Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Confessions of a Soldier ❯ Chapter Nine ( Chapter 9 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: TeeToTheFa 
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Action | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 06.05.2007 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.6K | Visits: 177 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Action | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 06.05.2007 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.6K | Visits: 177 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: I don’t own shit... I’m a poor senior in highschool, who owns nothing more that what is given to her –not a lot mind you– so don’t sue me for messing with the G-Boys.
Warnings: Same as always, Duo’s mouth, other people swearing, blah, blah, blah...
Chapter Nine: Wuffles
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“I don’t remember when I started to call Wufei by anything other than... Chang or Wufei for that matter. As you can possibly imagine, my imagination is as big as the freaking Gundam I pilot, so I don’t know where I came up with Wuffers, or Wuffles, or Wu-Tang, or Chang-hi Wu.. I’m sure there are plenty of others, but I don’t have the will power to remember all of them, I’m lazy. Anyways, when I first met Wufei, I think I was playing checkers with Quatre – and I was winning, which is an awesome feat because Quatre always wins at checkers... Think he cheats–“ The boys shook their heads, there was no way for anyone to cheat at checkers, well, maybe there was, but they were all perceptive enough not to get caught up in a little trick like that.
“He just waltzed right on in like he owned the cand began to talk to Heero. I wanted to walk over to him stick my finger in his eyeball and say “ listen bitch, don’t you knock? It’s polite to knock ya know.” but I didn’t because that is highly rude of me and he had a sharp pointy sword with him.” Wufei smirked, remembering the meeting with Duo. He didn’t think he’d ever met anyone with that much energy ever in his lifetime...
Duo stared down at the checkerboard before him. There were three of his pieces left and two of Quatre’s. The blond was sitting there silently, waiting patiently for Duo.
“You’re over analyzing things Duo, I can’t cheat at this game.” he tried to reason, but Duo help up a hand.
“Shhhh, I’m trying to use my Jedi mind powers to look into your brain and figure out how to beat you.. It’s not working too well.” he said as Heero snorted.
“Something you wanna say spandex butt?” Duo asked and Quatre stifled a laugh, it was amazing, how Duo never missed a beat. There was silence before heero threw an ice cube at Duo. It hit him square in the head.
“Hey! I’m the only one allowed to be childish around here!” he said as he placed a piece on the board. He watched as Quatre looked around the pieces for his next move. There was a beeping sound and the door to the compartment they were in slid open and Wufei, because of the little gravity that was in the space shuttle, glided into the room beside Heero. Duo looked at him weird for a moment, not having seen a Chinese person before, or rather one that was rude, before he turned back to Quatre to see him take Duo’s last pieces in one move. He stared at it in shock.
“WHAT!?” he squealed, causing both Heero and the new comer to look up.
“I was beating you man! You had two pieces left.” Quatre smiled at him.
“Duo, you weren’t paying attention to where you put your piece.” he told him, pointing.
“I don’t want to hear it!” Duo joked. “ You rigged that game, I know you did you little terrorist!” Duo joked, lifting up the checkerboard as he turned it over and over, just for good measure. “ I’m sure you found a way, I know you did, just like your ancestors, sneaky bastards, blowing up buildings like the little terrorists that they are.” he said as Quatre laughed.
“I assure you I used no terroristic tactics.”
“That’s rather rude of you... to accuse him of such a dishonorable thing.” spoke up the new comer. Duo stopped his fake tirade and looked at him.
“Who are you?” he dead panned, not even realizing that Wufei had just chastised him for his mock comments to Quatre.
“Chang Wufei...” he muttered as Duo looked at him weird.
“Yeah well, Wuffles, I was goofing around, I dare do that ya know.” Wufie glared at him.
“It is Wufei you annoying American idiot!” he said as Duo waved his hand non-chalantly.
“Wuffles, Wufei, same thing and my name’s Duo, please don’t call my race stupid, even if we tend to be, nother game Quatre?” Wufei watched the exchange and turned to Heero.
“Do tell me... is he bipolar or something? Schizophrenic maybe?” Heero didn’t look up.
“At times...” was all he said...
“Sorry bout that Fei, I really didn’t mean anything by it, no disrespect, I was just trying to lighten the mood to everything. You see, I hate serious atmospheres, I get nervous a lot. I fell cramped and caged in those kind of situations, but there isn’t any way to get away from them, so I try to lighten them up to make myself feel better. It just so happened that you were a perfect way to vent that..” Duo went silent, as it seemed he was collecting his thoughts together. Wufei was as well. He hadn’t thought about Duo being a nervous person, in actuality, he hadn’t seen him anything other than an annoyingly optimistic American before that morning. Now that he was looking deeper into the being that was Pilot 02, Do Maxwell, he was beginning to think that he had never, they had never really known him at all.
