Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Distance ❯ Letters ( Chapter 1 )

CH 1-"Letters"

by Rushiferu_Tenshi

(Becomingnothing@hotmail.com)

Summary: fic set after Heero disappears into the crowd in Endless Waltz. Duo writes a letter to him, but it gets mixed up with the letter he was writing when he was venting his feelings for the other pilot.waffy, slightly sad ^^;;

Disclaimer for the whole story: Don't own GW! *pouts* but i can make clones right? That's legal, right? It's not...? o.o....eheheheh..forget i said anything *hides Duo,Heero,Wufei,and Trowa clones in a back room* ahem.. anyway..i don't own them and i HAVEN'T made clones..er..and i don't own "Distance" by Hikaru Utada (Upbeat funky version. Not Final Distance. XD ) . I'm using the English version so everyone'll know what the song's saying ^^

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"You walked away into a crowd and disappeared. You were gone before any of us knew it, and in the end, when i tried to look for you,i failed. Not that i really blame you..If i had Relena on my tail, i'd run too. But you left all of us to stand here and try to figure out what happened to you. Maybe i should ask Wufei. He's a lot like you if you take away the gun and substitute it with a Justice complex.

If i keep talking to myself like you're here though,it's going to drive me nuts. Then again, what do you call a guy that has metre long hair and thinks he's the God of Death? Ding ding ding, we have a Winner, and i'm not talking about Quatre.You call him nuts. Why do i have this preoccupation with talking to you? You're not here, and even if you were, it's not like you'd talk much.

I guess that's the way it is though. Quatre has Trowa, Wufei had his Gundam, and i had you. Sounds stupid to compare you and me to that stuff. Trowa and Quatre love each other, and we all know how strong Wufei's bond with Shenlong was. But you and me? What were we?

Competetive as hell.

If you were here, the grin i'm wearing would probably annoy the crap out of you. Geez, that thought stings a little. The "If". The big I-F. Capitalize that. IF. God, i'm going mental.

Yeah, you were the guy i tried like hell to get a rise out of. Smile a little, Heero, come on, i wanna see you grin. Bet i can beat you to destroying that base. Sure, you win, now smile damnit. And did you ever? Nah. But it was fun trying to get you to. And what was i to you, anyway? Guess i must've been annoying. Oh well, not like it matters now.

Maybe it's crazy,but I feel a little betrayed. I mean,you left without saying "Bye" to any of us. And i guess i miss you a little.. You were really interesting in your own way,even without saying anything. You were our leader, even if none of us would really admit it. Maybe Quatre would. Hell, maybe i would..but you're not here so i won't bother. You were..i don't know. Yeah i do. You were beautiful. And you were strong. You were what a soldier's meant to be.

So then i find out you're working for the Preventers.And i really gotta say that if you're working in the same organization as your old war buddies, you need to give em a call,man. Even if you're halfway around the world. Guess you didn't go back to space either. I'm a little glad about that actually. If you're on Earth,that means i'm still closer to you than if one of us was in space.

I can't even write it here. It's stupid. This letter's never going to be sent, and i still can't write down my entire purpose for picking up the damn pen.

I think i love you,Heero.

It's weird,and it's stupid, and i'd never say it to your face,but it's true.And i really don't know how it happened.You're attractive,yeah,but that's not what makes people fall in love.Something about you made me feel safe, even if you were telling me to be quiet,or threatening me. I don't know..

I just know i missed you this entire time. I kept praying to God, trying to make bargains, even though i'm not even sure if God exists. "Bring Heero back, and i swear to you, i will repent for every person i've ever killed." Stuff like that.

Anyway, i'll stop writing this so i can get to the real letter. The one i'm actually gonna send.

Duo Maxwell "

Duo folded the paper , not really bothering to check if the edges were perfect, and wrote Heero's name on it. He wasn't sending that one,but he wanted to keep it. The wind came in through the window and threatened to whisk it away, so he casually set an audio cassette on it. Viola, le Shinigami, master of using other stuff as paperweights.

He sighed a little, then stretched, lifting his arms up above his head before grabbing another piece of paper and beginning to scrawl the short, more restrained letter that Heero was actually going to get to read.

"Hey Heero,

Whatcha doing on the other side of the world,huh? How about coming back and talking to your friends for a while? We could all pretend we're ten and have a sleepover at Quatre's or something. Come on, i'm serious. We were all wondering where you were.Anyway,gotta go. Write back,k?

Duo"

"Heh", Duo half laughed, rolling his eyes at the second letter. It was bullshit, but he figured it'd be passable to Heero. After all, he'd restrained himself and talked just that way through just about the entire war. Glancing up at the clock,he blinked, then stood up, cursing. It was already 5. And that meant he had to go drive Hilde to her mom's. Damned girl.

Grabbing the phone, he dialed Quatre, deciding he'd get him to mail the letter while he had to go on his errand.

"Hello? Winner and Barton residence?", Quatre's voice from the end of the line.

Duo grinned to himself. Winner and Barton.

"Yeah, Quatre, this is Duo. Look, i have this letter that i have to get mailed, but i gotta drive Hilde somewhere real quick and the postoffice closes in about half an hour. When you come by to pick up the movie i borrowed, can you mail it for me? Please? please please please?"

"Sure Duo. ", The braided boy could almost hear Quatre blinking at him.

"Thanks. Ack, i gotta go or i'm gonna be late. See ya, Quatre."

"Bye Duo."

And hanging up the phone, Duo ran out of his apartment, leaving two pieces of paper on the counter. One marked Heero,pinned under a cassette tape, the other folded over and blank.

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