Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Confession ❯ Confession ( Chapter 1 )

Series: Gundam Wing

Pairings: 1x2

Rating: NC-17

Disclaimers: you know what, I haven't acquired the licensing for this at any point in time. So, no suing me, I'm a college student anyway, it's like I have money.

Author Notes: okay, this has some nice dirty things being done in a church, so…if that squicks you out or offends you, then don't read this. Thank you. Have a nice day. REVIEW.

Confession

Duo sat inside the church. There were no masses taking place that day and he just wanted to feel at home again inside the walls that could provide true sanctuary. He didn't feel like he deserved sanctuary but still, right now, he needed it. Duo was facing feelings that he didn't want to deal with, and he couldn't get the peace he needed to think at the base. It had taken, seeming, ages to find this place, and at the moment it was abandoned.

He was sitting on a pew close to a confessional booth and turned and looked at it, and knew there would be no priest on the one side to answer his "father forgive me I have sinned." He had so much on his mind that he wanted to tell, and get out in the open, and then it occurred to him, that even if a priest were there to answer him, it's not like he could say much. "Uh, I'm here, I have feelings for someone that I shouldn't and that's about all I can say without having to kill you." Yeah, because that would work out…

In the midst of his reverie he heard footsteps and got turned around seeing a shadow to match them. Without thinking clearly he jumped for the confessional and hopped into the priest's side.

Heero was feeling lost in all his emotional turmoil and decided that maybe he should go to church. Duo found sanctuary there, maybe he could too. He noticed that there was absolutely not a soul there, and this automatically made him head for the confessionals. He knew there wouldn't be anyone else but maybe a priest to hear out his troubles. He took a final look around and stepped into the first one he came to. He settled himself and coughed, trying to clear his throat, or maybe stall for time; he wasn't exactly sure which either.

Duo looked in horror as Heero stepped into the confessional. Several thoughts ran through his mind ranging from `oh dear god, I'm going to hear this, and I don't want to' to `oh dear god, I'm going to hear this and I soooo want to.' Then there was the conflict in him that said `I don't want to know this' and then the other side that said `you're dying to know how he feels…stay…STAY.' And of course…he stayed.

Heero felt compelled, finally, to say something, and then a sense of traditional values took over.

"Father forgive me for I have sinned," he said in a quiet tone.

Duo knew he had to respond…if he was going to keep the façade up he had to answer, had to say SOMETHING. He settled on masking his voice in a deeper tone and said simply,

"Go on my child, tell me your troubles."

Heero thought the voice sounded slightly familiar, but then again, maybe all priests had similar voices…or maybe he just was so mixed up in everything that the voice wasn't really registering in his mind. Then he got angry with himself for sitting for such a long time trying to `sort out his feelings,' and he just started to spill it all out.

"Father there are many things I have to say and I suppose I should start from the beginning." He flushed a shade of pink as he started to think of Duo. "You see, there's this friend of mine at school…and I like him. And I know that it's wrong for us to be together. Everything in our lives points us away from each other, only that I find myself strangely attracted to him."

Duo listened intently and started running through a mental line up of their friends. Who could he possibly be talking about? All of his heart wanted Heero to be talking about him, but there was no way-maybe Quatre…ya know, Quatre was kind of cute…Then Heero started talking again and Duo gave up his train of thought to listen to Heero, this would hopefully provide some more clues so that he could figure out Heero's mystery love..

"We have a lot of the same interests and hobbies, and we're together a lot. I never saw him as more than a friend though until just recently. You see there's this girl that sort of likes me, but when I tried to go on a date with her, it just felt wrong. I wouldn't even talk to her for the whole night, because all I could think about was him. And I could only think about all the time that we've spent together and all the homework assignments that we've completed with each other's help, the projects, everything. I'm hard pressed, father, to think of a time when we weren't together, that I wasn't secretly happy. I have to constantly keep this mask that I'm angry with him, because if I don't then I know I'll let it slip that I have these feelings for him."

He paused again and Duo was left with an awkward silence where he swore he could hear both of their pulses resounding loudly within the wooden booth. Then Heero started up again.

