Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ I am your Beloved ❯ Revealed ( Chapter 1 )

I am your Beloved. (sequel to My Beloved)

by Lady Dragon

/.../ Denotes thoughts

/I did this. I caused this pain in my chest to grow and fester till it threatens to consume everything I hold dear, everything I love. At first it was a nescisary part of me, it kept me safe during battle when all the sane people would have cringed and fainted away at the horrors of death and war. It was my mask, allowing me to put forth a pleasing grin and a twinkle in everyone's eyes. What I never knew was that it could be a double-edged sword. One that I have yet to master.

The others are worried, they think we've had some sort of row. I can hear them in the den, forcing laughter at the inane comedy currently occupying their attention. They wonder why I dont enter the den and join in, adding my own blen of redundent chatter, increasing to insanity level. But I cant. Thats to much like what I said to you. Heero, I never meant to hurt you. I thought I was protecting you. All who have ever dared to love me have died, all who I have ever dared to love have died. I could not let you suffer that same fate. Shinigami will not let you live, not if your feelings are that of the purest quality, not if they are directed to me.

I hurt you, the last thing I ever wanted to do, but I did it anyway ne Hee-chan? Prussian blue locked with amethyst in a cold and dead gaze when I told you that I thought you were nothing but trash, when I said you were a sick freak. I called you a killing machine, nothing but a goddamn perfect solider. Those tears, they should have told me to stop, should have told me I had acomplished my task, but Shinigami wouldn't let me stop. Shinigami has protected me in battle for so long, allowed me to fight you have never mocked my mask so why did I laugh at you, why did I allow that light, that glimmer to fade from your eyes. The look in those eyes when I left the room, the deadness the glacial emptyness of them, they will haunt me for the rest of my life./

Another burst of laughter issued forth from the den, had Duo not been so deeply sunk in his depresion he would have been shocked to hear Trowa laughing aloud. He had been sitting in the kitchen for close to an hour now and still there was sound from upstairs, no indication that his love was even in the house, let alone heart broken. Had he recoverd already? he wondered. An icy feeling crawled down his spine as fear knotted his stomache. Something was wrong it said, something was terribly wrong. Jumping from his seat at the kitchen table Duo Maxwell sprinted out and intot he hall, dashing past the den and his friend's laughter. Dimly he heard their cries of exclimation and worry but he shoved it aside, his focus was the safety of his precious Hee-chan, their questions could be answered later. After Heero was safe in his arms, after he had kissed away the pain, after he brought that light back into his love's eyes.

TBC

Okay sorry ta leave you all hanging and all but my muse decided to go AWOL o.O Please review and tell me if I should even continue this.