Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Desperately Wanting ❯ One-Shot
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Shi-chan 
Duo's dying... Heero remembers the time they spent together... LEMON.
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / / Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 02.09.2002 | Pages: 6 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 846 | Status: Completed
Duo's dying... Heero remembers the time they spent together... LEMON.
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / / Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 02.09.2002 | Pages: 6 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 846 | Status: Completed
Archive: GW Addiction
Category: Yaoi, Sad, deathfic, lemon, sap
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: 1x2
Notes: Prequel to 'Don't Close Your Eyes'. Nothing is mine! I am poor! [lemon begin] and [lemon end] indicate lemon for those who don't like it.
[song by Better Than Ezra]
Desperately Wanting by Willow
//Past the road to your house
That you never called home
Where they turned out your lights
Though they say you'll never know//
Quatre looked in on the small boy sleeping in a overly large bed. The bed was usually meant for two, but the second... well, he was no longer here.
Heero hardly ever stirred from the room anymore. Never turned on the lights, nor the laptop that now sat crusted over in dust.
Quatre sighed softly and began to close the door.
"Quatre?" came the soft, hoarse voice.
"Yes, Heero?"
"Could you -- could you talk to me for a while? Please?" He asked, his voice filled with pain and loss... and suppressed tears.
"Hai, I'll stay for a while..." Quatre walked over to the boy who was now sitting on the bed. When he was an arm's length away, Heero reached up and pulled the blonde ex-pilot to him.
"I-I miss him..." he cried, "I miss him so much... I--" He faltered.
"I know, Heero, I know. We all miss him, but..." now Quatre's voice began to catch, "but he's gone, and he can't come back..."
Quatre knew Heero had changed since he and Duo had been together and this show of unrestrained emotion showed Quatre just how much of an impact the braided boy had had on him.
When Heero had exhausted his tears and himself, he slept. Quatre ventured forth from the room, seeking sanctuary in his own. And he purged his own grief.
//I remember running through the wet grass
And falling a step behind
Both of us never tiring
Desperately wanting//
Heero slept deeply and dreamed.
[lemon begin]
"Come on! Hurry up, Heero!" cried the vibrant boy as he ran toward *their* spot on the shore of the lake.
Heero shook his head and quietly followed his energetic lover.
Out of nowhere, Duo was beside him, "Come on, Heero! Let's race? Please?"
Heero opened his mouth to reply, but Duo was already off at a dead run. Heero took off as fast as he could. 'How does he run through this stuff at such great speed...' he thought as he fought the grass clinging to his skin, '... and so gracefully...' as he tripped over the root of a tree.
Duo stopped and came to his lover's rescue... and pounced on him. His lips covering Heero's. His hand stroking the muscles in Heero's back. Passionately... desperately... as if clinging to Heero as a life-line.
Duo let up his hold on his icy lover and Heero took advantage of the small release to get the upper hand.
He rolled them over and pinned the lithe boy to the ground and pressed his lips teasingly to the flesh of his neck.Duo moaned at the contact and his back arched, pressing them closer together.
Heero slowly, tauntingly removed Duo's thin button down and began to move his lips down his torso leaving a trail of fire.
Duo groped for the fabric covering Heero's upper body. Desperate for them to be rid of its nuisance.
Both rid of their shirts, Heero pinned Duo's arms down and gazed at the beauty before him.
The soft violet eyes practically glowed up at him from under the fringe of jagged bangs. The soft, pouty lips, swollen from their intense kissing, begged to be taken. Moving his gaze down to his torso, Heero took in the pale, sweat beaded flesh and semi-hard nubs of nipple.
Heero let go of Duo's wrists and moved his hands to fumble teasingly with the button of Duo's too-tight pants. He heard the boy moan in frustration, and smiled.
"Heero... please..." Duo panted as Heero began to slowly make downward movements with the zipper. Heero nodded, deciding he'd teased the beauty enough and feeling his own need testing his control.
He finished stripping the boy of his clothes. He leaned forward and kissed the pouty, panting lips and ran his fingers over the now hard nipples, driving the boy beneath him mad with need.
He leaned hack enough to move his mouth down the torso once more, looking up at his moaning lover when he came to the upright angle of his arousal. He grinned and took him into his mouth.
Duo's body jolted at the contact and the feel of Heero's warm mouth surrounding and teasing his member. His body rocked as Heero drove him close to ecstasy, then all too soon, the heat and pleasure were gone. He whimpered, unable to form a coherent thought.