"Father, I know it's wrong to lust after someone of the same sex, but I don't understand how my feelings for him are wrong, when every time I'm around him, I can only feel right. Is there anything truly wrong in finding the person who you know is right, and then pursuing them even though by all divine laws it's wrong? I wish I could tell him how I feel, but I just can't bring myself to look at him and say anything other than a harsh comment. Tough love I guess…"

Heero trailed off leaving whatever it was he was thinking unsaid. Duo sat in stunned silence, it had to be him. He was the only one that Heero was ever around that much. This was insane. What was Heero saying? Did Heero realize what he was saying? He had to be drugged, this was too good to be true. No, this really was too good to be true, Heero didn't like him, there was no way…not the Heero he knew. Then guilt began to slip under Duo's skin. He really shouldn't have been listening to Heero in a confessional that was a huge sin in itself. Ugh, he had to reveal himself, he couldn't possibly let this go on any farther, this was wrong….He peeked through to make sure Heero wasn't looking, and he slowly began to slide the divider back.

Heero was bowed down on his knees on the other side with his head down, trying to think of anything else he needed to say before he left, when he thought he heard the partition moving aside. There was no way, the priest was always supposed to keep himself concealed, and if the priest saw him….he didn't want to think about it. He looked up to see the man, and instead found himself facing none other than Duo Maxwell.

There are no words to adequately describe the look on Heero's face as he looked up to see Duo standing in front of him. The corner of Duo's mouth twitched as he looked down at Heero. For a few minutes neither of them said any of the trillions of thoughts that were racing through their minds. Finally it was Heero who spoke up.

"You…you….you were there…the…..the whole…..time?" he said swallowing a lump in his throat. "You sorry son of a bitch!!! Why didn't you say anything?!? I swear to god Duo I'm going to slit your.." but he was cut off as Duo smacked a hand over his mouth and grabbed Heero's wrists together leaving him semi-helpless.

"Now, those are not the types of things that you should be saying inside walls built for worship, and if you promise to keep yourself in line, I will kindly remove my hands. So, will you keep it down a little Mr. Yuy?" Heero nodded slowly in response, and as Duo uncovered his mouth and released him, Heero grabbed him by his cocky white collar and pulled him down to eye level.

"You certainly are one to talk, Mr. Maxwell. Impersonating a man of the church, and then listening to a private confession?!? Please tell me that somehow you'll burn in hell for this later" he hissed at him.

Duo laughed before responding, "well Heero, that may be the case, but I know a few dirty little secrets about you right now that…." And at that moment Heero pulled out his gun and put it up against Duo's head. "Heero, now, don't be so rash about this…I, I just wanted to tell you that-"

"Shut up Duo, or you'll meet your one and only maker a lot sooner than you'd planned. Now, let's get this straight, you know nothing…got that?"

"Quite frankly, I don't want to meet my maker Heero, and what I wanted to tell you in relation to your dirty little secrets is that I seem to share a few of the same…" he trailed off and looked up into Heero's eyes and could read the shock that was emanating from them.

"You what?" he said quietly letting the gun slide down onto the floor.

"I feel the same way about you too Heero…" he looked away and felt Heero's grip loosen.

"Do you mean it?"

"Course I do…"

"I can't believe you just listened to me confess…"

"I can't believe I just listened to you confess…"

They laughed a sort of nervous giggle that reverberated inside the booth, and then looked up at each other. Heero reached a hand out and brushed an unruly bang out of Duo's face. At Heero's touch he shivered and reached up his own hand to hold Heero's where it was. Duo leaned forward and Heero followed suit, their lips touching. Lightly at first, and then harder, getting more urgent. Heero licked at Duo's lips and they parted allowing them entrance deeper into each other. Heero's hand had by now slid around and was tangled in Duo's braid. Duo clung onto the sill of the partitioned window with one hand as the other ran the length of Heero's arm and came to rest on the back of his neck, pulling him closer and deeper into the kiss. Duo whimpered as Heero pulled away to breathe.

"Is it a sin to do this is the church?" he breathed out quietly looking into Duo's eyes.

"It's a sin for us to even think about each other as more than friends, so I would say, not only are we going against the one and only's law, but we're also throwing in some kink by making out in a confessional." He smirked at Heero who was turning an awkward shade of red. Duo stood up as though he were leaving. Heero merely looked at him quizzically as he opened one door and stepped out, shutting it behind him and stepping into the side with Heero. He locked the door behind him and then reached through the partition and wriggled about until he locked the other side as well and then settled himself straddling Heero's lap. "you didn't think you were getting out of this without mortal sins did you?" They laughed as Duo pressed his lips to Heero's as they once again waged an oral war.

