Gundam Wing Fan Fiction / Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Oni Angeni ❯ New Disease ( Chapter 1 )

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Hi! I know I haven't updated my other fics in a while (they are on hold) I haven'T felt like writing recently
(plus my muses are on vacation) but today they gave me a gift...althought it's dark it will probably lighten up...
I think....either way I already almost finish the other chapter which will be put up tonight if I get reviews. this fic will
be completely posted by the end of the week...then i'll start finishing the rest of my fics...I now realise I ratter do songfic
of one or 2 parts....and not chapter stories..... but I WILL finish The Messiah... Now please read and Review this fic...it's
my first DARK! THANK YOU







Duo POV








I slammed the front door as I came in, the others looked at me in surprise from the living

room, I didn't care, I wouldn't play Jester Duo today. I could feel their eyes on me as I stomped

up the stairs to my room and see Quatre cringein my mind eye as my bedroom door slammed

even harder. I was in a BAD mood, it usually happened when I had time to think...which I did

today while I watched the people go about their daily routine. I was 17 going on 40, I had had

no childhood to speak of being raised on the streets of L2, stealing to survive and avoiding

wandering hands. I had been exposed to death very early in my life...earlier than any kid should

have with the death of my best friend and protector from my earliest memory plus most of the

other street kids by the plague that hit L2 when I was 6. Then the death and destruction of the

Maxwell Church with the death of every homeless kids inside including Sister Helen and Father

Maxwell, the ones that had taken me in....I was the sole survivor. I was picked up by Dr.G, he

trained me and I became Shinigami, The God of Death, killer, assassin, thief, Gundam Pilot 02..






Now,I can't take this

Everything I know

Realized that I'm nothing I wanted to be

I can never change

Anything I've done

Because it's the only thing I have left






My life will never be normal, blood stains my hands, I am a soldier in 2 wars, the one destroying

lives for the colonies and Earth led by OZ and the one raging in my soul. We might be winning

the first one but I'm losing the second and my insides are killing me. I have a dark soul, who can

be surprised after my childhood, I truly AM Shinigami, for death follows me everywhere.






Blame myself again

For what I didn't do

Never really knew it was coming from me

Change the way I fell

For work didn't get too close

Because I have gone too far now







I can never go back, I put on my carefree mask and silly grins for the others but I am crying

inside, growing cold and hard with time....weary. The others have often remark my crazed eyes

in battle, the cold glazed calculating look in my violet eyes, the look that scare even the Perfect

Soldier. They think it my battle persona, where I bring out Shinigami, The God of Death, to

distance myself from the killing with my maniacal laughter and evil smirks when in fact I drop the

jester look and happy smiles to be myself, I'm to far gone now, I can't be anything else, just a

killing machine.







Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Change my mind

And it leads you to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Let it die

But it still becomes a new disease

Today






The darkness in my soul as spread, I am forever tainted, forever black, from now until the end

of time..... I am Shinigami. It is to late for me but perhaps I can save the others from this dark

disease.






Is this all worth what

This has done to me

Water down my satires and turn them all on to me

Not for reality

And everything I know

If I didn't hate this then I couldn't go

Impersonate myself for what I used to be

Denial is all that's left now






I am only left with the person I had wished I could be, the happy go lucky Duo, before I had

denial, but now I don't even have that. Today I have accepted what I will forever be, I can no

longer hide in my denial, I can only hide the truth, but I will not lie to the others if they ask..but

they never will.... I'm to good at hiding and running. Who would suspect such a brilliant

act...I've had YEARS to refine it...Only G could blow it but even HE is scared of the machine

that I've become. I used to love, now I don't, for it died with the destruction of the

Church....although Heero....NO I can't love, it's been erased by my disease....my

darkness....my madness....Shinigami.






Nobody,Nobody,Nobod y,Nobody

Change my mind

And it leads you to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Let it die But it still becomes a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Change my mind

And it leads me to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Let it die

But it still becomes a new disease






I am Duo Maxwell no more, Today the darkness over took him... now only Shinigami is left.

Nothing can save me now...I won't pray...I have never prayed....Shinigami is born and Duo

Maxwell dies.






Dreaming in my head

I'm suffering instead

I can't remember when this meant so much to me

No! Did I ever want it?

And I coulda been

And I woulda been

No! Did I ever want it?

And I coulda been

And I woulda been



It seems I've forever fought the Darkness...now I can't remember being free of it, when I didn't

want to lose the Duo Maxwell I would have been...I have accepted my faith. I can't remember

when it meant so much...I never wanted to be Shinigami...I would have told you that

yesterday...now i'm not sure...I think I always wanted to be him...I don't know anymore...the

madness.....the urge to strike at the world. Like a disease...slowly it spread, the illusion of

fighting it and winning, the shadow hiding in the heart, stalking, tracking...watching...waiting... I

am the first case...the only case if i can help it...therefore it will be known as....






Conceiving in my head

I'm suffering instead

I can't remember when

This meant so much to me

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Change my mind

And it leads you to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Let it die

But it still becomes a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Change my mind

And it leads you to a new disease

Nobody,Nobody,Nobody,Nobody

Let it die

But it still becomes a new disease

But it still becomes a new disease

But it still becomes a new disease









.....Ubel Heolstor Mabuz (1) or Oni Angeni for short (2)



TBC.....







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1 = Ubel (Evil) Heolstor (Darkness) Mabuz (Ruler of Death Castle)

2= Oni (Demonic) Angeni (Spirit)