“Um... I don’t know how to really say this , because you know I hate being sappy and I hate writing and vocalizing speeches.. But, all those times I made fun of you, your way of life, your beleifs and the fact that you still worshiped your dead wife... I’m really sorry about all of it. To me, it was just a weird way of keeping someone locked away in a memory and not letting them die in peace. But then I thought otherwise. You never really made fun of the things I believed in, hell, we got into an argument about god and shit..but you never even once made fun of the fact that I don’t think there is a god..I wish I could say the same for myself.
You worship and remember Merien by naming your gundams after her, by fighting for justice and what’s right, please, don’t let anyone take that away from you. When you fight for someone you believe in and love, it makes you a hell of a lot stronger than any weapon ever could. So, please, keep on fighting for her, because if you don’t, you’ll forget every good thing about her, and I wouldn’t want that for you.” Wufei nodded his head slowly, he would, he would fight for Merien, keeping her spirit alive.
“I’ll fight for you Duo, to keep you alive...” he said, almost hoping for an answer, knowing none would ever come.
“I’ve always trusted you Wufei, and this is something so important that I need you for... Hilde is my life.. I don’t.. If I lived, I’d have asked her to marry me.” That was a surprise. The four of them looked around at each other in shock. They’d known the two were very close and in a relationship, but marriage?.
“In the second drawer in my desk, the little black box, that’s for her.. Give it to her for me.. Will you? I’ve loved her with everything I’ve ever had and I don’t ever want her to be alone. Wufei, Hilde can’t be alone, not without me, I’m sure if I die, it’s going to tear her apart and she won’t be fixed from it.. I don’t want that, I want her to live a happy life, even if it isn’t with me. Would you.. Would you give her the letter that’s under the box and tell her I love her? I want her to know that no mater what happens I always will, it won’t ever stop...” Duo went silent and Wufei had toput his head in his hands to block out the tears. To think that Duo would never be able to tell Hilde once more that he loved her, to have her wake up without Duo there beside her.. He looked up to see the other three much int eh same way he was. Quatre was openly crying, the heels of his hands to his eyes. Trowa’s head was bent and he saw a few tears falling down his cheeks. Heero had plain gotten up from his seat and walked over to a filing cabinet, leaning on it and clenching his fists. They hadn’t cried for him, none of them had even dared themselves to do so, and now, it seemed alright, like Duo had given them permission to do so.
He began to speak once more, and they listened intently, knowing that Duo’s monologue was coming to an end.
“Well.. That’s all I really need and have to say, other than, you guys are the best.. And I’ll miss ya, but don’t think I’ll ever leave your sides, you know you can’t get rid of me that easily...” he paused and it sounded like he was crying.
“I..I don’t want to.. To admit it, but I’m afraid to die.. I’m afraid that, when I die.. Everything’ll stop, I don’t want to think about not living.. But, even I know that some day I will have to..I just.” he took a deep breath with more resolve. “ I love you guys, and I’ll miss ya like hell, just, make sure you live on for me, I want tons of freaking nieces and nephews running around! HaHA” They smiled and laughed as well. “ Well, I guess this is the good bye them.. I wish you all the best.. All my love and friendship.... Duo.” there was a static sound and then the cd was finished.
The five of them stood and sat in that room for what seemed like eternity. It was silent, Duo’s words and life pouring through their veins like a new reason to live. Wufei was the first to do anything. He stood from his chair and walked over to Duo’s desk, opening the second drawer. There was the tell-tale black box Duo had told them about, and the letter. He stuffed both of them in his jacket and walked to the door. He stopped and looked back at their faces.
“I have a delivery to make..and a woman to reassure, I’ll see you guys later.” and with that, he left the room. Heero was right behind him. Trowa and Quatre looked at each other.
“Well, I guess.. This is good bye my friend... may your soul always be protected.” Quatre bowed his head to the uniform that was sitting neatly on Duo’s office desk before he too walked from the office, this time smiling.
MINISTORY!!!!!
Hilde looked at Wufei, her bloodshot eyes gazing at him in sadness. He gave her a reluctant smile.
“I’ve got something for you.. From Duo...” he said as she allowed him in the small apartment. He was impressed, it was clean.
“D-duo always cleaned it up, it wasn’t ever mes-messy...” she said sniffling. Yet again, even rom the grave he was surprising him. He reached in his pocket and pulled out the box and the letter.
