Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Lights, Camera, Action! ❯ Chapter 6 ( Chapter 6 )
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By: Jadeduo 
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Drama / Romance / Angst | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 09.06.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.2K | Visits: 450 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Drama / Romance / Angst | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 09.06.2003 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.2K | Visits: 450 | Status: Completed
Title: Lights, Camera, Action! 6/12+
Author: Jadeduo
Pairings: 2x1x2, 3x4, 5xS, R+1 one-sided
Warnings: yaoi, romance, angst, language, lemon, Relena bashing
Rating: R - NC-17
Disclaimer: None of the boys are mine... Only in my dreams... So don't sue all you'll get is a very beat up manga collection.
Notes: Thanks so much to Izora Jade for the beta read! *smiles and waves at Izora Jade* I only hope that it helps my rather incoherent fics... *grumbles about lousy typing skills* Well thanks so much for dropping by to read! Now on with the next part!
Lights, Camera, Action! - Part 6
Duo sat there at the kitchen table, stunned at Heero's revelations. He just sat there and stared into space, thinking. One thought that came to mind the most was, "Damn..." He didn't know what he was going to do with this revelation, but he would have to do something. As much as he wanted to leave Heero dangling on a hook, he knew he couldn't. He would set ground rules, and force Heero to gain his trust again.
There was really one major problem, though. Heero was an actor with a bit of a playboy reputation. They would definitely have to hide their relationship. As much as he enjoyed public displays of affection before, he didn't have that luxury anymore. He decided that he would think this whole thing through over breakfast, and come up with a plan...
*****
"Alright, Heero. This is how it's going to be. First, I'm going to tell you exactly how much you screwed up, and then I will tell you how you can fix it. Then, if you can still promise to follow through on everything, then, and only then, will I allow you back into my life. If you so much as screw up once on any of the things that I ask of you, you will never see me again. We will sever all contact, and no matter how hard you look, you won't find me. It doesn't matter how much I love you. It doesn't matter how much it will affect me. I can't afford to open myself up to you; this is your second and last chance with me. Now, do you agree to my terms? Do you agree not to interrupt me while I am speaking? Do you agree to respect me, until I lay out everything for you, including the ground rules and our past for you?"
Heero looked back at Duo with shock. He had never seen Duo this determined. Hell, he'd never seen Duo so serious...! This was a side to Duo he'd never thought he would see; a side he didn't think Duo had. He knew at that moment, that if he screwed this up, he would lose Duo forever.
Heero swallowed and answered. "Yes, Duo, I promise that I will do all that's in my power not to screw this up for you, or us." Duo nodded and began his story, telling Heero exactly what happened five years ago...
*****
"That day five years ago, could have been one of the happiest days of my life. Breakfast that morning was like a wonderful treat. I didn't know why you made it special for me. Usually, you would only make pancakes on the weekends, but I know now why you did it.
"Anyways, it was turning out to be a great day - the salvage yard had just landed a huge contract, giving us the chance to finally financially secure our future. With our secured financial success, I decided that I would finally be able to provide for the man I loved, and it wouldn't matter if he ever found a job. Hell, it wouldn't have mattered if you ever worked again. So, I went out shopping with Hilde for an engagement ring." Duo looked Heero straight in the eye when he said this. "Heero, I was going to ask you to marry me when I returned home that evening."
Heero paled at this revelation, realizing then just how much he had screwed up. Duo continued. "Heero, I wanted to give you everything that you had been denied in childhood. Everything I had been denied in childhood. A home, someone to come home to everyday for the rest of our lives, but I guess things just weren't meant to be. When I came home and you were gone, I was at a loss. I didn't know what to think. I just sort of collapsed there in the middle of the living room. I closed everything, everyone, off. I stopped doing the things I usually do.
"I stopped eating after everything you left was gone, because I didn't have the energy to do anything with you gone. I probably would have stopped eating the day you left, but I wanted to have that small part of you that you left behind, even if it was only your cooking. Heero, I even stopped working, because I couldn't bear to face Hilde and everyone's sympathetic looks. I was a mess. After Hilde realized I hadn't left my apartment in over a week, she called the guys.
"Quatre flew right over with Trowa and Wufei. As they suspected, I was either suicidal, or was damn well close. To this day, I don't know exactly what they found, and they won't tell me either - just some sketchy details. What he tells me is that he called my apartment after they arrived on L2 to tell me he was coming, and when I didn't answer they rushed over. Quatre kept calling when he noticed the jeep still in the lot, and was worried when I wouldn't answer the phone. So, he had the guys break down the door. Quatre was the first to find me. Apparently, I slit my wrists and left a suicide note in my own blood. Quatre won't tell me what it said and neither will the guys, and I sure as hell can't remember what I wrote, but oh well.
