at the thought that they were now married.

 

“I guess,” was Cagalli's simple response which would make some people think she didn't care but the bright smile on her face told otherwise. She placed her hand in his as he led her towards the dance floor.

 

People stood around the dance floor to watch the newly weds have their first dance. Kira stood off to the side but still had a clear view of the dance that was taking place. He knew full well that he'd have to dance with the maid of honor as well since it was tradition.

 

`Maybe I can use that opportunity to apologize to her. Just because I'm miserable, doesn't mean that she should be as well because of my stupidity. Just because it's impossible for me to have her for myself, doesn't mean that I can't still love her or want her to continue loving me back,' Kira thought while watching the dance between his sister and brother-in-law continue.

 

Kira started to think similar thoughts to those that he had at the hospital a month before. `Everyone has someone that they can love. Athrun and Cagalli have each other now that they are married. Lacus has her son. I don't have a wife or a son. I'm all alone compared to everyone else,' he thought hating that he was so alone in the world.

 

Kira had been like this since he was really young. He was unable to keep friends because he was always moving around. He was what people would call a genius, though his sister disagreed saying that he tended to lack common sense.

 

He graduated from high school when he was barely thirteen and then graduated from college with a master's degree in business with a minor in programming when he was only sixteen. Before then he wasn't in one place long enough to make some really good friends except for Athrun and Cagalli.

 

He made a few friends afterwards but found that it was harder to trust people since many thought they could use his intelligence to their own advantage. So he just kept to a small group of friends but he was actually happy about this. The only thing he was missing was that he didn't have anyone in his life that he could see himself spending the rest of his life with.

 

Kira tried to go out with women but never found anyone that he could actually see himself with. Then he found Fllay and thought he'd found that person. It wasn't long before he found out what she was really like. She was just a greedy woman out for her own gain. Yet he was afraid of being alone so he stuck with her despite all that she actually was.

 

When he met Lacus he thought he found that special person. Yet she was married. That didn't stop him though and he fell in love. It felt so wonderful when he heard her say that she'd fallen in love with him as well.

 

Hanging his head, Kira took a seat in a nearby chair. `Maybe I was a fool to think it could actually work out but my heart continued to long for her love and it still does. My fear of being alone made me panic. I didn't want to be alone but knew it was impossible to be with her since she was not only married but now had a son. I ended up saying stuff that I don't think I can ever forgive myself for. Maybe I deserve to be alone,' he thought with a deep frown.

 

Standing off to the side a little bit, Lacus saw how sad Kira looked right then. `Kira,' she thought seeing for herself just how much pain he was keeping to himself instead of talking about it with others. `I don't think it's just what he said or what has happened between us either,' she thought forgetting about the pain she felt at his words from the previous night.

 

Before she could do anything, the dance between Athrun and Cagalli finally ended. Cagalli walked towards Lacus with a smile. “Your turn Lacus. It is tradition for the best man and maid of honor to dance.”

 

The color in Lacus's face paled a bit. This was one of the biggest problems she had just going to the wedding. Trent knew she was maid of honor. So he was pissed when he found out she'd have to dance with Kira of all people for one dance. Yet he still couldn't deny it since it was Siegel Clyne's request that she be there with Shiro since he was so determined to get on Siegel's good side. Though it didn't stop him from threatening her about it.

 

“Come on!” Cagalli said as she started to push Lacus towards the dance floor. “It's only one dance so it doesn't have to mean anything just because you're married,” she said looking as Athrun was doing the same thing as her except with Kira. “Besides, the both of you need to cheer up. I don't want anyone sad at my wedding,” Cagalli continued as a grin spread on her face.

 

Kira and Lacus were pushed onto the dance floor as others started to grab partners to join in. The two of them looked at each other uneasy but were pushed in each other by Athrun and Cagalli.

 

Reluctantly, the two of them started to dance with each other. They were both pretty surprised when they found themselves dancing almost perfectly with each other. Something that the rest of the guests took notice of almost immediately. Many actually thought that the two of them were a couple.

