Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Girls do cry ❯ Chapter 2 ( Chapter 2 )
thihihi.. I won't tell ya ^^. YOu've gotta read it yourself :]. No, no..don't go!!! okay, okay I'll tell..
After visiting the museum, Heero disappears for a few weeks and Duo gets depressed; as he goes to a bar again weeks later, he finds Heero again and takes care of him...
And the ending of the whole thing? Read, plz :].
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Hentai / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 12.29.2002 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.6K | Visits: 558 | Status: Completed
Yho, how are you all doing? I wanted to finish this before christmas,but well.. sorry guys ^^. Christmas was hell on earth and I didn't have the time to write a single line. I hope you can forgive me and accept this here now :]
Additional warning for this part: mention of rape. Yup, you heard right guys. Poor Duo-Chan's gonna be raped.
Girls do cry part 2
If you've never been in a museum with someone like Heero, then you've gotta try it someday. It's fun. The museum has 4 sections: modern art, meaning funny pictures and weird sculptures, one part with stuffed animals and lotsa other dead things, the main art part ( smart word, hu?) where you find pictures of Michelangelo, Rubens and other famous painters and, last but not least the most important part: the café. I'm not kidding. If you wade through the WHOLE museum, you really need some coffee and maybe some piece of cake afterwards. And that's where we were sitting after the tour. I had ordered myself some coffee and a nice, big piece of chocolate cake. And well, Heero just needed some more coffee.
"Anything else?" The servant was extremely annoying, the only negative thing about the café. As soon as you sat down, they were around you like sharks around fresh meat, and they ALWAYS were around you until you paid, although you had just received your food. Annoying little figures,I tell you. Anyway, as Heero sighed deeply, I quickly got out my money purse and paid the man, who smiled broad as I gave him some extra money to leave us alone. "Thank you", he grinned and finally left us alone.
"I'm sorry you have to pay, Duo." Heero started, looking at me regretfully. But I quickly reassured him, smiling. "It's no problem. I like to do it." He smiled back at me as I gave him a nice,big grin and suddenly he reached out to touch my hand, and I let him, just looking at his eyes. He missed his girlfriend, I could feel it, see it in his eyes, and he started stroking my hand with his thumb, slowly. It felt good, real nice, and I lifted his hand to kiss it once, putting my own hand over his afterwards. His hands are pretty. It might sound stupid, but it had always fascinated me: people's hands. I could see some faint scars from former wounds on it, and, getting curious, I took his other hand aswell, looking at his palms. Carefully I ran my index finger over his lines there, and suddenly he spoke up.
"Well, can you tell me what will happen in the future?" He asked me, smiling, and I got the idea. "Well," I started, "it seems that you will be lucky very soon." Playfully,I looked at his palm a bit closer, intensifying my running-along-the-lines, loving the feel of his skin. "Oh, and what's here?" I looked at the line around his thumb. "Hm, I think Venus and Mars are having good influence on you. Or is it Jupiter?" I faked a frown. "Damn hand-writing. I can't read this." As I looked up, I saw this strange expression on his face,but it quickly changed for he laughed full-hearted at the next moment. It sounded wonderful, the way he laughed. I loved it, and as he came down from his laughing a bit, I leaned forward to kiss him onto his lips,quickly pulling back for I didn't want to risk anything, especially not in public.
"Mh, what was that for?" He asked before leaning forward himself, pressing his lips onto mine.But he didn't pull back so quickly and tried to intensify his kiss, but I stopped him, slowly pulling back. "Please, Heero. I don't want to rush." Leaning just a bit closer, I continued. "And I really don't want to give them a show." I whispered near his ear, and we both turned our head to the left, only to see the servants quickly turn away. Figures.
"Well, then why don't we just go to your place?" He asked me, and I realized what he meant. But I couldn't. If he found out…. He would leave me in an instant. And suddenly, a voice popped up in my head, telling me that he was probably still thinking about his girlfriend. That he probably wanted to get rid of his depression and anger, and that he probably wuld have taken anyone to release his frustation. But I quickly dismissed these thoughts. It could have been right, and probably was, but I wouldn't let him do that. It was clear that he would find it out someday, and I just hoped that that day was a few weeks away.