"Shhh..." Heero murmured as he slipped out of his pants and pulled a tube of lotion from the pocket. Heero lubed his neglected member and sank back to his knees in the soft grass.
Duo tried wrap his legs around Heero's waist, trying desperately to push himself onto the other's swollen arousal. His efforts were in vain, for Heero kept a firm fold on him, preventing him from meeting his need before Heero dictated.
"Shhh..." Heero soothed as he inserted one finger, then a second into Duo's tight, hot cavity, "I don't want to hurt you... patience..." he said as he wiped the sweaty bangs from around his lover's pleading eyes.
Heero inserted a third finger, heard the hiss of pain then the gasp of pleasure as Heero's fingers brushed against something deep inside him. When the tight look on Duo's face receded, Heero judged him ready and removed his fingers.Duo looked up at the withdrawal, but saw Heero poised behind him and felt the thick tip of his member brushing his crevice. He let out a moan of pleasure/pain as he felt Heero enter him gently.
Slowly, Heero inserted the rest of his member and began to thrust. He pulled Duo's legs over his shoulders and brought his hands around to the boy's neglected arousal and began pumping in time with his thrusts.
The thrusts sped up as he began losing control. He fought to regain it, wanting to delay the climax until the very last moment.
He felt Duo's arousal swell as he came. That was the cue he'd been waiting for. He sped his thrusts and felt his seed explode into his lover's lithe body.
As the aftershocks subsided, they lay together on the sweet smelling grass, the wind having whipped the musky scent of sex from the area. Soon thereafter, they fell asleep.
[lemon end]
Heero sat up in the bed. His body covered in sweet and the room smelling bitingly of musk.
He grimaced and let himself fall back against the pillows. Letting sleep claim him once more.
//When they pumped out your guts
And filled you full of those pills
You were never quite right
Deserving all the chills//
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Duo sat on the bed, rocking back and forth, complaining of a headache. Heero looked over at him, concerned. This wasn't the first time, and they seemed to be coming to him more frequently.
Heero'd taken him to the doctor, who had given him some migraine pills and sent them on their way.
The pills had worked at first, but then, for no apparent reason, they had stopped working.
Now, Duo lay on the bed, feverish with pain and passing in and out of consciousness.
Heero knew something was terribly wrong, but what they found was never what he'd expected.
Cancer. And it had spread to the brain. They said they wouldn't know how bad it was until they ran more tests, but that it didn't look good.
Heero had done the only thing he could and called the others. Quatre and Trowa had arrived within the hour and Wufei shortly thereafter.
"Heero, I-I--" Quatre stopped, finding no way to console him, and refusing to give into the nagging little voice that told him there wasn't much hope.
Heero looked up at him, "It's alright, Quatre. He's going to be fine. Just watch. In a few weeks, maybe less, he'll waltz through that door and demand that we go rollerblading... right?"
Quatre knew that Heero was just trying to keep himself sane, so he nodded, "Right, Heero. Duo'll be back at 110%!"
But it was not to be. As the next three weeks passed, Duo's condition became worse and worse. Quatre knew that once Relena found out, she'd be at Heero's side trying to catch him in his grief so as to be the heroine and comfort the fallen soldier.And his prediction was true... to a point. Yes, Relena came to the hospital as soon as word got out, but she didn't try to force her way into Heero's heart. No, quite the opposite. She stayed away and helped from a distance.
Heero refused to let Duo's be alone lest something change and as he became more and more wary and fearful of losing him, he refused to be moved from the room. The nurses informed him that if and when Duo got better, he'd need Heero at his strongest. Heero's refusal had driven them to sedating him.
Over the next few weeks, the ex-pilots took turns watching their friend and hoping for the best.
As Duo's life drained away, Relena often offered herself up for bedside duty, giving the ex-pilots a break. Never once did she try to mend Heero's aching heart.
As Duo showed no signs of recovering, the doctors all but gave up hope. They'd stopped the progress of the cancer, but the extent of the metastasis left it up to Duo's will and body to try and recover now. It was beyond them.
//They say the worst is over
Kicked it over and ran
Then they ask what went wrong
When they turn you on again
They turn you on again//
Duo showed *some* signs of improving and the doctors decided to see if he could breathe on his own.
"If he holds on like he is, he should be just fine..."
He did fine for a while, then something went wrong.
