Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Lights, Camera, Action! ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )
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By: Jadeduo 
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Drama / Romance / Angst | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 09.06.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 470 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Drama / Romance / Angst | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 09.06.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 470 | Status: Completed
Title: Lights, Camera, Action! 5/14+
Author: Jadeduo
Pairings: 2x1x2, 3x4, 5xS, R+1 one-sided
Warnings: yaoi, romance, angst, language, lemon, Relena bashing
Rating: R - NC-17
Disclaimer: None of the boys are mine . . . Only in my dreams . . . So don't sue all you'll get is a very beat up manga collection.
Lights, Camera, Action! - Part 5
Heero stood in front of Duo's door with breakfast, working up the courage to knock; to do anything to alert Duo to his presence, but he just couldn't work up the courage to do so. He couldn't risk being rejected. He didn't think his heart could take it. But, he knew with the way he had treated Duo, he deserved no such chance.
The vibrant person that was his love had been damaged by him. He wasn't even sure that Duo would ever even trust him again. He realized now that leaving after telling Duo he loved him was stupid idea, but, who isn't stupid in love, he thought.
*****
Duo just sat there after the phone conversation with Quatre, wondering what the hell was going on. When he got up this morning, he didn't even want to get out of bed, but he knew if he didn't call Quatre soon, he would be visited by one very irate Quatre mother-henning him to death. He didn't expect to hear that Quatre had gone and confronted Heero on his behalf. Granted, he'd been wanting to find Heero ever since he left to give him a piece of his mind - the dolt. But, when Heero finally showed up, he was afraid to say anything, because there was absolutely nothing coming off of Heero; no hurt, jealousy, love, nothing at all, but friendship.
No! How could Quatre get his hopes up like that? There was no way Heero would still love him. He was a different person from whom he was then. Completely and utterly different. Heero Yuy wasn't there any more; all that was left was an empty shell.
Duo decided he would let Heero say what he had to say, but that was it. There was no way he was going to get hurt like that again. Duo Maxwell was not some weak woman who would fall into the arms of his Prince when he deigned to return. Yet another part of him was screaming "Yes! Yes! Yes! I still love him. He still loves me!"
*****
~All right Yuy,~ Heero thought to himself. ~It's time to buck up, and take it like a man.~ Duo wouldn't hurt him. Or would he?
Knock! Knock! Knock! Heero took a deep breath, and Duo opened the door . . .
*****
Knock! Knock! Knock! Duo knew that that had to be Heero. It was then that he hesitated. Was he really ready to deal with Heero, even after all this time? After all the heartbreak he'd dealt with these past five years, Duo then knew he at least wanted an explanation. A good one - or not. It didn't matter now as long as he had one.
*****
When the door swung open, they both just stood there staring at each other, until Duo noticed the bag.
"Umm, uh, hi Heero! What's in the bag?"
"Oh, um, your breakfast."
Duo blushed. "Oh! Um, thanks. Why don't we take this inside? I'll put breakfast away first, and then we can talk, because I'm not going to be able to eat until we do." Duo took the bag and ran to put it in the kitchen, allowing Heero into his apartment. Duo called from the kitchen, "Heero! Do you want some coffee? You know if I don't have my morning coffee, I'm a monster."
"No thanks, Duo, I had mine already."
"Um, so, you can sit down at the table. I'll be out in a minute. Then, I want some answers," Duo said, in a tone that broached no argument. Heero sat at the table and waited for Duo. On the outside, Heero looked fine; inside, he was panicking. This was not how he expected things to go. That's when Duo walked into the dining area with a large mug of coffee. He turned to sit in the chair across from Heero, took a large sip of coffee, and said one word. "Start."
*****
"All right, Duo, if this is how you want it to be." Duo nodded and looked straight at Heero.
"You will tell me everything, and then you will go. I'll make a decision after I've had time to digest what you will say. So, choose your words carefully, Heero. I'm telling you this because this is your last chance to make things right with me. Now, please continue." Heero gulped and started his story.
"The night I left I was at my rope's end. I'd spent so much time trying to find something I could be good at besides killing that I didn't know what to do anymore. All I knew for sure was that I was taking advantage of you, and I couldn't live with myself if I was. I needed to feel useful. I needed to feel like I was doing something other than being a housewife. I also thought that I didn't deserve you; that I couldn't ever be as open or as cheery as you. I could never live up to your expectations of me. I didn't think I was capable of such unguarded emotion.