 

“We really do need to talk Kira. Can you please meet me by my room after the reception is over?” Lacus finally whispered about half way through the song. She wasn't sure what was going to happen because of last night but she wanted to figure it out.

 

Looking at Lacus sadly, Kira didn't make any sort of indication for a few moments. Then he finally nodded his head. “Yeah, there's something I need to talk to you about as well,” he whispered figuring that it would be the best time to apologize to her without having so many people around.

 

The end of the song came faster than either of them thought. They separated and went back to where they were before they were pulled to the dance floor by the newly weds. Both wanted to get a little thinking done before they saw each other again.

 

It wasn't until several hours later that everything started to slow down and Athrun and Cagalli got around to saying goodbye to everyone. The two of them were pretty exhausted by the time the last of the guests had left.

 

“I'd say that was a good end to an overly exhausting day,” Athrun said and Cagalli could only nod her head which was lying upon his shoulder. “Hey now, don't fall asleep on me already. We still have the rest of the night ahead of us,” he whispered into her ear causing her to blush a bit. Sure they had done it before but the thought was still a bit embarrassing to talk about.

 

The two of them got up and quickly rushed towards the door but not before saying a quick goodbye to Kira, Lacus, and the few remaining guests. They immediately rushed to the suite that was set up for the both of them to use that night before they headed off on their honeymoon the next day.

 

They were all over each other as soon as the door closed. Their lips and tongues clashed with each other as they tried to fight for dominance with neither of them coming out on top.

 

Cagalli was quick and trying to rid herself of the dress. She saw no better reason at the moment. She was forced to remain in it for the entire reception but she wanted out of it now and as fast as possible. So basically it was a mixture of her hatred of dresses and her hormones.

 

“You sure are eager,” Athrun said with a laugh as his hand went around her waist to help her undo the dress. The dress fell to her feet and she was left standing in a pair of underwear since the style of the dress made it so that it wasn't wise to wear a bra along with it.

 

Stepping as close to her as possible, Athrun's hand came up and cupped one of her luscious breasts. She moaned as he rubbed it while his mouth went to attack her throat with warm kisses.

 

Cagalli's hands went up and started to unbutton the dress shirt he was wearing. The coats and other things were discarded about half way through the reception as it started to get a bit to hot to keep any of them on.

 

Cagalli nearly didn't have the patience and almost decided to rip open the shirt. Luckily she kept her cool long enough to get the last few buttons undone before the pulled the shirt out and threw it to the other side of the room before throwing her mouth upon his.

 

Throwing off his shoes, Athrun grabbed Cagalli and started to pull her towards the bed. They stumbled around the dimly lit room under the fell hard upon the bed while each of their hands roamed all over their body.

 

Neither of them really had any patience to take it slow. They were the types who preferred it to be a little faster a rougher. So they were doing their best to get rid of their clothes as fast as they could.

 

Undoing Athrun's pants, Cagalli's hand slipped in and grabbed a hold of his hardened member. Athrun gasped and knew he was in her mercy at the moment though he found that to be an even bigger turn on. Her fiery spirit was what attracted him to her the most.

 

Cagalli pulled down his pants and boxers with her other hand. The hand gripping his hardened dick slowly began to rub it up and down in a teasing way. She grinned as she gripped it a little harder making him groan in satisfaction. He once told her that he liked it when she was rough with him.

 

“Damn it! Quit teasing me Cagalli!” Athrun growled and gasp when he felt her warm mouth surrounding him. He had to stop himself from bucking into her mouth. His hands immediately came up and rested upon the back of her head only to have them swatted away a moment later.

 

Pulling herself off of him for a moment she glared at him. “Now, now, just let me do all the work,” she said but she didn't go back to what she was doing on a few moments prior. Instead she stood up and rid herself of her last remaining clothes before crawling back onto the bed over Athrun.

 

She crawled over him until she was positioned right over him. With a quick thrust he was fully sheathed within her as they both let a moan of pleasure escape from their mouths at the feel of fulfillment that came with this act.