"What's wrong?" I heard him and noticed how quiet I have been. "Uh, nothing, just thinking about a few things." He leaned closer again. "And what would that be?" Damn him, he was making it hard for me. But fuck it, I wasn't a girl. If I would have been, I would have offered my body to him esterday, but I was a guy. I was little gay Duo, and giving into his needs would have meant showing him what I truly was. Looking down, I noticed that our coffee had been untouched, like my cake, and suddenly I wasn't all too hungry at all.
"Let's go, Heero." I told him, and he gave me a questioning look. "What about your cake?" I frowned. "Fuck the cake, I'm not really hungry." I guess I shouldn'thavesaid that bad, bad word for he suddenly purred. "There are other things, well, persons to be exact, who I would like to fuck." I tried to ignore his words, I really did, but now he had me, I was aroused, and it was damn dangerous. And then he did something else. He started to eat my cake. That was the last thing I needed to see, the fork with cake on it moving into his mouth, him `hmm'ing quietly, leaving it in his mouth for a few seconds before slowly pulling it out. It wasn't slow, not at all, but for me, for my fogged mind, it seemed too slow. What should I do??? But god, oh bless God, send me help for I suddenlöy heard a voice behind me.
"Duo! Hey, Duo!"It was Hilde. And , quickly forming an escape plan in my mind, I turned my upper body into the direction of Hilde, deliberately kickling the table to get the coffee onto my skirt. And I succeeded. Yay, now I had an excuse to go to the restroom. With Hilde.
"Oh, no, Duo, your skirt." She said as she reached the table, and as she noticed my problem, she gave me a quick look, letting me know that she was going to help me. "Heero, she has to wash that stain out. I'm going to help her, if you don't mind." Heero nodded and Hilde was quick enough to block Heero's view long enough so thatI could turn around and quickly, we ran to the restroom.
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I needed about ten minutes to …calm down again. Although I made no sounds, I had managed to get some of my ..other body fluents onto my shirt and now we had to get out two kinds of stains. Brilliant me. But Hilde helped me nevertheless, and I was really grateful for that. After washing out most of it, we had to use the hand dryer to get the wetness out again. It was quite funny, somehow, me standing beside the sink, wearing my panties and Hilde holding my skirt under the hadn dryer. An old lady who came in gave us this really funny look and we told her that it was a coffee stain we were trying to get out. And, believe it or not, the lady suddenly took out some special soap and, I didn't believe it myself, an old, black skirt. I realized that the lady actually wanted to go to the church to deposit her old clothes there. For poor people, you know. God really was nice to me that day. Now we could just take the skirt with us and wouldn't have to leave Heero alone for so long. I told the lady how grateful I was for the skirt and she just smiled at me.
So I went back to Heero with the skirt over my arm, and he gave me a puzzled look as he saw the new skirt on me.I grinned, turning around once to show how wide it was before moving to the table to explain what had happened. He nodded at me, and stood up. Finally we could go home.
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I won't go into detail too much with the following few weeks because nothing really happened. After we went home that day, we ate dinner together and, well, the next day I woke up, he was gone. I was confused at first, but then I found a note, and it said something like that he needed to sort things out and that he would be gone for some time before he would be able to come back to me. At first I didn't know how to react, but I ended up with calling Hilde and as soon as she was there, I bawled my eyes out. She tried tocomfort me, but it was no use. I felt so.. I don't know how to describe it. It was just that I thought I'd found happiness, and then he was just gone. Heero was everything I've ever hoped for, everything I ever wanted. And he left.
Maybe some of you think I'm terribly exaggerating, but it was really hard to live here as a gay guy. People tended to destroy things that belonged to gay people, as soon as they found out that someone really was gay. I had wanted to move out of that part of the city for long, but after weeks of looking for some other apartment, I just gave up and told myself to be extra careful. However, life was all the more harder since Heero had stepped into my life and left so quickly again. For weeks, I didn't do anything at all. I guess this is what you call a broken heart. I didn't eat, didn't sleep, and I guess without Hilde, I wouldn't have moved at all. But after 3 weeks, she managed to persuade me to go to a bar again.