"I was in the L2 hospital for two months, on a very high dosage of anti-depressants. Trowa stood by me the whole time, helping me get better, while Quatre and Wufei would fly in on weekends to cheer me up. After the doctors let me out, we decided that it would be best if I left L2, and so the guys moved me here to L4. I left the salvage yard in Hilde's capable hands, and I have been a silent partner ever since. I also work as the head of charitable funding at WEI, because after months of going batty trying to find something to do, Quatre found this position for me. It is one of the most rewarding things in my life, and I will probably never give it up. I am a well man now. I don't need your help. I am independent, and the only thing you can offer me is your love and yourself, so don't go into this thinking you can buy my love, because you can't." At that moment, Heero looked like he wanted to say something, but Duo stopped him with a look.
"Now, for my conditions, Heero, I am an important man now, and because of my position, I must be very aware of who I associate with. Because of this fact, we are going to have to take things very slowly. Granted, it's not only because of my position that we are going to go slow. It is because I can no longer trust you fully as I once had. I can't just jump into bed with you, no matter how much you tempt me. You have to first earn my trust, and you can do this by following my steps, and listening to me when I tell you that we are going too fast. Keep in mind that I will be deciding how far and how fast our relationship goes. The sex can wait. I want to build a trusting relationship that we can build a future with.
"The first step will be going out with the guys as friends. This step is necessary so we can get to know each other again. I'm sure that we have both changed a lot in these past few years. The second step will be double dating, most likely with Wufei and Sally since Trowa is out of town at the moment. This step is so we can get to know each other romantically, while trying to build the trust a good relationship is based on. The last step is actual dating each other with the understanding that what ever happens is entirely up to me. Whatever happens, or doesn't happen, is entirely up to me, and if you so much as step outside the bounds... it's over. The last and final condition I have is that you do whatever it takes to keep this out of the press. I realize that this will be difficult, due to your position and mine. But, you need to keep your name out of it as long as humanly possible.
"If you meet all of these qualifications, and you decide that I am the person that you want to spend the rest of your life with, that I am the one you will marry, you may propose to me, but it is up to me whether to accept or not. Heero, do you understand what has happened between us? Do understand what my terms are, and agree to them?
Heero sat there stunned. He didn't know what to say. Then, it hit him fully... Duo loved him! Duo was willing to give him a chance, which he did not deserve under any circumstances. All he would have to do was earn Duo's trust again. And by doing this, he would show Duo how much he loved him; how much he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him.
With those thoughts, Heero hesitantly responded to Duo's long narrative. "Duo, I know that I screwed up with you. God, do I know that now. And I can't tell you how much it means to me that you are giving me this chance. I will do everything you ask, and I will regain all your trust. Consider this my new mission. I love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I will marry you. Ai shiteru, zutto eien ni. But, before we begin, I need to ask you one thing, before we start the friends stage."
"What is it Heero?"
Heero blushed. "May I kiss you?"
Duo chuckled. "Yes, you may, Heero."
Heero walked over to Duo and kissed him. It wasn't passionate, nor was it exactly chaste. It spoke of the volume of feelings these two people held for each other. Despite all of the hurt, despite all the bad blood between them, they still loved each other from the bottom of their souls.
*****
After their almost soul-shattering kiss, Duo left, because he had work in the morning, "Whether Quatre liked it or not!" So, with Quatre on his mind, Heero called Quatre on his private line.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Quatre!"
"Hi, Heero! So, I take it Duo dropped by."
"Yes, and he's going to give me a second chance!"
"Oh, Heero, that's wonderful! Tell me all the details."
Heero told Quatre everything, describing in minute detail everything that took place. He noticed how surprised Quatre was when he told him about how methodical Duo had been. As the conversation wound down, Heero felt much better about the whole situation, knowing he had the full support of the guys behind him in his attempt to win back Duo, as long as he didn't hurt him.
"Heero, it's been great talking to you, but I still have several phone calls to make. Money never sleeps!"
Heero retorted. "Hn! But, Trowa does!" With that, he hung up leaving behind a very amused Quatre.
*****
Trowa-love,
Things are working out for the best here. Duo agreed to take Heero back, but only if he followed "the rules." Don't ask. I think he just wants to make sure that Heero is sincere in his intentions towards him. I, however, never thought that Duo could be so practical. I guess when you've been burned by love once, you learn to be cautious. I do hope everything works out for them in the end. I just love Autumn weddings... I know I'm jumping the gun here, but they won't be able to keep it out of the press for long. They are both very important people, and eventually they'll get caught, and have to make it official.
I know we had a huge problem when we were just dating, and eventually, it died down after we married. Hmm... I wonder if it will die down if they marry. Heero is an actor now. Those guys are definitely more famous than me. I hope this isn't a problem for them. I guess we won't know until anything happens, but I do think that we will need your presence soon, Trowa. So, please try to dip out as soon as you can tear yourself from your sister's embrace; we might need your help. Well, enough about Duo and Heero. I'm obviously doing fine, but I miss you constantly, so, hurry back, love!
