Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Finding Truth Behind Time Lost ❯ Learning How to Love ( Chapter 4 )

Chapter 4: Learning How to Love

 

 

 

 

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A/N: This fic will is fluffy and playful for now but will change…just a warning to all readers. If you like this or have any ideas of what to add to the fic tell me. Suggestions are always welcome. Review!!!

 

 

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The air grew cooler around the two boys as the minutes passed by and soon Heero grabbed Duo's hand and led him to walk around the landscape that surrounded the safe house Quatre had gotten for them. The safe house was a good size to say the least, and to say the most it was a mansion. Not as big as some of Quatre's houses but still bigger than the ones any of the other pilots could get their hands on.

 

 

 

Walking along the flowerbeds with Duo's warm hand in his, Heero felt safe knowing that Duo was with him and meant what he said. `Duo never lies and he wouldn't lie to me. He's my best friend and even more now' Heero thought to himself while staring at the purple snapdragons. The beautiful colors reminded him of Duo's eyes and he allowed a small smile to creep onto his face.

 

 

The flowers were soon left behind as Heero pulled Duo away and into the gazebo that was on the edge of the gardens. It was airy and gave a good amount of shade from the intensity of the sun. Heero sat on the bench there and pulled Duo down into his lap. Wrapping his arms around the braided pilot of Deathscythe and pulling him to lean against his chest, Heero felt secure and at peace.

 

 

Duo leaned his head back on the strong shoulder of his beloved, let his eyes slide shut, and let out a contented sigh, he was in bliss. Duo turned his face towards Heero's neck and began to nuzzle, lick, nibble, and kiss his way up to Heero's ear and blew a soft whisper of air into it. Heero shivered at the sensation. Duo then nibbled on his earlobe before giving it a light kiss and stopped. Turning in Heero's arms Duo decided to face him and to finally give him the `talk' he knew they needed to have.

 

 

Heero felt Duo move and loosened his embrace to allow him to do so. Duo still was in his lap but moved to straddle Heero's thighs and look directly at his love. His eyes were filled with love and a look that Heero couldn't recognize. He started to open his mouth to say something but Duo just placed a finger on his lips to stop him.

 

 

“Don't speak Heero. Just listen to me and hear what I have to say.” Heero opened his mouth again to protest but a look from Duo and the finger that remained on his lips silenced him. “ I want to…no…need to get this out and I want you to just listen for now and speak later when you have your turn, okay?” Duo looked questioningly at Heero to see if he would try to speak again but Heero didn't. His lips remained closed and Duo took his finger away and wrapped both arms around Heero's neck. Heero's arms went around Duo's waist and waited for Duo to begin.

 

 

“Heero. We have been friends in this war and will continue to be friends for what I hope will be the rest of our lives. For however long or short they maybe, I know I want you to be near me no matter where I am. I feel safe and at home when you are near me. I want to tell you more about me so I can get you to understand me better. I have told you about the Maxwell church about the people who died in my life. I told you about how I grew up on the streets and how I was always hungry which is why my appetite is so huge.” Duo cracked a grin and Heero smiled at that well-known fact. There seemed to be no end to how much food Duo could pack away. Duo then started to continue on his tale.

 

 

“I fell in love with you and I wanted to tell you for the longest time but I was afraid that I would ruin our friendship and that you would try to self-destruct again or pull away from me. I couldn't live if you did that. I can't sleep at night if I don't know where you are. So when you told me yesterday how you felt I was relieved and excited in the same moment. I have never had someone tell me that they loved me the way you do. I wanted to just smother you with hugs and kisses right away but I knew you seemed scared that I would be the one to push `you' away. I want you to know that I would never do that to you. As I said before, I will never leave you willingly. Who knows what the next day may bring? But I want to be with you for as long as I can.

 

 

“The other thing I have to make you understand is that just because our feelings of how we feel about each other are out in the open doesn't mean that we have to plunge into anything else. I know you're scared of revealing yourself to people since you think it will make you vulnerable, even though that someone is me. Being with me doesn't mean you have to stop doing things you would normally do or acting like you have to submit to me fully. Being together as friends and as lovers are what we need to work on so we know what is going on. If I'm doing something that makes you uncomfortable, you need to tell me. I won't get mad and I won't push you away. I want to make you understand that. The same goes for you. If your doing something I don't like I'll tell you. It's that simple. Am I making myself clear Heero?” Heero nodded. “Okay then. Now tell me what you want to say about anything. It's my turn to listen to you speak. So tell me why you want to rush into things and yet are so afraid to do so at the same time.”

 

 

 

Duo stayed where he was and slowly twirled his fingers through Heero's thick hair, waiting for the Japanese boy to begin. Heero stared into Duo's eyes to see if he was sincere. He was, but Heero still was waiting for something to swoop in and steal away the only happiness he had ever felt. Taking in a deep breath he began his confession as well as the reason to why he had been acting the way that he was.

