Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Amber and Amethyst ❯ ...Amiss ( Chapter 8 )
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Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Psychological / Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 11.01.2004 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.9K | Visits: 463 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Psychological / Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 11.01.2004 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.9K | Visits: 463 | Status: Completed
Amber and Amethyst
by Seven Maxwell
Disclaimer: I wished I owned these guys then I would have a lot of money but life's not always fair.
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Amber and Amethyst
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Chapter Eight
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H-POV
"I give up!" I pace furiously through my living room floor. "I quit! I can't take this shit anymore! I'm always fucking up somehow and I don't want to do this anymore." I yell angrily, throwing up my hands in frustration.
"Calm down Yuy. Burning a hole through your floor is not going to solve the situation. Sit down and relax for a minute, your pacing is giving me a headache." Wufei growls from his lounging position in the arm chair. His arms are crossed in front of him and his face is solemn.
I glare at him and continue pacing through MY floor!
"Wufei's right Heero you need to sit and calm down you're not going to be able to do anything if you wear yourself out by stomping back and fourth" Quatre adds in. "What we really need to do is find out why Duo reacted so badly...I know what we did might not have been the best under the circumstances but...the way he panicked just wasn't normal. I don't know what it is but I know that there is something seriously wrong with him." Quatre commented from his spot on the couch.
I jerked to a stop.
"What are you trying to say?" I face him, anger clearly written all over my face.
"Calm down Heero I'm not trying to insinuate anything but you have to admit that his reaction was..."
"...was like that of a terrified animal." Trowa states blandly. He's leaning against the wall in front of the stairway. His bangs shadowing his face and any emotion on it.
"Exactly!! It was...horrible seeing him act like that, I don't know if I'll ever get that image out of my mind!" Quatre mutters shaking his head of any unwanted visuals.
"I agree he could have handled that much better. He is weak and will always be weak, it's like he doesn't even bother to try." Wufei responds.
"Why does it always have to be so difficult with him? Why do WE have to be the ones walking on eggshells for him?" Quatre complains.
I watch the conversation continue between Quatre and Wufei and I suddenly now realized why Duo stopped talking to these assholes. God why was I so blind!?
My fingers itch for a cigarette but I know if I light one up now I won't stop until the pack is empty and I want to save some for later. I know I'm going to need them.
The rattle of the water heater startles me and I know Duo's taking a shower. I close my eyes and lean against the wall opposite Trowa, the itch in my fingers become to much and I pull out a cigarette. I put the tip between my lips, flick the lighter for a small flame and ignite the end of the fag.
I inhale and let the nicotine flow through me.
"...what is his problem anyway? It's not like we did anything wrong."
What the fuck?!! My hands fisted beside me.
"...I don't know I give up too. I'm tired of wasting my time."
Anger makes way for rage and I turn to see Quatre and Wufei still in a heated conversation about Duo.
"...that's what you get when you deal with an L2 streetrat."
Those son of a....
"THAT'S ENOUGH YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!" I move forward and slam my fists into the back of the couch.
"DON'T YOU EVER FUCKING CALL HIM A STREETRAT AGAIN!" I scream at them. I look them straight in their eyes, "You don't know anything about him! He's gone through a lot of shit in his life, shit you couldn't ever understand!" I glare at Wufei's stunned face, "Don't ever call him weak again! And if he's such a waste of time then there's the fucking door...help yourself!" I growl at him.
I then look at Quatre's shocked face, "If you can't deal with someone from L2 then you better join Wufei. As for what we did wrong....God Quatre!!" I yell at him, my body starts to tremble. I drop my head and take a deep breath trying to control the guilt, "What we did to him was NOTHING short of Rape!" I whispered to him as I closed my eyes to fight frustrated tears.
Quatre's eyes opened like saucers at the word 'rape' and I guess everything just started to make more sense to him.
"We took advantage of him Quat..we got him drunk and used him for our own pleasures against his will....we 'raped' him Quat. All of us did." I inform him.
"Oh Allah....what have we done?" Quatre starts shaking as the words sink in.
"By Nataku...we are the most dishonorable" Wufei bows his head and white knuckles the arms of the chair he's sittin in.
I glance at them and see that they now understand the true deeds of their actions. How could they not have known?? My god they're fucking retards!!
A whimper grabs my attention and I look down to see Duo's black puppy sitting by my feet. I reach down and pick her up, she looks at me with her sad puppy eyes and whines more loudly.
"I believe she may want to use the bathroom Heero." Trowa mentions briefly.
I nod at him and head towards the front door.
"You might want to feed her as well if you would like to keep her alive."
