Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Against the Odds ❯ Against the Odds ( One-Shot )

Disclaimer: I don't own the G boys, I just borrow them from time to time and return them a whole lot happier. Written for pleasure not profit. Also I don't own the song "Against all Odds" It belongs to Phil Collins and as such all rights remain his.

 

Warnings: Yaoi, angst, song fic, Duo POV

 

Pairing: 1+2+1

 

Rating: R

 

Summary: The five pilots are at Relena's mansion celebrating the peace they helped to achieve. Duo is thinking that Heero and he finally have the chance to settle down together and explore the tentative relationship they started during the war when it all comes crashing down around his ears.

 

// Indicates song lyrics //

 

 

"Against the Odds"

 

May 2006 ShenLong

 

 

The wars were finally over and this time I could say the word 'peace' and know for sure we had achieved it. I stare out across the darkening landscape from the balcony of Relena's mansion, the sounds of music filtering through from the ballroom where the celebrations are starting to wind down.

 

I turn around and walk back inside, people are saying their good-nights and leaving. I notice Trowa and Quatre heading out of the room and towards the staircase that will take them to the first floor and the rooms we have been allocated. Wufei remains, chatting quietly to Sally. I bid them goodnight. I'm tired, but more than that, I'm confused.

 

The one person I really need to speak to I cannot find among the remaining guests. I approach Relena and get the answer to my burning question.

 

"Heero retired to his room about fifteen minutes ago," she told me. I thank her for a pleasant evening and bid her goodnight.

 

I climb the staircase, heading not for my own room, but for yours. I have questions that need answers and you're the only one that can give them to me. I'm even more confused, you've been avoiding me all evening and I want to know why. As I turn to walk down the hallway that will take me to your room, I suddenly stop. You step out, closing the door behind you, shoulder your duffel and then turn. You freeze when you see me standing there.

 

"Heero?"

 

You lower your eyes and walk swiftly towards and past me.

 

I reach out and grab your arm.

 

// How can I just let you walk away,

just let you leave without a trace?

When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh.

You're the only one who really knew me at all. //

 

"Heero?" I repeat.

 

You stop and sigh, then turn to face me. "Please, Duo. Just let me go," you say softly.

 

"I can't," I hear myself reply. "Not without knowing where you're going."

 

"Duo, I can't tell you that. I have to go."

 

"Why? The war is over, Heero. We have fought long and hard for this peace. Now is our chance to enjoy it."

"You don't understand."

 

// How can you just walk away from me,

when all I can do is watch you leave?

'Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain

and even shared the tears. //

 

My hand is pushed away and my arm falls limply to my side.

 

"Heero?" I try again. "How can you do this? How can you just up and leave? I thought that after the war we would have a chance to be together. Isn't that what you wanted?"

 

"Things change."

 

"But we shared so much, laughter, pain and tears. Hell, Heero. We even shared our beds and bodies. You can't tell me that all means nothing!?" I could feel the hysteria along with the volume of my voice beginning to rise.

 

"Duo, I have no choice. I have to go."

 

// You're the only one that really knew me at all. //

 

"Why?" I repeat. "I bared my soul to you, you promised me."

 

"I can't explain. It's something I have to do," you say quietly.

 

// So take a look at me now,

there's just an empty space. //

 

I gaze at you, somehow knowing it was bound to come to this. I feel empty inside, lost, forgotten.

 

// And there's nothing left here to remind me,

just the memory of your face. //

 

My eyes rove over your form, imprinting every tiny detail in my mind, committing you completely to my memory.

 

// Ohhh, take a look at me now,

well there's just an empty space.

And you coming back to me is against all odds

and that's what I have to face. //

 

I know then that there is nothing I can do to stop you from leaving. I can see the pain in your eyes, the reluctance in your body language, and yet you still proceed.

 

I want to ask so desperately the question upon my tongue, but it's as if my vocal chords are frozen. I want to know when you will come back, but the question would receive no answer, of that I'm certain.

 

The odds of you returning to me are something I don't want to know and that's something I have to come to terms with. Meanwhile, I can hope.

 

// I wish I could make you turn around,

turn around and see me cry.

There's so much I need to say to you,

so many reasons why. //

 

You shift the weight of your bag upon your back and without looking at me, begin to walk again.

 

I remain standing, watching you leave, walk out of my life, powerless to stop you, cursing my inability to make you stay. A tear tracks down my cheek, but I don't brush it away. Another leaks from my eye, then another until a steady stream is flowing.

 

Would it make you change your mind if you were to turn around now and see me crying?

 

There's so many things left unsaid between us, many things I need to tell you, many reasons for you to stay. The main one being I love you, Heero Yuy.

 

I love you.

 

Don't ask me when I fell in love with you for I don't have an answer.

 

// You're the only one who really knew me at all. //

 

I guess it began to manifest early in the war. Despite all the masks I wore to hide my anguish and grief for the killing we had to do, you were the only one that took the time to get to know me, to see the real person behind the false smile.

 

I didn't really give you much of a chance not to I suppose, determined as I was to become friends.

 

Now I want more.

 

// So take a look at me now,

well there's just an empty space.

And there's nothing left here to remind me,

just the memory of your face. //

 

I realize there is nothing I can do to stop you, not once your mind is made up. I'd have a better chance of convincing the sun not to rise. I feel the tug in my chest as each step you take takes you further away from me, leaving me empty, hollow.

 

// Take a look at me now. //

 

'Turn around,' my mind screams silently, 'look at me, see what your leaving is doing to me!'

 

I know you won't though.

 

// But to wait for you is all I can do

and that's what I've got to face. //

 

I can't fool myself any longer. You're leaving, all I can do is pray and hope that you won't forget me; that someday you will return.

 

// Take a good look at me now,

'cos I'll still be standing here.

And you coming back to me is against all odds,

it's the chance I've gotta take. //

 

"Heero?"

 

You pause but don't turn around.

 

"I'll be waiting for you."

 

I see the small nod of acknowledgment and then you're gone.

 

I bow my head and close my eyes, tears still seeping as the one thing I care for more than life itself, leaves.

 

I love you enough to let you go, but the emptiness inside me serves to remind me that you took my heart with you. And though the odds are against me I have to take the chance that one day you will bring it back to me.

 

// Take a look at me now. //

 

~ Owari ~