"He's flatlining! Get the doctor!" came the scream of a RN as the boys rushed into the room.
"DUO!!!!!!" Heero screamed as the doctors piled in. Trowa and Wufei had to restrain him from rushing over to his lover's side.
"Let them work!" Wufei yelled.
Heero watched in horror as the doctors hooked him back up and began to try and revive him. No matter how much he wanted to he couldn't tear his gaze from the pale ghost of a boy that lay on the bed, dying he was sure.
Heero sank to his knees, he felt faint. The room became nothing but a roar of pictures and sound.
"Nurse, get that IV to me now!"
"Doctor! He's regressing fast!"
"I can't get a pulse!"
Then all of the sounds left. All but the one that meant the end of his happiness.
The long, shrill whistle of the flat lining heart monitor permeated the silence that had fallen over the room.Heero sank even
further in on himself as he watched the doctor pull the sheet over his love's face.
As Duo Maxwell died in body, Heero Yuy died in soul.
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Heero's eyes popped open and he wiped furiously at the tears running down his cheeks.
"Duo..."
//I remember running through the wet grass And falling a step behind Both of us never tiring Desperately wanting//
Heero slowly walked back toward the lake where his fondest memories were made... with him. He took it all in.
The tire swing hanging from the large tree that leaned out over the water. The little dock and the dingy that he'd often taken Duo out in for a romantic picnic or surprise. And the small garden that he and Quatre had dug and planted at the head of the fresh grave.
He kneeled beside the small grave and strung the necklace through the cross on the headstone.
The sun glinted off the piece of silver jewelry, catching on the letters engraved there.
The cross was a gift from him to Duo on one of those romantic boat rides on their first anniversary.
"Duo..." he croaked out, finding that his voice would not strain to work. His throat was tight and he was choking back tears that he didn't notice were there until now.
He walked over to the dock and sat on the end, gazing out over the lake.
A breeze blew, making Heero's mass of unruly hair sway, much as it had back then, and making ripples in the water.Quatre had followed him to make sure he didn't go and do something stupid. He found himself also gazing helplessly out over the lake.
Nothing could bring him back, but they could always remember the good times. And that was just how Quatre wanted it to remain.
Heero stood up stiffly, he'd been sitting there longer than he'd though. He began to slowly walk back to the estate, savoring every small part of the place that was Duo.
He came upon Quatre, still gazing out over the lake.
"Quatre?" he said, startling the boy out of his reprieve.
"H-heero, sorry... I wasn't spying on you... I just..." he stopped and looked at him, letting his face express all he couldn't say.
"I know, same here... this is where we made some of our fondest memories."
"Heero..."
//Kick them right in the face
Make them wish they weren't born
And if they bring up your name
Well they'll say you won the war//
Relena and her 'goonies', as Duo'd called them, were at the main house. Heero was *not* in the mood to deal with her right now and made as to go in the back way when Quatre stopped him.
"She helped with Duo... you owe her some..." Quatre winced at the look of distaste in his face. 'Since when did he get so expressive?'
"Fine," was the monotonal answer.
Inside Trowa and Wufei were trying to 'entertain' Relena and her crony driver.
"Hello, Heero," she said as he entered the room.
"Yo," he said looking down.
"Heero, can I ask you something?"
"..."
"The others, Trowa and Wufei, were telling me about how you've been... no, don't get mad at them, I asked to know... but they said you were moping about and everything... and I was wondering if you, and please know this is to help you, please come and stay with me. I know that I am not Duo, but I do want to see you happy. *And* I made a promise to Duo, upon my honor, that I would try my damnedest to make you happy..."
Quatre looked at Heero and suddenly became weary.
Heero was a dark red, and he looked as if he was trying to hold back rage.
"You'd... have... me... dishonor... my... promise... to... him... and memory... of him? So... you... YOU.... can have... ME? After all this time and you still don't get it!?!?!?!"
Trowa and Wufei leaped across the room to hold the ex-Wing pilot back from whatever wrath he might have wrought."He was a hero of the war, hell with out him we couldn't have won it! He won the war!"
"Heero, I--"
"GO! GET OUT OF HERE!"
Relena scuttled out of the house as quickly as her legs would carry her.
Back in the house, Trowa and Wufei had let go of Heero and he now sat slumped on the floor, shoulders shaking in silent sobs.