"hn"
I open the door, step through and slam it behind me. I walk down the hall and open the door to the staircase and descend the three flight of stairs until I reach the bottom floor. I open the door and step into the lobby of our apartment complex, I plaster a fake smile for the janitor and walk out the double doors of the building leading into the garden.
I set the puppy down on the grass and watch as she hops away from me and starts exploring the area around her. She waddles to a patch of short stemmed daisies sniffs them and snorts before waddling away to another area.
I drop down to sit on the grass letting the morning dew wet the jeans I sloppily put on after the I left Duo.
Leave Duo
It seems so easy to think about doing yet so hard to do. Wouldn't it be easier if I just left? It's not like he wants me around him anyway especially not after what we just did to him.
My fingers move of their own accord and next thing I know I'm puffing away at another cigarette. I stretch my legs in front of me and cross them at the ankles. My feet bare.
I lean back and prop myself on my elbows, cigarette hanging off my lips. A quick glimpse shows me the puppy found her little patch of approved daisies and is currently relieving herself on them. I can't help but smile at her innocence.
If I look up I know I'll see the beginning rays of sunrise, the amber hues of light blended in with the amethyst shades of twilight.
Duo loves sunrises, he says he's never seen them on L2 because they have lighting cycles on the colonies instead of real sunlight. I guess that's why he decided to stay on Earth after the Marimaeia war, he stayed for the colors of sunrise.
A cold nose prodding against my bare chest brings me back from the clouds and I catch the puppy sniffing me. Her little nose sniffs my ribs, my hands and finally the crook of my elbows before 'deeming' me 'okay' and curls up beside me. I raise my hand and scratch her behind the ears as I sit up straight again.
If I left...would he be happy? I've done nothing but bring him grief and after what I've just witnessed with the guys I can see why Duo doesn't associate with them anymore...they're idiots.
And I'm the biggest idiot of all.
If only I had better control of myself none of this would have happened. Duo wouldn't be suffering a panic attack that will probably scar him for life and I wouldn't have to be making the biggest decision of my life.
I have to leave. If not for me but for Duo, his life will only go down further if I stay with him. I grab the puppy beside me and stand up, I cradle her to my chest and walk through the garden to the double doors of the building. I walk through but instead of climbing the stairs I take the elevator. The humming of the shaft rising fills my ears as we rise the three floors. The elevator doors open and I step out, the elevator doors close behind me and the humming fades away. I walk slowly to the door of my apartment but I don't open the door just yet. No, instead I press my free hand flat against it and lower my head to face my feet. It isn't long before I notice water drops land on the carpet beneath my feet, I take a deep breath only to have my throat constrict and block my air passage. My vision blurs and my heart pounds against my chest like it's going to explode any minute. I sink to my knees as my bottom lip begins to quiver, the puppy clutched tighter against me.
I'm fighting it...I really am but.....I love him so much! I close my eyes only to have my mouth open in it's place and I can't control the sound that erupts from my heart.
The sound of my heart breaking into a thousand pieces. My body quakes as my sobs break free from restraint, the puppy whines in my arm and I bury my face in her soft black coat. My hand's still pressed against the door while I'm on my knees and my face is buried against Duo's puppy. I wait until I can control my sobs before raising my head, I turn around and sit with my back against the door, my knees drawn up midway. The puppy, still cradled against me in one arm, props her two front paws against my chest and she leans forward to put her face up before mine. I can see her chocolate brown eyes stare into mine before she laps her tongue on my nose. I chuckle at her as she does it again.
I sat there for an hour, just letting myself get into better control of myself, before I stood up. Time to make things right again.
I open the door and see Trowa on the couch holding Quatre in a lying position. Both of their faces are red and I can see the trails of tears stained on their pale faces. I glance at the arm chair and find Wufei curled up in a ball and see that his face too is red and wet with tears. All three are asleep.
I set the puppy down on the floor and watch as she scampers away into the kitchen. I better remember to feed her before I go.
I wonder if Duo is willing to hear me out again, I remember the last time when I screwed up so royally. I thought for sure he wasn't going to forgive me but when he just opened up his arms to me I almost cried out in relief. That he was giving me a second chance was a miracle itself. I don't think I would have forgiven myself so easily if I were him.
But then again I'm not really sure he ever really forgave me at all.
I climb the stairs and stand in front of his bedroom door just trying to calm my racing heart. I open the door and the first thing I notice is Duo's not in the corner anymore. The lava lamp is still on illuminating the room in a soft gold along with the morning rays of light glowing around the window curtains. The room is tidy and the bed is fixed, I turn towards the bathroom and see light seeping from underneath the door. I knock on the door.
