Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Eraser Song Fic ❯ Eraser ( One-Shot )

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Rating: NC-17....

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"eraser" by NIN

//need you//

I need you Duo, I think about you all the time. Inside Wing Zero when I'm supposed to be focused on the task at hand, I wonder how you're holding up. I wonder if when I turn around you'll still be there. I don't want to lose you, you keep me alive sometimes, and you've saved my life more than once. Constantly my mind is off wandering with you. Luckily I've always been able to cover nicely in class. In all reality, I'm surprised I've never missed a question. Since I've been called on many times when I wasn't paying attention at all. Maybe it's not just your body I want. I begin to realize It's not the sex or attention I need, it's you. I love you, cherish you, and desire you with every fiber of my being. If only you could be mine…

//dream you//

You haunt my dreams too. Just when I think I can get a break from your smiling face, there you are in my dreams. Sometimes, everything will be innocent and sweet; other times it's more than a simple kiss or touch on my face. Sometimes you're writhing in pleasure in my arms, screaming my name and begging for me. Those are the mornings I wake up and have to take a shower, and fast.

//find you//

Hm…you just walked in the door. I notice your sleep-weary form and I raise an eyebrow. You'll take the gesture to be almost reprimanding when it's merely a question of your whereabouts. If I don't know where you are, how can I protect you? You sit down on your bed and pull off your shoes and socks, and shed your shirt that was clinging to you like a second skin. The desire to stand and pull off your pants has obviously been overcome by the desire to sleep. You fall back against your pillows and quickly drift away. I wish I could go where you go in those dreams. You always seem so happy, because you smile. I watch you while you sleep, hoping that I can find out your secrets when you aren't jealously guarding them. And yes, Duo, I did find out your secrets. I found out that when you're asleep, there's no Shinigami. There's no more maniac, faceless killer. No, there's an angel. You practically radiate warmth and happiness as you smirk in your sleep. Those are the times I want to reach out and touch your face, brush away your bangs and crawl in bed with you.

//taste you//

I return to my laptop with hesitance, freecell isn't nearly as much of a draw-in as you are. I'm dragged away from game number four billion when I hear you sit up in bed, breathing heavy, eyes wide, and a single word escapes your lips.

"Heero!"

You barely make it audible. It's a breathy request. I stand up and walk over to your bed and stare hard into your beautiful features.

"You okay?"

"Yeah….." you say slowly looking up at me. You turn away your violet pools and stare down, "yeah…" you repeat. I'm un-convinced. I sit down on the edge of your bed and stare, waiting for you to turn and tell me the truth.

"I'm waiting"

"I know."

"I'll wait forever."

"I'll stay forever, just to make you wait." I startle at those words. You? Forever? What wouldn't I sell to keep you to myself for-always.

"Tell me." I say as I slide closer to you. Your muscles tense up as my hand rests on your shoulder.

"Promise not to kill me?"

"For now…"

"In my dream I couldn't find you. I lost you Heero, I looked everywhere, and you were gone. I was running, screaming…searching for you, and you were nowhere. That was the worst nightmare I've ever had…I..I felt lost, and I needed you, and you weren't there. I thought you were..." I cut you off and pull your mouth towards mine. This is a test. If you pull away, then I mistook your feelings. If you reciprocate, then I was right, and all those times I caught you staring at me meant what I thought they did.

I think that maybe you're not interested, and that you aren't going to feel the same way, and then, you're kissing me back, you run your tongue along my lip and I accept without a second thought. You taste amazing, a stunning flavor that I could go through life sampling everyday. Your hands are moving lower, and even the lightest touch makes me insane.

//fuck you//

Things progress fast when you're having fun. Suddenly, your lips have moved from my mouth down to my chest, stomach, and lower. I shudder as I realize your intentions. Clothes are gone and you're left with your wet dream come true. I'm now enveloped in your warmth, your mouth sending me to the stars and back. I never knew you were so good at this…I moan and shiver as I near release, and you eagerly swallow as I climax. Then all at once you're on top of me, kissing me, letting me taste myself, and your hips grinding against mine are quickly arousing me once more.