 

Pulling herself off him a little, Cagalli then slammed back down upon him. She felt like she was in heaven as she did this a few more times. Each thrust sent more and more waves of pleasure riding through the both of them as they sought to find their climax.

 

Feeling himself reaching the innermost part of her nearly sent Athrun over the edge. He never like to leave the Cagalli with nothing so he forced himself back from finding what he wanted most at the moment. He'd make sure that she found her first before he did anything else.

 

Instead of doing nothing, Athrun's hands came up and grabbed a hold of Cagalli's breasts as they bounced with each of her thrusts. She placed her hands over his own making sure to hold him there.

 

“Oh yeah, so good!” Cagalli said in a high voice as she felt herself coming closer and closer to her completion. “I'm getting so close!” she moaned out loving the feel of his hands upon her breast and his member buried deep within her love canal.

 

Grinning, Athrun grabbed a hold of her waist and flipped them over before she had a chance to protest. “It's my turn to be in charge now,” he said thrusting himself in as hard and deep as he could. This earned a gasp from Cagalli which Athrun couldn't help but grin out.

 

Grabbing a hold of Cagalli's legs, he placed them over his shoulder and thrust into her again. This sent him a little deeper if it was even possible. It also earned him a scream of pleasure from his wife.

 

That one move sent Cagalli over the edge as she climaxed fast and hard. “Athrun!” she screamed for the entire world to hear as her inner walls clasped tightly around him and pleasure seared through her body unlike any she had ever felt before then.

 

This was also all it took for Athrun. He just couldn't hold on anymore and thrust into her one last time before he found his climax and blew his load deep within her. He then collapsed on top of her breathing heavily while trying to collect his senses once again.

 

Looking up at her husband, she saw that he was tired a bit. “Don't… tell me… that… you're done… already,” Cagalli said with a teasing tone to her voice despite how tired she sounded from her orgasm.

 

Lifting his head up, Athrun looked into the beautiful eyes his wife possessed. “Of course not… this is only… round one,” he said with a smirk before looking at the clock. “We still have the whole night ahead of us. So don't think you're going to be getting any sleep tonight,” he said throwing the blankets over them to start again.

 

*****

 

It was a while since Lacus saw Athrun and Cagalli run off to their room. Lacus envied the two of them for being able to love each other so freely. She wished she could have that but she was stuck in a loveless marriage.

 

She remembered she wasn't so eager for her wedding night. Trent basically dragged her to the room but at the time she just thought he was excited. Now she knew he just wanted to inflate his pride by ruining her. It was her first time and it was anything but special.

 

Standing up, she started to walk to her room so that she could meet with Kira but she saw her father walking towards her. “Lacus,” he said making her come to a stop and turn completely in his direction. “Could you do me a favor?” he asked and she nodded her head. “I was wondering if you'd let me take Shiro for the night. I haven't gotten to spend much time with him since he was born. You didn't leave him with me for long last night and I thought it would be a good time to spend some time with him. Plus you look exhausted. I figure this will give you a chance to get a good night's sleep,” he said with a small smile.

 

Lacus wasn't sure what was going to go on between her and Kira. She wanted Shiro to be there if she ended up telling Kira the truth about his son. “I don't see why not. But could you pick him up in an hour?” she asked a bit hesitantly.

 

“I don't see that as much a problem. Just make sure to have his stuff ready by then. Then I want you to get some rest young lady,” he said walking away towards his room. He figured that it might be much more convenient Lacus's way since he could get some things ready before he went to get Shiro.

 

Looking over, she saw Kira nod his head and walked out of the room and head in the direction in which he knew Lacus's room was in. Lacus was soon to follow him out and headed in the same direction. She found him waiting just around the corner from the hall her room was in.

 

“Thank you for talking to me Kira,” she said as she came to a stop by him. She wasn't sure what else to say to him. She still wasn't completely clear on what happened the night before which made her nervous that he might start to yell at her again. She wasn't quite sure if she could take anymore of that from him.

 

“I got someone looking after Shiro for now. Just give me a minute and I'll go tell her that she could leave,” Lacus said as she walked around the corner and then towards her room.