"Duo are you in there?" I cringe at the stupid question. A sound stirs from within but no answer from Duo. I knock again.
"Duo are you alright? Can you open the door please?" I plead with him. I don't know what he's doing in there but I'm starting to worry more when he doesn't answer.
"g-go away please" a mumbled cry barely can be heard through the thick door.
"Duo..let me in..please" I beg him. I grab the door knob and twist only to find it locked.
I start pounding on the door louder.
"Duo open this door!" I yell
Only a soft cry can be heard from the other side and I start to panic. I hear footsteps pounding up the stairs but I'm only concerned about the person in the small room before me.
"Duo please open this door! I just want to make sure your okay, I need to see that you're okay please" I beg louder, tears threatening to fall again. My pounding on the door echoing throughout the room.
"What's going on?" Quatre asks frantically behind me.
"I don't know he won't open the door and he won't answer me!" I yell, still pounding on the door.
"Goddammit Yuy he could be hurt in there break the fucking door open!" Wufei hollers at me above the sound of my pounding on the door.
I step back and give the door a good solid kick. Wood explodes around me and someones shouts in surprise but I don't know who.
"Duo" I call out as I clear my way into the bathroom.
A small figure huddled beside the toilet cries out in fear as I make my way into the small room.
There were two things I noticed immediately. One there was hair everywhere, long chestnut strands scattered all over the floor. Two the person who I love the most is curled up beside the toilet crying in fear.
"Duo are you alright? Answer me!" I panic, I got to him and pull him to his feet. He struggles against me and I grab his arm in a steel grip as I drag him out of the bathroom.
Trowa and the others just stare as I drag Duo out of the bathroom. I can see their shocked faces but don't register it. That is until I turn around and take a good look at Duo myself.
My mouth fell open as I acknowledge his butchered hair and fearful expression.
Something was definitely wrong!
"Duo?" I ask in bewilderment, I reach my hand out to touch his hair and he cowers away from me.
"D..don't touch me" he begs.
"Duo what did you do?" I come forward again and he steps back.
"D..don't call me that!" he yells. I stop and stare at him. My hand fell back down beside me.
"Please don't call me that!" he cries out loud. His eyes focused wearily on me.
"Why?" I ask him cautiously
"'cause I'm not Duo" he whispers sadly.
My minds going a thousand miles and hour with so many question but only one makes its way vocally.
"Then who are you?"
"S-Solo"
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Please Review! Thanx!!
by Seven Maxwell
Disclaimer: I wished I owned these guys then I would have a lot of money but life's not always fair.
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Amber and Amethyst
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Chapter Eight
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H-POV
"I give up!" I pace furiously through my living room floor. "I quit! I can't take this shit anymore! I'm always fucking up somehow and I don't want to do this anymore." I yell angrily, throwing up my hands in frustration.
"Calm down Yuy. Burning a hole through your floor is not going to solve the situation. Sit down and relax for a minute, your pacing is giving me a headache." Wufei growls from his lounging position in the arm chair. His arms are crossed in front of him and his face is solemn.
I glare at him and continue pacing through MY floor!
"Wufei's right Heero you need to sit and calm down you're not going to be able to do anything if you wear yourself out by stomping back and fourth" Quatre adds in. "What we really need to do is find out why Duo reacted so badly...I know what we did might not have been the best under the circumstances but...the way he panicked just wasn't normal. I don't know what it is but I know that there is something seriously wrong with him." Quatre commented from his spot on the couch.
I jerked to a stop.
"What are you trying to say?" I face him, anger clearly written all over my face.
"Calm down Heero I'm not trying to insinuate anything but you have to admit that his reaction was..."
"...was like that of a terrified animal." Trowa states blandly. He's leaning against the wall in front of the stairway. His bangs shadowing his face and any emotion on it.
"Exactly!! It was...horrible seeing him act like that, I don't know if I'll ever get that image out of my mind!" Quatre mutters shaking his head of any unwanted visuals.
"I agree he could have handled that much better. He is weak and will always be weak, it's like he doesn't even bother to try." Wufei responds.
"Why does it always have to be so difficult with him? Why do WE have to be the ones walking on eggshells for him?" Quatre complains.
I watch the conversation continue between Quatre and Wufei and I suddenly now realized why Duo stopped talking to these assholes. God why was I so blind!?
My fingers itch for a cigarette but I know if I light one up now I won't stop until the pack is empty and I want to save some for later. I know I'm going to need them.
The rattle of the water heater startles me and I know Duo's taking a shower. I close my eyes and lean against the wall opposite Trowa, the itch in my fingers become to much and I pull out a cigarette. I put the tip between my lips, flick the lighter for a small flame and ignite the end of the fag.
