Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Lonely Hearts ❯ Ninmu Ryukai ( Chapter 1 )

Lonely Hearts

By Shinigami Yuy

Yaoi, little AU, OOC, language, violence, angst, sap, sorrow, citric stuff,

Disclaimers: I don't own them… I just mess with them… I own nothing …other then a big box of pokey.

Parings: 1x5…. 3x4 mentioned.. Eventually 1x2x5…. Don't like it don't read it… wait never mind read… read please I need someone to give me feedback of some sort… So I know I'm not writing to a computer…PLEASE ARCHIVE!!! Thanks -SY PS: Readers with strong imaginations will love this. I hope.

/…./ thoughts

"…." Conversation

*…* Emphasis on word(s)

::…..:: Gundam `speech'

Lonely Hearts

It was yet again another boring day in the safe house. Quatre and Trowa were away for a mission. Heero sat in his room typing away at his laptop. WuFei was down in the hangar talking to his Gundam. This left Duo alone in the library of the house, sitting at the desk, drawing whatever his twisted mind saw fit. True he could be outside but he preferred not to look at things when he drew them. He wasn't a skilled artist but was good enough. His notebook and tattered leather bound journal sat next to his elbow as he pondered what was on the paper before him. Violet eyes narrowed at an offending smudge on the face of the person he was working on.

/No no can't have that… ok so if the light was over here... then this shadow would be… Damnit why does it have to be so hard sometimes?/ he thought as he erased one line for the hundredth time.

Before him was a rather ornate and very detailed drawing from the dreams he'd been having over the last few weeks. Half the time he could never remember anything that he dreamed up but this one was very different. With a calm and gentle hand he finally finished the delicate rim of an eye, then the iris and rest, then shaded it in completely. /All black... just like in my dream… though it looked * a lot * different in my dream./ He sighed and moved to the other half finished figure, pulling out a deep blue pencil. /Eyes are the window to the soul… so I * really * don't want to mess these up./ He hummed happily to himself as he worked, tongue sticking out a little bit in concentration.

"What are you doing Maxwell?" Duo's head jerked up, yet again drawing a line where one was never meant to be. He looked right into some annoyed Onyx black eyes.

"Damnit Wu don't you ever knock?!" Duo said, putting down his pencil and covering his work up. WuFei snorted.

"I did knock but you were not paying attention, Maxwell. And don't call me that."

"Well you could have knocked louder." Duo griped. "What's up Wu?"

WuFei sighed. /I am * never * going to get him to call me the right thing I know it./ "I was wondering what you were doing… and if you had heard anything about a new mission." In truth that was a big lie. WuFei had been standing in the doorway for several minutes, watching the braided pilot work. WuFei felt sorry he said something.

"Nope I haven't heard anything from Heero yet about a mission. And I was drawing."

"What?"

"None of your business Wu." Duo said in a cheerful yet very threatening tone. WuFei knew better then to dismiss his judgment of that tone. /Its important to him…hn how could a doodle of his be important?/

"Very well Maxwell. I'll leave you alone now." WuFei turned to leave but was stopped by Heero. They were no more then a few inches apart. If WuFei hadn't been paying attention he would have plowed right into the Zero pilot. Not that he would have minded running into his lover, but Heero's expression told him that now was not the time for fun.

****

"We have a mission." Heero's flat monotone rang in WuFei's ears. Duo got up out of his chair and bounced on over.

"All right something to blow up! Took them long enough."

"Hn… The three of us are to head up north and take out a research facility. They have been doing human experiments that are not only gruesome but can potentially give OZ an advantage. It's and attempt to make the perfect soldiers. We are to destroy everything."

"Even the test subjects?" Duo questioned. He hated harming the innocent.

"Our time frame is one where they dispose of the subjects that were not useful... so far none of the subjects has survived." Heero stated coldly. WuFei glowered at the thought and Duo shivered. He gathered up his things and headed down the hall.