//Baby burst in the world
Never given a chance
Then they ask what went wrong
When you never had it right//
Quatre followed Relena out the door, like the good host he was.
Once outside, he turned to her, face fierce, "What makes you think you had the right? Especially so soon! He spent the day at his grave you know. He spent the whole day remembering and memorizing everything that they ever came into contact with that made him happy!"
"I thought-"
"No, Relena, you didn't think. That's just it. You want and never give. What you *do* give is to get what you want. Did you know that Duo gave all unconditionally? He gave everything he could to Heero, and never... NEVER asked a single thing in return..."
Relena looked like she was going to cry, "Let me speak, Quatre. I wanted to keep my promise to Duo! I promised Duo that I would take care of him."
"Relena, did you think that we couldn't do that? That was always our promise... if one of us died to take care of each other."
"I... I didn't know, but I still wanna help... somehow..."
"Maybe someday, but right now, he needs time to heal and deal with his own demons. You can't just move on after a soul-mate dies..."
"Soul-mate?"
"Yes, I could feel it... my uchuu no kokoro told me so... like Trowa and I..." He smiled, "I must get back in. Just give him time, Relena."
"That I will... Just don't let him go and do something stupid..." she smiled and got in her car and drove off.Quatre re-entered the house and got glares from the other three occupants.
"She's gone, and she won't bother you, Heero. Not for a while, at least."
//I remember running through the wet grass
And falling a step behind
Both of us never tiring
Desperately wanting//
Trowa and Wufei helped Heero up to his room.
Once the door closed, Heero sank to his knees and let the tears flow once more.
"Duo... I wish..." he dropped off into another dream-filled sleep.
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"Heero... hmmm..." Duo said in his sleep.
Heero looked over from the computer. What did the baka want... but Duo was asleep.
"What could that mean?" he mused to himself.
"Heero... I..." Duo turned over, still asleep, "I... lo--" he stopped speaking and looked like he was in terrible pain.
Heero got up and walked over to the bed.
"No!" Duo shrieked, "Heero, save me! Oh God!"
Heero shook him awake, "Duo! Wake up..."
Duo sat up suddenly. He blinked at the boy in front of him, "Wha..."
"You were having a nightmare..."
"Oh...." Duo looked like he'd seen a ghost.
"Want to talk about it?"
"N-not really..."
Heero looked skeptical. Duo was now shivering. Heero saw his chance to break the shell that surrounded Duo Maxwell.He leaned forward and drew the boy to him, wrapping his arms around him.
"You can trust me..." He lifted Duo's chin to where their eyes met. Heero leaned closer and kissed those eminently plunderable lips.
Duo was tense at first, but as the kiss went on he slowly relaxed.
Duo looked about to cry, "I -- Heero, I..."
"I know..." he said kissing him again, "Tell me about your nightmare
..."Duo told him and Heero held him tight as he fell fast asleep in his arms.
"I love you, Duo. I care too much... How did you make me care?" Heero said as he looked down on the now soundly sleeping boy.
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//Oh the letters have dropped off
though they say you got them all
I finally figured out some things you'll never know
Take back you life and let me inside
We'll find the door if you care to anymore//
Heero awoke at first light and began to rummage through his and Duo's old stuff.
About 9 o'clock he came across a bunch of letters that Duo'd said were from an old friend along time ago.
He was right about along time ago. Some of them were dated AC195... when they met...
He opened one and read:
Dear Heero,
I know being the Perfect Soldier and all
that this would piss you off terribly, but I
just had to say it. And considering you'll
never get this, it doesn't matter.
I love you. Yes, I know considering that
A: we're both boys, B: you're the Perfect
Soldier, C: this is war, and D: you probably
hate me, you can never return this feeling,
but I can't help it. I love you and I think, I
always will.
I know that you have Relena-san and all,
but if I can even be your friend that should
be enough for me... for now.
I will forever love you.
Love Always,
Duo
Heero gaped at the note. This is how Duo'd always felt. He'd never know, until just a little over a year ago.
Duo'd never know just how much this meant to him.
//I remember running through the wet grass
And falling a step behind
Both of us never tiring
Desperately wanting//
'Memories remain and I will always love you and no other! Ai shiteru, Duo.'
Heero picked up the phone and dialed, " 'Yes, can I speak to Relena? Yes, this is Heero Yuy... Relena... I accept your offer...' " He hung up the phone and packed all that he had. Everything that belonged to him and Duo and everything that reminded him of the violet-eyed boy.
