Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ [temp title] Beyond the Bounds of Earth ❯ Part Seven ( Chapter 7 )

>> Begin Part Seven

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NOTES: This is the revised version. I got this comment and I thought about it.

>I was really enjoying this fic right up until the last chapter. I really wish you hadn't included that line about Duo and Quatre being so fem they could just as well has been >women. It really ruined the entire feel of the fic for me. A man can be happy and joyful and sensitive without being a "women". It really kind of ruins Heero coming out to >himself if he thinks of Duo as just a girl with a penis. Gay men like other men...not pseudo women. Seriously, it killed the flow of the fic for me as a gay man.

If he had left his e-mail address, I would have replied directly, but this will have to do.

I never thought about that and it is now changed. See, I don't like men, I'm a lesbian, so I really wasn't thinking when I threw that line in there about them being fem. I wasn't getting enough in character and more of just adding my own thoughts. It never occurred to me that this was wrong because I'm too stupid and never tried to really get into the character that deeply. It also never occurred to me that a gay male would read, let alone enjoy a fic that I wrote. I kinda thought they all just laughed at yaoi writers and stuff. Hey, hey, I'm slightly naïve too, you have to cut me a little break, ne? Actually, I'm rather honored, if you want to know the truth, I just hope that I haven't completely offended anyone else. -_-; It seems I'm becoming really good at offending people, which really upsets me because I never meant to offend anyone.

Anyway, I'm going to also put a quick note at the beginning of chapter eight so that if 'Thomas' is reading this still (which I don't see why he would be after I killed it for him -- damn, I'm so stupid sometimes.... most of the time) that he can come and read my apology. He really made me think and actually, really made me upset with myself, and that's a lot more than I can say for most people.

So I'm sorry.

Now, if you'd like to read the more correct version if I haven't completely made an ass of myself, continue.

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He successfully locked himself away in his room all Thursday.

Over and over he replayed everything that had happened between them right up until the end like a CD on repeat.

It hurt so much to keep re-watching everything. He wished he could just stop thinking about it, but he couldn't.

Was it all a sick joke?

No, it couldn't be a joke. Duo wouldn't joke like that.

Duo wouldn't joke? Or maybe 'it' wouldn't joke, but 'it' and Duo were the same, weren't they?

Duo was always 'it' and 'it' was always Duo. What was he upset about?

"I'm just running in circles," Heero realized. "What I need is answers, not more questions."

So Heero made up his mind to talk to him tomorrow.

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Armed with nothing more than Duo's Christmas gift, Heero rang the doorbell. He was more nervous than he could imagine one could be, but he wouldn't back down.

Duo taught him to never back down.

The door opened slowly and Duo peeked around the corner. When he was satisfied that Heero wasn't going to kill him, he opened the door wider.

They faced each other in silence.

Finally, Heero spoke.

"I want a few answers."

"Why?"

"Because I feel betrayed," Heero replied simply.

"Betrayed?"

"Maybe you want a few answers too."

Somehow Duo managed to smile and shake his head. "Come in?" he asked. "You are physically stronger than me in this body and if I fled, I could not hurt you, seeing as I am nothing more than energy in this dimension so you have no need to fear me."

Heero hesitantly stepped inside.

"Why were you so cautious then if you could just flee at any time?" Heero asked as they sat down in the kitchen. Duo got them sodas and sat down across from him.

"I have grown quite fond of this body, actually."

"It's disgusting how you take over people," Heero spat.

Duo was upset by his accusations -- it was obvious.

"This body had lost its energy already, I just gave that back. I cannot inhabit something that already has energy! I would not do that to something with a soul."

"So you're walking around in a dead body? Are you telling me I kissed a dead body?!" Heero cried in disgust.

"This body is very much alive. Every cell in this body is alive. This is my body, mine now! It was abandoned so I restored it. My hands are warm, my muscles flex! My emotions are very much real and alive! I love you!"

"Duo, shut up," Heero asked.

"I love you because you remind me of home. How could I not? Everything about you.... The way you think. I miss home, Heero."

"Duo. Shut up," Heero commanded this time.

"I do not meant to guilt trip you, but you are the only person I have, the only person who could possibly understand."

"Duo, you're babbling."