"God, Duo, you have no idea how much I loved you. I love you. I still love you. Every day, I think back on that day, and I regret it. I think of how tenderly you made love to me, and how you told me every day that you loved me. I know that I can never have that back now; that I've ruined it, but I think on those times as the happiest in my life. I was misguided, only thinking that you saw something in me that I didn't see in myself. When in fact, I know now that you loved me for whom I was then, with all of my faults and foibles.
"So, anyway, that night after we went to bed, I laid there and watched you sleep. You are such an angel when you sleep, Duo. I couldn't stop staring at you. But it was then, watching you sleep that night, that I made the decision to stop being a burden to you and leave. I had actually thought about leaving before, but I could never find the nerve. When you told me every morning that you wanted me there and that you loved me, I never could get the courage, but that morning I had resolved myself. I made it my mission.
"To say goodbye, I made your favourite meal, and watched you while you ate, never actually eating much. I guess you didn't notice. I just wanted to have my last memory of you as a happy one. That's why I left the way I did. I wanted you to know that I love you. I wanted you to hear it from my lips, but at the time, I wouldn't have been able to say them to your face. So, I left the note thinking that at least you would know that this emotionless soldier had come to love you more than anything he had ever known.
"After that, I moved to Earth, going to LA, thinking the warm climate would be okay if I couldn't find anything or anywhere to go to. I was so miserable those days. I never did much, I just kind of drifted around, and then one day, I ran into a talent agent, and he said I had the look of a model. I didn't believe him, so I did some research, and got myself an agency. That's when the modeling started, and the acting followed.
"Duo, all those tabloids you've read, all the reports that say I sleep around, aren't true. I've been faithful to you for five years. The reports are fabricated and the pictures doctored. It's to keep people from thinking I'm some kind of weird hermit, because I spend most of my time at home alone. I have a few friends, but none of them as close as we were with the other guys. Actually, you wouldn't believe it, but I have a hobby - I grow bonsai trees.
"Duo, I know that I've made an infinite amount of mistakes when it comes to you, and I won't be so bold to ask for your forgiveness. But I want to let you know that I love you with all of my heart, and that I can finally say it to your face without having a conniption fit. I just wanted to tell you why, and say that I am sorry that I've hurt you almost beyond repair. If you can ever find it in your heart to forgive me and give me another chance, just go to the Park hotel, and ask to see Ni Maxwell and they will let you up to the penthouse. Duo, I love you. Ai shiteru zutto." Heero looked into Duo's eyes one last time, hoping it wouldn't be the last, and left.
*****
*Ring, ring, ring,* "Winner residence."
"May I speak with Quatre?"
"Yes, Mr. Yuy, he's been expecting your call. I'll put you right through."
"Heero! How'd it go?"
"Whoa, Quatre! I don't know. He told me he would listen to what I had to say, but he wouldn't promise me anything beyond that. It was so frightening, Quatre. He put the same emotionless mask on that I used in the war. I guess I did teach him something about masking his emotions from others, ne?"
"Well, were you honest with him about everything?"
"Yes, I told him everything - even that I love him."
"Good. Then give him time. I'm sure he'll call me, and I'll help him along. But Heero, this is important. If he agrees to take you back, you are going to have to build his trust back. You will have to go slow. No jumping into bed with him right away. That will only hurt you both. Rebuild that emotional foundation you had five years ago, and then make sure he knows that this, you being together, is a permanent thing. Do you understand, Heero?"
"Yes, Quatre .I will do whatever it takes to get him back, and if going slow is what it will take, I will do it."
"All right, Heero. I better keep my phone lines open for Duo. Try not to drive yourself crazy with worry."
"Okay, goodbye, Quatre."
"Bye Heero!"
*****
Little One,
I'm glad things are going well with Heero and Duo. They both deserve some happiness. I hope that Duo can forgive Heero for abandoning him, but he should think long and hard about it before he makes any kind of decision. And Quatre, I know you will haul my ass back there if there's any trouble, but I just want to make sure you do. Please, let me know how everyone is doing, and make sure that this works out for everyone. Now that Heero is back, maybe we can all get together like we used to. Those were fun times. Well, I've got to get back to work. That sister-in-law of yours is a slave driver!