I inhale and let the nicotine flow through me.
"...what is his problem anyway? It's not like we did anything wrong."
What the fuck?!! My hands fisted beside me.
"...I don't know I give up too. I'm tired of wasting my time."
Anger makes way for rage and I turn to see Quatre and Wufei still in a heated conversation about Duo.
"...that's what you get when you deal with an L2 streetrat."
Those son of a....
"THAT'S ENOUGH YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES!" I move forward and slam my fists into the back of the couch.
"DON'T YOU EVER FUCKING CALL HIM A STREETRAT AGAIN!" I scream at them. I look them straight in their eyes, "You don't know anything about him! He's gone through a lot of shit in his life, shit you couldn't ever understand!" I glare at Wufei's stunned face, "Don't ever call him weak again! And if he's such a waste of time then there's the fucking door...help yourself!" I growl at him.
I then look at Quatre's shocked face, "If you can't deal with someone from L2 then you better join Wufei. As for what we did wrong....God Quatre!!" I yell at him, my body starts to tremble. I drop my head and take a deep breath trying to control the guilt, "What we did to him was NOTHING short of Rape!" I whispered to him as I closed my eyes to fight frustrated tears.
Quatre's eyes opened like saucers at the word 'rape' and I guess everything just started to make more sense to him.
"We took advantage of him Quat..we got him drunk and used him for our own pleasures against his will....we 'raped' him Quat. All of us did." I inform him.
"Oh Allah....what have we done?" Quatre starts shaking as the words sink in.
"By Nataku...we are the most dishonorable" Wufei bows his head and white knuckles the arms of the chair he's sittin in.
I glance at them and see that they now understand the true deeds of their actions. How could they not have known?? My god they're fucking retards!!
A whimper grabs my attention and I look down to see Duo's black puppy sitting by my feet. I reach down and pick her up, she looks at me with her sad puppy eyes and whines more loudly.
"I believe she may want to use the bathroom Heero." Trowa mentions briefly.
I nod at him and head towards the front door.
"You might want to feed her as well if you would like to keep her alive."
"hn"
I open the door, step through and slam it behind me. I walk down the hall and open the door to the staircase and descend the three flight of stairs until I reach the bottom floor. I open the door and step into the lobby of our apartment complex, I plaster a fake smile for the janitor and walk out the double doors of the building leading into the garden.
I set the puppy down on the grass and watch as she hops away from me and starts exploring the area around her. She waddles to a patch of short stemmed daisies sniffs them and snorts before waddling away to another area.
I drop down to sit on the grass letting the morning dew wet the jeans I sloppily put on after the I left Duo.
Leave Duo
It seems so easy to think about doing yet so hard to do. Wouldn't it be easier if I just left? It's not like he wants me around him anyway especially not after what we just did to him.
My fingers move of their own accord and next thing I know I'm puffing away at another cigarette. I stretch my legs in front of me and cross them at the ankles. My feet bare.
I lean back and prop myself on my elbows, cigarette hanging off my lips. A quick glimpse shows me the puppy found her little patch of approved daisies and is currently relieving herself on them. I can't help but smile at her innocence.
If I look up I know I'll see the beginning rays of sunrise, the amber hues of light blended in with the amethyst shades of twilight.
Duo loves sunrises, he says he's never seen them on L2 because they have lighting cycles on the colonies instead of real sunlight. I guess that's why he decided to stay on Earth after the Marimaeia war, he stayed for the colors of sunrise.
A cold nose prodding against my bare chest brings me back from the clouds and I catch the puppy sniffing me. Her little nose sniffs my ribs, my hands and finally the crook of my elbows before 'deeming' me 'okay' and curls up beside me. I raise my hand and scratch her behind the ears as I sit up straight again.
If I left...would he be happy? I've done nothing but bring him grief and after what I've just witnessed with the guys I can see why Duo doesn't associate with them anymore...they're idiots.
And I'm the biggest idiot of all.
If only I had better control of myself none of this would have happened. Duo wouldn't be suffering a panic attack that will probably scar him for life and I wouldn't have to be making the biggest decision of my life.
I have to leave. If not for me but for Duo, his life will only go down further if I stay with him. I grab the puppy beside me and stand up, I cradle her to my chest and walk through the garden to the double doors of the building. I walk through but instead of climbing the stairs I take the elevator. The humming of the shaft rising fills my ears as we rise the three floors. The elevator doors open and I step out, the elevator doors close behind me and the humming fades away. I walk slowly to the door of my apartment but I don't open the door just yet. No, instead I press my free hand flat against it and lower my head to face my feet. It isn't long before I notice water drops land on the carpet beneath my feet, I take a deep breath only to have my throat constrict and block my air passage. My vision blurs and my heart pounds against my chest like it's going to explode any minute. I sink to my knees as my bottom lip begins to quiver, the puppy clutched tighter against me.