And he was. Words were just pouring out of his mouth without thought.

"The whole damn situation is so hopeless anyway. What was I hoping to achieve? By coming here? By loving you? Now that I have lost you, I feel stranded. I am so scared, Heero, I am terrified. I--"

"I told you, shut up," Heero stood, speaking gently as he titled his chin up and let his lips touch over Duo's, brushing lightly against their warmth.

When he backed away, Duo was silent, his lips still parted slightly with his first kiss, his eyes open wide with curiosity.

Maybe it wasn't the body's first kiss, but Heero know it was Duo's and that just proved that Duo was an individual.

An individual that Heero loved.

"Why?" he asked, breathless.

"I love you, too. I always have. I'm finally understand...."

Heero stroked his cheek with his thumb, his fingers twinned in wisps of his soft hair.

"Your eyes are beautiful...." Heero whispered, kissing his cheeks. "Maybe that's not a good compliment, seeing as they aren't technically your eyes. You are beautiful...."

He leaned down and let his lips fall upon Duo's once more, nibbling on his lower lip.

"Heero...." Duo murmured, standing. Heero gripped his hands in his own.

They were warm.

"Duo, will you go out with me?"

"Go where, Heero?" Duo asked, his eyes clearly stating that he would follow Heero anywhere.

"Um...." Heero hesitated. How could he explain this? "What I meant was will you date me? Go steady with me? Can we be an item? A couple? Together?"

Duo blushed and nodded rapidly. "You did not even need to ask."

"Yes I did. I want your consent."

"You have all of my consent."

Heero pulled him into the living room and set them down onto the couch, snuggling up with him.

Duo stroked his cheek slowly as they cuddled.

"I never thought I'd get to do this," Heero spoke, kissing his cheek.

"I could not even think it. I was not sure you would understand."

"I didn't at first.... Oh!" Heero reached behind him and pulled out the box. "I got you a gift for Christmas.... I hope you like it...."

Duo's eyes sparkled as he accepted the gift, opening the little box.

"Heero! It is beautiful!" He threw his arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. "I wish I had something to give you...."

"You don't have to give me anything. You just have to be you. I'll be content."

"Help me put it on?"

Heero took it out, holding it in his hands and looking at the charms.

"You know each one represents a part of you to me...." Heero mumbled, blushing like a maniac. "The little book represents how I met you and how smart you are and what we first discovered we had in common, Shakespeare. The rainbow, don't be offended, is because you are, well, homosexual, and because you helped me to realize that within myself rather than to stay miserable the rest of my life."

Even though Heero's words were rather fumbled and clumsy and he was obviously embarrassed, Duo thought it was one of the sweetest things he had ever encountered and he just wanted to take Heero up in his arms and tell him how much he loved him. However he wasn't sure if he could ever do it in such a beautiful way.

"The rose represents your beauty. The angel is what you are to me. My guardian angel and a gift from God to me. The key is to show that you are the first person who has fully been able to unlock the wall that was surrounding my being and my heart, the only person that will ever be able to. The heart is because you have captured mine. You can open it and put a little picture in there, if you want," Heero explained, locking it around his wrist.

"I will have to get a picture of you to put in the locket," Duo told him, admiring the beautiful piece of jewelry on his wrist with bright eyes, his nimble fingers playing over the silver gems.

Heero admired the beautiful boy that sat in his lap, his arms around his waist.

"Do you mind if I kiss you?" Heero asked and Duo's eyes looked up, blushing.

"I...I like it...."

"That's nothing to be ashamed of. I like to kiss you too." Now Heero was blushing once more, his eyes still locked on Duo's.

"Are you ashamed?"

"No, just more shy than I want to be."

Slowly, nervous now, they both moved a little closer before closing their eyes and the space between their lips.

Heero let his tongue slide across Duo's lips, pushing them open gently and slipping into the warm, sweet depths of Duo's mouth.

He could feel Duo's shock at this and Duo's hands tightened around Heero's sleeves as he groaned into the kiss.

This as something he had never experienced before and it was amazing! His tongue waged war with Heero's as they fought for dominance. Lovingly, of course.

Duo began to moan softly as Heero pinned him down on the couch. Heero was slowly being driven out of his mind as Duo moaned his name into his mouth repeatedly.