"Well then I'd better get packing." Duo in truth couldn't stand to be near the two of them at the moment. His dreams haunted him with images of the two pilots his heart was drawn to. For one reason or another he loved both Heero AND WuFei with equal and total passion. The fact that they were an item didn't make his heart feel any better.

****

/If there is a God... He has a sick sense of humor./

Duo packed up his duffel bag, and his gun case. Inside the case beneath the lid was where he kept his journal, notebook and of course all his drawings. Most of them were of him and one of his two objects of near obsession.

He placed the unfinished picture with the others and headed back down stairs to put his stuff in Shinigami. He waked past where Heero was bending over to unplug his power supply. Duo became very happy that Heero chose to ware spandex. /Damn why me?/ he continued his walk down to the hanger.

*****

WuFei waited until Duo was out of earshot before joining his lover in their room.

"Heero… Are you sure it's smart to bring him along with us?"

"We don't have any other choice. The mission will require him as a distraction. His Gundam is the only one that can get close enough to begin the attack." Heero turned and stared deeply into the worried depths of his lover's eyes.

They both were worried about the braided pilot. The boy who called himself Death had once held a place in each of their hearts but they had found each other long before they thought of the idea to voice anything to Duo. Duo had been drifting away from every one. Even Quatre had a bit of trouble getting a good conversation out of the boy; even his abilities couldn't get through. This of all things had WuFei very worried. Heero ran a calloused finger along WuFei's cheek.

"He will be fine. I'll make sure of it."

"Thank you Heero. I can't help but worry about that baka sometimes. He's been way too reckless, inapproachable and most of all quiet lately. I don't like it."

"Neither do I koi. I just don't know what to do other then protect him the best I can."

/Maybe we need to do more for him… Perhaps… no he wouldn't comply... he doesn't feel for any of us as more then friends… at least I don't think so./ WuFei thought. He began to pack things up and get ready for the mission.

****

::Hello Maxwell:: Nataku greeted the young pilot in a soft alto grumble. Duo had learned the `speech' of the Gundams a long time ago. It was a comfort knowing he could speak to them and understand.

"Hello Nataku, Wing. How's it goin' Ol' buddy?" Duo asked his own Mech. Shinigami let out a low, bone-shaking chuckle.

::Very well Duo-kun. We have a new mission I see. Finally something to do other then stand around humoring the love birds here.::

::Not funny Shinigami.:: Wing grumbled. Nataku `laughed'.

::Oh I like his sense of humor Luv. Always trust good ol' Shinigami to make things lighter then they really are.::

"Yeah and Sand Rock isn't here to scold you for pouting Wing. Heh."

::You are not helping the matter Duo-kun. How have you been? You have been avoiding us again.:: Wing said, `voice' cool and deep like its pilots eyes.

/Leave it to Wing to be down to the point./ "Nothing really… Just trying to clear my thoughts and catch some sleep." Duo opened the cargo compartment on Shinigami's leg and tossed his duffel inside, then pulled his Walkman out of one of his many hidden pockets.

Shinigami opened the hatch to the cockpit and the systems began to hum as the small human activated him.

::So where are we going Little Angel… hum? Do you know?::

"North. Somewhere really cold to stop some experiments and stuff. I get to go first!"

::All right we get to lead the charge for once. Sorry Zero old chum.::

Wing Zero let out a grumbling sigh. Nataku laughed. Shinigami turned his attention to his little pilot.

::Duo-kun are you ok? You have been having those dreams again I can tell.::

"Cant keep a secret from you can I? I'll tell you on the way up all right?"

:: I suppose that will have to do. I don't want you getting hurt without me by your side Duo.::

"Doubtful Shin. Very doubtful.."

"Duo who are you talking to?" Heero asked, glaring unintentionally at the American. Duo jumped and hit his head on the dash. Heero flinched at the sound of the impact.