'Forever... I'll love you forever... Duo...'
Owari
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Ok people you asked for the prequel. It is 13-14 pages long, by far the longest fic I have ever written. I hope you liked it.
Category: Yaoi, Sad, deathfic, lemon, sap
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: 1x2
Notes: Prequel to 'Don't Close Your Eyes'. Nothing is mine! I am poor! [lemon begin] and [lemon end] indicate lemon for those who don't like it.
[song by Better Than Ezra]
Desperately Wanting by Willow
//Past the road to your house
That you never called home
Where they turned out your lights
Though they say you'll never know//
Quatre looked in on the small boy sleeping in a overly large bed. The bed was usually meant for two, but the second... well, he was no longer here.
Heero hardly ever stirred from the room anymore. Never turned on the lights, nor the laptop that now sat crusted over in dust.
Quatre sighed softly and began to close the door.
"Quatre?" came the soft, hoarse voice.
"Yes, Heero?"
"Could you -- could you talk to me for a while? Please?" He asked, his voice filled with pain and loss... and suppressed tears.
"Hai, I'll stay for a while..." Quatre walked over to the boy who was now sitting on the bed. When he was an arm's length away, Heero reached up and pulled the blonde ex-pilot to him.
"I-I miss him..." he cried, "I miss him so much... I--" He faltered.
"I know, Heero, I know. We all miss him, but..." now Quatre's voice began to catch, "but he's gone, and he can't come back..."
Quatre knew Heero had changed since he and Duo had been together and this show of unrestrained emotion showed Quatre just how much of an impact the braided boy had had on him.
When Heero had exhausted his tears and himself, he slept. Quatre ventured forth from the room, seeking sanctuary in his own. And he purged his own grief.
//I remember running through the wet grass
And falling a step behind
Both of us never tiring
Desperately wanting//
Heero slept deeply and dreamed.
[lemon begin]
"Come on! Hurry up, Heero!" cried the vibrant boy as he ran toward *their* spot on the shore of the lake.
Heero shook his head and quietly followed his energetic lover.
Out of nowhere, Duo was beside him, "Come on, Heero! Let's race? Please?"
Heero opened his mouth to reply, but Duo was already off at a dead run. Heero took off as fast as he could. 'How does he run through this stuff at such great speed...' he thought as he fought the grass clinging to his skin, '... and so gracefully...' as he tripped over the root of a tree.
Duo stopped and came to his lover's rescue... and pounced on him. His lips covering Heero's. His hand stroking the muscles in Heero's back. Passionately... desperately... as if clinging to Heero as a life-line.
Duo let up his hold on his icy lover and Heero took advantage of the small release to get the upper hand.
He rolled them over and pinned the lithe boy to the ground and pressed his lips teasingly to the flesh of his neck.Duo moaned at the contact and his back arched, pressing them closer together.
Heero slowly, tauntingly removed Duo's thin button down and began to move his lips down his torso leaving a trail of fire.
Duo groped for the fabric covering Heero's upper body. Desperate for them to be rid of its nuisance.
Both rid of their shirts, Heero pinned Duo's arms down and gazed at the beauty before him.
The soft violet eyes practically glowed up at him from under the fringe of jagged bangs. The soft, pouty lips, swollen from their intense kissing, begged to be taken. Moving his gaze down to his torso, Heero took in the pale, sweat beaded flesh and semi-hard nubs of nipple.
Heero let go of Duo's wrists and moved his hands to fumble teasingly with the button of Duo's too-tight pants. He heard the boy moan in frustration, and smiled.
"Heero... please..." Duo panted as Heero began to slowly make downward movements with the zipper. Heero nodded, deciding he'd teased the beauty enough and feeling his own need testing his control.
He finished stripping the boy of his clothes. He leaned forward and kissed the pouty, panting lips and ran his fingers over the now hard nipples, driving the boy beneath him mad with need.
He leaned hack enough to move his mouth down the torso once more, looking up at his moaning lover when he came to the upright angle of his arousal. He grinned and took him into his mouth.
Duo's body jolted at the contact and the feel of Heero's warm mouth surrounding and teasing his member. His body rocked as Heero drove him close to ecstasy, then all too soon, the heat and pleasure were gone. He whimpered, unable to form a coherent thought.
"Shhh..." Heero murmured as he slipped out of his pants and pulled a tube of lotion from the pocket. Heero lubed his neglected member and sank back to his knees in the soft grass.