Duo was his.

Then Heero realized Duo was slowly becoming hard when his upper leg brushed against Duo's crotch.

Heero wasn't ready for that kind of relationship and he knew Duo would regret it if they did do something like that.

Though he didn't want to, he unhooked himself from Duo's mouth and lay back against the couch as Duo caught his breath. Heero realized he was shaking slightly and decided that it was definitely a good thing he stopped when he did. Duo needed to get used to a human body.

"Heero...." he panted and Heero turned to look at the slightly shaking boy. "Why did you stop...? I.... It felt so good...."

Heero smirked. "Obviously too good. I'm not ready to have sex with you, Duo, and the way it was going.... It would have been hard to stop short of that if I let it continue much longer. You need to become used to the human body and not let yourself get so involved in kissing. I should never have gone that far."

Duo sat up and bit down on his lower lip, curling up along the inside of the couch.

"I am sorry, Heero.... I do not know.... I will try to be better. I will try."

Heero looked over at his hurt boyfriend and grabbed his hand.

"Don't apologize. It's actually kind of nice to know that I can turn someone on. I just wanted you to understand my reasoning." Heero pulled him in to his chest, stroking his hair lightly as Duo calmed his body. "I won't be able to see you tomorrow. I have parents. They'll want to spend this holiday in good cheer, or some other bullshit. Do you want to go to the movies with me the day after Christmas?"

Duo blinked up at Heero, ecstatic that he wasn't mad.

"I told Quatre that I would do something with him over the break. Would you mind going with Quatre and Trowa?" Duo asked, scared that Heero would say no or be upset by the idea.

"Quatre and Trowa?"

"They are together too."

"Really? I've never done a double date before.... Trowa isn't such a bad guy, although I don't know much of Quatre...."

"He is very nice," Duo said, smiling wide now, happy that he had won Heero's approval. Heero was truly the only thing he had on the entire planet and the closest reminder of home he had.

"Well, then, what movie do you want to see?"

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Christmas was living hell for Heero. The entire thing was so fake, and everyone felt it. His mother and father clung to each other and treated Heero as if he was once more merely five years of age. Heero realized that she was desperately trying to pull their family back into what it was before all the pain.

Heero also realized that none of them could ever go back.

They could never go back to the way it was, they could only progress.

Unfortunately, his mother wanted to go back, his father didn't give even half a rat's ass either way, and Heero wanted to move forward. So essentially they got nowhere and Heero knew they never would.

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Yet the next day was glorious. Heero picked Duo up around three and they met with Quatre and Trowa at the movie theater. Duo and Quatre immediately began chatting and Duo could be seen bragging about his gift softly while Trowa and Heero were decided upon to order snacks for their sweethearts.

"I thought you said that men weren't your thing," Trowa murmured as they waited in line.

Heero shrugged. "They weren't."

"Are you serious about Duo?"

Heero was indignant. "Of course! I don't think I've ever been so serious about anyone in my entire life!"

"I didn't mean to offend you," Trowa replied, a little surprised by his reaction. "I just don't want him to be hurt. You have to admit, it's slightly odd...."

"I don't think so. I was raised to be perfect, Trowa, but I'm not," he whispered, trying very hard to open himself up to more people. He couldn't be as closed as he was anymore. He just couldn't. It was hurting him more than it ever helped him. He needed people to know who 'he' was. "Duo helped me accept my imperfections. This is merely one of them."

Trowa thought about this and came to the conclusion that Heero was a better man than he thought.

With their popcorn and sodas and candy, they made their way into the movie theater. Duo and Quatre sat next to each other, still managing to gab before the movie started. Heero and Trowa were on their respective sides. None of them found it any different than a normal date.

Yet Heero was rather protective of Duo and held his hand tightly since the time they sat down. As the lights began to dim, he leaned over and gave Duo a quick peck on the lips, much to the surprise of Quatre and Trowa, who were never so bold about their sexualities.

After the movie they decided on Mexican, getting a booth and sitting with their respective partners.

Heero wasn't sure if he'd ever had that much fun in his entire life.