“Duo... specifically wanted to you have these, and.. I was told to tell you, that he loves you no matter what...” he said as he turned to leave. She held onto the back of his jacket. He turned to look at her.
“Please? Can you stay until I finish... until I finish reading this?” she asked as he nodded and walked with ehr to a living room. There was a picture of Duo kissing her cheek on the wall, they looked really happy.
Hilde opened the box and the tears immediately came to her eyes, a lovely diamond was in there. She pulled it out and put it on and then hurriedly opened the letter.
Hilde,
Hey baby...Sorry to have to be writing this to you, but I can’t do this in person, because by now, I’m probably not with you guys anymore. I love you, I loved and still love you so much that I wanted to spend my life with you, have kids with you, and die with you.. But it was decided that I was to die a bit early. I don’t want you to be sad, because you know that I will always be with you, that will never change “ till death do us part”, had we gotten married, even that wouldn’t have mattered, I’d have still loved you. I regret not spending all my time with you, telling you I loved you more often, but now, I’ll always say it. When you go to sleep, when you wake up, when you get married, when you’re with the guys, and when you’re alone. I’m always going to tell you that I love you. So, please, take this ring, and I want you to keep it as long as you live, a lasting article of devotion to you from me... I love you baby, forever.
Love, Duo
Hilde was sobbing now and Wufei was hugging her, rubbing her back softly as she hiccuped into his jacket.
“Duo’s .. I wanted.. I wanted to tell him, Wanted to tell him the good news when he got back from the fight.” she sobbed.“ I wanted to let him know that.. That he was going to be.. I was..” s he couldn’t get it out, but Wufei didn’t need to hear her say it. He could tell by how she looked, the light in her eyes, that even in her sadness was there.
“We’ll go tell him.. When you’re ready, all of us will go tell him together...I’m sure he would have been astatic.” She looked up at Wufei. “ if you ever need anything Hilde.. I will be only a call away, and I am sure the others will as well...” he said as she nodded and wiped her eyes.
“Thank you Wufei... thank you...”
OMGOMGOMGO I LOVED IT!!!! this was so sweet and sad and I hated to end it -cries- What did you all think? Did you like it at all? Please R&R to tell me
As an added note. Anything that I will begin to write will have a notice posted on my LIVEJOURNAL, the link is on my home page. Don’t feel afraid to just link to me and add me as a friend, all my story updates will be there. Arigtou minna-san!!!
Warnings: Same as always, Duo’s mouth, other people swearing, blah, blah, blah...
Chapter Nine: Wuffles
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“I don’t remember when I started to call Wufei by anything other than... Chang or Wufei for that matter. As you can possibly imagine, my imagination is as big as the freaking Gundam I pilot, so I don’t know where I came up with Wuffers, or Wuffles, or Wu-Tang, or Chang-hi Wu.. I’m sure there are plenty of others, but I don’t have the will power to remember all of them, I’m lazy. Anyways, when I first met Wufei, I think I was playing checkers with Quatre – and I was winning, which is an awesome feat because Quatre always wins at checkers... Think he cheats–“ The boys shook their heads, there was no way for anyone to cheat at checkers, well, maybe there was, but they were all perceptive enough not to get caught up in a little trick like that.
“He just waltzed right on in like he owned the cand began to talk to Heero. I wanted to walk over to him stick my finger in his eyeball and say “ listen bitch, don’t you knock? It’s polite to knock ya know.” but I didn’t because that is highly rude of me and he had a sharp pointy sword with him.” Wufei smirked, remembering the meeting with Duo. He didn’t think he’d ever met anyone with that much energy ever in his lifetime...
Duo stared down at the checkerboard before him. There were three of his pieces left and two of Quatre’s. The blond was sitting there silently, waiting patiently for Duo.
“You’re over analyzing things Duo, I can’t cheat at this game.” he tried to reason, but Duo help up a hand.
“Shhhh, I’m trying to use my Jedi mind powers to look into your brain and figure out how to beat you.. It’s not working too well.” he said as Heero snorted.
“Something you wanna say spandex butt?” Duo asked and Quatre stifled a laugh, it was amazing, how Duo never missed a beat. There was silence before heero threw an ice cube at Duo. It hit him square in the head.
“Hey! I’m the only one allowed to be childish around here!” he said as he placed a piece on the board. He watched as Quatre looked around the pieces for his next move. There was a beeping sound and the door to the compartment they were in slid open and Wufei, because of the little gravity that was in the space shuttle, glided into the room beside Heero. Duo looked at him weird for a moment, not having seen a Chinese person before, or rather one that was rude, before he turned back to Quatre to see him take Duo’s last pieces in one move. He stared at it in shock.