 

 

 

“Duo you are the only thing in my short life that had ever made me smile. I don't remember anything from before I started my training whether it was J or Odin Lowe who trained me. You are the only person I feel I can be completely open to. Quatre is nice to talk to, but I can't talk to him about things, the way I can with you. I told you about my training, about everything I am except the way I felt about you. Now that I have told you I'm afraid that if I don't let you see me and everything about me you'll disappear and I don't want that to happen. You complete me, Duo. You make me feel things that I have never been able to feel and for that I'm grateful.

 

 

 

“Everything I have ever learned told me to shut off my emotions and pain. That made me seem inhuman, but when I'm with you I don't have to be that way and I don't try to be. J told me emotions are weak and you sometimes make me feel weak because of everything I feel when I'm with you. But, I like that feeling. I love it in fact and I don't have to hide what I am. I want you to see me Duo and if it meant that I would have to submit to you to keep you near me then I would do it in a heartbeat but it also frightens me. I `m afraid you'll hate what you see and be disgusted by it. I have never let anyone see me, not like this. But I want you to see me all of me. Stripped of the mask of the so-called `Perfect Solider.' I am nowhere near perfect. I am just me, which is all I can give you, nothing more. I have nothing else to give you but myself and that is what I want you to have. So please understand. I need you Duo and I want you to see me.” Heero concluded and pressed his forehead against Duo's.

 

 

 

Duo was awed by Heero's words. Heero wanted Duo to see him and that meant so much to him, that Duo didn't have words to describe how he felt by them. Duo closed his eyes and brought his mouth on Heero's in a gentle kiss. Pulling back a little bit Duo whispered against Heero's lips. “ You really want me to see you Heero?”

 

 

“Yes Duo I do.” Heero whispered back against Duo's lips.

 

“Then come with me and we will reveal everything about each other, but not here. Let's go up to our room for this. Okay Heero?” Duo opened his eyes and saw Heero's slight nod. Heero seemed to be wondering what Duo meant by `revealing themselves to each other.' Heero's brain then clicked in and his mouth was open and voiced what he thought Duo meant by his words.

 

 

“No Duo, I'm not ready to… I …” Duo silenced him with his lips and then smirked.

 

 

“Who said I was going to do anything with out you permission Hee-chan? I know you're not ready for what I think `you are assuming that I want to do to you' but I am not ready for certain thing either. I have something different in mind. Do you trust me?” He whispered to his panicked love. Heero nodded. He did trust Duo but what did he have in mind?

 

 

 

 

 

 

Duo led Heero upstairs and to their room without any problems and locked their door. He went over and sat Heero on the bed. Duo remained standing in front of him and just looked at him. Heero's heart rate had calmed down but was still beating faster than normal. Duo could tell Heero was nervous but he remained where he was regardless. Heero's full attention was on Duo, waiting for any sign to signal what the braided boy wanted to do to him. Duo then kneeled on the floor in front of Heero and slid his hands up Heero's legs from the ankles to his upper thighs and stop when they reached the band of Heero's shorts.

 

 

“You said you wanted me to see you Hee-chan. That you wanted to reveal everything you are to me. I want to do the same for you. We have already shown each other what we feel for each other through words and some actions. But I want to show you more than that.” Duo took a breath and locked eyes with Heero before continuing. “ I want for us to see each other and show one another how we feel physically. What I mean is I want to see all of you Heero. Every single naked inch of you if you'll let me and you're willing. I won't force you. I am only asking, and no we aren't going to do anything that you're uncomfortable with. So may I?” Duo tugged on Heero's black shorts as an indication of what he meant to do. Heero tensed but then rethought of what he just said a few minutes ago and then smiled.

 

 

“Only if I get to see you as well.” Heero said. Duo just grinned wider.

 

 

“I wouldn't have it any other way Hee-chan.” Then he pulled Heero up from the bed and gave him a deep passionate kiss. Duo moved his hands and grabbed Heero's tank top and pulled it out of his shorts then pulled it over Heero's head and let it drop to the floor.

 

 

Cold air swirled around Heero's chest and Duo stepped back to admire the view of it. Heero became self-conscious and quickly tried to cover himself with his arms but Duo stopped him by grabbing both of them.

 

 

“Don't be embarrassed Hee-chan. You look very sexy without your shirt on.” Duo smiled and then took off his own shirt and let it join Heero's on the floor. Duo then wrapped Heero in his arms and pulled him flush against him. Bare chest meeting bare chest, smooth flesh gliding together, Heero suddenly groaned from the contact they had and Duo dropped kisses onto his love's neck. Enjoying himself immensely within the warmth of Duo's arms and the soft lips that kissed along his neck, Heero couldn't believe that he had almost been reluctant to do this. Duo's lips caused goose bumps on his skin and he loved it.

 

 

 

Heero tilted his head more as an indication that he wanted more. Duo was more than happy to comply with Heero's wishes. Then while he slowly made his way down Heero's chest with kisses, Duo began to slip off Heero's shorts. But then thought it would be more fun to be a little playful. Keeping Heero distracted for one more minute then Duo shoved Heero to the bed behind the shorthaired boy and quickly removed the offending black shorts.