After putting on the black skirt I've got from the old lady in the museum, I quickly took some random shirt before Hilde made my make-up. She took her time, which made me wonder at first, but when I looked into the mirror afterwards, god, I have ta say, I really liked it. I looked more feminine than ever, and I gave her a warm hug as some kind of thanks. Maybe I couldn't `get' anyone tonight, but at least I could flirt like crazy.
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"Hey pretty, what about a date?"
"Hey, forget it. Who would like to take you on a date?"
"Yeah, he's right. You're too old."
"And you're too young. I Bet your mommy's already looking for you in the kindergarden."
Drunken men's argues. Straight men. Yucky men. Men I didn't want to deal with. Smiling, I excused myself, working my way through the crowd, back to Hilde and my drink on the table somewhere in a corner of the bar. As I sat down, Hilde pointed at some good-looking guy standing close to us, but I shook my head. Since I've met Heero, no one seemed interesting enough to me anymore. I wanted him, and no one else. Hell! I couldn't even flirt anymore. What had he done to me…
"C'mon, Duo. You can't be so picky for the whole night. Stop mowling over it and look around." She really tried to cheer me up, but it didn't work. "Sorry, Hilde. But, it's just… I can't." I shook my head slightly to punctuate my words. But I upset her already. "C'mon, you two haven't been married, damnit! It's not like you two were divorced or anything! He's gone, okay, and you will find someone else! Get over it! And down your drink!" She was whirling her ahdns around in the air wildly. And so I bitterly emptied my drink, thinking about Heero again.
And it seemed that God tried to make it up to me. I stood up to go to the toilet when I suddenly heard it. "Whada ya mean 'cheat'? I didn' cheat." It was that drunken voice.. "Oh, so ya lookin' fer bruises an' truble?" ..I had missed so much.. "Oh, c'mon, let's get this over with." ..during the last few weeks. And all I remember is that, at the next moment, I was moving, through the crowd, towards that voice. And just before I could frown over the fact that I couldn't find him, history repeated, and it was similar to the first night. With the only difference that, when I regained my senses, I found myself on the floor, with him in my arms. I think I promised to become a priest later on for this. But I'm not sure. However, I smiled broadly as I held him there, and the smile widened as he recognized me, without opening his eyes.
"Dduo." He blindly reached out one hand and found my cheek without poking an eye out, and I quickly touched it, savoring the feeling of him after this long time. But, as if God had just looked away, the guys he had talked to before were suddenly emerging from the crowd and now stood in front of us. They promised trouble, these punks. I pulled Heero closer, protectively, and just hoped that they would leave him alone. Stupid thing that I knew they wouldn't. And even more silly thing, Heero fell asleep in my arms. I'm NOT kidding. I could hear his soft snores, and sighed deeply before standing up, not showing my fear at all. I felt their eyes on me as I stood up, carefully putting Heero to the side before facing them again. I heard some whispers around me, very encouraging whispers like'she's crazy' and `they'll beat her up'.
Still, I cleared my voice before speaking up with the sweetest tone I managed to bgring out. "Whatever has happened, I apologize for it, and I would appreciate it if you would leave him alone." At first, I thought it'd work since they didn't say anything, but after a few more moments, I remembered how horrible people could be when they were drunken. And my face remebered why I never picked up a fight in school.
Terrified faces and gasps followed my fall and I groaned in pain as my head hit the ground. I felt some blood running down my lip- they had broken the skin of my lip - and I felt the pain of my smashed cheek. I barely noticed them following me and I still remember how I prayed silently as one of them lifted me by my collar and got ready to punch again. Just before a female hand got to rest on the man's shoulder. And he dropped me immediately. Smart girl, smart punk. I'm glad all my bones stayed intact. But I got helped anyway for there were suddenly about 7 girls around me, lifting me up and eyeing the bruise on my cheek. Then, finally, Hilde managed to get through the gathered crowd and mumbled something before trying to drag me out, but I stopped her and made my way over to sleeping Heero. As she noticed who was there, she sighed before helping me to lift him.
We got him out, somehow, and he was really fast asleep, the figure, but we carried him nevertheless, and I sighed relieved as we finally reached my apartment. I thanked Hilde one more time before locking the door to my apartment. Just as I finished, I heard Heero groan from where he was sitting on the floor next to me, leaning his upper body against the wall. I crouched down so that I was face to face with him.