Love,
Trowa
Author: Jadeduo
Pairings: 2x1x2, 3x4, 5xS, R+1 one-sided
Warnings: yaoi, romance, angst, language, lemon, Relena bashing
Rating: R - NC-17
Disclaimer: None of the boys are mine . . . Only in my dreams . . . So don't sue all you'll get is a very beat up manga collection.
Lights, Camera, Action! - Part 5
Heero stood in front of Duo's door with breakfast, working up the courage to knock; to do anything to alert Duo to his presence, but he just couldn't work up the courage to do so. He couldn't risk being rejected. He didn't think his heart could take it. But, he knew with the way he had treated Duo, he deserved no such chance.
The vibrant person that was his love had been damaged by him. He wasn't even sure that Duo would ever even trust him again. He realized now that leaving after telling Duo he loved him was stupid idea, but, who isn't stupid in love, he thought.
*****
Duo just sat there after the phone conversation with Quatre, wondering what the hell was going on. When he got up this morning, he didn't even want to get out of bed, but he knew if he didn't call Quatre soon, he would be visited by one very irate Quatre mother-henning him to death. He didn't expect to hear that Quatre had gone and confronted Heero on his behalf. Granted, he'd been wanting to find Heero ever since he left to give him a piece of his mind - the dolt. But, when Heero finally showed up, he was afraid to say anything, because there was absolutely nothing coming off of Heero; no hurt, jealousy, love, nothing at all, but friendship.
No! How could Quatre get his hopes up like that? There was no way Heero would still love him. He was a different person from whom he was then. Completely and utterly different. Heero Yuy wasn't there any more; all that was left was an empty shell.
Duo decided he would let Heero say what he had to say, but that was it. There was no way he was going to get hurt like that again. Duo Maxwell was not some weak woman who would fall into the arms of his Prince when he deigned to return. Yet another part of him was screaming "Yes! Yes! Yes! I still love him. He still loves me!"
*****
~All right Yuy,~ Heero thought to himself. ~It's time to buck up, and take it like a man.~ Duo wouldn't hurt him. Or would he?
Knock! Knock! Knock! Heero took a deep breath, and Duo opened the door . . .
*****
Knock! Knock! Knock! Duo knew that that had to be Heero. It was then that he hesitated. Was he really ready to deal with Heero, even after all this time? After all the heartbreak he'd dealt with these past five years, Duo then knew he at least wanted an explanation. A good one - or not. It didn't matter now as long as he had one.
*****
When the door swung open, they both just stood there staring at each other, until Duo noticed the bag.
"Umm, uh, hi Heero! What's in the bag?"
"Oh, um, your breakfast."
Duo blushed. "Oh! Um, thanks. Why don't we take this inside? I'll put breakfast away first, and then we can talk, because I'm not going to be able to eat until we do." Duo took the bag and ran to put it in the kitchen, allowing Heero into his apartment. Duo called from the kitchen, "Heero! Do you want some coffee? You know if I don't have my morning coffee, I'm a monster."
"No thanks, Duo, I had mine already."
"Um, so, you can sit down at the table. I'll be out in a minute. Then, I want some answers," Duo said, in a tone that broached no argument. Heero sat at the table and waited for Duo. On the outside, Heero looked fine; inside, he was panicking. This was not how he expected things to go. That's when Duo walked into the dining area with a large mug of coffee. He turned to sit in the chair across from Heero, took a large sip of coffee, and said one word. "Start."
*****
"All right, Duo, if this is how you want it to be." Duo nodded and looked straight at Heero.
"You will tell me everything, and then you will go. I'll make a decision after I've had time to digest what you will say. So, choose your words carefully, Heero. I'm telling you this because this is your last chance to make things right with me. Now, please continue." Heero gulped and started his story.
"The night I left I was at my rope's end. I'd spent so much time trying to find something I could be good at besides killing that I didn't know what to do anymore. All I knew for sure was that I was taking advantage of you, and I couldn't live with myself if I was. I needed to feel useful. I needed to feel like I was doing something other than being a housewife. I also thought that I didn't deserve you; that I couldn't ever be as open or as cheery as you. I could never live up to your expectations of me. I didn't think I was capable of such unguarded emotion.
