Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ I'll Do It On My Own ❯ One-Shot

A/N: Thoughts are shown like this 'thoughts' Lyrics are shown like this ***lyrics***

***He had something to confess to, but you don't have the time so, look the other way.
You will wait until it's over: to reveal what you'd never shown him too little much too late
Too long trying to resist it, you've just gone and missed it,
It's escaped your world***

Duo walked into Heero's room to find the stoic pilot typing on his laptop.

"Uh, Heero?" getting no response he continued anyway "Can I talk to you for a moment?"

Without even turning from his laptop the wing pilot just nodded slightly.

"It's just, I um, I wanted to.." breaking off he tried again "What I mean is.." This time he was cut off.

"Duo, either tell me what you're trying to or leave so I can finish this mission report."

Keeping his voice from wavering the braided pilot answered that he'd leave, the hurt shining in his violet eyes. Watching the leaving boy in the reflection of his laptop, Heero sighed gently. 'One day Duo, one day when this war ends.'

***Can you see that I am needing, begging for so much more than you could ever give
And I don't want you to adore me,
Don't want you to ignore me when it pleases you, yeah

And, I'll do it on my own

I have played in every toilet, but you still want to spoil it, to prove I've made a big mistake
Too long trying to resist it, you've just gone and missed it,
It's escaped your world***

After leaving Heero's room, Duo broke into a run, tears shining in his eyes that he refused to allow to fall. He burst through the door of the safe house, his thoughts tumbling together faster and faster with his speed mimicking them.

'Why can't I tell him? Why won't he ever just let me tell him? He cares more about that laptop and the missions than he ever will about me. At best he sees me as his comrade, the rest of the times I'm ignored. How come he can so easily toss me aside? Well not anymore, I'm fed up with trying to get him to notice me. I'll just carry on by myself, the way I always used to'

With an eerie sense of calm, Duo walked back to the safe house, following the twists and turns he had run through earlier. Opening the door to his room he packed his meagre belongings numbly. It was too painful being around Heero enduring being ignored.

***Can you see that I am needing, begging for so much more than you could ever give
And I don't want you to adore me,

Don't want you to ignore me when it pleases you yeah..
So I'll do it on my own and I'll do it by myself
You will never make it***

Waiting until night when the other pilots had fallen asleep, Duo collected what he'd packed and slipped out the door. He hated the idea of the others thinking he had deserted them but ultimately this would prove to be for the best. He glanced back wistfully at the safe house and one room in particular, imagining what could have been. Gasping, he thought he saw the outline of someone standing by the window almost beckoning him back but by the time he thought to do anything about it the image was gone, leaving a shadowy blackness where it had been. Turning back he continued walking away only now letting the tears fall.

'I'll make it on my own'