 

Frowning slight, Kira crossed his arms over his chest. `She wants to talk to me with her son there? He's the reason we can't be together anymore,' he thought staring at the ground sadly wondering why she was doing this to him.

 

Hearing the door to the room open and close, Kira watched as an elderly woman walked out of the room and left in the completely opposite direction than Kira was in. He waited a few moments before he started to walk towards the door. He could hear crying inside and hesitated before he knocked on the door.

 

“Come in Kira!” Lacus's voice from the inside of the room. The door opened and she saw Kira walk in staring nervously at the ground. “Just give me a second while I calm him down a bit,” she said and he just nodded and took a seat in one of the chairs placed around the room.

 

The crying soon stopped and Lacus came walking into the room that Kira was waiting in. “Sorry about that, he tends to get a bit fussy when he's around others,” she said and he just nodded. “Kira… I was just…” she started but he cut her off before she could manage to say anything else.

 

“I'm sorry Lacus,” he said before she could finish her question. He knew she was just going to ask about what he said the previous night. He immediately felt a great burden lifted off his chest. “Last night I said things I didn't mean. I was just so confused and scared that I acted irrationally and said stuff to you that I never wanted to ever say. It killed me after I said that to you but I know it must've been much worse for you. No matter how angry I was, I shouldn't have taken it out on you. I understand if you hate me now but I just had to get that off my chest,” he said finding it hard to look Lacus in the face.

 

What Kira didn't see was that a relieved smile spread across Lacus's face. “I'm also sorry for putting you through all that. I heard about what happened to you from Cagalli and it makes me feel horrible that it was my fault,” Lacus said relieved to know that he didn't actually hate her.

 

Kira's heart clenched tightly in his chest. “Forget about it Lacus. I guess we were just never meant to be. I… guess I better go then,” Kira said standing up and started to walk to the door. “I really did love you Lacus more than you'll ever know,” he said as that pain of loneliness came back to him.

 

“Kira! Wait!” Lacus yelled running up to him and clutched onto his shirt. “Please don't leave me!” she yelled burying her face into his back. “I don't think I could take it if I lost you again!” she said in desperation as she clutched on to him with all of her might. She didn't want to let him go again. Not to mention that she still had to tell him about his son.

 

Against his better judgment, Kira turned around quickly and wrapped her tightly within his arms. “I don't want to lose you either but I know that it's impossible. You had his child Lacus, you stayed with him. Do you expect me to wait around for you when I know it's no longer possible?” he asked feeling himself on the verge of tears.

 

Kira didn't want to make the same mistakes as the night before. If he really was going to lose her than he wanted at least a few more moments to in her in his embrace. He wanted this last moment to be worth all the time in the world. His stupidity stopped him from having that moment with her the night before.

 

Biting her lip, Lacus pulled away from Kira and took a few steps back. “You're wrong Kira. The way I see it, as long as we still love each other there will always be a chance for us. I'm just not sure when that chance will happen,” she said looking towards the ground. “There's one more thing Kira and I hope you won't hate me for it,” she said biting her lip once again.

 

Looking at Lacus carefully, Kira wasn't sure what was going on right then. “What is it and why will you hate me?” he asked as a feeling of dread started to sweep through his body. She had such a guilty look on her face about something and that was what worried him the most.

 

Lacus had no idea how she should put this. She was so worried how he would react to this. “Can… you please close your eyes for a few seconds? Don't open them until I tell you to,” she said as she started to shake slightly.

 

Not knowing what was going on, Kira just closed his eyes. He could hear her walking off somewhere and grew a little more confused. He then heard her walking back in but from what he could tell her steps sounded a lot more cautious.

 

“Hold out your arms for a second,” he heard her say. Since he still had no idea what was happening he just followed her orders and held his arms out in front of him. Next thing he knew, he felt a small weight being placed in his arms.

 

Without waiting for her to say so, he opened his eyes and saw that she had placed her son in his arms. He freaked out a little bit at the sight of the small child in his arms. “Lacus please just take him back! I don't think Trent will be happy knowing I'm holding him!” he said trying to put the child back in Lacus's arms.