 

 

Heero was stunned for a brief moment then realized that he no longer had clothes on his lower body. He was completely naked and Duo was just standing there looking at him with a raised eyebrow. Heero glanced down at himself and noticed that his lower body had betrayed him. Standing proud and erect his manhood throbbed at the joining of his opened legs and was at Duo's viewing pleasure. Duo didn't move or change his expression, he just kept looking at Heero in all his naked glory and Heero started to panic.

 

 

`What if I'm not big enough for his liking? What if he thinks that I lied to him about not wanting to have sex? He'll hate me because of my body's willingness and think that I'm disgusting. He'll hate me for sure now.' The rapid thoughts of how much Duo would hate him were too much for Heero and he quickly closed his legs and pushed his erection down to cover it with his hands. Blushing a deep red and panting for air Heero began to curl in on himself. Duo then moved and Heero thought Duo was going to hit him. He shut his eyes tightly and began to shake and mutter apologies.

 

 

 

“I'm sorry Duo. I couldn't help it. It just happened. I won't let it happen again. I know my body displeases you. I am so sorry.” Heero muttered quickly. He felt Duo's hands on him and pulled his hands away from his groin. Heero didn't know what to think, so he didn't resist Duo and let him move his hands to rest on both sides of his hips, then Duo trailed his fingers up Heero's arms then gently caressed his cheeks with the backs of his fingers.

 

 

“Heero open your eyes and look at me, please? You have nothing to be ashamed of. I'm flattered and I hope it does happen again. If it doesn't then I know I'm doing something wrong. You're beautiful Heero. Don't be embarrassed by your body, I'm not.” Duo lightly caressed the worry from Heero's face and smiled down at him. Heero returned the smile hesitantly. Still unsure of himself, but feeling better that Duo hadn't tried to hit him or was disgusted by what his body did without him knowing what it had done.

 

 

Duo then moved away and stripped himself of his own black pants and let Heero watch his stripe tease. He then kicked the pants away from him and stood before Heero just as naked and had his own erection to show to his love. Heero just stared and was at a loss for words. Duo then caught his eye and smirked and then quickly climbed on the bed and straddled Heero and let their mutual erections touch. A gasp came from both of them, as Duo slowly grinded their hips together, causing gasps and moans to come from both of their mouths.

 

 

They both let each enjoy the sensations that swept through them with each touch and soon the pressure built within them and both released their coil of passion at the same time with a shout. Duo sprawled all over Heero's body while he rode out the waves of his climax, letting his breath become normal once again. Heero was in ecstasy. He had never felt anything like what they had just done before and had enjoyed it completely.

 

 

He felt as Duo removed himself from his body and allowed Heero to breathe better without his weight on him. Duo looked down at himself and at Heero. The mess that was on both of their stomachs was proof of their passion. Duo grinned at the mess and then reached out his hand to take Heero's.

 

 

“Come take a shower with me Hee-chan. We both are messy and need to wash up. It'll be fun.” Duo chided to Heero and he led the way to the shower.

 

 

Duo turned on the shower and adjusted the temperature so it was hot, but not scalding enough to burn them, just to relax all of their tired muscles and clean them up completely.

 

 

Duo stepped inside and pulled Heero in after him. Heero wrapped his arms around Duo under the hot spray of water then pulled away slightly to reach off to the side of him and grab the bar of soap. Creating a thick lather with his hands Heero then gently washed Duo's body clean. Washing every inch of Duo that needed to be cleaned except for his braid.

 

 

Heero was about to ask Duo but the braided pilot beat him to it. “No Heero I don't need my hair washed now. I think we are both too tired to comb all of it out and braid it again before we take a little nap before dinner, don't you? Now let me wash you.” Duo took the soap from Heero and returned the favor of washing him squeaky clean as well. When he had finished, Duo shut off the water and stepped out and grabbed a big towel and proceeded to dry off the pilot of Wing Zero.

 

 

Delicately caressing every inch of his love before he decided that Heero was fully dry. Heero then took the towel and repeated the motions on Duo as well. Heero then led his precious braided lover to bed and laid him down on the awaiting softness. Then Heero laid his head on Duo's shoulder and closed his eyes but didn't fall asleep.

 

 

“Duo?” Heero whispered softly to his comfy warm pillow.

 

 

“Hmm? What is it Hee-chan? Something wrong?” Duo asked almost on the verge of falling asleep but not quite.

 

 

“No nothing's wrong. I just…wanted to thank you for what we did. I really enjoyed it.” Heero said and snuggled in closer to Duo for more warmth and smiled contentedly.

 

 

“You're welcome Hee-chan, but you don't need to thank me. I enjoyed it too. I hope I can show you all the kinds of ways we can be together. What do you think about that?”

 

 

“I think I would like that very much, love.” Heero sighed and wrapped his arm around Duo's waist. Duo covered them both up in a blanket and proceed to take a nap before dinner was to be served.

 

 

 

 

TBC…

 

 

Thanks to reviewers: DimondPrincess, Nana, Feanturi Dindel, and Bluesake for the reviews, sorry for taking so long!!! (Sweat drops)