Love,
Quatre
TBC...
Author: Jadeduo
Pairings: 2x1x2, 3x4, 5xS, R+1 one-sided
Warnings: yaoi, romance, angst, language, lemon, Relena bashing
Rating: R - NC-17
Disclaimer: None of the boys are mine... Only in my dreams... So don't sue all you'll get is a very beat up manga collection.
Notes: Thanks so much to Izora Jade for the beta read! *smiles and waves at Izora Jade* I only hope that it helps my rather incoherent fics... *grumbles about lousy typing skills* Well thanks so much for dropping by to read! Now on with the next part!
Lights, Camera, Action! - Part 6
Duo sat there at the kitchen table, stunned at Heero's revelations. He just sat there and stared into space, thinking. One thought that came to mind the most was, "Damn..." He didn't know what he was going to do with this revelation, but he would have to do something. As much as he wanted to leave Heero dangling on a hook, he knew he couldn't. He would set ground rules, and force Heero to gain his trust again.
There was really one major problem, though. Heero was an actor with a bit of a playboy reputation. They would definitely have to hide their relationship. As much as he enjoyed public displays of affection before, he didn't have that luxury anymore. He decided that he would think this whole thing through over breakfast, and come up with a plan...
*****
"Alright, Heero. This is how it's going to be. First, I'm going to tell you exactly how much you screwed up, and then I will tell you how you can fix it. Then, if you can still promise to follow through on everything, then, and only then, will I allow you back into my life. If you so much as screw up once on any of the things that I ask of you, you will never see me again. We will sever all contact, and no matter how hard you look, you won't find me. It doesn't matter how much I love you. It doesn't matter how much it will affect me. I can't afford to open myself up to you; this is your second and last chance with me. Now, do you agree to my terms? Do you agree not to interrupt me while I am speaking? Do you agree to respect me, until I lay out everything for you, including the ground rules and our past for you?"
Heero looked back at Duo with shock. He had never seen Duo this determined. Hell, he'd never seen Duo so serious...! This was a side to Duo he'd never thought he would see; a side he didn't think Duo had. He knew at that moment, that if he screwed this up, he would lose Duo forever.
Heero swallowed and answered. "Yes, Duo, I promise that I will do all that's in my power not to screw this up for you, or us." Duo nodded and began his story, telling Heero exactly what happened five years ago...
*****
"That day five years ago, could have been one of the happiest days of my life. Breakfast that morning was like a wonderful treat. I didn't know why you made it special for me. Usually, you would only make pancakes on the weekends, but I know now why you did it.
"Anyways, it was turning out to be a great day - the salvage yard had just landed a huge contract, giving us the chance to finally financially secure our future. With our secured financial success, I decided that I would finally be able to provide for the man I loved, and it wouldn't matter if he ever found a job. Hell, it wouldn't have mattered if you ever worked again. So, I went out shopping with Hilde for an engagement ring." Duo looked Heero straight in the eye when he said this. "Heero, I was going to ask you to marry me when I returned home that evening."
Heero paled at this revelation, realizing then just how much he had screwed up. Duo continued. "Heero, I wanted to give you everything that you had been denied in childhood. Everything I had been denied in childhood. A home, someone to come home to everyday for the rest of our lives, but I guess things just weren't meant to be. When I came home and you were gone, I was at a loss. I didn't know what to think. I just sort of collapsed there in the middle of the living room. I closed everything, everyone, off. I stopped doing the things I usually do.
"I stopped eating after everything you left was gone, because I didn't have the energy to do anything with you gone. I probably would have stopped eating the day you left, but I wanted to have that small part of you that you left behind, even if it was only your cooking. Heero, I even stopped working, because I couldn't bear to face Hilde and everyone's sympathetic looks. I was a mess. After Hilde realized I hadn't left my apartment in over a week, she called the guys.
"Quatre flew right over with Trowa and Wufei. As they suspected, I was either suicidal, or was damn well close. To this day, I don't know exactly what they found, and they won't tell me either - just some sketchy details. What he tells me is that he called my apartment after they arrived on L2 to tell me he was coming, and when I didn't answer they rushed over. Quatre kept calling when he noticed the jeep still in the lot, and was worried when I wouldn't answer the phone. So, he had the guys break down the door. Quatre was the first to find me. Apparently, I slit my wrists and left a suicide note in my own blood. Quatre won't tell me what it said and neither will the guys, and I sure as hell can't remember what I wrote, but oh well.
