Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Best I Ever Had ❯ Best I Ever Had ( One-Shot )
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Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 12.14.2001 | Pages: 4 | Words: 2.4K | Visits: 524 | Status: Completed
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Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 12.14.2001 | Pages: 4 | Words: 2.4K | Visits: 524 | Status: Completed
The Best I've Ever Had
Standard Disclaimer Crap: "Gundam W," its characters, mecha, et al.
do not belong to me, they are owned by Bandai, Sunrise, and the Sotsu
Agency. "Best I've Ever Had" is owned by Vertical Horizon. The plot
is owned by me and "Jade Maxwell Barton" is owned by Nanami Tendo
(nanami_tendo@hotmail.com), though, so HAH! This story is based
lightly on my sister's (ChibiChibi-chan) fanfic, Neo Gundam Wing. On
to the story!
< blah blah blah > = Lyrics....
------------------------------------------------------- ---------------
****A.C. 220 - In The Circus****
Jade Barton sat in the audience with her 17-year-old twin boys
Triage and Nova, watching Trowa perform a dangerous stunt on his
high wire act. Occasionally, Trowa would perform with his sister in
the circus that her husband owned. He would bring along Jade and the
boys as he toured with the circus in each of the colonies and all over
the Earth. Ariel didn't come along since she was in college and was
planning her and Shingo's wedding.
Trowa glanced down, and his emerald-green eyes met with the
amytheist-colored ones of his wife. He smiled, then jumped off the
wire to do the closing part of his act, his triple backflip. He
miscalculated the exact moment he should have done the third flip, and
he plummeted to the ground head first.
"Oh no..." he murmurred, and tried to recover, but it was too late.
Seconds later, his head collided with the ground, instantly paralyzing
and killing the former pilot of Heavyarms Gundam.
Jade, Triage, Nova, Catherine, and the rest of the audience watched in
horror as Trowa landed head first onto the ground, then laid still.
Several audience members screamed as a few quickly called for help for
Trowa. Jade jumped out of the audience seats, and rushed over to
Trowa to cradle him before the ambulance arrived.
**** One Week Later ****
<So you sailed away....
Into a grey sky morning...
now I'm here to stay....
Love can be so boring...>
Rain flooded down from the heavens as the Gundam group gathered to
say farewell to their comrade Trowa. It got heavier as the casket was
lowered into the ground, and each of the "Gundam families" laid
flowers on top of Trowa's casket one by one. Triage placed his rose
on his father's casket.
"Father," he said in a barely audible voice. "I'm sorry we didn't
spend a lot of time together." His brother helped him walk back to
their seats.
Jade glanced at everyone who attended the funeral. Relena and Sally,
with their husbands, sat alongside Catherine. Quatre and Dorothy sat
next to Jade, offering their condolences to her and the boys. Ariel
bawled into Shingo's shoulder, who cried along with her.
<Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now....>
The other gundam pilots and their families left. Triage, Nova, and
Ariel decided to stay with some friends. Jade stood over her husband's
grave, and sighed.
"It's not the same anymore, Trowa," she whispered. "It's like someone
took my will to live away from me. I miss you so much, love..."
<But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had...>
"Part of me yearns for you, Trowa," she continued, stubbornly wiping
away the tears that were now falling from her eyes. "But...I know that
you're in a better place, and you're happy..."
<So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely...>
A few months later, Relena and Heero came over to Jade's house. They
(more like, Relena) wanted to make sure Jade was doing alright.
Quatre and Dorothy often came by to keep Jade company now that Triage
and Nova were in school, and Ariel went back to college in the former
United States.
The pilot of Silverlight welcomed the Yuys into her home. Relena
noticed that she seemed thinner and paler than she did before. It was
obvious that she was still depressed over the loss of Trowa. Noticing
the look of concern on Relena's face, Heero decided to break the
eerie silence.
"How are things with you and the kids, Jade?" Heero asked politely, or
in the most polite tone you can get from him. Jade gave him a rather
blank, depressed look, then glanced away.