Duo tried wrap his legs around Heero's waist, trying desperately to push himself onto the other's swollen arousal. His efforts were in vain, for Heero kept a firm fold on him, preventing him from meeting his need before Heero dictated.
"Shhh..." Heero soothed as he inserted one finger, then a second into Duo's tight, hot cavity, "I don't want to hurt you... patience..." he said as he wiped the sweaty bangs from around his lover's pleading eyes.
Heero inserted a third finger, heard the hiss of pain then the gasp of pleasure as Heero's fingers brushed against something deep inside him. When the tight look on Duo's face receded, Heero judged him ready and removed his fingers.Duo looked up at the withdrawal, but saw Heero poised behind him and felt the thick tip of his member brushing his crevice. He let out a moan of pleasure/pain as he felt Heero enter him gently.
Slowly, Heero inserted the rest of his member and began to thrust. He pulled Duo's legs over his shoulders and brought his hands around to the boy's neglected arousal and began pumping in time with his thrusts.
The thrusts sped up as he began losing control. He fought to regain it, wanting to delay the climax until the very last moment.
He felt Duo's arousal swell as he came. That was the cue he'd been waiting for. He sped his thrusts and felt his seed explode into his lover's lithe body.
As the aftershocks subsided, they lay together on the sweet smelling grass, the wind having whipped the musky scent of sex from the area. Soon thereafter, they fell asleep.
[lemon end]
Heero sat up in the bed. His body covered in sweet and the room smelling bitingly of musk.
He grimaced and let himself fall back against the pillows. Letting sleep claim him once more.
//When they pumped out your guts
And filled you full of those pills
You were never quite right
Deserving all the chills//
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Duo sat on the bed, rocking back and forth, complaining of a headache. Heero looked over at him, concerned. This wasn't the first time, and they seemed to be coming to him more frequently.
Heero'd taken him to the doctor, who had given him some migraine pills and sent them on their way.
The pills had worked at first, but then, for no apparent reason, they had stopped working.
Now, Duo lay on the bed, feverish with pain and passing in and out of consciousness.
Heero knew something was terribly wrong, but what they found was never what he'd expected.
Cancer. And it had spread to the brain. They said they wouldn't know how bad it was until they ran more tests, but that it didn't look good.
Heero had done the only thing he could and called the others. Quatre and Trowa had arrived within the hour and Wufei shortly thereafter.
"Heero, I-I--" Quatre stopped, finding no way to console him, and refusing to give into the nagging little voice that told him there wasn't much hope.
Heero looked up at him, "It's alright, Quatre. He's going to be fine. Just watch. In a few weeks, maybe less, he'll waltz through that door and demand that we go rollerblading... right?"
Quatre knew that Heero was just trying to keep himself sane, so he nodded, "Right, Heero. Duo'll be back at 110%!"
But it was not to be. As the next three weeks passed, Duo's condition became worse and worse. Quatre knew that once Relena found out, she'd be at Heero's side trying to catch him in his grief so as to be the heroine and comfort the fallen soldier.And his prediction was true... to a point. Yes, Relena came to the hospital as soon as word got out, but she didn't try to force her way into Heero's heart. No, quite the opposite. She stayed away and helped from a distance.
Heero refused to let Duo's be alone lest something change and as he became more and more wary and fearful of losing him, he refused to be moved from the room. The nurses informed him that if and when Duo got better, he'd need Heero at his strongest. Heero's refusal had driven them to sedating him.
Over the next few weeks, the ex-pilots took turns watching their friend and hoping for the best.
As Duo's life drained away, Relena often offered herself up for bedside duty, giving the ex-pilots a break. Never once did she try to mend Heero's aching heart.
As Duo showed no signs of recovering, the doctors all but gave up hope. They'd stopped the progress of the cancer, but the extent of the metastasis left it up to Duo's will and body to try and recover now. It was beyond them.
//They say the worst is over
Kicked it over and ran
Then they ask what went wrong
When they turn you on again
They turn you on again//
Duo showed *some* signs of improving and the doctors decided to see if he could breathe on his own.
"If he holds on like he is, he should be just fine..."
He did fine for a while, then something went wrong.
"He's flatlining! Get the doctor!" came the scream of a RN as the boys rushed into the room.
"DUO!!!!!!" Heero screamed as the doctors piled in. Trowa and Wufei had to restrain him from rushing over to his lover's side.
