Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Denial ❯ Too Late ( Chapter 3 )

AN Well here's chapter two which is Heero's POV I'm thinking about a third one to round it off maybe from Zech's POV, what do you think?

Disclaimer/Summary/Rating see first chapter.

Denial Part 3

Too Late

Heero's POV

I can feel her eyes on me, she's playing with the hem of her dress, a nervous, teenage habit that she's never broken but then again she's still a teenager. We've all been through so much that it doesn't seem possible that thousands maybe millions of others our age are worrying about exams, girls, boys, the latest fashions and where to party at the weekend. That seems a different life away and it is.

They have no concerns, no worries, just the bliss that comes with knowing that for a bit longer you are allowed to remain the center of the universe. While Relena and I are sitting in the library of our manor home, I'm typing up a mission report that will somewhere need me to state that I killed four men this weekend and she's been leafing through the documents regarding the Preventer funding that her lawyers have sent her. They're concerned of the damage that could be done to her image if it were revealed just how much a pacifist princess was giving to an organisation that is the main point of employment for ex-soldiers.

She looks so small, so vulnerable and I know that, despite my feelings, I can never hurt her. I do love her as she very well knows, it was just my getting mixed up between what loving someone and what being in love with someone meant that's gotten us into this mess.

I couldn't break her, I've worked too hard to save her and maybe I'm being arrogant but I believe that this would shatter her, she's dealt with a lot in her life and she was never trained to deal with it, being betrayed by the two people she trusts most may be just the last straw. Her husband and her brother, together, with each other. I couldn't do that to her, could I?

The adage says that if you love someone you let them go, it's obvious that that person had never had to do so. They can't have done since the mere though of giving up Zechs is causing me to feel as though my heart was just torn out of my chest. I can't give him up but I can't hurt her.

I can't give him up, I love him too much.

I've never said that before and accepted it, it was always muttered as though it was a dirty confession that was never meant to be said, I've seen the look in Milliardo's eyes each time after and each time I failed to make the connection and spot the difference between the way he says it, reverently, as though each syllable is made of gold and the way I say it, never truly understanding it. I've seen the hope that appears each time before I say them as he wonders if this time maybe I'll mean them, I've seen them but I've never understood why, not really.

I have to call him and tell him, tell him I've finally realised, finally worked out that I can't stay with Relena. I've been underestimating her, she's strong, she'll be fine eventually, she'll scream and cry and curse but she will be fine. I love Milliardo Peacecraft. I love him. I'm in love with Zechs Marquise. It's worth repeating.

The awe that comes with this realisation is interrupted as she speaks slowly, hesitantly, drawing my attention to her and I get the sudden feeling that life is about to change. "What is it Relena?"

Just how much becomes evident as she answers. "I'm pregnant Heero." My world turns to dust and I feel like I'm drowning as I realise just how far I've fallen and how much of a mistake I've made.

I love you Milliardo Peacecraft, Zechs Marquise, I honestly do.

I love you so much and I realised too late… I'm so sorry.

Owari

An And Heero's back in denial again, well Zechs chapter or not? Please review and tell me.