"Everything's fine," she replied in a chilling, monotone voice that
rivaled even Heero's. Relena was taken aback, wondering how to
respond to her friend. She walked over to Jade, and placed her hand
upon the blonde's shoulder.
"Jade," Relena whispered softly. Jade stared off into space again,
pretending that Relena and Heero weren't there. "Jade, you have to
move on with your life. Trowa wouldn't want you--"
"I CAN'T MOVE ON, RELENA!" Jade snapped back, tears flowing from her
eyes. "I can't...Trowa was the center of my life. The only reason I
continue to live is for Triage, Nova, and Ariel..." She slumped to
the floor, bawling. Relena wrapped her arms around Jade, and tried to
comfort her. Heero sighed, wondering what he could do to help Duo's
sister.
<Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better>
"When Noin and I thought Zechs was dead," Relena said. "We used to
write letters to him, and leave them on his tombstone. It sounds like
a silly thing, but it works sometimes. It'll make you feel better,
Jade."
After Heero and Relena left, Jade got out a piece of paper, and
started writing a letter to Trowa. Over an hour later, she was done,
and placed the five-page letter into an envelope, then sealed it.
"I'll take this with me the next time I go to the cemetery," she
whispered to herself as she placed the envelope next to a picture of
the family she had on her nightstand.
<But it's not so bad
(Not so bad...)
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
(Need me back...)
You're just the best I ever had...>
A few days later, Jade returned to the cemetery, with her letter in
her hand. She placed it down upon the tombstone, and a wind suddenly
began to blow. The envelope blew away, and Jade chased after it until
it reached a height that she could never hope to recover the envelope
from. She sighed, turned around, and decided to walk back to Trowa's
grave when she saw a faint, translucent figure holding her letter.
"Trowa!?" Jade screeched in surprise. Trowa nodded, and smiled.
"But..."
"Jade," Trowa whispered, stroking her left cheek with his hand. Jade
was surprised at how his hand felt both cold and warm at the same time.
"Hon, I know you miss me, but...I'm here to tell you that I'm in a
better place. I miss you just as much, and I hate seeing you so
lonely and depressed."
"Trowa, I love you," Jade replied. "As I've said before..."
"'My life is meaningless without you in it being a part of it,'" Trowa
interrupted. "Yes, koishii, I feel the same way about you, but...I
think it would be better if you moved on. I promise we'll be together
one day."
"But...but..." Jade sobbed, then hugged him. "You ARE the best I've
EVER had!"
<And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right...>
Trowa embraced his sobbing wife. He felt her pain, and understood the
lonliness she felt completely. "Hon, I understand that it'll take
some time to heal, but you need to move on. Look at what you're doing
to yourself." He said as he held her out, and noted the thinness and
paleness she had acquired over the past few months. "If not for you,
then for Ariel, Triage, and Nova. They still need you, Jade."
She sniffled, wiped her tears away, and smiled weakly at her beloved.
"Hai...you're right, as usual." she whispered. "Thank you, love."
Trowa's response was a smile as he began to fade away...
<So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring...>
Jade headed back to her car, thinking about everything that just
happened. 'I talked to Trowa's spirit, and we said our final
goodbyes,' she thought. She continued to ponder the meaning behind
Trowa's visit, and was so deep in thought that she was unaware of the
fact she walked straight into a dark-haired, tall man wearing a
black trenchcoat.
"Ahh!" she screeeched, then looked up at the handsome man. He merely
grinned in response, enjoying the shocked look on her face. "G-gomen
nasai..." Jade whispered.
"It's fine," he replied. "You are Mrs. Barton, I assume?"
"Hai," she responded, wondering why this man was here, standing before
her. The questions she asked herself mentally were about to be
answered. The man held his hand out to Jade.
"The name's Akumyou Kyuusei," he said. Jade looked at the charming
man with the first 'real' smile she had given anyone in a very long
time.
