Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ A new future ❯ Chapter Ten: No title ( Chapter 10 )

I was going to describe the shower scene better, but then I remembered this fic was supposed to be PG13 and not R so I decided to take it easy.

 

Chapter Ten:

 

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Needless to say Duo was pretty upset about this change of reality. Sure, Quatre was naive sometimes, but he couldn't believe the smaller youth was that stupid. Of all people he trusted Trowa!

 

Duo was glad to find his room empty. Had Heero been there he would've probably blurted everything out to him and that was definitely not a good idea. He couldn't talk to Heero about this. He hadn't been able to have a decent conversation with Heero about anything lately because only the smallest glance of the boy brought shivers down his spine. He would've thought that after the new year party his crush would slowly disappear, but instead it just grew and every girl looking at Heero, getting his attention made him jealous. He couldn't talk to Heero about anything, let alone this.

 

Sure as hell he couldn't tell Wufei either. That boy really acted like he didn't know the first thing about how to deal with life partners. Besides, he would probably react just like Duo had done and would want to beat Trowa to a bloody pulp. Even though the boy might deserve that, Duo still didn't want to get the others in trouble.

 

He kicked the leg of his bed only to swear out loud as he hurt his toe. This was not good. He needed to relieve some stress but there was nothing in the room worth the risk of breaking. So finally Duo decided to get a shower. That usually helped him relax a little, think about the subject of matter.

 

The water was hot and Duo closed his eyes as he welcomed the liquid on his body. Normally he didn't take long showers because people tended to blame it on his hair, but he figured that today that wouldn't mind. Even though he'd washed his hair last night, he unbraided it now and ran his shampooed fingers trough the long, thick strands. He massaged his head as if he was trying to force the anger out that way, but it didn't really seem to help much. He closed his eyes, trying to concentrate, but all he saw was the mental picture of Trowa and Quatre together, making him only more angry than he already was.

 

When he was done with his hair he got some soap on his hands and washed the rest of his body. He never used a washing glove. He didn't like the rough sense of that material on his skin. He closed his eyes again, forcing the pictures of Quatre and Trowa together away, only to have them replaced by pictures of a certain youth with a slightly Japanese appearance. Duo opened his eyes wide and panted for a moment before he shook his head to get that picture to go away. Suddenly the hot water wasn't so comforting anymore so Duo turned it off and got out of the shower. He tied a towel around his hair, forcing all of it tu stuck in there while he dried the rest of his body and got dressed. Then he let his hair fall down and slowly started combing it.

 

The shower hadn't done much with the anger, but at least he felt a little less tense now. He glanced in the mirror to see his reflection combing his hair and for a moment he wish he could be that reflection. At least it meant he could leave the thinking behind and just mimic what the other one was doing. That way he didn't have to worry about blond friends getting hurt by tall beasts. Because that was the only word he could find to describe Trowa, a beast, like a snake, waiting for the right time to drop Quatre so that he would hurt the most. And Quatre was willing to let that happen.

 

`That's no love' Duo thought bitter, ´That's foolishness'

 

He started braiding his damp hair tighter than usual. Damn, he knew it was a mistake to tell Sally Trowa didn't need to be transferred to another orphanage after what he'd tried with him. He should've told her to let him go, have him placed in a stricter orphanage like she'd suggested or at least have him follow Jeice and Darryl to god-knows-where. He didn't even know why he had protested. Something about him being forced to change here now that everybody knew who he was? That sounded stupid. People like Trowa never changed. Sure, he had become quiet, he hardly had any contact with anyone and hadn't pulled a trick since the one event. But ho knew what he had been plotting all that while alone in his room somewhere on the third floor. He had been stripped of his money, didn't have access to half as much as he used to have and wouldn't have access to the rest until he turned eighteen. He didn't have to talk to a shrink though. Duo was still talking to Miss Noin every week though basically he just told her about his week. Miss Noin had said that she believed he was alright, but it was in the deal that he would see her every week for at least a year and less than half of that time was over.

 

Duo bit his tongue as he yanked his now half-braided hair a bit harder than he had wanted. He really needed to talk to someone about what he had seen when he'd entered Quatre's room. Heero and Wufei were out of the question, that was clear by now, but there weren't many other people left to talk to. Maybe he could try and talk to Saria? She hadn't been around when Trowa did what he did to him so maybe she could give him a clearer view, or at least a different one than the one where he wanted to kill the taller of the two `lovers'. Yeah, that was all he could do now.

