Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Christmas Eve AC 199 ❯ Christmas Eve AC 199 ( One-Shot )

Title: Christmas Eve AC 199
Author: Makiko Igami
Archive: http://www.yaoi.rulestheweb.com
Category: Songfic (Nan's Song by Robbie Williams), Supernatural, Romance
Rating: G (I'd say)
Warnings: Lots of fluff and waff...
Spoilers: Duo's Episode Zero, end of Endless Waltz (not really)
Summary: Christmas Eve in Duo's and Heero's little home and Duo tells Heero about his first Christmas. Later that night he gets a visitor...
Notes: I heard that song (Nan's Song by Robbie Williams) and I was INSTANTLY reminded of Duo. There are a few little things that don't fit his past, but the general feeling that I got while listening to that song was a very Christmas-ish, fluffy Duo-feeling. ^^;; I hope I was able to put a little of what I feel into these words. BTW this is only my second songfic... My first one was crap (imho). O.o

PLEASE DOWNLOAD THE SONG FIRST!

^^;; I wrote the story while I was listening to it... and I was kinda in a trance... so the whole fic feels like it... You'd miss something if you didn't listen to the song while reading it. Arigatou gozaimasu. ^_^
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You said when you'd die that you'd walk with me every day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you away from me.

It's Christmas Eve. One of the most peaceful days in the year, especially for us ex-Gundam-pilots. Two years ago it was the day we finally managed to gain peace forever. Besides that, Christmas has always been one of my favorite days in the year. For somebody who grew up in an orphanage, not knowing when my birthday was, Christmas was the date that came close to a birthday. Everything was so festive and peaceful, the smell of ginger bread everywhere. The tree in the main hall wasn't big, but every year it was the most beautiful thing I thought I'd ever seen in my short life. Candles on almost every branch, little colored spheres everywhere, straw angels we kids made all over the year, tinsel and the big star on the top of the poor overloaded tree. We didn't get many presents but each and every one was picked out with love from Sister Helen. Most of them were self-made from junk that one could find near Maxwell church, but they bristled with love and affection.

My greatest present ever was the hug that I got from Sister Helen on my first Christmas at the orphanage. I felt so warm and fuzzy inside that I vowed in my childish naivety that I would marry her when I was old enough. But I never had the chance to.

And now she lives in heaven
But I know they let her out
To take care of me

This Christmas I am together with Heero and he asked me about the cross I am wearing. I know it must have been on his mind for a few years now, but he only dared to ask now, now that our both lives are secure and we finally managed to get over our struggle to get together.

I didn't mean to, but my face showed sadness and loss and I could see him flinch and open his mouth, as if he wanted to apologize and take his question back. I stopped him. He wanted to know, and I wanted to tell him, so I talked about my first Christmas with Sister Helen, told him how she gave me this little cross on a small golden chain.

There's a strange kind of light
Caressing me tonight
Pray silence my fear
She is near
Brining heaven down here

It was like the opening of a valve for me. We sat there on our little, battered looking, but extremely comfortable sofa in front of our own little Christmas tree, complete with self-made decorations and a big lighted star on top of it and as usual it was me who was talking.

As I told him how life in the orphanage was, I remembered how it was a few hours earlier, when we decorated the tree together. I was more decorating Heero than the tree, but he didn't seem to mind having tinsel in his hair and a little Santa Claus hanging from his ear. Instead he put a little angel with a trumpet on my ear and a little bell at the end of my braid when I wasn't paying attention. And I wondered where this little tinkling came from. I smiled as I told him how I played a very minor prank on Sister Helen in spring after Christmas and how she was worried about me and wondered where I've been when I was just under the roof of the Church. And how she hugged me, desperately as if I had died and just came back as an angel to her.

I miss your love, I miss your touch
But I'm feeling you every day
And I can almost hear you say
"You've come a long way baby"

Heero listened intently, not interrupting me at all. He knows I talk too much for my own good sometimes, and especially to him. But that's just because he's a good listener. He seemed so distant when we first met, always telling me to shut up and be silent, but in fact he was listening intently to every word I said. With an amused smile I can hear him correcting me every time I tell other people how I shot him, got him out of hospital and took him to Howard's ship to take care of him and his Gundam.

Deathscythe... Shinigami... all results of my encounter with Sister Helen.

I feel tears starting to well in my eyes as I tell him how I tried to steal a Mobile Suit when OZ was threatening our colony, in hopes I could save them all. But I was too late. The person I have loved most in my very short life back then died in front of my eyes, with a smile on her lips, because I managed to stay alive.

And that was the point where I had to stop my story because I started crying like a baby.

And now you live in heaven
But I know they let you out
To take care of me

Heero hugged me then, kissing me soothingly on my forehead, rubbing my back gently while I wept into his white button-down shirt. I don't know what he said to me, but it was calming me massively and I cried myself to sleep in his arms, with the comforting feeling that somebody was there to love me and take care of me again.