"OW… Damnit Yuy don't YOU ever knock either?! I'm talking to my Gundam like always... Duh." Duo said, rubbing his sore head.

"Hn… useless thing to do. We leave in an hour I hope you are ready."

"I'm always ready Heero."

****

::Heero something is really bothering him. Shinigami will not say a thing either.:: Heero sighed as he got inside Zero and began running diagnostics on his Gundam, thinking rather then speaking aloud to his Gundam. The Zero system made talking to his weapon much easier and more discreet then Duo's method.

/I don't know what is wrong either. He's been acting strange./

:: I don't like it. Nataku is overflowing with maternal worry and Shinigami refuses to say a thing. Duo and his Gundam are too stubborn for their own good.::

/Hn… I don't like it. It's a hazard to the mission and to himself./

:: He knows that... but until someone finds out what is wrong, he's just going to keep harming himself. It's worse then you and your suicidal tendencies. ::

/Hn/

****

A few hours later the three Gundams made their way up north. Heero was in the lead, flying high over the now white landscape in Zero. Below, Nataku and Shinigami moved through the tundra and forests with relative ease. Heero found it harder to keep track of his Lover's Gundam, since it was primarily the same greens and whites of its surroundings. Shinigami however was very easy to see. A huge shadow that moved across the land. Heero shivered at how silent that Gundam moved and turned on the comm., speaking to WuFei only.

"How are you faring?"

"As well as can be expected. I had to actually turn on the heating systems its cold up here."

"Heh… we should be at the hangar within the next few hours. Keep an eye out for any scouts or OZ communication towers."

"Will do… Heero?"

"Hum?"

"Think you could help warm me up when we get to the house?" WuFei's tone turned low and sultry. Heero found the cockpit to become suddenly uncomfortably warm.

"Aa... ja." He turned the comm. off and tried to clear his mind. WuFei could be very very distracting and seductive when the Asian beauty put his mind to it.

****

Duo sat inside Shinigami, autopilot activated to follow Zero's carrier signal. He had his headphones on, blaring one of his more prized CDs in his ears. The heat wasn't on inside the cockpit yet no condensation formed on any of the screens from the pilot's breath. Duo never minded the cold, especially when inside his Gundam. /Death is meant to be cold./

He watched the frozen tundra drift past the view screens, keeping an eye out for any Leos or Aries that may have strayed too far from their flight path. Duo hoped that a fight would break out. He needed to vent some of his ever-growing frustration. It was hard watching the two he loved be together all the time. Every moment they were together, hugging or kissing or keeping the American awake with their erotic sounds was another heavy stone that hung on his heart.

Duo had decided to let no one know, even Quatre, who he considered a brother. It was his pain to deal with. Not the others. /Besides.. I'm death after all… All those I love die… all those I love I hurt and damn to Hell. Aren't I a nice guy?/

::Duo-kun you really shouldn't think like that.. you broadcast very loud and clear in here.::

"Thanks … like I don't have ENOUGH to worry about."

:: Duo if you don't say anything.. Nothing will change. You are right though. Only you can deal with this problem. Though seeking a little help wouldn't kill you.::

"Great your just as bad as Sand Rock now hua?"

::Voice of reason here baka… pay attention to your heart and stop running for once. Then I wont have to preach.::

"I'll think about it… All right the house! Catch some sleep, I hope, and head out for a little recon before they get up."

::Ok ok… Calm down… And I guess that will have to do.:: Shinigami sighed, knowing his little human wasn't listening to him.

The doors to the underground hanger opened up and Shinigami was very happy that they were heated. He slid into place to the far left, leaving room for his comrades to stay close together. He bid his human good night before being shut down for the evening.

"Well that was a fun trip." Duo mused as he got out. Grabbing his gear he headed inside as Heero and WuFei finished shutting down their Gundams. WuFei watched the other pilot walk off, Walkman in his hands singing along to some song called, Body Moivn'