"Let them work!" Wufei yelled.
Heero watched in horror as the doctors hooked him back up and began to try and revive him. No matter how much he wanted to he couldn't tear his gaze from the pale ghost of a boy that lay on the bed, dying he was sure.
Heero sank to his knees, he felt faint. The room became nothing but a roar of pictures and sound.
"Nurse, get that IV to me now!"
"Doctor! He's regressing fast!"
"I can't get a pulse!"
Then all of the sounds left. All but the one that meant the end of his happiness.
The long, shrill whistle of the flat lining heart monitor permeated the silence that had fallen over the room.Heero sank even
further in on himself as he watched the doctor pull the sheet over his love's face.
As Duo Maxwell died in body, Heero Yuy died in soul.
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Heero's eyes popped open and he wiped furiously at the tears running down his cheeks.
"Duo..."
//I remember running through the wet grass And falling a step behind Both of us never tiring Desperately wanting//
Heero slowly walked back toward the lake where his fondest memories were made... with him. He took it all in.
The tire swing hanging from the large tree that leaned out over the water. The little dock and the dingy that he'd often taken Duo out in for a romantic picnic or surprise. And the small garden that he and Quatre had dug and planted at the head of the fresh grave.
He kneeled beside the small grave and strung the necklace through the cross on the headstone.
The sun glinted off the piece of silver jewelry, catching on the letters engraved there.
The cross was a gift from him to Duo on one of those romantic boat rides on their first anniversary.
"Duo..." he croaked out, finding that his voice would not strain to work. His throat was tight and he was choking back tears that he didn't notice were there until now.
He walked over to the dock and sat on the end, gazing out over the lake.
A breeze blew, making Heero's mass of unruly hair sway, much as it had back then, and making ripples in the water.Quatre had followed him to make sure he didn't go and do something stupid. He found himself also gazing helplessly out over the lake.
Nothing could bring him back, but they could always remember the good times. And that was just how Quatre wanted it to remain.
Heero stood up stiffly, he'd been sitting there longer than he'd though. He began to slowly walk back to the estate, savoring every small part of the place that was Duo.
He came upon Quatre, still gazing out over the lake.
"Quatre?" he said, startling the boy out of his reprieve.
"H-heero, sorry... I wasn't spying on you... I just..." he stopped and looked at him, letting his face express all he couldn't say.
"I know, same here... this is where we made some of our fondest memories."
"Heero..."
//Kick them right in the face
Make them wish they weren't born
And if they bring up your name
Well they'll say you won the war//
Relena and her 'goonies', as Duo'd called them, were at the main house. Heero was *not* in the mood to deal with her right now and made as to go in the back way when Quatre stopped him.
"She helped with Duo... you owe her some..." Quatre winced at the look of distaste in his face. 'Since when did he get so expressive?'
"Fine," was the monotonal answer.
Inside Trowa and Wufei were trying to 'entertain' Relena and her crony driver.
"Hello, Heero," she said as he entered the room.
"Yo," he said looking down.
"Heero, can I ask you something?"
"..."
"The others, Trowa and Wufei, were telling me about how you've been... no, don't get mad at them, I asked to know... but they said you were moping about and everything... and I was wondering if you, and please know this is to help you, please come and stay with me. I know that I am not Duo, but I do want to see you happy. *And* I made a promise to Duo, upon my honor, that I would try my damnedest to make you happy..."
Quatre looked at Heero and suddenly became weary.
Heero was a dark red, and he looked as if he was trying to hold back rage.
"You'd... have... me... dishonor... my... promise... to... him... and memory... of him? So... you... YOU.... can have... ME? After all this time and you still don't get it!?!?!?!"
Trowa and Wufei leaped across the room to hold the ex-Wing pilot back from whatever wrath he might have wrought."He was a hero of the war, hell with out him we couldn't have won it! He won the war!"
"Heero, I--"
"GO! GET OUT OF HERE!"
Relena scuttled out of the house as quickly as her legs would carry her.
Back in the house, Trowa and Wufei had let go of Heero and he now sat slumped on the floor, shoulders shaking in silent sobs.
//Baby burst in the world
Never given a chance
Then they ask what went wrong
When you never had it right//
Quatre followed Relena out the door, like the good host he was.
Once outside, he turned to her, face fierce, "What makes you think you had the right? Especially so soon! He spent the day at his grave you know. He spent the whole day remembering and memorizing everything that they ever came into contact with that made him happy!"