He must have carried me to bed, because the next thing I knew was that I woke up in his arms, but not on the couch anymore. Heero was fast asleep like a baby and I smiled at his peaceful sleeping features, lovingly brushing some bangs out of his face. I never imagined finding love in a soldier, and hell, especially not in the Perfect Soldier, but he was mine.

There's a strange kind of light
In my bedroom tonight
Pray silence my fear
She is near
Bring your heaven down here

I blinked, thinking I must be still asleep, but even as I pinched myself I saw a light shining through the little window of our bedroom. Carefully I detached myself from my love's embrace and moved to push away the curtains and open the window. And what I saw then made me kneel down in humbleness.

You taught me kings and queens
While stroking my hair
In my darkest hour I know you are there
Kneeling down beside me
Whispering my prayer

You thought angels don't exist? So did I. But I saw one that night.

My eyes got hot and hotter and I felt tears streaming down my face as the silent figure of light reached out to touch my cheek. Her smile was so serene, I thought I already died and gone to heaven, to meet her again.

"Sis... Sister Helen" I choked out her name and she smiled even warmer down at me. I didn't even notice how she stepped into the room, but suddenly she was kneeling next to me, her arms wrapped around my neck, holding me close to her ethereal body.

I tried to hug her back, but despite of the warm feeling of her arms against my body I reached out into nothingness. She was close to me, but I wasn't able to touch her. But she was there to comfort me and that was enough to make me happy. Suddenly I wasn't the trained soldier I've been forever as it seemed to be, but the little child I've always been with her. She kissed me on the cheek, on the forehead, on my other cheek and on the tip of my nose before she looked straight into my eyes, still smiling. I thought she was proud of me. I felt so guilty about all the pain I've brought as a soldier and cried even harder. Desperately I tried to wipe my tears away, but they seemed to be unstoppable. Just the thought of her smiling down at me, as if she was forgiving me all the sins I've comitted, was rinsing the river of tears that was streaming down my face over her invisible fingers.

She then turned to look at the sleeping figure on the bed, floating in the air. My cheeks heat up as I notice that she was taking a good look at Heero, measuring if he was good enough to take care of me instead of her. I could feel my heart beating loudly when she reached out to touch his cheek, just like she touched mine, in fear he would wake up and spoil this moment. I was afraid he could glare at my angel, make her go away forever. And that was the last thing I want.

But he didn't wake up. He slept through her every touch as if she wasn't there. Just a tiny curl of his lips indicated that he was pleased by something. But perhaps it was only a dream he had.

Yes there's a strange kind of light
Caressing me tonight
Pray silence my fear
She is near
Bringing heaven down here

She turned back to me, her hand moving up to my cheek again. She smiled so consolingly that I almost forgot to cry. Leaning down silently she breathed a little kiss on my lips, just before she unfolded her wings and flew out of the window, towards the full moon. I could hear myself cry out her name, begging her not to leave, desperately, as if her departure would mean my death, but every protest ebbed away when she turned back to me and smiled, her mouth moving as if she wanted to say that we will meet again and added with a little laugh that she hoped it wasn't too soon.

"Take care of what you love, just like you took care of your memory of me", she said as a last advice, just before the light faded and left me alone in the darkened room. It was getting chilly in here, but I didn't notice since I was still too excited by the visit of the angel that I just had.

I don't know how long I just sat there, but suddenly I saw somebody closing the window and shutting the curtains again before my vision was filled by dark blue eyes.

"Duo? Are you okay?" he asked, concern vivid in his voice. Feeling very warm and fuzzy inside again, I reached out to him and hugged him close, kissing him on the cheek that Sister Helen had touched. I sensed that he was pretty puzzled by my actions but he just hugged back.

The next time that we meet
I will bow at her feet
And say wasn't life sweet
Then we'll prepare
To take heaven down here

"What were you doing? Kneeling in front of the window in the chilly air?"

"I..." I started but I know he wouldn't believe me if I told him that I saw an angel. So I just looked him straight in the eyes, smiling happily. "It doesn't matter. I was just looking out for Santa Claus," I said with a childish gleam in my eyes. I know I said I don't lie and that this wasn't the truth, but it was close.

"Baka," he says, but he doesn't mean it in a harsh way. He's smiling at me, picking me up from the floor.

I snuggle into his embrace and hide my face at the crook of his neck. Carefully he lowers me onto the bed, climbing in after me.

"I love you," I said, and I meant it from the bottom of my heart. If I ever loved anybody else than Sister Helen, it was Heero.

He looks down at me startled but smiles then. "Aishiteru, Duo-koi. Itsumo."

I closed my eyes as he kissed me, still smiling because I know there is a heaven to where I will be going when my heaven down here with Heero will end some day. But as Sister Helen said, I hope that won't be too soon.

Owari!
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PS: I found a very matching picture for this story on a Japanese fanart Site. ^_^ I've uploaded said picture and you can view it by clicking here. Merry Christmas minna! And please leave a little review as a gift for me. ^_^v