 

Lacus just lightly held the child in place. “Please, you need to hear me out,” she said and he quieted down but still looked a bit freaked out to be holding Shiro. Looking at her son, she couldn't help but smile. “I guess he knows,” she said looking at her perfectly silent son.

 

To say that Kira was confused was the understatement of the year. He had no idea what Lacus was talking about. `Is she trying to torture me or something?' he couldn't help but ask himself. He didn't want to be holding Trent's child. “Knows? Knows what? What's going on Lacus?” he asked in desperation.

 

“He's silent. No matter who has held him before now he has always put up some sort of protest. He hasn't liked to be held by anyone but me,” she explained to him but saw that he just got even more confused. “Look at him Kira. What do you see?” she asked in a gentle tone.

 

Looking down at Shiro. Kira didn't really know what to say in response to her request. “I guess he's a cute kid. Good thing he doesn't look like his father,” he said which was pretty much the only thing that came to his mind.

 

A smile crossed Lacus's face at his response. “You're wrong. I think he looks exactly like his father,” she said with a bight smile. Before he could manage to figure out what she meant, she came in and kissed his lips with as much love as she could muster while being careful of their child. “He looks just like…” she said before kissing him one last time since she was sure how he'd react to her next word, “you.”

 

Kira couldn't believe what he just heard. `Mine?' he thought far too stunned to make any possible words. `What's going on? How can it be mine?' he thought before finally finding the words. “How can it be mine?” he finally asked trying to process the information in his head.

 

“Trent has to force me to sleep with him Kira. He did that once a few days before I left but he could never finish. There was no recent time before that that he could manage because I always avoid it when possible. Not to mention that we didn't use any protection. Don't you remember Kira?” she asked in a soft voice that was almost too hard for Kira to hear.

 

Looking back towards Shiro, Kira finally got a good look at the kid and he couldn't help but admit that there was a striking similarity even though the child's eyes were that of Lacus's. “He really is mine?”

 

“Yes, he is Kira,” Lacus responded although the tone of her voice was really sad. “I'm sorry!” she said breaking out into tears. “I tried to tell you before he was born but I was never able to. Trent is keeping us under too close a watch for either of us to get away though,” she said trying to keep as strong as possible yet failing.

 

Collapsing into a chair, Kira stared at Shiro and then towards Lacus. “So even though he's my son, I can't even raise him as my own? I have to just sit back and watch as Trent raises him instead?” Kira said in a tone of utter defeat, hurt, and great sadness. Never had anything hurt more than hearing that.

 

Lacus didn't answer Kira. She just kept repeating the same words over and over. “I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,” she continued to say as the tears really started to pour down her face. Never had she ever felt worse than she had now. The way Kira spoke sent daggers through her heart.

 

When Kira looked back up at her, Lacus was surprised to see a fierce determination in his eyes. It was so different from the pain that she saw there barely a few seconds ago. “I can't give up on the two of you anymore. I will find a way to get you away from there. Both you and our son Lacus,” he said contradicting what he said earlier.

 

Kira knew that she would stay for her son no matter what the circumstances she was put under to do so. This however made Kira feel like she had just abandoned him and fed upon his anger and fear of loneliness making him say what he did the night before. Now he felt glad that she did. She protected his son at all costs. `I feel like a real bastard.'

 

He only thought it was impossible for them because he thought it was Trent's son. Trent would make sure to keep it and Kira had no connection to the child. However, Lacus would never abandon Shiro. Sure it would've hurt him but it was also Lacus's choice. `I was a fool for just coming to a conclusion without thinking it through. Cagalli was right. I guess I do lack common sense.'

 

To know that it is actually his gave him a new sense of determination. He would get Lacus back and they'd take their son with them. `My heart kept telling me there was hope even though my mind refused to admit it. I guess it was right. I was thinking too negatively until now,' he thought as a smile broke out on his face. “Nothing will stop me from getting you back this time Lacus. I didn't know what I could do last time. I do this time though. I'll make sure that we are eventually the family we should be.”