Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Helping Hands ❯ Part 12 ( Chapter 12 )

Author's Notes:

 

Well, the usual warnings apply. They are probably OOC. Since they never had sex in the actual series I don't see how we could honestly be expected to keep them in character anyway, but that's just my opinion. Enjoy! Read and review, please.

 

Helping Hands 12

Both boys were dreaming again. Duo was standing in the doorway of a bedroom. Looking around, he recognized the place as a small mountain cabin that they had used several times as a safehouse. His hair was unbound and he was only wearing a pair of boxers. Heero stood before him, with his back to the door, looking down at the queen-size bed that dominated the small room. He was wearing his usual spandex shorts, but without the tank top this time.

Duo sighed softly with longing as he let his eyes roam over Heero's body. Heero started and whirled around to face him, his expression changing from surprise to desire as he took in Duo's appearance. He took a step towards Duo, then stopped and glanced back at the bed before facing him again. "Well?" he said.

Duo leaned against the doorway and smiled slightly at Heero. "Well what, Heero?"

"Aren't you going to...I mean, aren't we going to..." Heero glared at him. "Duo, get over here!"

Duo's small smile grew to one of genuine amusement and Heero's breath caught at his expression, one full of humor, tenderness, and affection. "Nope. I'm not going to make it so easy for you this time, Heero. If you want something from me, you're going to have to ask for it."

Heero forced himself to begin breathing again and thought for a moment. Duo had been the one who risked rejection in the first dream and Heero was risking much less, since he already knew that Duo wanted him. Telling Duo what he wanted would still be difficult for him though, because he wasn't used to people caring about how he felt and what he needed. He wasn't sure he even knew how to express his desires, but, for Duo, he was willing to try. "I...I want..to find out what you taste like," he said hesitantly.

"Anything else?", Duo asked, trying desperately not to let Heero see just how much that statement had affected him.

Heero thought back to something he had read in Katherine's journal. She considered sex, fucking, and making love three different things. Sex, according to her, was simply a physical act, with no emotions involved, and had no place in a relationship. If you were just having sex, then your relationship was over. Fucking was when both people became overwhelmed with desire and they came together with very little tenderness or foreplay. They saw each other, wanted each other, ripped their clothes off, and took what they wanted. Katherine and her husband usually celebrated his homecomings by fucking. Making love was just that, a physical way of expressing your love for another person. Both people gave and received pleasure. Touching, tasting, exploring, finding out what gave the other person the most pleasure, and putting that knowledge to use was making love. After reading Katherine's definitions, Heero had come to the conclusion that Duo had been making love to him in the first dream. He still didn't really know how Duo felt about him, but he did know that he loved Duo. He wanted to make love with Duo and, forgetting again that this was just a dream, he made a decision.

Heero took a deep breath and looked into Duo's eyes, losing himself in them and dropping every single mask and wall he possessed in the process. "Make love with me, Duo," he whispered.

Duo was spellbound as he stared into Heero's eyes and, for the first time, he saw into Heero's soul. So many emotions. How could he have ever thought that Heero was cold and impassive? Desire, need, loneliness, fear, longing, and something that Duo had never thought he would see. Could that really be love?

"You love me, don't you," he said, making it a statement instead of the question he so desperately wanted to ask.

Heero tensed, as though expecting a blow, and then forced himself to relax. He had been thinking that his fear might have been the wrong emotion to act on. Maybe it was time to admit to some of his other emotions and let them guide him. "Hai," he said, never looking away from Duo's eyes.

Duo was stunned . "Oh, God, pinch me, I'm dreaming! On second thought, don't pinch me. I am dreaming and I'd rather not wake up right now. Heero, I..I love you, too, but I never thought you'd admit it, not even in my dreams!" Duo continued talking, babbling actually, but Heero frowned and tuned him out for a moment. There was something off about what Duo had said, something not quite right.

