Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Before Dawn ❯ Fear ( Chapter 2 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Before Dawn
by kat

Chapter 2 - Fear

I saw Trowa again the next day. He was a little more reluctant than he seemed yesterday. It was like he wasn't entirely sure about talking to me. I couldn't blame him. Knowing Trowa, he probably saw through all my lies. He still didn't know the truth however. At least, I hoped he didn't I just wanted to walk away from everything, and begin over. Begin where I was safe. He walked me home again after I was done with work.
"What were you talking about with my brother yesterday?" I asked.
"You." Trowa said bluntly.
"ME?" I asked, surprised.
"Yes."
"What about me?" I asked.
"I asked what you were like growing up. Why you left. What it was like where you left." he said.
"Wh- why would you want to know that?" I asked nervously. He looked over towards me.
"I don't know. Why were you lying to me yesterday?" he asked, evading my question.
We- I asked you first!" I argued. He grinned. When she had first met him, she had never seen him smile. He seemed to be doing it a lot lately.
"I was curious. Your turn." he said.
"I- I lied because..." I began. Everything that had been churning around in my mind for the past week about Shawn began to slip from my mouth. I had to clamp my mouth shut before I mentioned that my stalker ex-boyfriend ended up in jail, and I came here to get away from it all. He looked towards me, I think trying to decide whether I was lying or not. "I'm not lying." I said.
"But, that's not all." Trowa said knowingly. I sighed, giving into painful memories.
"The next day I found my younger sisters and brother. They had been murdered in their sleep. Shawn went to jail, threatened to kill me, and for the past few years he's been following me around - some buddy of his helped him break out." I snapped. "HAPPY NOW?"
"I'm sorry." Trowa said. I sighed.
"Forget it." I told him. I hurriedly walked ahead of him, trynig to run away. I thought I was finally making some distance when I felt him tug on my arm and turn me around. I looked into his eyes, trying to hide the tears that were falling from mine. He hugged me. Was this really happening? Just like that? The one man that I've ever loved?

morning smiles
like the face of a newborn child
innocent, unknowing
winter's end
promises of a long lost friend
speaks to me of comfort

For a long while I just stayed there in his arms. It was warm. He was warm. It was perfect, considering the non-stop rain felt like ice against my skin, even though I had three layers keeping it from getting me wet.

but i fear
i have nothing to give
i have so much to lose
here in this lonely place
tangled up in your embrace
there's nothing i'd like better than to fall
but i fear i have nothing to give

I looked up at him when we finally let go of eachother and he wiped my tears away. I smiled. For the first time in so long, I finally felt safe. He brushed my blond bangs out of my eyes.

wind in time
rapes the flower
trembling on the vine
and nothing yields to shelter from above
they say temptation will destroy our love
the never ending hunger

I felt his arms move around my waist slowly. He pushed my chin up. Then slowly, he bent down to kiss me. When I felt his lips brush mine, I froze. The only person who had ever kissed me was Shawn. I felt sick. When I looked back up at Trowa, I was crying again. I had felt so safe. I was so safe. No matter what, the past would always be with me... but Trowa, he made it seem like it was better.

but i fear
i have nothing to give
i have so much to lose
here in this lonely
tangled up in your embrace
there's nothing i'd like better than to fall
but i fear i have nothing to give

He bent down to kiss me one more time. This time, I felt it. The world all seemed to fade away around us. He touch was gentle, and his body was warm, and each time I remembered the past, he would say we could take things slow.

i have so much to lose
i have nothing to give
we have so much to lose...