Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Like it or not ❯ Like it or not ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I do not own the Gundam boys or any other character from the series. I don't own the song "Like it or not". It belongs to Darren Hayes and associated copyright holders.

Warnings: Sap, angst, some language, Heero POV.

Pairings: 1+2

Rating: PG 13

Author: Ryouga.

Authors note: Whoa, dunno what I was thinking with this one it's on a slightly different tangent than my normal POV's, but I've been on a Darren Hayes kick lately and this one has been bugging me the most ^^;;;; //indicates song lyrics//

Summary: Heero decides that Duo is more important than a mission and heads off unannounced to see him on L2

Date: January 4th 2004

"Like it or not"

//I've been broken, shut down and useless

Feet above me

Hands in the air

You got me falling over and over

You got me twisted tied up and tangled

I do it all for you

You know I've been a fool for you

I thought I tripped on a shoelace

I look down and it's only you//

I remember the many times you and I fought alongside each other during the wars. All those times when my spirit felt as if it was broken into hundreds of tiny molecules; my mind shutdown and I felt so useless. The hardest thing for me to accept was the fact that I didn't know where to turn next. She gave me a strength I didn't realize I had; but you... for some reason you were always there, always in my face and I just wanted to slap you senseless on more than one occasion.

Although I could never understand why at the time, whenever you were near I would end up feeling oddly confused, and even though I tried to kill you… and I swear I would've done if it weren't for the fact you had that dumb smile plastered across your face every time I tried… you somehow got me so tied up and twisted around your little finger, that no matter how hard I tried I would always be the one to end up the fool because my finger refused to pull that damn trigger.

Because of you!

//Now I'm standing at a terminal waiting to

Connect to another plane

If I told you I just canceled my flight to America

Would you call me insane?

Everything I am has been neatly contained into

The contents of a Samsonite bag

Me, a laptop, 2 suitcases

And I'm coming to see you

Whether you like it or not

Whether you like it or not//

I can't believe I'm doing this. I knocked back an important mission in your homeland, canceled the flight and I'm heading your way. Shit! I have no damn idea why I'm doing this, none at all; at least I don't think I do. I can just see it now, you chastising me for turning down a mission of that caliber. I guess for some strange reason, I believe that you're worth it. Yes I am insane. So what? You've known that from the beginning.

Everything I have ever owned, my whole entire life has been literally squeezed strategically into my bag, two suitcases and of course there was no way on earth that I was leaving the laptop behind. I'm sure I'll definitely be hearing about that. Although that's something I don't miss, you bitching about me and the lap top. Alright I lie. I do miss it and I know I'm probably going to be in a whole lot of trouble when I get there because you told me in no uncertain terms not to change my plans; but it's too late, Duo Maxwell, I'm coming to see you whether you like it or not!

//I've been put down, picked up and put off

I've been held up, pushed and shoved around

You got me falling over and over

I've been drifting this side and upside down

I do it all for you

You know I'll be a fool for you

I keep thinking I've lost something

I look down and it's only you//

Throughout all of my life other people have ruled over me, I've been shunned, yelled at, accused, been pushed and shoved around, following the orders of idiots who tried to control others by force but I finally found my voice and put a stop to all that. You know, thinking about it, I've lost count of how many times I saved your sorry ass, then again you saved mine a few times too.

//Now I'm standing at a terminal waiting to connect to another plane

And if I told you I just canceled my flight to America

Would you call me insane?

Everything I am has been neatly contained into

The contents of a Samsonite bag

Me, a laptop, 2 suitcases

And I'm coming to see you

Whether you like it or not//

I've been waiting here at this damn terminal now for three hours already. I wish the connecting shuttle would get *its* ass into gear, I would like to reach L2 before the artificial night sets in. Don't know why I want to see your damn ugly face again any way. I am not smiling. No I'm not. I refuse to smile just because I'm heading out to see you. Maybe I'm am insane; I mean why on earth would I pack up everything I own and just up and leave damn it. That mission was worth a fortune. Damn you, Duo Maxwell. It's all your fault!

