Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Behind the Scenes with Heero and Relena ❯ Chapter 7

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Behind the Scenes with Heero and Relena: Chapter 7

*Warning* Ok guys, like I said, I do not do FULL lemons, but there will be some lemony scenes in this fic, thus the rating. Be prepared for that. Other than that, the usual warnings, you know, bad language and stuff.

*Disclaimer* I hate having to say this every time, it's depressing. However, I DO NOT OWN GUNDAM WING OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS!!!

Ok guys, this is the final chapter. It starts during Endless Waltz, well, the very end of it, and then it explains more of what happened. It doesn't just leave you hanging with Heero walking off to who knows where. I hope you like it; I think it turned out pretty well, but, um...well, there is some OOC-ness, and SAP!!! Not too much, but you know...

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It took a while for Heero to remember exactly where he was and what had happened. When he came to, he found himself lying on something soft and warm. His first thought was that he was on a bed, but then he realized that only his head was resting on something soft and the rest of his body was curled up on cold, hard ground. Groaning softly he opened his eyes a bit a looked up. After his eyes finally focused, he found himself staring into the face of Relena. If anyone looked him in the eyes at that moment, they would have seen pure confusion. However, that passed quickly when Heero reasoned that if he was able to see Relena's face from this view, then he must have been lying on her chest, or his head was anyway. That thought caused his body to stiffen, and after he tried to sit up a little too quickly, he winced in pain. Above him, Relena jumped slightly in shock before looking down at him.

"Oh gosh Heero, you scared me half to death! I hadn't realized you had woken up, are you ok?" she asked worriedly. Heero scrambled away from her, and tried to stand up again. After getting to his feet, he spoke to her.

"I have to go Relena," he said coldly, but with a bit of regret. He was already edging to the door. Relena's eyes widened and immediately started to fill up with tears.

"Wait Heero, why?" she asked, trying to get to her feet to go after him.

"Don't Relena. Just stay there. I need to go."

"But when will I see you again? You can't just run off and think I'll forget about you! Please come back!" Relena pleaded as he rushed out the door without answering her question. The last she heard from him was a quiet goodbye. Relena choked back her sobs. It was the first time she'd seen him in way too long, and he had to leave again. But right now was not the time to start crying. People needed her help. She turned back to the doctors currently helping Mariemaia, and tried to see if there was anything she could do to.

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Several days later, things had seemingly gone back to normal. Relena had already had several meetings she had attended, and she was currently giving one of her oh-so-famous peace speeches to yet another group of people who would probably forget everything she said as soon as they left. It was so aggravating at times, and the extra worry she carried with her about a certain Gundam pilot wasn't helping. She hadn't seen him since he had run off, but she always had a feeling he wasn't too far away. Truth be told, he was currently only a few feet away, watching Relena give her speech from the balcony.

'Déjà vu.' Thought Heero. 'Only, the last time I was in this position, I was pointing a gun at her.' He watched her for a little while longer, before turning to leave. She seemed so confident. She actually had a life to lead, and a very important one at that. 'She doesn't need me.' Heero thought remorsefully. 'She'll forget about me in no time and find someone better, like she deserves.' Down at the podium, something caught Relena's eye. Stopping mid-sentence in her speech, something she usually considered totally unacceptable, Relena looked up to the balcony above her. She only saw it for a second, but she was certain that she had just seen a certain green shirt disappear from view, and the curtain was still swaying back and forth from the movement.

"Uh..." Relena stuttered, trying to start up her speech again. "And in con-conclusion...I...I would like to say that...ah, peace is very fragile, and we should try our best to preserve it," she finished quickly, before turning and sprinting off the stage. She ran right into Pagan.

"Miss Relena! What's wrong? Why didn't you finish your speech?"

"Pagan, something very important has come up, and I would greatly appreciate it if you would tell the audience that I apologize for leaving so abruptly, but I won't be able to continue tonight." With that, Relena ran out the back exit.

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Outside, Heero walked under the stars. There was a clear sky, and the moon bathed him with it's light. He didn't notice it though. He wasn't even watching where he was going. There was a lot on his mind, so Heero just walked along contemplating his life.