"Hey, big boy." I said in a low voice, nearly whispering while getting some of his bangs out of the view. And he opened his beautiful eyes and looked at me, giving me a cute look. "Where'm i?" He asked. And I smiled, answering. "You're at my place again. Don't worry, I'll take care of you, you can sleep here and everything. Just stay here until I tidied the bed." I told him and left to do what I've just told him.
I think I managed to tidy it faster than ever before, but as I went back to get him, he was gone. I worried at first, but then I heard the toilet flush and smiled relieved, going inside the kitchen to put a kettle with water onto the herd to make some tea. Of course it completely startled me as he suddenly came up behind me and hugged me. I think I let out a yelp, but quickly shut up as I realized how hard he was. Trouble!! A horny, drunken straight man!!! Danger!!! I quickly turned around and tried to get the idea out of his head, but he was faster, and kissed me. Hard. I was so startled that I gasped, and he took the opportunity to deepen the kiss. I had to moan, but knew that it couldn't be, that this had to stop. So I Pushed him back forcefully and looked at his eyes. They made me shudder for they were darkened. With lust. Problems ahead.
"Heero, please, don't.." I tried to out-talk him. No luck though.
"don' wha? i've waited fer so long. you' such a nice girrl. be nice t' me. Please." He smiled, and then he kissed me again. Even harder than before. And before I knew what had happened, I found myself on the floor, with Heero on top of me, and I only remember letting out a surprised yelp as he ripped away my shirt and, following closely, my skirt.
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"Ouch.." I was barely able to move as I stood up hours later. Heero had completely blacked out after.. doing the thing he had done. I should have called for help, I should have hit him, done something, but I couldn't. Everytime I tried to get him out of me again, an image of him, smiling, popped up in my mind, and I had to think about everything again. And, although it was a rape, I didn't stop him. I was just grateful that he was drunken enough that he didn't notice that he was fucking a boy, not a girl. I carefully put away all of my ripped clothes and threw them away,exept for the bra. It had stayed intact during the whole thing. As I looked down at the still half-naked Heero sleeping on the kitchen floor, my heart ached, and, after putting on a fresh set of clothes, I carefully carried him to my bed and dressed him in a random pair of jeans. Every step I made hurt like hell, and I just hoped that he wouldn't notice any of the many hickeys he had given me. However, I wasn't sure if I could hide the pain all too well.
He woke up hours after me, groaning louldy. He slowly sat up, rubbing his head, and as he slowly opened his eyes, he blinked as he suddenly saw a mug of tea being held in front of him. I had made a special hangover tea and hoped that a good start into the day would make him forget what had happened yesterday.
"Morning." I smiled. But he didn't smile back. Just giving me this weird look, but he took the mug nevertheless, and a sudden fear overcame me. A fear that he might have remembered what he had seen yesterday. The fear that my little secret might have been discovered. But he said nothing, just drank his tea, definetly lost in thoughts, and I decided to cook something since it had been around lunch already and Heero hadn't had a stomache-turning hangover.
I had a funny feeling when entering the kitchen, memories of yesterday coming back to me quickly, and I shoved the thoughts away, concentrating on surpressing the whimpers of pain that nearly escaped my mouth when doing just a single step. Looking through the cupboard quickly, I realized that I hadn't had a single thing to eat at home. Of course! I hadn't had moved out in the past week, and Hilde always had brought me food, so there was nothing left. Well, I justhad to order something like pizza then. Quickly picking up the phone, I ordered two pizzas and some coke. Just as I was about to hang up, I felt Heero behind me, and a sudden panic overcame me and, out of the shock of yesterday, I turned around and yelped in shock.
"Don't!!" Then I realized what I had said. Smart me. "Don't what?" It started like yesterday, and although I had no reason to, I panicked and broke out in tears, slowly sinking onto the floor and ignoring the pain of my lower section. However, Heero moved with me and knelt in front of me as soon as I had settled down on the floor. Sobbing wildly, I felt one of his arms move gently over my shoulder, and I looked up for just a second, seeing a reassuring smile on his face, and it was all I needed to feel better already, but what made me feel even better than that was that I could throw my arms around him and hug him tight. I sobbed into his shoulder and cried on, and he made no single move, and he didn'tsay anything. He just sat there with me and stroked my back in a soothing gesture.