 

So when his hair was braided he went to the common room but she wasn't there. Her roommate, however, was there and she told Duo Saria was in her room. So that's where Duo went. And indeed the younger girl was there, reading a book. She welcomed him in the moment she noticed him and put down her book. A little awkward at first -usually it was her who came to him- Duo started telling her what had happened. Saria heard him out before she spoke up.

 

“Well, maybe it was before my time, but to me Trowa seems okay to me. A little drawn back perhaps, I don't know him very well, but he doesn't seem the type of boy who'd hurt anyone.”

 

“You're right, it WAS before your time.” Duo stated. “He used to be the bully of the orphanage.”

 

“Really?” Saria sounded surprised to hear that. “You wouldn't say that now, the way he acts. He seems to close himself off for any human contact and he's always by himself. He didn't even come down to open the presents with the rest of us back at Christmas.”

 

Duo blinked. Trowa was the one who hadn't been there? He remembered indeed that Sally said someone was missing, but when he checked to see who exactly was missing, he must've forgotten about Trowa How could he have missed that fact?

 

“But still,” he told Saria, “I know he's only going to hurt Quatre. He's bullied him for as long as I can remember. How can Quatre just forget about that when it happened only months ago?”

 

Saria shrugged. “I'm not sure I'm the person to ask. I'm not very busy with love and that kind of things yet. I only know what I hear around me.”

 

Duo sighed. She was probably right. But he didn't have anyone else to talk to.

 

Saria must've seen his expression because she decided to take a shot anyway. “I know it doesn't sound fair, but you can't just change the way you feel. And besides, Quatre is a big boy, shouldn't he be allowed to make his own mistakes?”

 

Duo laughed at her serious words so all of a sudden. “Now you sound like Solo.”

 

“I learned from the best.” She replied, referring to Duo himself who had always looked up to Solo and used to entertain the group by mimicking him in a funny kind of way whenever he was gone. “Look Duo, I'm not saying you should just forgive the guy for whatever it is he did to you, but just think about what I said. I know you probably don't want to believe it, but people can change. If you really care about Quatre, I think rather than pushing him away you should support him and be there for him despite your own feelings.”

 

“But how can I do that after everything that happened?” Duo asked. “I don't trust Trowa the least little bit. I can't just pretend I can accept him.”

 

Saria shrugged again. “You're going to have to try if your friendship with Quatre means anything to you.”

 

That was about all the conversation took because at that moment Saria's roommate walked in with another friend, one from which Duo knew she had a little crush on him. Saria's roommate must've warned her that he was there.

 

The girl was a thirteen-year-old blonde who was a lot smaller than Duo, wearing a thin dress even though it was winter, not attractive at all and she was being really annoying by always saying `hi' to him in such a way that he was thinking, `Oh God, not again. . .' Saria had laughed at first and teased him with it, but he didn't really mind. It was just a little crush from a little girl and it would be over soon enough. . . Or so he hoped.

 

But right now, he was not in the mood to face the girl and talk with her. So as polite but fast as he could, he fled the room and went back to his own room where, surprisingly, he found that Heero had returned.

 

He glanced at the braided boy as he walked in and obviously he found something interesting concerning the youth's hair, for his gaze stayed there for a moment.

 

“Anything wrong with my hair?” Duo shot, a bit meaner than he had wanted to sound, but he didn't care. He was still debating Saria's words and didn't want to think about Heero right now.

 

Heero, ignoring Duo's tone, decided to answer the question. “You showered at this hour? Why?”

 

Yeah right, Duo thought, it wasn't as if Heero actually cared. He should know by now that not all people were as perfect as he was. “I just needed it, okay?” Duo snapped. Though he regretted his tone, he was happy Heero just gave a grunt and nothing more than that.

 

He let his body fall down on his bed and rubbed his suddenly tired head with his hand, trying to ease the pain.

 

`Quatre is a big boy, shouldn't he be allowed to make his own mistakes?'

 

That had sounded so much like what Solo would say, Duo could swear he'd been whispering those words into Saria's mind. Damn it, Duo really missed the guy at times like these. He might not always be the smartest one, Duo had to admit that when it came to learning from books, he was far ahead of the elder boy, but Solo knew what he had to know to survive and he always knew what to say whenever Duo came with a problem.