'Ha, that's a joke. What life? I don't know how to live a normal life...I've never had to. It's not like anyone cares. The only thing everyone really cares about is that the war is over. Hopefully it's over for good this time, if another one starts, I don't have my Gundam to fight with. No one cares though, I fought for the people, won that damn war for them, and now they'll forget I ever existed. I should have self-destructed when I had the chance. Actually I did self-destruct, didn't I? ...It's all Relena's fault. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have fought with that nagging feeling that I had to come back because she needed me. I could have fought hard, died doing it, and no one would have cared.'

"Well, that's not true, I guess some people would have cared." Heero spoke to the air around him. "Duo might have...He's the only true friend I have, he and the other pilots, if you want to call them friends," he continued quietly. "Relena would have cared..." he whispered. Suddenly, he realized what he was doing. "Great, so now I'm talking to myself. Now I'm going to break and fall apart because the war is over. I'll probably go insane...after war insanity," Heero mumbled, rubbing one hand across his eyes. "God I'm so confused." 'Well that's new, confused? Actually it's not. I've been confused a lot since I met Relena, and happy, nervous, scared...I don't even know what those mean, Dr. J didn't want me to feel anything.' He thought scornfully. 'He failed there though, didn't he? I've been scared, and it wasn't even during battle.' His thoughts drifted back to a year or so earlier, and he stopped walking abruptly. 'Oh wow, if Relena HAD been pregnant, I'd be a father right now...I almost regret it. No, not almost, I do regret it. That would give me something to do...be a father. Yeah right, like I could ever do that successfully. But still...I would have ruined her image though; she'd be a mother out of wedlock. Man, I think that's the most scared I've ever been.'

Heero started walking slowly again. He suddenly felt this strange urge to cry. 'Cry? Oh come on, you can't be weak like that. What would the others think, especially Wufei?' He tried to laugh at that thought, but it came out totally wrong. It sounded more like a choked sob. Heero could feel the tears building up, and he hastily rubbed his hands against his eyes again. His mind drifted back to the others. 'At least they all had somewhere to go.' That brought another thought to mind, and he stopped walking again. "Where exactly am I going?" Heero asked the air. "I have no where to go, and no one will want to house a former soldier. Oh wonderful, there I go with this talking to myself business again. God, what did I do to deserve this? ....Kill hundreds of people, that's what I did," he mumbled. The urge to cry became even stronger. 'I won't! I will not cry, come on, not now. Be strong. I don't think I've ever cried before...Bullshit, I know that's not true.' However, despite all he'd been through, Heero could not remember one time he had actually cried. Sure there were times when he was little, but that was too long ago to remember any other time had been blocked out by his mind. 'It made me weak, I wasn't aloud to cry...'

Heero looked down at his feet. "Why the hell am I walking so slow?" he asked himself. Well that was a no-brainer. "She's not coming Yuy. She won't run after you like this is some romance novel or movie. Walk faster," he commanded himself. His feet didn't listen. Despite himself, he looked back over his shoulder. There was no one there. 'Duh, did you think she would come? She didn't even know you were there. You could have at least left her a note...or another teddy bear.' Heero chuckled with dry irony, and choked back another sob. 'I won't-' He stopped suddenly again. Had someone just called out his name? Heero listened for a minute, but he didn't hear anything else. 'Great, now my training's failing me. I'm really going to crack, I'm starting to hear things.' He heard it again however. A very familiar voice, screaming out his name. 'Don't get your hopes up Yuy.' He told himself as he turned around. "...Relena?!" Heero was barely able to get the word out before he was tackled to the ground by a sobbing mass, which turned out to be none other than Relena.

"Heero!" she cried into his chest. "You are such a jerk, did you think that you could just leave?! Without even saying goodbye!! What was I supposed to do?! Forget about you? Well I'm sorry, but I just cannot do that!" she screamed at him. Lifting her tear-stained face to look into his eyes, she saw relief, happiness, but mostly confusion. "Damn it, you just don't get it, do you?" Despite the fact that he was thrilled beyond words that Relena HAD actually run after him, Heero suddenly got a sinking feeling in his stomach. She wasn't going to...was she?

"Relena-" he tried to speak to her, but was cut off.

"You wouldn't understand...Damn Dr. J." she mumbled, causing Heero's eyes to widen; she never spoke like this.

"Relena don't-"

"Well Heero, let me put it plain and simple."

"Please Relena-" he pleaded.

"I've tried to let you know, I really have." She was sobbing again.

"Don't, don't say it, please!" He went unheard.