Now that Duo had reminded him, Heero also remembered that this was just a dream. A very large part of him was overjoyed at the dream Duo's confession of love, since he had never expected to hear that either, but..."Wait a minute! Your dreams?"

"Well, yeah. What's your point?" Duo was not exactly happy that his dream Heero was suddenly ignoring him.

"This isn't your dream, it's mine. And since when is a figure in a dream aware that he's in a dream?"

"Huh? Heero, what are you talking about?"

Heero's thoughts were racing. He reviewed everything that had happened since they had arrived at the house and he could only think of one explanation. "Katherine! I know you're behind this dream! I want it stopped right now! Do you hear me? I want out!"

Heero woke up abruptly, to find Katherine standing near his bed. He jumped up and immediately started yelling at her.

Duo, in the next room, woke up extremely confused. He had been having this wonderful dream, and then, all of the sudden, the Heero in his dream had started yelling at Katherine. Actually, he was still yelling at her. Duo could only make out a few of words, but when he heard something about dreams and mind control, he leaped up and ran out of his room. He came to a halt outside Heero's door and paused a moment, before he reached out and slowly turned the doorknob.

Inside the room, Katherine was standing against the far wall, where she could see the door. Heero was pacing back and forth in front of her, still talking, but no longer yelling. She wasn't paying any attention to him, she was busy waiting for Duo to arrive.

When she saw the door inch open, she took that as her cue and interrupted Heero mid-sentence. "Heero, shut up a minute and listen to me. I didn't control your mind. I didn't force you or Duo to say or do anything against your will. I didn't do any of the things you have been accusing me of. I just manipulated your dreams a little so that they weren't nightmares and I linked your dreams with Duo's. I provided the background when your dreams were linked, but everything that happened was entirely your own actions."

Before Heero could respond, the bedroom door slammed open. Duo stood there, staring at Heero with a decidedly predatory expression. "Katherine, are you saying that both Heero and I were present in those two dreams? We both remember what happened?"

"Yes, and yes," she said, nodding and smirking.

"That's all I needed to know. I'll thank you later, now scram." She started laughing, waved at Heero, and vanished.

Heero looked like a deer caught in headlights as he realized that he was now alone with Duo, who hadn't looked away from him since he had opened the door. Duo reached back, shut and locked the door, and then began moving forward, stalking Heero.

"You let me taste you, pleasure you, and told me that you wanted to do the same to me." Duo paced around the room, maneuvering Heero, who moved so that he was continually facing Duo and backing up whenever Duo got close. They both stopped when Heero found himself backed up against the bed, with Duo only a couple of feet away. "You asked me to make love with you. You admitted that you love me and heard me say that I love you. Is that really how you feel, what you want?"

Heero was semi-cornered and Duo, seeing the panic mixed with desire in Heero's eyes, backed off slightly. Duo stared at Heero, willing him to see how much Duo loved and needed him and how much Duo hoped that he felt the same.

Heero hesitated, torn. He was afraid. He was afraid that Duo didn't really love him and afraid of the consequences if he told Duo how he felt. He wasn't dreaming this time and he couldn't pretend that he didn't remember what had happened if Duo didn't react the way he hoped he would. He hadn't really had a chance to process the fact that the dreams might as well have been reality, as far as their actions and reactions to one another were concerned. Ever since the Perfect Soldier had been created, Heero had used the Perfect Soldier to hide his true feelings, especially whenever he was afraid or uncertain. This time, however, he sensed that if let that happen, if he pushed Duo away again, then he might never have another chance to express his love. If he let his fear guide his actions this time, he might lose Duo for good.

Looking into Duo's eyes, he knew that he wanted to be with Duo, for tonight, for tomorrow, and possibly forever. He lost himself again in those deep, violet pools, and, somewhere within their depths, he found the strength to speak his heart. "Ai shiteru, Duo. I need you and, hai, I want to make love with you."

