Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Confessions III: Resolution ❯ Chapter 5

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Confessions III: Resolution
Part 5
R
Yaoi/Angst
Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing, Duo, Heero, or the others.
Warnings: Um... What can I say so I don't spoil anything for you guys?? I guess I will repeat my self, Yaoi, Angst, and lots language.
Author's Note: Please respond to this one too. Arigatou. Okay, this part has a conversation with Wufei and Heero and you might or might not like how I portray Wufei, or even Heero, but this is how I see the two. So don't flame at me if you think it is wrong. Bu-ut you can give me suggestions! And like always, enjoy!
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A banging came at Heero's door. Heero just looked up at it, wishing it were Duo coming home late and forgot his key. But no, the voice that was behind it was Wufei's, "Yuy, Open up!"
Heero didn't feel like dealing with any body. So he still stayed sitting on his couch staring at a blank lap top screen on the coffee table.
"Damn it Yuy, I'm gonna break it down and I don't care about the fucking bill!"
Heero had never heard Wufei sound so mad and Heero knew Wufei would go through with his threat. So he got up weakly and walked to the bolted door and opened it. As soon as he did this Wufei knocked him in the jaw with his fist. Heero just left his face tilted from the blow as he looked at Wufei behind a 50 foot wall.
"You selfish bastard! How could you dishonor Duo?!" Heero still didn't say anything, he didn't even respond. "How can you just stand there and feel sorry for your self?! Duo's gone! Get on with your life! He would want you to do that. You putting your damned wall up is hurting him! He tried so hard to get you to open up! And you just stand there and ignore the fact! Duo would want you to cry!"
"Don't you think I know that?" he said softly. "Don't you think I've tried? I sit here and try and try to cry, telling my self it's okay to cry! I try and I try. Nothing comes out! Don't you think I don't worry that Duo will see and I'm not crying for him and he will think I don't love him?! I can't cry Wufei. I can't cry!" still no tears appeared on his face. No matter how upset and angry he was, he couldn't cry.
"Stop feeling sorry for your self." he didn't know what else to say. He didn't know how to handle Heero like this. So he just did what his guts told him to do, "That's no excuse to not come to the funeral."
"I don't like being seen like this Wufei. I don't want them to think I don't love Duo. Lord knows they already do."
"Fuck them! All of them! It was *you* you where suppose to be there for, not to show your devotion to Duo. It was your time! Yours to say your good bye, to see him one more time! Duo would have wanted you there."
"What to hear people talk about how well they knew him. How he always had a smile on his face, a joke to tell? How good his life was, what a good friend he was? They don't know him, he was sad, always sad! It was a stupid mask! Don't you think I tried to get *him* to open up? To act his self? To hear all those people tell how well off in life he was, would make me sick. If they only knew of the nightmares he had! How he would always cry himself to sleep! How many times I had to cradle him in my arms to get him to calm down from one of his fits, to stop cursing at him self. If only they could see the scares he created for him self all over his body, hidden beneath the layer of black. I wouldn't be able to handle all their jokes. How he would never shut up. It was to quiet all his memories. He even talked in his sleep constantly. He was torturing him self and I saw it. I tried to get him to open up, to be him self. He was almost there! Damn it he was almost Duo!" he punched the door frame with all his rage.
"Is that all you care about?"
Heero looked surprised.
"About what others thought about him? Duo put that mask on for them to show, one: that things *can* be okay, and two: so they didn't see him suffer. I hate to admit this, but I learned a lot from Duo. How to handle things. He wasn't superficial like you say. Duo was Duo. No one could have changed him. You could have helped deal with his problems. Duo wanted to liven up people's lives. And he has! There where so many people who came. They all know how much you love him. Everyone who showed up signed a card for you. Relena bought it, but so many people came we had to attach three other sheets of paper. Here," he handed the card and papers to him which had been hidden in his pocket. "Good luck and good bye." a small smile crept on his face and then he turned and walked away.
Heero stood there and thought about what Wufei had said, 'Had I been wrong? To get him to act how he was around me?' he shut the door and returned to the couch, and just starred at the front of the card. It had been a simple card with the words 'You have my condolences' and the image on the front was a serene scene of the moon in space. He opened it up and was over powered with names and small messages. He started reading it from the left space to the right:
'Relena- You have my love and prayers always, Good luck.'
'Quatre and Trowa- You always have friends and you'll never be alone.'
'Wufei- Knock down hesitation'
'Hilde- You're a good man Yuy, live your life to the fullest!'
'Sally- I am greatly sorry for your loss and I am working my hardest to find who is at fault. Good luck'
'Noin and Milliardo- You have a place to stay amongst friends in the Sanq Kingdom Palace!'
'Une- Smile, Duo will always be with you. I know what you are going through, so if you ever need to talk I am here'
'Howard- Unlike a Gundam I can't repair your heart, but remember that Duo will always be there in spirit for you!'
And many other names Heero didn't know had written him condolences, good lucks and best wishes. But one name stuck out in his mind, something Duo would have said:
'With death, brings hope and re-birth.'
The words struck true to Heero's heart, he herd Duo whispering in his ears, 'You are not alone,'

' I am here with you. '

'Though were far apart.'

' You're always in my heart.'
Heero, now, was able to cry. Not a sad cry for him self, not a happy cry for Duo, it was a cry for the world. He wished that everyone out there had a Duo. One who always knew what to say, even if you didn't want to hear it, and even if he didn't know when not to talk. He still knew what to say. These words mixed in his ears over again and he cried now for him self. He knew that his future wouldn't be what he thought it was, but he knew God had something in mind for him. Duo was still with him. His next batch of tears where for his child. His and Duo's prematurely reaped of life, child. Heero had found a name for her. Tenshi, his angel.




Epilogue:
In the end Heero had moved into the Sanq Kingdom with Hilde, Relena, Milliardo, and Noin. He grew closer to Relena as the years went by but not as close as he ever was with Duo. Relena became quite fond of Hilde and the opposite was true. They never married, or even told anyone. It was a secret love. Milliardo and Noin had two children, a boy and a girl. The boy they named Duo, and the girl they named Angelic. They both looked up to their 'Uncle' Heero and he took them under his wing. Trowa and Quatre lived together and visited the palace often, but also had a life of there own away from the Palace. Wufei and Sally, well, they where always Wufei and Sally. They never married or had kids, but they where inseparable. As for the Preventors, they where always busy but they never, ever, had a serious incident. And as for the bombers, they where never found. They had shown up to Duo's funeral and had learned a very valuable lesson: *Every* thing is right if it is for love. Period. And I hope you all learned a lesson too, if not a lesson just a thought.