"God, Duo, you have no idea how much I loved you. I love you. I still love you. Every day, I think back on that day, and I regret it. I think of how tenderly you made love to me, and how you told me every day that you loved me. I know that I can never have that back now; that I've ruined it, but I think on those times as the happiest in my life. I was misguided, only thinking that you saw something in me that I didn't see in myself. When in fact, I know now that you loved me for whom I was then, with all of my faults and foibles.
"So, anyway, that night after we went to bed, I laid there and watched you sleep. You are such an angel when you sleep, Duo. I couldn't stop staring at you. But it was then, watching you sleep that night, that I made the decision to stop being a burden to you and leave. I had actually thought about leaving before, but I could never find the nerve. When you told me every morning that you wanted me there and that you loved me, I never could get the courage, but that morning I had resolved myself. I made it my mission.
"To say goodbye, I made your favourite meal, and watched you while you ate, never actually eating much. I guess you didn't notice. I just wanted to have my last memory of you as a happy one. That's why I left the way I did. I wanted you to know that I love you. I wanted you to hear it from my lips, but at the time, I wouldn't have been able to say them to your face. So, I left the note thinking that at least you would know that this emotionless soldier had come to love you more than anything he had ever known.
"After that, I moved to Earth, going to LA, thinking the warm climate would be okay if I couldn't find anything or anywhere to go to. I was so miserable those days. I never did much, I just kind of drifted around, and then one day, I ran into a talent agent, and he said I had the look of a model. I didn't believe him, so I did some research, and got myself an agency. That's when the modeling started, and the acting followed.
"Duo, all those tabloids you've read, all the reports that say I sleep around, aren't true. I've been faithful to you for five years. The reports are fabricated and the pictures doctored. It's to keep people from thinking I'm some kind of weird hermit, because I spend most of my time at home alone. I have a few friends, but none of them as close as we were with the other guys. Actually, you wouldn't believe it, but I have a hobby - I grow bonsai trees.
"Duo, I know that I've made an infinite amount of mistakes when it comes to you, and I won't be so bold to ask for your forgiveness. But I want to let you know that I love you with all of my heart, and that I can finally say it to your face without having a conniption fit. I just wanted to tell you why, and say that I am sorry that I've hurt you almost beyond repair. If you can ever find it in your heart to forgive me and give me another chance, just go to the Park hotel, and ask to see Ni Maxwell and they will let you up to the penthouse. Duo, I love you. Ai shiteru zutto." Heero looked into Duo's eyes one last time, hoping it wouldn't be the last, and left.
*****
*Ring, ring, ring,* "Winner residence."
"May I speak with Quatre?"
"Yes, Mr. Yuy, he's been expecting your call. I'll put you right through."
"Heero! How'd it go?"
"Whoa, Quatre! I don't know. He told me he would listen to what I had to say, but he wouldn't promise me anything beyond that. It was so frightening, Quatre. He put the same emotionless mask on that I used in the war. I guess I did teach him something about masking his emotions from others, ne?"
"Well, were you honest with him about everything?"
"Yes, I told him everything - even that I love him."
"Good. Then give him time. I'm sure he'll call me, and I'll help him along. But Heero, this is important. If he agrees to take you back, you are going to have to build his trust back. You will have to go slow. No jumping into bed with him right away. That will only hurt you both. Rebuild that emotional foundation you had five years ago, and then make sure he knows that this, you being together, is a permanent thing. Do you understand, Heero?"
"Yes, Quatre .I will do whatever it takes to get him back, and if going slow is what it will take, I will do it."
"All right, Heero. I better keep my phone lines open for Duo. Try not to drive yourself crazy with worry."
"Okay, goodbye, Quatre."
"Bye Heero!"
*****
Little One,
I'm glad things are going well with Heero and Duo. They both deserve some happiness. I hope that Duo can forgive Heero for abandoning him, but he should think long and hard about it before he makes any kind of decision. And Quatre, I know you will haul my ass back there if there's any trouble, but I just want to make sure you do. Please, let me know how everyone is doing, and make sure that this works out for everyone. Now that Heero is back, maybe we can all get together like we used to. Those were fun times. Well, I've got to get back to work. That sister-in-law of yours is a slave driver!
Love,
Trowa