That's it I'm changing the subject I'm not going to think about you any more until I get there. My poor laptop must be having a nervous breakdown by now I haven't touched it at all for the past sixteen hours. Ahh shit, I forgot to let you know I was coming to see you. Oh well like it or not I'm going to be there today.

So much for changing the subject.

//How many forms can indecision take?

When does the warning light appear before a man breaks?

Mine is a restless heart don't try to fix it

You know sometimes, sometimes I want it to ache//

It's funny, during the wars, I knew exactly what I had to do, where I had to do it and when I completed or failed a mission I would immediately prepare myself for the next, but you… you just seemed to take it all in your stride. You rarely had a frown on your face, and after the wars had ended, you knew what you wanted and went for it. I became indecisive, confused and for a long time after, my soul was lost, shattered and I wandered around aimlessly trying to find myself. It wasn't too long before, about a year later, that I met up with you again, good ol' Duo Maxwell, still the same old clown I used to know.

Then you hit me with the news, told me you were in love with me and I shut you out. I had no idea, there were no signs, no flashing of lights and sirens blaring, just silence as you pressed your lips hard against mine and I stared at you as you left on the shuttle to leave for L2. You, you damn bastard, left me standing there confused, bewildered and red-faced, and you, you asshole, didn't help my already restless heart any by telling me that. Even though I missed you a great deal after you left, for some reason, I felt nothing, not so much as a twinge, but deep inside I wanted my heart to ache and ache hard just so I could feel something, but it was a little early for me to understand the primary function of romantic emotions back then.

//Everything I am has been neatly contained into

The contents of a Samsonite bag

Me, a laptop, 2 suitcases

And I'm coming to see you//

I'm pretty sure I have everything I needed paperwork wise for my stay on L2, I think I packed that into my suitcase, or was it the… Never mind. I'm starting to get butterflies and I can't think straight any more. My heart is bouncing all over the place because it knows that I'm about to do something totally crazy and so out of character for me. Heero Yuy, perfect soldier and assassin extraordinaire, about to do something totally spontaneous.

I'm planning on staying for at least two weeks so I hope to hell you're home when I arrive because it looks like the connecting shuttle is finally here.

It won't be long now.

//And Now I'm standing at a terminal waiting to

Connect to another plane

And if I told you I just canceled my flight to America

Would you call me insane?

Everything I am has been neatly contained into

The contents of a Samsonite bag

Me, a laptop, 2 suitcases and I'm coming to see you

Whether you like it or not//

Shit. How long did I sleep for? We're touching down already. I must be a little more drained than I'd thought. I guess it's to be expected though; this is, after all, the first time in ages I've taken a vacation. It would have taken less time to get to America you know, so you'd better damn well appreciate this, because I suddenly feel all Jello-ish. Shit! I need to get off this shuttle.

Everything I own, Duo Maxwell, everything that I am is comfortably packed away somewhere in the luggage hold of this shuttle, except the samsonite bag and the laptop. I'm just glad they deliver to the home; speaking of which, what's the betting they'll arrive at your place tomorrow morning, just to annoy me!

Looks like we're out of here. Time to start figuring out what to say when I get there. I'm just glad your place is within walking distance of this terminal.

//I'm coming to see you

Whether you like it or not//

I can see you from here as I walk quietly up the street, you're outside in the garden, still haven't noticed me yet. Good, because I guess it's going to be more than just a surprise. Shit, spoke to soon, I can see you looking at me squinting to see who the hell is heading down your driveway. I can see you're a little shocked, but then I suppose that I'm the last person you expected to see because your approach is tentative as you walk right up to me.

I guess this is the part where I tense up and stop in mid step. Ok I don't know about that look in your eyes. I guess we need no words, especially since I have no choice in the matter; your lips seem to be connected to mine. But I'm not protesting. Not this time. I'm yours now and you know it.

I can't deny how I feel any more. "Ai shiteru Duo."

Whether you like it or not.

OWARI