<What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted...>
**** Two Years Later ****
Jade walked down the altar, accompanied by her little brother Duo, who
was giving her away for the second time. Today was the day she could
finally move on, and would be happy with her new husband, Kyuusei.
"Finally," she thought. "I can start to live again, with the help of
Kyuusei." She couldn't understand why her children and friends
weren't happy for her. Isn't this what they wanted? She shook her
head, and came to the belief that people were fickle-minded.
Duo remained as stoic as he could bear, which was difficult for the
one referred to by his colleagues as "Smiling Shinigami." He against
the idea of Jade marrying this strange Kyuusei guy. Something about
him just didn't sit right with him. He knew that his niece and
nephews felt the same way, as did the rest of the pilots. Duo and
Heero tried desperately to find some information about this guy, but
they turned up nothing. As soon as they arrived at the altar, Duo
gave his sister a kiss on the cheek, and went to sit with the rest of
his family.
"Jade, I hope to whatever gods exist that you've found true happiness
again," Duo whispered as he watched the rest of the ceremony. "I hope
that this bad feeling I have about that guy doesn't end up being true,
for your sake." Something caught his attention out of the corner of
his eye, and Duo could almost swear that he had seen the ghost of
Trowa near the windowsill of the church, shaking his head at Jade.
**** Three Months Later ****
Jade happily finished setting the table. Tonight, she would finally
be alone with Kyuusei. Ariel and the twins went back to school, and
she had finally convinced Duo that there was nothing wrong with her
new husband. She heard the door slam shut, and she knew that Kyuusei
was home. She walked out of the kitchen to greet her husband.
"Kyuusei," she said, then gasped. Kyuusei looked at his wife with
glazed eyes. Jade suspected he had been up to something, and tried to
think of a way to bring up the topic without getting him angry. She
sighed, then slowly approached her husband.
"Leave me alone, Jade," Kyuusei growled in slurred speech. Jade
ignored him, and continued towards him. He got angry, and slapped
Jade. "I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE! DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND SIMPLE
JAPANESE?"
Tears fell from Jade's face. 'This always happens when he's drunk or
high,' she thought. 'What have I done, Trowa? God, I've made the
biggest mistake of my life...Trowa, you truely were the best I've ever
had...'
<But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had...>
Jade eventually divorced Kyuusei and lived the rest of her life with
Ariel and Shingo, who had finally gotten over their petty little
arguements to marry each other. Later on in life, Jade contracted a
rare, uncurable form of cancer. As she layed on her deathbed, her ]
family circled around her. Jade, knowing that the end was near,
looked up weakly towards the opposite end of the end of the room, and
saw her true love standing there, smiling.
"Trowa," she whispered in a nearly inaudible voice. She smiled
weakly at the glowing, translucent figure which was being to solidify
before her eyes.
"Grandmother," one of her grandchildren asked. "What are you looking
at on the wall? There's nothing there."
"Nothing, my darling," she answered, turning to the young child.
"Minna, I'm going to have to ask you guys to leave. I think I need my
rest." She glanced back at the wall, and saw Trowa nodding in
agreement. 'So, this is the end of my mortal life, and the beginning
of the afterlife I'll spend with you, my love.' she thought as her
daughter, her sons, their significant others, and grandchildren left
the room. She closed her eyes, feeling sleep take her.
She awakened a short time later, and found herself dressed much like
she was in her younger days. Jade turned around to see a flight of
white stairs, and at the top, Trowa. She ran up the stairs and nearly
jumped into the arms of her beloved.
"Darling, I've missed you," she whispered, holding Trowa as close to
her as possible. Trowa smiled and gave her a kiss that she hadn't
received in years.
"I've missed you too, dear," Trowa answered. "Now, let's go." The
two happy, reunited lovers continued walking up the flight of stairs,
closer to the blinding white light at the top.
<The best I ever had
The best I ever...had.>
FIN
-------------------------------- --------------------------------------
Well, guys! Here's the end of the first fanfic I've written since...