Duo's face grew radiant with joy and he quickly closed the distance between them. One arm wrapped itself around Heero's waist and pulled him close, while his hand reached up, shaking with the strength of his emotions, to caress Heero's face. "Ai shiteru, Heero," he whispered, as his hand moved back to bury itself in Heero's thick hair and their lips met in a tender kiss.

The kiss deepened and became more passionate. Duo explored Heero's mouth with his tongue, caressing and coaxing Heero to respond. Heero was a quick study, and soon, both boys were moaning in pleasure as their tongues dueled leisurely, neither truly attempting to dominate the other, and pausing occasionally to breathe. Heero's arms were wrapped around Duo's waist and he slid his hands down to Duo's hips, pulling him closer, and he began to move his own hips, grinding them together. Duo broke off the kiss with a muffled exclamation and they both stood there for a moment, looking at each other and panting.

"Heero, do you trust me?" Duo asked.

Heero frowned slightly. "I already answered that."

"Yeah, well, humor me and answer it again."

Heero's frown deepened. "Hai, I trust you. Why?"

Duo stepped away from him, breaking their embrace, and looked at him, considering. "You asked me to make love with you and I want to, desperately, but..."

"But what, Duo?" Heero asked impatiently.

"But I want to be the seme," Duo said quietly.

Heero blinked, startled. He hadn't exactly expected Duo's request, but he wasn't really surprised, considering what had happened in the first dream. Duo evidently had knowledge and experience that Heero simply didn't have. He wondered about that, but decided that now wasn't the time to ask. He thought about how much he had enjoyed what Duo had done in the dream and made his choice. "Alright, Duo. We'll do it your way, this time."

"Sugoi! Strip and lie down. I'll be right back." He disappeared into the bathroom before Heero could respond. Heero hesitated a moment and then shrugged. He took off the tank top and spandex he'd been sleeping in and sat down on the edge of the bed.

Duo reentered the room, carrying a couple of towels and some body lotion, and stopped short when he saw Heero sitting on the bed. He simply stood there and stared at Heero, looking him up and down, until Heero couldn't stand it any longer. Flushing slightly, feeling self-conscious, he said, "Stop that and get over here. And this time, those damn boxers are coming off before we do anything else."

Duo grinned and moved to set the towels and lotion on the nightstand by the bed. "Gomen, Heero, but you're just so beautiful, I couldn't help but admire you."

Heero glared at him, but the glare vanished almost immediately and it was his turn to stare in admiration as Duo removed his boxers. "So beautiful," he whispered softly and Duo turned red with embarrassment.

"Um, yeah, thanks, now lie down, Heero."

Heero shook his head. "I want you to do something for me first." Duo, slightly confused, gave him a questioning look. "Will you unbraid your hair for me? I want to see you with your hair loose, like it was in the dream."

It was Duo's turn to hesitate and think over his partner's request. Heero had let down so many walls since they had arrived at this house, letting Duo see the person behind the mask. Duo thought that, while he had taken a wall or two himself, Heero had far surpassed him in that regard. Maybe it was time to make the score a little more even. "Alright, Heero. Since you asked."

Heero laid down and watched, fascinated, as Duo grabbed his hair, removed the tie, and began unraveling the braid. "Wait, Duo. Let me do it?" Duo nodded and joined him on the bed, stretching out on his side next to Heero, who was on his back.

Heero took the braid in his hands and unraveled it slowly, combing his fingers through the silky strands and allowing the luxurious mass to pool on his chest and stomach. Heero continued running his hands through Duo's hair as Duo slowly closed his eyes and began purring in pleasure.

After a time, Duo opened his eyes, raised himself up on one elbow, and reached out a hand to cup Heero's face, running his thumb back and forth over Heero's cheek. "Ai shiteru, Heero," he whispered, “I love you,” and leaned over to kiss him passionately.

Their tongues wrestled with one another for long moments, until they had to break for air. Duo gathered his hair and draped it over his shoulder, allowing the long strands to cover the bed beside them as he moved to cover Heero's body with his own.