Heero ran his hands around Duo's back pulling him closer as he leaned back against the wall. He slowly began to tug at Duo's shirt pulling it over his head and letting it drop to the floor. Duo getting the same idea ran his hands under Heero's shirt and whilst caressing him, removed it in the same fashion. Heero moaned as Duo's hands roved lower on his body tugging at his pants.

"Jesus Christ Duo, you're good at this…" he said in a hoarse voice.

"See, that right there, just got us both condemned," he said with a wink. "Not that I mind of course, Hell's alright with me, so long as you'll be there."

"Of course…" he smiled as Duo kissed him once more and then began to explore Heero's torso with his mouth, his hands trailing behind leaving warm trails along his flesh. He shuddered in delight as Duo sank lower and lower finally reaching his ever hardening arousal.

"Woah…" he breathed out as Duo looked him in the eyes with a devilish grin. "I don't know if that's a good sign or a bad sign…"

"With the position that I'm in, I'd say it's a good one…" Duo said smirking as took Heero into his mouth. Heero moaned as Duo went to work with his tongue massaging all of Heero's length and managed to maintain a dirty little smirk as Heero moaned in pleasure.

"Oh….Duo….." he moaned out loud, just barely audible as he knew it would not help the cause for him to scream out Duo's name. Duo could feel Heero getting closer to climax, and Heero's heavy breathing was slowly getting louder. Heero breathed in sharply, a sound emitting from him that Duo knew would not go unnoticed. Heero ran his hands through Duo's hair as he moaned aloud and suddenly found his mouth covered with one of Duo's hands. Duo paused for a moment and leaned closer whispering in his ear.

"Don't….make…a....sound…." and with that slid back down into Heero's lap, still leaving one of his hands to cover Heero's mouth. Heero opened his mouth slightly and licked the palm of Duo's hand, tasting the salt on it and felt Duo shudder. He continued until Duo loosened his hold a bit and slowly took one finger into his mouth at a time, running his tongue along it and sucking ever so slightly.

Duo could feel himself getting aroused and then remembered the task at hand. He moaned as Heero played with his fingers and ran his hands through his hair. He went down on Heero faster and had to pull himself away from the deep pleasure he was feeling in order to bring Heero the ecstasy that he had been anticipating. Duo could feel Heero getting closer until Heero writhed in pleasure releasing into Duo's mouth. Duo almost choked with the force of Heero's excitement. Heero groaned and slumped back against the wall as Duo sat up and slid up so that he was sitting almost on Heero's abdomen. He lay his head on Heero's chest and sighed.

"Oh Heero…" he shifted around in Heero's arms as they closed around him.

"Duo, that was amazing," he breathed out nuzzling into the chestnut hair, he could feel Duo's arousal rubbing against him. "Come on let's go back to the base, and I'll take care of you…"

Duo smirked as he kissed Heero's neck and whispered into his ear.

"Only if you'll play Alter Boy…" he snickered as he saw Heero turn a bright red.

"Alter Boy?" he said quizzically trying not to focus on the hot kisses that Duo was trailing all over his chest.

"Yeah, haven't you ever heard the joke about why Alter boys all have perfect parts in the middle of their hair?"

"Uh…no?"

"Well, I'll let you demonstrate it back at the base…"

"Me?"

"Yes you…"

"Hmm, this sounds like it could be fun."

They both stood up and put on what clothing they were missing and checked around to make sure no traces were left of their meeting. Duo leaned through the partition and unlocked the door.

Duo leaned out of the booth and checked around to make sure no one would see them and then grabbed Heero's hand and pulled him out too. Heero pushed him up against the outside of the booth and kissed him running his hands over Duo's body making him groan.

"Father forgive me for I want to sin..."

"Just wait til we get back to the rooms my Duo and I'll assist you in those sins…"

"Promise?"

"Promise."

And with that the two of them snuck out of the church and back to the base where they'd be finishing what they had started.

-The End

Wow, this was like the first Lemonish fic that I wrote…which is scarey. But anywho. Yeah, hope you all enjoyed…move onto part two. ^__^