I'm fighting it...I really am but.....I love him so much! I close my eyes only to have my mouth open in it's place and I can't control the sound that erupts from my heart.
The sound of my heart breaking into a thousand pieces. My body quakes as my sobs break free from restraint, the puppy whines in my arm and I bury my face in her soft black coat. My hand's still pressed against the door while I'm on my knees and my face is buried against Duo's puppy. I wait until I can control my sobs before raising my head, I turn around and sit with my back against the door, my knees drawn up midway. The puppy, still cradled against me in one arm, props her two front paws against my chest and she leans forward to put her face up before mine. I can see her chocolate brown eyes stare into mine before she laps her tongue on my nose. I chuckle at her as she does it again.
I sat there for an hour, just letting myself get into better control of myself, before I stood up. Time to make things right again.
I open the door and see Trowa on the couch holding Quatre in a lying position. Both of their faces are red and I can see the trails of tears stained on their pale faces. I glance at the arm chair and find Wufei curled up in a ball and see that his face too is red and wet with tears. All three are asleep.
I set the puppy down on the floor and watch as she scampers away into the kitchen. I better remember to feed her before I go.
I wonder if Duo is willing to hear me out again, I remember the last time when I screwed up so royally. I thought for sure he wasn't going to forgive me but when he just opened up his arms to me I almost cried out in relief. That he was giving me a second chance was a miracle itself. I don't think I would have forgiven myself so easily if I were him.
But then again I'm not really sure he ever really forgave me at all.
I climb the stairs and stand in front of his bedroom door just trying to calm my racing heart. I open the door and the first thing I notice is Duo's not in the corner anymore. The lava lamp is still on illuminating the room in a soft gold along with the morning rays of light glowing around the window curtains. The room is tidy and the bed is fixed, I turn towards the bathroom and see light seeping from underneath the door. I knock on the door.
"Duo are you in there?" I cringe at the stupid question. A sound stirs from within but no answer from Duo. I knock again.
"Duo are you alright? Can you open the door please?" I plead with him. I don't know what he's doing in there but I'm starting to worry more when he doesn't answer.
"g-go away please" a mumbled cry barely can be heard through the thick door.
"Duo..let me in..please" I beg him. I grab the door knob and twist only to find it locked.
I start pounding on the door louder.
"Duo open this door!" I yell
Only a soft cry can be heard from the other side and I start to panic. I hear footsteps pounding up the stairs but I'm only concerned about the person in the small room before me.
"Duo please open this door! I just want to make sure your okay, I need to see that you're okay please" I beg louder, tears threatening to fall again. My pounding on the door echoing throughout the room.
"What's going on?" Quatre asks frantically behind me.
"I don't know he won't open the door and he won't answer me!" I yell, still pounding on the door.
"Goddammit Yuy he could be hurt in there break the fucking door open!" Wufei hollers at me above the sound of my pounding on the door.
I step back and give the door a good solid kick. Wood explodes around me and someones shouts in surprise but I don't know who.
"Duo" I call out as I clear my way into the bathroom.
A small figure huddled beside the toilet cries out in fear as I make my way into the small room.
There were two things I noticed immediately. One there was hair everywhere, long chestnut strands scattered all over the floor. Two the person who I love the most is curled up beside the toilet crying in fear.
"Duo are you alright? Answer me!" I panic, I got to him and pull him to his feet. He struggles against me and I grab his arm in a steel grip as I drag him out of the bathroom.
Trowa and the others just stare as I drag Duo out of the bathroom. I can see their shocked faces but don't register it. That is until I turn around and take a good look at Duo myself.
My mouth fell open as I acknowledge his butchered hair and fearful expression.
Something was definitely wrong!
"Duo?" I ask in bewilderment, I reach my hand out to touch his hair and he cowers away from me.
"D..don't touch me" he begs.
"Duo what did you do?" I come forward again and he steps back.
"D..don't call me that!" he yells. I stop and stare at him. My hand fell back down beside me.
"Please don't call me that!" he cries out loud. His eyes focused wearily on me.
"Why?" I ask him cautiously
"'cause I'm not Duo" he whispers sadly.
My minds going a thousand miles and hour with so many question but only one makes its way vocally.
"Then who are you?"
"S-Solo"
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