I am an Imaginary Living Body

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Dreama Tsuki

Sorry for the long wait, I've been working on a new site at www.angelfire.com/freak/tsuyagoto/ . This is going to be a songchapter(iow: short) with a song called Mello Candle by Weiß. Anyways, all disclaimers apply, let the show begin!

"Spell, incantation, mystery, prayer, myself
Stage destiny magic mirror

Full moon, mysterious and transmutable, I'm an imaginary living
body come to its end
Full moon, mysterious and transmutable, I'm an imaginary
destined body come to its end
Seeking time, without rest
Living on, a speleomorph

Seeking land, armless, legless
Still existing I am, transparent, intangible, a faint sigh..."(long this time o_0, but that's the end of the song)-

from I am an Imaginary Living Body by J. A. Seazer. (Can anyone guess who Utena was dueling when this song was playing?)

Usagi awoke to find herself in the back of what appeared to be a repair truck. Knowing Hiiro, it was probably also stolen. From the look and smell, he apparently got it from some poor plumber who was probably wondering where on earth his truck had gone.

Wufei was not in the van, Usagi guessed he was in another vehicle scouting out a good route for them or acting as a decoy. Usagi hoped he was okay, even if he was a jerk.

Hiiro quietly drove the van along while a song Usagi knew well played on the radio. It was called "Mello Candle" by a group called Weiß that Usagi adored when she thought she was a normal girl.

~All the world is still, all the world is stillAll is in silence, not a sound is heardAll except two lovers exchanging glances in the night~

Usagi cautiously made her way up to the front of the van as the song continued to play on the radio. She looked over at Hiiro and blushed, she had to admit he was quite good looking and seemed to be a great guy deep down, but he acted so cold to her at times. It was liked he cared about her welfare, but not her feelings.

~See the flowers fall, see the flowers fallWithering, they die, beauty aged too fast

Just like them, two peoples true feelings only lead to pain~

Usagi almost wished she didn't love Hiiro. She felt that he would probably never feel the same way she felt about him. At least that is what it felt like, he was so distant at times. It was like he refused to let anyone else into his life. Perhaps he hated her, and was only doing all of this just for the money he was probably getting a large amount of money for playing babysitter.

~All for naught, all useless, leaving hearts as empty shellsWhy lose all feelings for moments pleasure?Mistaken hate for love, no one seems to understand

So just go, leave me dreaming on, until the break of day~

The colony's building's were alive with light, it was like Vegas in a way, but Vegas didn't have tanks and mobile suits guarding the city from any rebellious acts. Hiiro and Usagi both hoped for a peaceful future without the need for violence or soldiers like each other. Perhaps a future together? No, all of those things seemed so intangible and far away, they seemed very unlikely to happen.

~Never forgotten, never forgottenAlways with a kiss, however, not nowSilence met, not a word is needed to explain love lost~

Hiiro drove while the sad song sang. He hated being sentimental, but he couldn't help but wonder if he would be the one singing the sad lyrics? Usagi didn't seem to care for him the way that he apparently cared for her. Quatre said love was hard, and he was right. Love sucked. Especially if you were in his shoes, unable to find the right words for this situation even if his life depended on it.

But he could always try…

"Usagi," he croaked out, it had been days since he had been driving with her asleep in the back.

~As the rain comes down, as the rain comes down

See the two parting, not a word exchanged

Now alone, wounded hearts are left to bleed and then to die~

"Yes Hiiro-kun?" she asked in that sweet voice of hers. She was perfect, she deserved better.

"Put your seatbelt on," damn it!

"Oh, right," she fastened it and Hiiro felt like an idiot.

~So it's true, now I'm sure, love is just a wishful thought

Even feelings die, nothing lasts, give up

Feelings past, lovers gone, so why try to love at all?

Mellow candlelight, like my love, dimly burns away...~

Usagi sighed sadly, she had felt for sure Hiiro had something more important or meaningful to say. But then this was Hiiro, Mr. Jack Frost himself. For a brief moment, she thought that the song was written for her, as if the writer knew she would end up in this situation. Usagi felt like crying, but she knew she shouldn't because Hiiro would ask her why she was crying.

~Softly now, softly now, leave a broken heart to heal

"True love lost," they say, but "true love" should last

Feelings past, lovers gone, so why try to love at all?

Mellow candlelight, like my love, dimly burns away...~

Oh hell, she couldn't hold it in anymore so she cried anyways. She cried and hugged her knees while sitting on the old red seat of the van. The van swayed and the tools in back jingled as Hiiro pulled the van over to the side of the small road.

"Usagi?" he asked, "Why are you crying?"

"Because," Usagi sobbed, "I can't tell you"

"Tell me, now." His voice was firm, she wouldn't be able to lie to him.

"Because… aishiteru."

To be continued!

Hehe, I felt like being really evil and giving a nice cliffy for you guys ~_^

Written on July 17, 2002