Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ His Virgin Angel ❯ Insecurities ( Chapter 5 )

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Summary: Treize had secured his dominance over the younger warrior during Zechs's years in training at the Lake Victoria Base. However, as the young pilot begins to blossom into a handsome young man, Treize's dominance grows to a new level in order to seek full control when Zechs finally comes of age.

I just want to disclaim that no matter how hard I wish I do not own Gundam Wing or any of the characters associated with it.

In this story, Zechs is about…fifteen or sixteen for the first couple of chapters. The chapters switch POV, but it will be stated who the viewpoint is from at the beginning of the chapter.

 

Chapter 5: Insecurities - Zechs

 

I honestly had no real idea of what was going on around me or even where I was for that matter. Yesterday I do not remember feeling this bad…but right now…everything seems so blurry and absolutely ghastly. I was forced to close my eyes to keep the room from spinning, but it still did not help me. My body was shutting down and it was a completely new feeling that I never wished to suffer through again.

 

I never get sick…

 

I can feel my heart beating out of my chest and there is a deep burning pain in my lungs. It hurts so bad to breathe…why is no one helping me? I cannot hear any voices around me…all I hear is the sound of my strained breathing… Is this what it feels like to just want to die? Treize…Treize where are you…why are not you here for me…Treize…I'm always at your side. I push all other away…I could have anyone, but for some reason you're the only one I see.

 

My stomach feels like it is doing flips and twists and with each passing second they get worse and worse. The need to vomit is growing stronger as I attempted to rub my stomach to calm it down. Why isn't it working? Am I not doing it right? I am a failure…I deserve to be sick…and to be kicked out the academy.

 

The bed I am in is so different from the one I usually sleep in…it is so soft and from watch I could see when I had opened my eyes, for just a few short seconds, it was a pretty large size. The bed shifted slightly to my right, letting me know that someone had sat down next to me…Treize.

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“Treize, please help me.” I cried softly, opening my eyes to see that it was indeed him.

 

“Shhh Darling I'm here. You need to relax, the doctor is on his way and he'll help you, I promise.” He assured in that smooth tenor voice.

 

It was him and I was extremely happy to see him. He smiled at me and placed his hand on my cheek.

 

“Your face still feels very warm Sweetie, did you sleep well?” He said as his hand brushed over my cheek.

 

“Treize-“ I rasped as my throat felt horribly dry.

 

“Hush Baby, please lie still…I know your tummy must be hurting because you haven't eaten in a long while, but the more you move the more you make yourself feel worse.”

 

“But it's helping-“

 

“No, no Angel you need to stop. I promise I'll take care of you.” He commanded, yet I refused to stop.

 

“Treize my stomach hurts so bad.” I moaned as I gripped my belly in pain.

 

“Then let me help you Sweetheart.” He said quietly as he shifted on the bed while pulling me in his lap to lie against his chest. “Just let me help you…Trust me.”

 

I could feel his hands push my own away from my stomach. However, they did not leave me like had I expected them to do. He gently rubbed my flat abdomen as he leaned in close to me to whisper soft words of kindness into my ear. He spoke of how special I was to him and how much he wanted to spend time with me, but was always trapped behind his desk. He promised that one day he would get a promotion and be able to spend more time with me…I found myself loving his words more than anything else in the world…I love him…I really think I do. Please let his words come true…Please…

 

The other side of my face rested on him. I tried to calm myself by listening to his heart beat a steady rhythm for me to breathe to. His chest rose and fell at a relaxing pace that told me he was calm and resolved. He knew that I needed him right now and he knew just how to transport me to a world of tranquil bliss. Man of my dreams…

 

“Darling I love you so much. It pains me so to see you like this…” He sighed as he stopped rubbing my stomach to brush my bangs back away from my forehead to place a light kiss there.

 

It was then I began to cry. I felt so weak and embarrassed that I was stuck like this. This was also the most I've probably ever cried in my entire life, and to make matters worse I was crying in front of him…I had always wanted Treize to believe I was strong…but now that was all out the window.

 

“Don't cry Beautiful…you're going to be fine. I'll give you everything you need…I promise you that.”

 

At that comment, I just whimpered and buried my face into his chest to hide my tears from him. I felt like a child in his arms and to be honest I felt like I was never going to be fine. I was in so much pain and I felt so horrible. All the while, his hands rubbed my back as I cried, and it only made things worse. I did not want him to see me like this, and the fact that he did not care that I was exposing my weakness made me feel even more like a stupid child. I needed to be strong for him, and right now, I could not even do that simple thing.

 

I didn't want him to touch me…his hands, though reassuring, made me feel even more insecure with myself…

 

“Stop it…” I mumbled, only half wanting him to hear me.

 

“What was that Little One?” He growled lightly, he had obviously heard me…he just wanted to be sure in his assumption.

 

“You're making me feel worse-“

 

 

I regretted it as soon as it came out of my mouth. I could feel him tense up and I knew he was bottling up the anger he felt towards me. Here he was…at my side, comforting me with all his heart…and I tell him to stop touching me.

 

“Treize I didn't mean it the way it sounded…” I tried to explain, but I already knew that the damage had been done.

 

He removed his hands from my body and slid out from under me. I knew he was going to do something like this as soon as I had spoken those words. I seemed to always love to take things I say to an extreme, almost to teach me a lesson on who was really in charge of the situation…

 

“Treize, don't do this to me now.”

 

“I'm simply doing what you asked-“

 

I grabbed the light grey fabric of his shirt as he moved to get off the bed. With my eyes, I pleaded with him. We stared at each other for a long moment. I refused to break eye contact; I needed him here with me. I could see his resolve lessening, but as I was drawing close to winning, I had to break away…once again my body wanted to remind me that I was indeed still very ill. I was overcame by a terrible coughing fit that ended up working in my favor…drawing Treize back into bed with me. He was seated securely at my side, once again rubbing my back. It seemed to take forever for my coughing to stop, but all the while he stayed by me.

 

“I'm sorry…I wasn't thinking…I'm really sorry Treize-“ I mumbled after my attack.

 

“Shhh, I know I know. Let's just try from now on to think before we say things…does that sound nice Darling?”

 

Before I could answer I felt myself drifting off again. I simply nodded and settled myself against his side…his muscles were surprisingly nice to lay on…

 

“Please love me Treize…”

 

“In time you will see how much I really love you my Virgin Angel.”

 

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