Christmas time? X.x I hope you guys enjoyed it, and I look forward
to your critiques, comments, or gripes about this fic in your review.
Ja! ^^;;;
Standard Disclaimer Crap: "Gundam W," its characters, mecha, et al.
do not belong to me, they are owned by Bandai, Sunrise, and the Sotsu
Agency. "Best I've Ever Had" is owned by Vertical Horizon. The plot
is owned by me and "Jade Maxwell Barton" is owned by Nanami Tendo
(nanami_tendo@hotmail.com), though, so HAH! This story is based
lightly on my sister's (ChibiChibi-chan) fanfic, Neo Gundam Wing. On
to the story!
< blah blah blah > = Lyrics....
------------------------------------------------------- ---------------
****A.C. 220 - In The Circus****
Jade Barton sat in the audience with her 17-year-old twin boys
Triage and Nova, watching Trowa perform a dangerous stunt on his
high wire act. Occasionally, Trowa would perform with his sister in
the circus that her husband owned. He would bring along Jade and the
boys as he toured with the circus in each of the colonies and all over
the Earth. Ariel didn't come along since she was in college and was
planning her and Shingo's wedding.
Trowa glanced down, and his emerald-green eyes met with the
amytheist-colored ones of his wife. He smiled, then jumped off the
wire to do the closing part of his act, his triple backflip. He
miscalculated the exact moment he should have done the third flip, and
he plummeted to the ground head first.
"Oh no..." he murmurred, and tried to recover, but it was too late.
Seconds later, his head collided with the ground, instantly paralyzing
and killing the former pilot of Heavyarms Gundam.
Jade, Triage, Nova, Catherine, and the rest of the audience watched in
horror as Trowa landed head first onto the ground, then laid still.
Several audience members screamed as a few quickly called for help for
Trowa. Jade jumped out of the audience seats, and rushed over to
Trowa to cradle him before the ambulance arrived.
**** One Week Later ****
<So you sailed away....
Into a grey sky morning...
now I'm here to stay....
Love can be so boring...>
Rain flooded down from the heavens as the Gundam group gathered to
say farewell to their comrade Trowa. It got heavier as the casket was
lowered into the ground, and each of the "Gundam families" laid
flowers on top of Trowa's casket one by one. Triage placed his rose
on his father's casket.
"Father," he said in a barely audible voice. "I'm sorry we didn't
spend a lot of time together." His brother helped him walk back to
their seats.
Jade glanced at everyone who attended the funeral. Relena and Sally,
with their husbands, sat alongside Catherine. Quatre and Dorothy sat
next to Jade, offering their condolences to her and the boys. Ariel
bawled into Shingo's shoulder, who cried along with her.
<Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now....>
The other gundam pilots and their families left. Triage, Nova, and
Ariel decided to stay with some friends. Jade stood over her husband's
grave, and sighed.
"It's not the same anymore, Trowa," she whispered. "It's like someone
took my will to live away from me. I miss you so much, love..."
<But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had...>
"Part of me yearns for you, Trowa," she continued, stubbornly wiping
away the tears that were now falling from her eyes. "But...I know that
you're in a better place, and you're happy..."
<So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely...>
A few months later, Relena and Heero came over to Jade's house. They
(more like, Relena) wanted to make sure Jade was doing alright.
Quatre and Dorothy often came by to keep Jade company now that Triage
and Nova were in school, and Ariel went back to college in the former
United States.
The pilot of Silverlight welcomed the Yuys into her home. Relena
noticed that she seemed thinner and paler than she did before. It was
obvious that she was still depressed over the loss of Trowa. Noticing
the look of concern on Relena's face, Heero decided to break the
eerie silence.
"How are things with you and the kids, Jade?" Heero asked politely, or
in the most polite tone you can get from him. Jade gave him a rather
blank, depressed look, then glanced away.
"Everything's fine," she replied in a chilling, monotone voice that
rivaled even Heero's. Relena was taken aback, wondering how to
respond to her friend. She walked over to Jade, and placed her hand
upon the blonde's shoulder.