After a quick kiss on Heero's lips, Duo began kissing his way down Heero's chest. Heero wrapped Duo's hair around his hand and moaned Duo's name as he paused to swipe his tongue across a nipple, his hand moving to pinch and rub the other one at the same time. With a tiny smile, Duo vowed to himself that, before dawn came, he would see just how loud Heero could get.

He continued kissing and licking his way down Heero's body, pausing again to dip his tongue in Heero's navel. He stopped just above Heero's throbbing erection and looked up, to see Heero panting, his eyes glazed with passion. Heero looked down at him, his hips jerking slightly when Duo wrapped his hand around the base of his arousal. Their eyes locked and Duo slowly lowered his head to take the tip into his mouth.

Heero gasped and arched his back, thrusting himself deeper into the moist heat. Duo had expected this and easily took in more of Heero's length. Heero began thrusting in and out of Duo's mouth and Duo permitted him to for a short time, before he draped an arm across Heero and rested enough of his weight on it to cause Heero to stop. Heero growled at him in frustration and Duo pulled his head away, chuckling in amusement at Heero's reaction.

"Hand me the lotion," he said, still chuckling.

"Iie," Heero said and Duo looked at him, surprised. Heero tugged on the hair wrapped around his hand, pulling Duo up his body. Duo was slightly confused as to what Heero wanted, but he moved willingly, until they were face to face again.

"What is it, koi?" he asked quietly, and Heero's eyes softened at the endearment.

"You...you keep concentrating on me. I want to try to make you feel the things you're making me feel and I want to find out what you taste like," Heero said, with a slightly petulant tone in his voice. Duo grinned and rolled onto his back, beside Heero.

"I'm all yours, koi."

Heero sat up slightly, and turned to look at Duo uncertainly, not sure what to do. Duo reached up a hand to gently caress his face. "Just do what ever you're comfortable with and I'll be happy. Don't push yourself into doing something you don't want to do." Duo grinned at him again. "The mission, in this case, is to make sure we both enjoy ourselves, not to see how much you can make me feel. Okay?"

Heero smiled back at him. "Ninmu ryoukai." He hesitated for a moment longer, thinking. He decided to start by pressing his lips briefly against Duo's, before kissing and nibbling his way down Duo's throat to his chest.

Remembering how good Duo's hand and mouth had felt on his own nipples, he spent long moments toying with Duo's. By the time he resumed trailing a path downward, Duo had buried his hands in Heero's thick hair. He arched his body into the soft caresses of Heero's tongue, moaning with pleasure, as Heero's hands and mouth moved over his skin.

Duo's moans became louder when Heero wrapped his hand around Duo's erection and began to pump it, slowly. He was about to take the head into his mouth, when he noticed a drop of moisture on the tip. He swiped his tongue across it, wringing a strangled cry from Duo, and paused to consider the salty/sweet flavor, although his hand never ceased its movement.

He decided that he liked the taste and wanted more, but..."Duo...does everybody taste different? I know that everybody has a unique scent, so it would follow..."

"HEERO!" Heero, blinked, startled, as Duo, panting, eyes slightly glazed with passion, was somehow managing to glare daggers at him. "Now is not the time to be asking questions like that! Save 'em for later!"

Heero nodded, wide-eyed, and turned his attention back to Duo's arousal. As his lips finally closed around the head, Duo cried out, fighting the urge to thrust himself deeper into Heero's mouth, his hands tightening their grasp on Heero's hair.

Heero's hand moved to cup the sacs beneath the shaft, gently massaging them, doing to Duo what Duo had done to him. His head began to bob up and down, gradually taking in more and more of Duo's length. Heero was easily able to suppress his gag reflex and, fairly soon, he was taking all of Duo into his mouth. It wasn't long before Duo climaxed, calling Heero's name.