Somewhere in there I've ended up on top, and just like my dreams promised you're engrossed in pleasure. And then, you're moaning, and you're whispering in my ear, and then you get louder as I thrust in harder. I cover your mouth with my own, somewhat stifling the sound, but when we breathe, there's only one word on your lips.

"Heero!"

Oh, say it again…

"Nhhn…Heero!"

I love you Duo, keep speaking, keep making any sound, I love your voice, I love your touch, I love everything about you.

"Heero..oh god…"

Don't stop…I want to say it out loud, but I don't want to scare you. Then your eyes catch mine and they're pleading with me to say something. It's only an instant, a shimmer of a moment and yet it seems like it took forever for me to reply.

"Don't stop Duo…" even the smallest sentence from me makes you come back to life. Your lips come up to catch mine as you pull me closer to you and whisper in my ear.

"Heero, you're perfect…Heero, you're wonderful….Heero, harder…..Heero, faster…." You keep whispering to me, and breathing onto my neck, and you're driving me crazy.

//use you//

I just got farther with you in one night than I did in our entire time together. I desperately want to crawl back over into my own bed, to be near my gun…my safety, but I'm strangely drawing you into an embrace. I'm holding you, and slowly I begin to forget about my gun. You're my new safety. It's all working in reverse now. I'm suddenly getting an immense feeling of security from keeping you safe. I always thought I'd just use you. That when I finally managed to convey my lust that I'd end up turning my back on you immediately afterwards. Here I am, drawn to you, not wanting to leave you alone. Relishing in the afterglow, and playing with your hair, caressing your sweat moist body that's draped languidly over mine. Oh whatever God is listening, don't let this end.

//scar you//

I'm sure I hurt you. There's no way that something could feel that good without there being some sort of negative consequence. You'll hate me tomorrow when you realize I've taken your virginity.

//break you//

I'm scared. After the shockwaves have passed, I'm frightened. What have I started? What have I done? I don't regret it, but I'm so scared that as you're lying here in my arms, that I'll shatter you to pieces. What if I don't live up to your expectations? What if I'm not good enough? Will you still love me? Will you still lay in my arms like this, trusting me, a murderer?

//lose me//

The sun rises the next morning. A signal that it was not in fact the apocalypse. The actual rays don't filter through the thick heavy curtains, but a glimmer of light shows that it is indeed morning. You're awake. You curl up against me and hold onto me so hard. Your body fits so perfectly with mine, and I look down into your eyes.

"You're beautiful." You blush, and that makes me happy. "Why are you holding onto me like a life raft Duo?" I ask you as I brush the stray hairs away from your face.

"I don't want to let you go…don't want to lose you."

"That won't happen…" I reassure you with a strong embrace and I rain kisses all over your body. You're so responsive this early in the morning, and soon I find myself in the same position as last night. Every inch of your skin becomes receptive to my touch, and even the lightest brush of a fingertip makes you shiver.

//hate me//

Hn. Will you hate me for this later, when all the delicious side effects from the orgasms dissipate, and you have to face me again? I hope not, I hope when we finally wake up and roll out of bed that you'll look me in the eyes and smile, that you'll continue your incessant chatter. That you'll climb into my bed later tonight and curl against my body and smile in your sleep and dream about me. I don't know what I'd do without you, I couldn't handle it if you were gone.

//smash me//

Don't break my heart, Duo, don't smash my thoughts of being with you. I'll do anything to keep you forever. Just name a price my love, and I'll gladly pay…

//erase me//

You wake up for good this time, and roll out of bed to head for the bathroom. You don't say anything. I knew I'd hurt you. You walk back out in your long black silky bathrobe and pull me out of bed and into your arms. I'm kissing you again…I can't do it enough, and happily, you're kissing back.

"Shower with me…" you say as you untie your robe and pull me inside the thin fabric, against your naked body.

"Anything for you…"

"Be careful what you say Heero, I may take you up on that…" you whisper into my ear as your hands are sliding lower and lower.

"I hope you will." You stammer for a moment, seeking for a witty reply, and I take advantage of the moment to start moving us in the direction of the shower. You don't seem to mind. And I kick the door closed as we disappear through the doorway.

You so easily erase all my fears.