"I thought-"
"No, Relena, you didn't think. That's just it. You want and never give. What you *do* give is to get what you want. Did you know that Duo gave all unconditionally? He gave everything he could to Heero, and never... NEVER asked a single thing in return..."
Relena looked like she was going to cry, "Let me speak, Quatre. I wanted to keep my promise to Duo! I promised Duo that I would take care of him."
"Relena, did you think that we couldn't do that? That was always our promise... if one of us died to take care of each other."
"I... I didn't know, but I still wanna help... somehow..."
"Maybe someday, but right now, he needs time to heal and deal with his own demons. You can't just move on after a soul-mate dies..."
"Soul-mate?"
"Yes, I could feel it... my uchuu no kokoro told me so... like Trowa and I..." He smiled, "I must get back in. Just give him time, Relena."
"That I will... Just don't let him go and do something stupid..." she smiled and got in her car and drove off.Quatre re-entered the house and got glares from the other three occupants.
"She's gone, and she won't bother you, Heero. Not for a while, at least."
//I remember running through the wet grass
And falling a step behind
Both of us never tiring
Desperately wanting//
Trowa and Wufei helped Heero up to his room.
Once the door closed, Heero sank to his knees and let the tears flow once more.
"Duo... I wish..." he dropped off into another dream-filled sleep.
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"Heero... hmmm..." Duo said in his sleep.
Heero looked over from the computer. What did the baka want... but Duo was asleep.
"What could that mean?" he mused to himself.
"Heero... I..." Duo turned over, still asleep, "I... lo--" he stopped speaking and looked like he was in terrible pain.
Heero got up and walked over to the bed.
"No!" Duo shrieked, "Heero, save me! Oh God!"
Heero shook him awake, "Duo! Wake up..."
Duo sat up suddenly. He blinked at the boy in front of him, "Wha..."
"You were having a nightmare..."
"Oh...." Duo looked like he'd seen a ghost.
"Want to talk about it?"
"N-not really..."
Heero looked skeptical. Duo was now shivering. Heero saw his chance to break the shell that surrounded Duo Maxwell.He leaned forward and drew the boy to him, wrapping his arms around him.
"You can trust me..." He lifted Duo's chin to where their eyes met. Heero leaned closer and kissed those eminently plunderable lips.
Duo was tense at first, but as the kiss went on he slowly relaxed.
Duo looked about to cry, "I -- Heero, I..."
"I know..." he said kissing him again, "Tell me about your nightmare
..."Duo told him and Heero held him tight as he fell fast asleep in his arms.
"I love you, Duo. I care too much... How did you make me care?" Heero said as he looked down on the now soundly sleeping boy.
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//Oh the letters have dropped off
though they say you got them all
I finally figured out some things you'll never know
Take back you life and let me inside
We'll find the door if you care to anymore//
Heero awoke at first light and began to rummage through his and Duo's old stuff.
About 9 o'clock he came across a bunch of letters that Duo'd said were from an old friend along time ago.
He was right about along time ago. Some of them were dated AC195... when they met...
He opened one and read:
Dear Heero,
I know being the Perfect Soldier and all
that this would piss you off terribly, but I
just had to say it. And considering you'll
never get this, it doesn't matter.
I love you. Yes, I know considering that
A: we're both boys, B: you're the Perfect
Soldier, C: this is war, and D: you probably
hate me, you can never return this feeling,
but I can't help it. I love you and I think, I
always will.
I know that you have Relena-san and all,
but if I can even be your friend that should
be enough for me... for now.
I will forever love you.
Love Always,
Duo
Heero gaped at the note. This is how Duo'd always felt. He'd never know, until just a little over a year ago.
Duo'd never know just how much this meant to him.
//I remember running through the wet grass
And falling a step behind
Both of us never tiring
Desperately wanting//
'Memories remain and I will always love you and no other! Ai shiteru, Duo.'
Heero picked up the phone and dialed, " 'Yes, can I speak to Relena? Yes, this is Heero Yuy... Relena... I accept your offer...' " He hung up the phone and packed all that he had. Everything that belonged to him and Duo and everything that reminded him of the violet-eyed boy.
'Forever... I'll love you forever... Duo...'
Owari
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Ok people you asked for the prequel. It is 13-14 pages long, by far the longest fic I have ever written. I hope you liked it.