"Jade," Relena whispered softly. Jade stared off into space again,
pretending that Relena and Heero weren't there. "Jade, you have to
move on with your life. Trowa wouldn't want you--"
"I CAN'T MOVE ON, RELENA!" Jade snapped back, tears flowing from her
eyes. "I can't...Trowa was the center of my life. The only reason I
continue to live is for Triage, Nova, and Ariel..." She slumped to
the floor, bawling. Relena wrapped her arms around Jade, and tried to
comfort her. Heero sighed, wondering what he could do to help Duo's
sister.
<Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better>
"When Noin and I thought Zechs was dead," Relena said. "We used to
write letters to him, and leave them on his tombstone. It sounds like
a silly thing, but it works sometimes. It'll make you feel better,
Jade."
After Heero and Relena left, Jade got out a piece of paper, and
started writing a letter to Trowa. Over an hour later, she was done,
and placed the five-page letter into an envelope, then sealed it.
"I'll take this with me the next time I go to the cemetery," she
whispered to herself as she placed the envelope next to a picture of
the family she had on her nightstand.
<But it's not so bad
(Not so bad...)
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
(Need me back...)
You're just the best I ever had...>
A few days later, Jade returned to the cemetery, with her letter in
her hand. She placed it down upon the tombstone, and a wind suddenly
began to blow. The envelope blew away, and Jade chased after it until
it reached a height that she could never hope to recover the envelope
from. She sighed, turned around, and decided to walk back to Trowa's
grave when she saw a faint, translucent figure holding her letter.
"Trowa!?" Jade screeched in surprise. Trowa nodded, and smiled.
"But..."
"Jade," Trowa whispered, stroking her left cheek with his hand. Jade
was surprised at how his hand felt both cold and warm at the same time.
"Hon, I know you miss me, but...I'm here to tell you that I'm in a
better place. I miss you just as much, and I hate seeing you so
lonely and depressed."
"Trowa, I love you," Jade replied. "As I've said before..."
"'My life is meaningless without you in it being a part of it,'" Trowa
interrupted. "Yes, koishii, I feel the same way about you, but...I
think it would be better if you moved on. I promise we'll be together
one day."
"But...but..." Jade sobbed, then hugged him. "You ARE the best I've
EVER had!"
<And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right...>
Trowa embraced his sobbing wife. He felt her pain, and understood the
lonliness she felt completely. "Hon, I understand that it'll take
some time to heal, but you need to move on. Look at what you're doing
to yourself." He said as he held her out, and noted the thinness and
paleness she had acquired over the past few months. "If not for you,
then for Ariel, Triage, and Nova. They still need you, Jade."
She sniffled, wiped her tears away, and smiled weakly at her beloved.
"Hai...you're right, as usual." she whispered. "Thank you, love."
Trowa's response was a smile as he began to fade away...
<So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring...>
Jade headed back to her car, thinking about everything that just
happened. 'I talked to Trowa's spirit, and we said our final
goodbyes,' she thought. She continued to ponder the meaning behind
Trowa's visit, and was so deep in thought that she was unaware of the
fact she walked straight into a dark-haired, tall man wearing a
black trenchcoat.
"Ahh!" she screeeched, then looked up at the handsome man. He merely
grinned in response, enjoying the shocked look on her face. "G-gomen
nasai..." Jade whispered.
"It's fine," he replied. "You are Mrs. Barton, I assume?"
"Hai," she responded, wondering why this man was here, standing before
her. The questions she asked herself mentally were about to be
answered. The man held his hand out to Jade.
"The name's Akumyou Kyuusei," he said. Jade looked at the charming
man with the first 'real' smile she had given anyone in a very long
time.
<What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted...>
**** Two Years Later ****
Jade walked down the altar, accompanied by her little brother Duo, who
was giving her away for the second time. Today was the day she could
finally move on, and would be happy with her new husband, Kyuusei.