“WHAT!?” he squealed, causing both Heero and the new comer to look up.
“I was beating you man! You had two pieces left.” Quatre smiled at him.
“Duo, you weren’t paying attention to where you put your piece.” he told him, pointing.
“I don’t want to hear it!” Duo joked. “ You rigged that game, I know you did you little terrorist!” Duo joked, lifting up the checkerboard as he turned it over and over, just for good measure. “ I’m sure you found a way, I know you did, just like your ancestors, sneaky bastards, blowing up buildings like the little terrorists that they are.” he said as Quatre laughed.
“I assure you I used no terroristic tactics.”
“That’s rather rude of you... to accuse him of such a dishonorable thing.” spoke up the new comer. Duo stopped his fake tirade and looked at him.
“Who are you?” he dead panned, not even realizing that Wufei had just chastised him for his mock comments to Quatre.
“Chang Wufei...” he muttered as Duo looked at him weird.
“Yeah well, Wuffles, I was goofing around, I dare do that ya know.” Wufie glared at him.
“It is Wufei you annoying American idiot!” he said as Duo waved his hand non-chalantly.
“Wuffles, Wufei, same thing and my name’s Duo, please don’t call my race stupid, even if we tend to be, nother game Quatre?” Wufei watched the exchange and turned to Heero.
“Do tell me... is he bipolar or something? Schizophrenic maybe?” Heero didn’t look up.
“At times...” was all he said...
“Sorry bout that Fei, I really didn’t mean anything by it, no disrespect, I was just trying to lighten the mood to everything. You see, I hate serious atmospheres, I get nervous a lot. I fell cramped and caged in those kind of situations, but there isn’t any way to get away from them, so I try to lighten them up to make myself feel better. It just so happened that you were a perfect way to vent that..” Duo went silent, as it seemed he was collecting his thoughts together. Wufei was as well. He hadn’t thought about Duo being a nervous person, in actuality, he hadn’t seen him anything other than an annoyingly optimistic American before that morning. Now that he was looking deeper into the being that was Pilot 02, Do Maxwell, he was beginning to think that he had never, they had never really known him at all.
“Um... I don’t know how to really say this , because you know I hate being sappy and I hate writing and vocalizing speeches.. But, all those times I made fun of you, your way of life, your beleifs and the fact that you still worshiped your dead wife... I’m really sorry about all of it. To me, it was just a weird way of keeping someone locked away in a memory and not letting them die in peace. But then I thought otherwise. You never really made fun of the things I believed in, hell, we got into an argument about god and shit..but you never even once made fun of the fact that I don’t think there is a god..I wish I could say the same for myself.
You worship and remember Merien by naming your gundams after her, by fighting for justice and what’s right, please, don’t let anyone take that away from you. When you fight for someone you believe in and love, it makes you a hell of a lot stronger than any weapon ever could. So, please, keep on fighting for her, because if you don’t, you’ll forget every good thing about her, and I wouldn’t want that for you.” Wufei nodded his head slowly, he would, he would fight for Merien, keeping her spirit alive.
“I’ll fight for you Duo, to keep you alive...” he said, almost hoping for an answer, knowing none would ever come.
“I’ve always trusted you Wufei, and this is something so important that I need you for... Hilde is my life.. I don’t.. If I lived, I’d have asked her to marry me.” That was a surprise. The four of them looked around at each other in shock. They’d known the two were very close and in a relationship, but marriage?.
“In the second drawer in my desk, the little black box, that’s for her.. Give it to her for me.. Will you? I’ve loved her with everything I’ve ever had and I don’t ever want her to be alone. Wufei, Hilde can’t be alone, not without me, I’m sure if I die, it’s going to tear her apart and she won’t be fixed from it.. I don’t want that, I want her to live a happy life, even if it isn’t with me. Would you.. Would you give her the letter that’s under the box and tell her I love her? I want her to know that no mater what happens I always will, it won’t ever stop...” Duo went silent and Wufei had toput his head in his hands to block out the tears. To think that Duo would never be able to tell Hilde once more that he loved her, to have her wake up without Duo there beside her.. He looked up to see the other three much int eh same way he was. Quatre was openly crying, the heels of his hands to his eyes. Trowa’s head was bent and he saw a few tears falling down his cheeks. Heero had plain gotten up from his seat and walked over to a filing cabinet, leaning on it and clenching his fists. They hadn’t cried for him, none of them had even dared themselves to do so, and now, it seemed alright, like Duo had given them permission to do so.