"Damn it Heero, I love you!" That did it. Heero couldn't hold it in any longer. It was as if a gate was suddenly lifted, and Heero's totally secure façade came crumbling down around him. Against his will, tears came pouring out of his eyes. He couldn't stop them, though he tried, but that only succeeded in giving him the hiccups, which didn't help the situation any. Jerking away from Relena, who was staring at him in shock, he crammed his fists into his eyes and tried to remain in a semi-composed sitting position in the cool grass. He sat there sobbing, choking on his tears, and hiccupping for a minute or so before he felt Relena wrap her arms around him from behind. He tried to pull away from her, but found he didn't have the strength to get away, not that she was letting him.

"I'm sorry Heero," Relena whispered into Heero's ear.

"You didn't do anything," he mumbled back.

"No, I mean I'm sorry...for everything you had to go through. All the hard training, fighting, stress...I can't even imagine it. And I'm sorry.... Look at me Heero."

"...No..." he mumbled. He found that the tears had pretty much stopped.

"Heero," Relena said gently, placing her hand on his cheek trying to turn his face towards her. He allowed her to, but wouldn't look her in the eye. "You are a wonderful person-" Heero snorted. "Heero I'm serious. You just did what your missions said to during the war. There were battles, and people die in battles. There was nothing you could do about it. But, if it weren't for you, the war wouldn't have ended." She paused for a second. "You're not alone anymore either. You have Duo and the others, me, people who care and love you. It's all right to let your emotions free now."

"I'm being weak, I bet the others aren't sitting at home bawling over...I don't even know what I'm crying about."

"Your not weak," Relena whispered harshly. "Not weak at all."

"I am."

"No your not! I would bet money that eventually, if not already, the others are having this kind of reaction to everything. I would bet a lot of money."

"Yeah, well you have a lot of money to spare."

"Heero..." Relena sighed. She looked around briefly. "Where were you going anyway?" Heero flushed, but Relena couldn't see him in the darkness.

"I, well, I didn't have anywhere to go." Relena raised an eyebrow.

"Oh? Well where did you stay for the whole past year?" she asked.

"Anywhere I could. I stayed with Duo for a while, but he has Hilde and a job, so I'd just be in the way if I went there again."

"Heero, you know you always have a home to go back to."

"What do you mean?"

"Look, I love you, and you will always have a home in my heart." Relena hooked her thumb under Heero's chin and made him look her in the eyes. "Bear with me, this might sound a little lame, but you know how they say Home is where the Heart is?" Heero nodded. "Well, it's my heart, and I live in a great big, LONELY mansion in the Sank Kingdom. And since you will always have a place in my heart, technically you live in the Sank Kingdom with me. Now I'm not saying you have to come back and live with me forever, but for as long as you need, you are welcome to stay with me."

"Relena, that wasn't lame, if fact, that's probably the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me." He paused. "I...I wish, that I could tell you that I love you back, but unfortunately, I'm not entirely sure what that means. I've never been loved before, or before I met you anyway, and I never got the chance to love anything else," Heero said regretfully. Relena sighed.

"Heero...I can teach you to love..." She couldn't take it anymore. Bending over, Relena captured his lips with her own, kissing Heero for the first time in almost a year. He automatically began kissing her back, but she pulled away before the kiss got too deep. "How about this. You come back with me, and we can have a big reunion, so you can see the other pilots again. We can invite Duo, Quatre, Trowa, and...and-"

"Wufei," supplied Heero.

"Right, and Wufei. I never really got to meet him. Anyway, we can have everyone over. It would be nice to see everyone in a place other than a battlefield." Heero looked into Relena's eyes, and saw nothing but pure hope shining there. He gave her a small smile, which was more than he usually did.

"I would like that." Relena's smile widened, and she stood up. After brushing herself off, she offered a hand to Heero.

"Come on then, let's go home."

'Home,' thought Heero. 'I actually have a home to go to.' And holding Relena's hand in his own, that is exactly where they went.

¡END! (I think...)



Well, that's it. It's over. At least, the "behind the scenes" part is over. I hoped you liked it! I might do a sequel to this; do you think I should? Tell me, and I'll write it! Well, maybe....we'll see. Thanks so much for reading this! Sorry if Heero seemed a little out-of-character in this, but I thought it fit him after everything he's been through. Please review! Love you all!! Read my other fics!! (shameless promotion...hehe ^_^ )

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