Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ If Only You Knew ❯ If Only You Knew ( One-Shot )

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I stand here and look at the pictures and portraits of my ancestors. Sometimes, I wonder if anything I’ve done has made them proud of me. Or if they’re even able to see what I’ve done. Maybe there is no after life. Maybe, once you’re gone you’re just dead.

But, I can’t believe that. I have to believe that they’re proud of me. And I have to believe it so much that I have to deny myself the one that I really love. It’s been a long time since Heero and I were actually married. Duo came to the wedding and, of course, I snubbed him. But, he’s the one that I really love. I thought it would go away. That I wouldn’t love an orphan, that I wouldn’t love someone who so blatantly called himself Shinigami. There is no end to the war with someone like Duo. But, I love him…

How can I have married Heero when I love someone else? We have a son together, but lately our love life hasn’t been very good. It’s my fault, I know it is. If only you knew, Heero. But, I’m glad that you don’t. If you did…you’d probably be hurt and angry and go after Duo. And Duo has done nothing wrong. It’s me. I’m the one committing adultery of the heart. Adultery of the mind. How long can I stand not to give in to my mind and heart?

Not very long. Duo comes over a lot and while I still try to snub him, I think he realizes what I’ve been trying to hide all this time. I don’t know if he feels the same, but some of the jokes that he’s starting to make show me that he might know more than he’s letting on to Heero. Perhaps that’s his aim, to make me sweat. To get back at me for all of the times that I snubbed him and all of the times that I made fun of him or looked down on him.

As of late, he’s taken to jokingly kissing my cheek and then I have to reprimand him, but I’m running out of things to say. And, Heero glares at Duo whenever he does that. So, I know that I have to say something, I can’t just pretend that it’s alright.

I love it when he kisses my cheek, even though I know he’s just doing it to show me that he knows or he’s just doing it to make Heero angry or make myself angry. But, there’s nothing that can really be done. He comes over uninvited sometimes, but sometimes Heero does invite him.

But…how long until Heero is gone and I invite Duo over myself…..?