"Finally," she thought. "I can start to live again, with the help of
Kyuusei." She couldn't understand why her children and friends
weren't happy for her. Isn't this what they wanted? She shook her
head, and came to the belief that people were fickle-minded.
Duo remained as stoic as he could bear, which was difficult for the
one referred to by his colleagues as "Smiling Shinigami." He against
the idea of Jade marrying this strange Kyuusei guy. Something about
him just didn't sit right with him. He knew that his niece and
nephews felt the same way, as did the rest of the pilots. Duo and
Heero tried desperately to find some information about this guy, but
they turned up nothing. As soon as they arrived at the altar, Duo
gave his sister a kiss on the cheek, and went to sit with the rest of
his family.
"Jade, I hope to whatever gods exist that you've found true happiness
again," Duo whispered as he watched the rest of the ceremony. "I hope
that this bad feeling I have about that guy doesn't end up being true,
for your sake." Something caught his attention out of the corner of
his eye, and Duo could almost swear that he had seen the ghost of
Trowa near the windowsill of the church, shaking his head at Jade.
**** Three Months Later ****
Jade happily finished setting the table. Tonight, she would finally
be alone with Kyuusei. Ariel and the twins went back to school, and
she had finally convinced Duo that there was nothing wrong with her
new husband. She heard the door slam shut, and she knew that Kyuusei
was home. She walked out of the kitchen to greet her husband.
"Kyuusei," she said, then gasped. Kyuusei looked at his wife with
glazed eyes. Jade suspected he had been up to something, and tried to
think of a way to bring up the topic without getting him angry. She
sighed, then slowly approached her husband.
"Leave me alone, Jade," Kyuusei growled in slurred speech. Jade
ignored him, and continued towards him. He got angry, and slapped
Jade. "I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE! DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND SIMPLE
JAPANESE?"
Tears fell from Jade's face. 'This always happens when he's drunk or
high,' she thought. 'What have I done, Trowa? God, I've made the
biggest mistake of my life...Trowa, you truely were the best I've ever
had...'
<But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had...>
Jade eventually divorced Kyuusei and lived the rest of her life with
Ariel and Shingo, who had finally gotten over their petty little
arguements to marry each other. Later on in life, Jade contracted a
rare, uncurable form of cancer. As she layed on her deathbed, her ]
family circled around her. Jade, knowing that the end was near,
looked up weakly towards the opposite end of the end of the room, and
saw her true love standing there, smiling.
"Trowa," she whispered in a nearly inaudible voice. She smiled
weakly at the glowing, translucent figure which was being to solidify
before her eyes.
"Grandmother," one of her grandchildren asked. "What are you looking
at on the wall? There's nothing there."
"Nothing, my darling," she answered, turning to the young child.
"Minna, I'm going to have to ask you guys to leave. I think I need my
rest." She glanced back at the wall, and saw Trowa nodding in
agreement. 'So, this is the end of my mortal life, and the beginning
of the afterlife I'll spend with you, my love.' she thought as her
daughter, her sons, their significant others, and grandchildren left
the room. She closed her eyes, feeling sleep take her.
She awakened a short time later, and found herself dressed much like
she was in her younger days. Jade turned around to see a flight of
white stairs, and at the top, Trowa. She ran up the stairs and nearly
jumped into the arms of her beloved.
"Darling, I've missed you," she whispered, holding Trowa as close to
her as possible. Trowa smiled and gave her a kiss that she hadn't
received in years.
"I've missed you too, dear," Trowa answered. "Now, let's go." The
two happy, reunited lovers continued walking up the flight of stairs,
closer to the blinding white light at the top.
<The best I ever had
The best I ever...had.>
FIN
-------------------------------- --------------------------------------
Well, guys! Here's the end of the first fanfic I've written since...
Christmas time? X.x I hope you guys enjoyed it, and I look forward
to your critiques, comments, or gripes about this fic in your review.
Ja! ^^;;;