It was later that I realized my confusement. Either he was such a tender and caring person that he didn't question the reason for my break down, or…
"He- Heero?" I sobbed. And he pulled me away, carefully, as if not daring to make any harsh movements, to look into my eyes. I was a bit surprised as I felt his fingers on my bruise, but I pressed his hand onto my cheek with my own hand, not wanting to lose the feeling. I am plain weird, I know. First I cry because he is there, and then I stop crying because he's still there. Weird me. Anyway, As he didn't answer me but kept looking at me, I sighed deeply beforen daring to ask.
"Do.. do you remember what happened yesterday?" He stopped looking at me and bowed his head. I took it as a yes. But still, I had to be sure if he had remebered … everything. "Heero?" He didn't look up, but pulled back his hand and rested it on his thigh. "Do you.. remember .. anything .. very particular? Any..special detail.. about.. about.. me?" It was hard to bring out since it could mean that I'd lose him forever. But I didn't care right now. I needed to sort it out. And I needed to do that now.
"You're not a girl.." he nearly whispered.And it stabbed my heart, those words. I felt like dieing right now. He sounded so..regretful, as if he was ashamed that he'd ever been around a queer like me. But I was wrong. "..but I've known that since your first hard-on." That comment made all the pain go away from my stabbed heart.He knew!! He had known it!! But..
"Why did you still stay around me, Heero? Why haven't you left me? A ..straight guy like you… " But he shushed me with a very, very gentle kiss. It was more a light brush against my lips with his, but.. anyway… It felt good, and it was enough to make me shut up.
"I was one of those guys who was against homosexuality. I was. But then I met you. You took care of me although you had no idea who I was. You simply didn't care. And so, I said, if he doesn't care, then why should I care if he's male or female? And it worked, for I learned to accept you within this short time we `lived' together. But.." He stopped, bowing his head again, and I lifted his chin with my index finger, noticing that he had tried to hide his tears. I whiped them away as he continued.
"I am sorry, Duo. So terribly sorry. I.. it's so wrong what I've done to you yesterday, so terribly wrong." He stopped talking, sobbing taking over. Great. Now we were both feeling bad. "Heero,…" I couldn't explain, I couldn't tell him how I felt. But then, I thought about it. Had I really minded? Did I really care what had happened? No. I simply accepted it. Yes, that was my answer.
"Heero,I don't mind." He looked up at me, in shock I think. And as I smiled at him, he blinked, definetly not believing what he had heard. "Wh-what?" He asked. And I smiled. "I don't mind what had happened, Heero. I accepted it, and, although it hurt a bit, it was still not an entirely bad feeling." I stopped, thinking about what I had just said. Did that mean that I was a masochist?
Nevertheless, I felt glomped by one happy Heero at the next moment, and I hugged back as hard. We finished our sorting out afterwards, and, in the end, he agreed to stay with me. He started working in a shop around the corner while I deepened my studies as long as he was out. After some month of hard studying, I was offered to study in a high-paid university somewhere far away from this town, and, happily to see the chance, I took the offer and Heero and I moved. And the town was great! They had gay bars, gay cafés and other stuff. And I didn't have to be Duo the little transvestite anymore. I was proud, gay Duo, the soon-to-be famous artist. And I was proud of it.
As strange as it seems, sometimes people manage to sort their problems out easily. And sometimes, although it seems impossible, life treats one real good. Strange things happen all the time. Just like the fact that `boy's don't cry, but, oh boy, believe me, girls do cry after all.
The End
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Ooohhh.. it's finished, horray!!!! A late christmas present for all of you ^^. For now, I'll leave this version, but if really many guys ask me nicely, I might TRY to do a lemonade version ^^. Anyway, speaking of lemon, pleaaaaaaase go visit mediaminer.org and read my story `Sometimes Life Love goes strange ways'. Plllllllzzz. Cuz it's a one-shot and since its NC-17, I couldn't post it on ff.net. So,plz,If ya wanna make me smile , read and review it… thanks guzys.
And now to the final comment of the fic: I hope all of you have enjoyed the way it turned out. As usual, feel free to blame, flame, shout at me, praise, or ban me. Just tell me how you liked it. Thanks. Have a nice day, and, see you at another fic! ^^.
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