"I was in the L2 hospital for two months, on a very high dosage of anti-depressants. Trowa stood by me the whole time, helping me get better, while Quatre and Wufei would fly in on weekends to cheer me up. After the doctors let me out, we decided that it would be best if I left L2, and so the guys moved me here to L4. I left the salvage yard in Hilde's capable hands, and I have been a silent partner ever since. I also work as the head of charitable funding at WEI, because after months of going batty trying to find something to do, Quatre found this position for me. It is one of the most rewarding things in my life, and I will probably never give it up. I am a well man now. I don't need your help. I am independent, and the only thing you can offer me is your love and yourself, so don't go into this thinking you can buy my love, because you can't." At that moment, Heero looked like he wanted to say something, but Duo stopped him with a look.
"Now, for my conditions, Heero, I am an important man now, and because of my position, I must be very aware of who I associate with. Because of this fact, we are going to have to take things very slowly. Granted, it's not only because of my position that we are going to go slow. It is because I can no longer trust you fully as I once had. I can't just jump into bed with you, no matter how much you tempt me. You have to first earn my trust, and you can do this by following my steps, and listening to me when I tell you that we are going too fast. Keep in mind that I will be deciding how far and how fast our relationship goes. The sex can wait. I want to build a trusting relationship that we can build a future with.
"The first step will be going out with the guys as friends. This step is necessary so we can get to know each other again. I'm sure that we have both changed a lot in these past few years. The second step will be double dating, most likely with Wufei and Sally since Trowa is out of town at the moment. This step is so we can get to know each other romantically, while trying to build the trust a good relationship is based on. The last step is actual dating each other with the understanding that what ever happens is entirely up to me. Whatever happens, or doesn't happen, is entirely up to me, and if you so much as step outside the bounds... it's over. The last and final condition I have is that you do whatever it takes to keep this out of the press. I realize that this will be difficult, due to your position and mine. But, you need to keep your name out of it as long as humanly possible.
"If you meet all of these qualifications, and you decide that I am the person that you want to spend the rest of your life with, that I am the one you will marry, you may propose to me, but it is up to me whether to accept or not. Heero, do you understand what has happened between us? Do understand what my terms are, and agree to them?
Heero sat there stunned. He didn't know what to say. Then, it hit him fully... Duo loved him! Duo was willing to give him a chance, which he did not deserve under any circumstances. All he would have to do was earn Duo's trust again. And by doing this, he would show Duo how much he loved him; how much he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him.
With those thoughts, Heero hesitantly responded to Duo's long narrative. "Duo, I know that I screwed up with you. God, do I know that now. And I can't tell you how much it means to me that you are giving me this chance. I will do everything you ask, and I will regain all your trust. Consider this my new mission. I love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I will marry you. Ai shiteru, zutto eien ni. But, before we begin, I need to ask you one thing, before we start the friends stage."
"What is it Heero?"
Heero blushed. "May I kiss you?"
Duo chuckled. "Yes, you may, Heero."
Heero walked over to Duo and kissed him. It wasn't passionate, nor was it exactly chaste. It spoke of the volume of feelings these two people held for each other. Despite all of the hurt, despite all the bad blood between them, they still loved each other from the bottom of their souls.
*****
After their almost soul-shattering kiss, Duo left, because he had work in the morning, "Whether Quatre liked it or not!" So, with Quatre on his mind, Heero called Quatre on his private line.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Quatre!"
"Hi, Heero! So, I take it Duo dropped by."
"Yes, and he's going to give me a second chance!"
"Oh, Heero, that's wonderful! Tell me all the details."
Heero told Quatre everything, describing in minute detail everything that took place. He noticed how surprised Quatre was when he told him about how methodical Duo had been. As the conversation wound down, Heero felt much better about the whole situation, knowing he had the full support of the guys behind him in his attempt to win back Duo, as long as he didn't hurt him.
"Heero, it's been great talking to you, but I still have several phone calls to make. Money never sleeps!"
Heero retorted. "Hn! But, Trowa does!" With that, he hung up leaving behind a very amused Quatre.
*****
Trowa-love,
Things are working out for the best here. Duo agreed to take Heero back, but only if he followed "the rules." Don't ask. I think he just wants to make sure that Heero is sincere in his intentions towards him. I, however, never thought that Duo could be so practical. I guess when you've been burned by love once, you learn to be cautious. I do hope everything works out for them in the end. I just love Autumn weddings... I know I'm jumping the gun here, but they won't be able to keep it out of the press for long. They are both very important people, and eventually they'll get caught, and have to make it official.
I know we had a huge problem when we were just dating, and eventually, it died down after we married. Hmm... I wonder if it will die down if they marry. Heero is an actor now. Those guys are definitely more famous than me. I hope this isn't a problem for them. I guess we won't know until anything happens, but I do think that we will need your presence soon, Trowa. So, please try to dip out as soon as you can tear yourself from your sister's embrace; we might need your help. Well, enough about Duo and Heero. I'm obviously doing fine, but I miss you constantly, so, hurry back, love!
Love,
Quatre
TBC...