 

That was Solo fer ya, a good friend, the only one Duo could depend on back then and he'd busted his own group by selling them out to Zechs for their own sake. Ironic, wasn't it? But Duo was glad he'd never told Saria what Solo had done. She didn't need to know. It would only make her world fall apart even more than it had already done. She'd believed in him, trusted him and he'd betrayed her and sent her to Duo but she still saw him as her hero. Life was so unfair sometimes.

 

But what about what she'd just told him? Was she right? Should he try and protect Quatre or would that only drive him away from him?

 

`If you really care about Quatre, I think rather than pushing him away you should support him and be there for him despite your own feelings.'

 

Could he dod that? Could he possibly pretend he was okay with the whole situation? Or should he just leave Quatre alone until he found out what kind of boy Trowa really was and then let him cry out in his arms, saying `I told you so'? He really didn't want to loose Quatre but he also didn't want to just stand by and watch as he got hurt. Duo closed his eyes, trying to think clear but a certain noise kept penetrating his thoughts.

 

`Oh, damn Yuy and his laptop!'

 

Duo got up angrily and stalked over to the door.

 

“Where are you going?” His roommate asked.

 

“Out!” Duo sneered.

 

“But it's almost dinnertime.” The other one remarked.

 

Duo didn't reply on this. Who cared what time it was? Quatre was making the biggest mistake of his life, one that could kill him and he wouldn't allow Duo to correct that mistake. Was he going to do as Saria had advised him and stand by Quatre?

 

He needed to think. And what better place to do that than outside? The rain wasn't coming down as fast as it did only on hour ago, but it hadn't completely stopped either. Right now Duo didn't care. He had to go out, get some fresh air, think.

 

Duo didn't know where he was going but he really didn't care. He didn't even watch the traffic as he crossed the streets and one time this resulted in him almost getting hit by a car. The driver hung out of his window, yelling at the idiot who crossed streets without checking for traffic, but Duo just ignored it and walked on, lost in his trail of thoughts. He was still debating what to do with Quatre, but by the time he found himself back at the orphanage again, he had made up his mind. He was going to talk to hhim and apologise and they were going to work this out. He wouldn't accept Trowa but he would respect Quatre having his own life and he would tell him he wanted to be there for him because their friendship meant the world to Duo and he was certain it meant a lot to Quatre as well.

 

He checked his watch before he entered the orphanage and realized to his big surprise that he had been out for more than an hour. Since it was winter it meant that it was dark outside as well. Duo hadn't even noticed it getting dark! He was cold and soaked and wanted nothing more than to get in and warm his body with, again, a ice hot shower, but he decided some things were more important than others and so he glanced in the common room to see he wasn't there and then headed straight for Quatre's room. He listened carefully before he knocked, making sure Quatre was not there with Trowa or anybody else, because he wanted to talk to Quatre in private. When he heard no noise he knocked.

 

“Quatre? Are you in there?”

 

no answer. He had to be pretty mad.

 

“Quatre? It's me, Duo.”

 

Still nothing.

 

“Look, I came to apologise to you. I acted like a jerk today and I-I'm sorry. Please open the door and talk to me.”

 

Again, there was no sound coming from the other side of the door.

 

Duo sighed. Maybe Quatre wasn't in there after all? Or maybe he was asleep. He decided to see for himself and opened the door, half expecting to be greeted by the sight of Quatre laying on his bed, sleeping soundlessly, but instead the picture he saw was completely different. The room was dark and Quatre was nowhere in sight. The window was wide open, allowing the cold wind to replace all the heat in the room as it left the curtains dancing on its waves. The room looked neat as ever, except for the few pencils that had fallen on the floor.

 

Duo walked in and picked up the pencils and placed them back on the desk, knowing Quatre hated a messy room. He walked over to the window and glanced outside. They were on the fourth floor of the building and it was so dark outside that Duo couldn't even see the parts ground which weren't lit by the few lamps that hung against the outside wall. He glanced up at the stars, noting it would be a full moon in a day or two.

 

He sighed. Looks like Quatre was not here. Now he was gonna have to wait after all. He closed the window before he walked out again and decided that shower really sounded nice right now.

 

~ T.B.C. ~

 

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