Before the food came Duo had to know if Quatre had with him what he called his 'little camera'. Of course, seeing as the entire thing was a phone conspiracy, Quatre brought it because Duo had asked after Heero left. They got several shots of Heero and Duo with Quatre's small Izone camera, most of which were given to Heero and the two of Duo's choice taken to be cut to fit the locket.

They shared two large orders of steak and chicken fajitas. Heero would fork-feed Duo pieces of meat and they would laugh....

Heero never laughed as much as he did with Duo and Quatre and Trowa. Even Trowa turned out to have a slightly odd but very pronounced sense of humor when he wanted to use it. It was such frivolous humor, too. None of it made any sense if you looked back on it, but at the time it was so amusing....

Heero figured that maybe this was what real friends and real love was. He had never had this before, and he never had real friends or love. It seemed plausible....

Whatever it was, he didn't want to give it up for anything. He just wanted to lock his arm around Duo's waist and have Trowa and Quatre one step behind them.... That was all he needed.

After dinner they decided to go back to Duo's house just to chill.

And chill they did.

Duo managed to find a focus and decided upon fixing the pictures to fit into his locket while Heero followed at his heels, usually with his arms around his waist. Quatre and Trowa, now out of the eyes of on lookers, settled down on Duo's bed and began some serious making out.

"They trust you," Duo observed quietly as he cut around a picture of the two of them, Heero's arm around his neck and Duo's head on his chest.

"What do you mean?" Heero further questioned, glancing back at Quatre and Trowa.

"They would not do that if they did not trust you. They are very...private."

"That's good," Heero whispered into Duo's ear, nipping it gently. "I want them to trust me. I want to trust them."

"You are going to make me mess this up, Heero, if you keep taunting me so," Duo spoke up, trying to wave Heero away from his ear.

"That's not fun," Heero fake-pouted.

"What are you doing to poor Duo over there?" Quatre called from the bed. Trowa was lying on top of him, his arms locked firmly around his waist, his head buried in his neck. You could tell by the unusually rare lax position of Trowa's body that he was completely and comfortably at ease with Quatre in his arms and what Heero was in glee to find real friends around him.

"Stupid guy stuff," Duo called back.

"We haven't even been dating long enough for me to pull all the stupid guy stuff," Heero replied, placing a kiss on his neck.

It was the truth, yet secretly he felt that they were together since they first met, and their first meeting seemed so long ago....

He felt that they could easily date as long and longer than Quatre and Trowa, who were going on two years. He learned that their relationship was on the rocks when they started out. Trowa was afraid to open himself to Quatre who took it as rejection. Yet they suck through.

Heero knew he despised Duo in the beginning, but he looked beyond everything. They would be able to stick together.

"Trust me, Duo, there is a *lot* of stupid guy stuff," Quatre told him as he placed the pictures in the locket, turning to Heero and indicating he wanted Heero to help him put the bracelet on. Heero reluctantly removed his arms from around Duo's waist and fastened it around his wrist.

Heero's eyes shown into Duo's as he began to tickle him lightly, backing him into the wall.

"Heero!" Duo cried as he writhed under Heero's hands, laughing madly.

That was Heero's signal to stop. He let him catch his breath for a moment before attacking him with his lips and tongue.

"You think they're a good match?" Quatre asked, stroking Trowa's bangs.

"They balance one another," Trowa replied, "although at first I was hesitant on his stability."

Quatre kissed the bridge of Trowa's nose.

"I think Heero's a pretty good guy."

"He's proving himself."

Heero brought his lips away and stared down at his rosy-cheeked beauty, stroking his hair.

"I've had so much fun today," he whispered. "More than I ever thought I could. I'm so happy.... All I want to do is hold you. I'm so grateful for you.... I love you."

Duo wrapped his arms around his neck.

"You know I love you too."

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The rest of the break Heero and Duo tried to spend as much time as possible together. They shared their feelings and Heero was trying to comprehend Duo's home, but he couldn't. First of all, Duo could exist in any dimension, but he was primarily in the eighth. That was where Heero stropped trying to understand and decided just to be glad that he had Duo.

He did begin thinking heavily about showing physical affection and the results it could cause.

He decided that too many people had their heads up their asses and they would just have to get over it.

He loved Duo and he'd be damned if he wasn't going to show it.

>> End Part Seven