Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Lost ❯ Acceptance ( Chapter 6 )

Acceptance...

 

Heero sat outside, anxiously waiting for Duo and Quatra. That morning Duo had told him that he wanted him to spend some time with one of the others. Duo had suggested that if he felt more secure in open space then they could have lunch with Quat in the garden. Heero looked up when he heard the door to the house open. When the other two reached him, Quatra greeted him in a calm, cheerful voice.

 

"Hello Heero. How are you?"

 

Heero sent a nervous look in Duo's direction before replying.

 

"Fine."

 

"That's good"

 

Sitting down to eat Duo and Quatra started talking softly to each other, every once in a while encouraging Heero to join the conversation. After about half an hour of doing nothing but sitting and talking Heero began to relax. Soon the conversation died down and the three just sat in a comfortable silence, enjoying the shade.

However, Heero Immediately tensed up when he noticed Trowa heading in their direction. Trowa smiled slightly at the three as he walked past them and situating himself under a tree not to far from them. Heero never realized that he had been staring at Trowa until Duo placed a gentle hand on his shoulder, snapping him from his thoughts.

 

It's fine Heero. He isn't going to come any closer unless you want him to."

Nodding his head Heero leaned into Duo, needing the reminder that he was safe.

 

However peaceful things appeared there was always something, some fear or desperation that seemed to reflect in Heero's eyes. At night nightmares and uncertainties still plagued him. He knew that his friends cared for him, knew that he had feelings for Duo that exceeded mere 'Friendship' bounds. Still he felt insecure showing them what he feels, for his emotions could be used against him. Since that with Duo, where he allowed the braided teen know that he had feeling for him, he had yet to talk about it with Duo. Basically he was scared that the one he loved would finally realize that he was worthless, nothing but dirt, meant to be used then cast aside. He knew that Duo would be angry at him for thinking like that, but he couldn't understand what the others saw in him.

He now had people considering his feelings, and telling him that he was allowed to express what he felt. Only problem was, Heero grew up learning to control what he felt, not express it. So he set himself to watching the others to see how they interacted with one another.

 

As he watched he noticed that Quatra and Trowa were close and didn't try to hide the fact that they were lovers. He often saw them cuddled on the couch, much like the way that Duo and himself sat together before falling asleep. There one thing that they did that he longed to do with Duo. Kissing. He knew that Duo wanted to go farther in their relationship, but was holding back and taking things slowly.

 

While he was thinking, Heero had made his way into the living room. The lights were off so Heero failed to notice the presence of two teens locked in a passionate embrace on the couch. Turning on the lights all Heero could do was stare in shock at the sight of Quatra and Trowa. They were both laying on the couch, Quatra undernieth the taller teen. Quatra had his head back, allowing Trowa access to his neck. Trowa's hands were wandering over the slight figure beneath him, creasing his stomach and chest.

 

Turning away from the sight of the two lovers, Heero hastily made his way up to his room.
Is that what I want? To be lover in every sense of the word?

 

When Duo entered their room that night, Heero watched him approach the bed, nervous and unsure of how to bring up the subject.

Duo wandered at the nervous glances that Heero kept that him while he got ready for bed. After they got themselves settled, Heero snuggled into Duo's side, seeking the warmth he offered.

 

"Heero? What's wrong?"

 

Instead of answering, Heero just clutched tighter to the braided teen, hiding his face against his shoulder.

 

"Common Heero. Tell me what's bothering you."

 

"W-what do you want from me Duo? I mean what do you wish to consider me as? Friend of lover?"

 

“Heero I care about you, but how far we go will depend on what you feel comfortable doing.”

 

Sighing Heero curled tighter to Duo, trying to figure out how to express what he felt. Finally he looked up into Duo's shinning eyes. Before he managed to stutter.

 

“I-I want to be your lover.”

 

 

 

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Gomen for taking so long to update my fic. I havnt been able to actually sit down and complete the Lemon part. I figured I should get somthing posted for you guys, so I posted the part that leads up to the Lemon... that means the whole next chapter will be ALL LEMON.. the next chapter will also be the last and final chapter to the story LOST.. hope to update again soon.

Thanx SHinigami-koi.