He began to speak once more, and they listened intently, knowing that Duo’s monologue was coming to an end.
“Well.. That’s all I really need and have to say, other than, you guys are the best.. And I’ll miss ya, but don’t think I’ll ever leave your sides, you know you can’t get rid of me that easily...” he paused and it sounded like he was crying.
“I..I don’t want to.. To admit it, but I’m afraid to die.. I’m afraid that, when I die.. Everything’ll stop, I don’t want to think about not living.. But, even I know that some day I will have to..I just.” he took a deep breath with more resolve. “ I love you guys, and I’ll miss ya like hell, just, make sure you live on for me, I want tons of freaking nieces and nephews running around! HaHA” They smiled and laughed as well. “ Well, I guess this is the good bye them.. I wish you all the best.. All my love and friendship.... Duo.” there was a static sound and then the cd was finished.
The five of them stood and sat in that room for what seemed like eternity. It was silent, Duo’s words and life pouring through their veins like a new reason to live. Wufei was the first to do anything. He stood from his chair and walked over to Duo’s desk, opening the second drawer. There was the tell-tale black box Duo had told them about, and the letter. He stuffed both of them in his jacket and walked to the door. He stopped and looked back at their faces.
“I have a delivery to make..and a woman to reassure, I’ll see you guys later.” and with that, he left the room. Heero was right behind him. Trowa and Quatre looked at each other.
“Well, I guess.. This is good bye my friend... may your soul always be protected.” Quatre bowed his head to the uniform that was sitting neatly on Duo’s office desk before he too walked from the office, this time smiling.
MINISTORY!!!!!
Hilde looked at Wufei, her bloodshot eyes gazing at him in sadness. He gave her a reluctant smile.
“I’ve got something for you.. From Duo...” he said as she allowed him in the small apartment. He was impressed, it was clean.
“D-duo always cleaned it up, it wasn’t ever mes-messy...” she said sniffling. Yet again, even rom the grave he was surprising him. He reached in his pocket and pulled out the box and the letter.
“Duo... specifically wanted to you have these, and.. I was told to tell you, that he loves you no matter what...” he said as he turned to leave. She held onto the back of his jacket. He turned to look at her.
“Please? Can you stay until I finish... until I finish reading this?” she asked as he nodded and walked with ehr to a living room. There was a picture of Duo kissing her cheek on the wall, they looked really happy.
Hilde opened the box and the tears immediately came to her eyes, a lovely diamond was in there. She pulled it out and put it on and then hurriedly opened the letter.
Hilde,
Hey baby...Sorry to have to be writing this to you, but I can’t do this in person, because by now, I’m probably not with you guys anymore. I love you, I loved and still love you so much that I wanted to spend my life with you, have kids with you, and die with you.. But it was decided that I was to die a bit early. I don’t want you to be sad, because you know that I will always be with you, that will never change “ till death do us part”, had we gotten married, even that wouldn’t have mattered, I’d have still loved you. I regret not spending all my time with you, telling you I loved you more often, but now, I’ll always say it. When you go to sleep, when you wake up, when you get married, when you’re with the guys, and when you’re alone. I’m always going to tell you that I love you. So, please, take this ring, and I want you to keep it as long as you live, a lasting article of devotion to you from me... I love you baby, forever.
Love, Duo
Hilde was sobbing now and Wufei was hugging her, rubbing her back softly as she hiccuped into his jacket.
“Duo’s .. I wanted.. I wanted to tell him, Wanted to tell him the good news when he got back from the fight.” she sobbed.“ I wanted to let him know that.. That he was going to be.. I was..” s he couldn’t get it out, but Wufei didn’t need to hear her say it. He could tell by how she looked, the light in her eyes, that even in her sadness was there.
“We’ll go tell him.. When you’re ready, all of us will go tell him together...I’m sure he would have been astatic.” She looked up at Wufei. “ if you ever need anything Hilde.. I will be only a call away, and I am sure the others will as well...” he said as she nodded and wiped her eyes.
“Thank you Wufei... thank you...”
OMGOMGOMGO I LOVED IT!!!! this was so sweet and sad and I hated to end it -cries- What did you all think? Did you like it at all? Please R&R to tell me
As an added note. Anything that I will begin to write will have a notice posted on my LIVEJOURNAL, the link is on my home page. Don’t feel afraid to just link to me and add me as a friend, all my story updates will be there. Arigtou minna-san!!!