Heero had been warned by the tensing of Duo's body, and tried to swallow it all as Duo exploded in his mouth, but some of it escaped him. Duo relaxed, breathing heavily, as Heero swallowed his seed. Heero then began licking up and down Duo's length, lapping up what he had missed, and savoring the taste. He continued licking, sucking, and nibbling until Duo stopped him, pulling him up to lie beside him. "Enough, Heero. You've already gotten me hard again."

Heero lay on his back and Duo rolled onto his side again, leaning down to kiss Heero, tasting himself on Heero's lips. He grabbed the lotion and then moved, repositioning them both, until he was satisfied. Heero was still on his back, a pillow beneath his hips, with his legs spread wide, Duo kneeling between them, his hair moved to the side.

Heero watched as Duo slathered the lotion on his hands and erection before setting the bottle aside. He tensed as Duo reached out both hands, one to wrap around Heero's erection, the other to brush against the tight ring of muscle between his legs.

"Relax, koi. The more you relax, the less pain there will be, and I don't want to hurt you." Heero nodded and made a conscious effort to relax.

Duo's hand, cool and slick from the lotion, began pumping Heero's erection, distracting him as one finger slowly pushed inside him. Heero grimaced slightly and tried to relax some more as Duo worked the finger around, adding a second finger when he felt the muscles loosening. By the time Duo added a third, Heero had forgotten any discomfort and was moaning and moving his hips, thrusting against Duo's hand impatiently.

Duo withdrew from Heero completely and Heero whimpered in protest. Duo draped Heero's legs over his shoulders and leaned forward, raising Heero's hips off of the bed and bending him almost double, while positioning himself at Heero's entrance.

Duo hesitated for a moment and their eyes met. "Don't look away from me or close your eyes. I want to watch you."

"Hai," Heero whispered, and Duo slowly pushed into him, watching carefully for any signs of pain or discomfort. All Heero felt was pleasure and a sense of fullness, the likes of which he had never known before. Duo's fingers hadn't even come close. It felt so good to have Duo filling him, watching him, and to watch the expressions on Duo's face as he buried himself to the hilt inside Heero.

Once they were fully joined, Duo paused to allow Heero a moment to get used to the sensation. Heero lay beneath him, shaking with the intensity of what he was feeling. He moved his hips slightly, and Duo took that as his cue. He began slowly thrusting in and out of Heero, shifting slightly with each thrust until..."Duo!"

Duo grinned. That must be the spot. He thrust again, at the same angle, and Heero moaned loudly, shuddering with pleasure. Duo began thrusting steadily, moving faster and faster, until he was pounding into Heero. Heero reached up to clutch at Duo's arms, steadying himself slightly, as he moved his hips to meet each of Duo's thrusts. Duo's hand wrapped around Heero's erection again and began stroking him in counterpoint to his thrusts.

Heero was lost in sensations, the only stable point in his world was Duo's eyes, still locked with his, as Duo continued to move inside him. The pleasure built until, finally, they both climaxed, screaming one another's names. Duo's movements slowed and then stopped. He let Heero's legs fall off of his shoulders, to either side of him, and he rested for a moment, the two of them still joined.

Heero finally looked away from Duo, to where his own seed had coated them. He reached out a hand and scooped some of it up, bringing it to his mouth to taste. "I do taste different from you. I never tried it before," he said, licking off his hand. He stuck a finger in his mouth and started sucking on it, and then stopped. His eyes widened and he looked at Duo in disbelief. Duo was grinning at him wryly.

"What do you expect, Heero? I've been lusting after you for a hell of a long time."

Heero shook his head and took his finger out of his mouth. "I didn't think you could recover that fast. I get the feeling that I'm really going to have trouble walking tomorrow." Duo burst out laughing and, after a minute, Heero joined him.

Katherine wished that she could laugh, too, but figured that they might be determined enough to find a way to get rid of her permanently if they knew she had been there the whole time. The laughter faded and was soon replaced with moans of pleasure as the two on the bed began moving again. Katherine left the room, happy that they had finally gotten together.

tbc....