Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Ever Fall in Love? ❯ Ever Fall in Love? - Heero ( Chapter 2 )

A/N This is Heero's chapter.

For disclaimer, etc, see last chapter.

Ever Fallen In Love - Heero

You spurn my natural emotions

You make me feel like dirt

And I'm hurt

"Why don't you just stop pretending to be human?"

I hold in the bitter laugh that threatens to escape as I remember. It's the other way round Duo, I'm human and I can't stop pretending to be perfect, to be a perfect soldier, to have no emotions, to not know the meaning of the word love.

And if I start a commotion

I run the risk of losing you

And that's worse

I do though, I won't say anything though, every slap on the back, every teasing comment is a sign that you know I'm alive, pathetic isn't it? Like a dog pleading for scraps I keep praying silently for every indication you give that I still exist, sometimes I wonder. I know I've brought it on myself but… I don't know any different.

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love

In love with someone

Ever fallen in love

In love with someone

You shouldn't've fallen in love with

How could I have been such a fool? I wasn't supposed to feel emotions at all, let alone love, love was never on the agenda. Love wasn't in the plan. Why didn't anybody ever warn me that love isn't something you plan for or can control, it controls you, it can lift you higher than heaven or plunge you down into the depths of hell in a split-second.

I can't see much of a future

Unless we find out what's to blame

What a shame

I can see your mask you know? I know you have one just as complex as mine, if not more so. I have spent my entire life trying to cover up who I am, you have spent your life creating another personality for yourself.

I can't say anything until you trust me without your mask, that will never happen I know, I can't take down my walls why should I expect you to do so, maybe it's better this way.

And we won't be together much longer

Unless we realize that we are the same

We are the same, I know you think we're worlds apart but I'm not so different really, I do have emotions, I do have feelings, I just don't know how to deal with them, I don't know how to look at my feelings and acknowledge them let alone understand them.

I need your help Duo, why can't I just say it, just ask you?

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love

In love with someone

Ever fallen in love

In love with someone

You shouldn't've fallen in love with

What did I think I was doing? There was a reason I wasn't supposed to love. It gives someone the kind of power over you that no one should have over a soldier.

What would happen if the enemy found out? They'd try and get you to get to me, or visa versa if they thought that love was reciprocated, what would I do if OZ ever got their hands on you because of me?

The soldier in me assures me that I wouldn't care or, if necessary, would take steps to ensure that you couldn't talk if they tortured you. The human in me however tells me that I'd go in with all guns blazing, ripping the base you were on apart, killing anyone between me and you and tearing those who'd dared to hurt you to shreds.

Love makes you vulnerable, it makes you start to question why you are here, what your purpose is, things you've known ever since you can remember.

Nothing other than the mission should have that kind of power over a soldier and maybe not even then.

You disturb my natural emotions

You make me feel like dirt

And I'm hurt

I know you treat me no differently, I know Quatre, Trowa and Wufei get the same impromptu hugs, pats-on-the-back and smiles I do. I'll take what I can get though. I couldn't live without those touches, I think you may be the only one who has ever touched me with any semblance of kindness.

And if I start a commotion

I'll only end up losing you

And that's worse

I wont let you go, I don't know what I'd do, you can't leave and I'll keep going as I am, you notice me and talk to me as I am. I might never get anything else but you'll stay and that's enough.

I don't know what I'd do if you left Duo, please don't leave me.

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love

In love with someone

Ever fallen in love

In love with someone

You shouldn't've fallen in love with

Ever fallen for someone you know you shouldn't have fallen for?

I have… and I thought death hurt, it's got nothing on love, death can't hold a candle to love.

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love

In love with someone

Ever fallen in love

In love with someone

You shouldn't've fallen in love with

Fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone

You shouldn't've fallen in love with

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