Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Never Again! ❯ Update ( Chapter 4 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Standard Disclaimer: Don't own...so sad. I'm very pro- Relena/Heero, so be aware.

Never Again! by Kuno-baby

Chapter 4

Relena slept for two hours after her earlier breakdown with Heero patiently watching over her. He refused Pagan's offer to tend to his scratches and stayed in the bed with Relena. Noin and Milliardo, meanwhile had quickly notified the psychiatrist and she was coming right over. Saddened by Relena's mental state, Duo took off to report back to Une on the situation. David Maxwell's death was now a Preventer investigation and had been ruled by Une justifiable homicide. She'd made sure Relena's name was removed from all evidence and that the assailant was labeled under a false name. Tweaking documents was illegal, but when had that every stopped Heero and Duo before. Heero personally made sure persons involved in the beginning of the case were told to keep quiet or else. They'd made sure nothing could be traced back to Relena. Relena's mental state was too fragile to be involved in a murder trial and she was still essentially the Vice Foreign Minister.

As the car drove up the drive, the couple waited anxiously on the first steps. They were both quite surprised by the highly recommended doctor's appearance. Dr. Yoshada Grimes. She was short. Real short. Just looking at her as she walked up the steps, Milliardo knew she probably only reached his navel. An older asian woman, probably in her fifties, she had a warm smile. Had a nice old grandmotherly air to her.

"Mr. and Mrs. Peacecraft. Hello, I'm Dr. Grimes. Pleased to meet you." she said, holding her hand out to be shaken. Her stripped black and red business suit with black shoes and black briefcase made her look comically sweet and even more tiny to them.

Pleasantries aside, they ushered her inside the house into the study. After briefly going over her course of treatment planned for Relena, Dr. Grimes tried to reassure them.

"I've gone over your sisters case and believe she can be helped. I'll need to see her right away to understand her mental and emotional state at the moment."

Milliardo nodded, feeling relieved.

Dr. Grimes smiled, knowing that situations like this not only effected the victims but the family itself. Hopefully, she could help.

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Blinking her eyes, Relena warily opened them to see Heero staring at her. She blushed when she realized she was in her bed and he was holding her.

"How do you feel?" Heero asked, pushing a strand of hair away from her reddened cheeks.

"I-I feel fine. I-oh!" Relena's eyes widened as her earlier reactions came to her. Feeling awkward, she tried to put distance between them, but he wouldn't allow her. He firmly placed his hand on her back and moved in closer.

Giving in, Relena reached put to cautiously touch the scratches on his calm face. She rubbed them softly as their eyes made contact and held.

"I'm sorry." Relena whispered.

"I know. You don't have anything to be sorry about." Heero said, rubbing his hand up and down her back in a soothing motion.

"I don't know what's wrong with me? I-I'm scared I'll hurt someone. What's wrong with me?" she said, starting to get upset.

Heero brought his arms around her and kissed the top of her head. "We'll get you all the help you need to get better, Relena."

"Don't leave me." she sighed.

"I won't."

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It had taken much arguing and persuasion to get Heero to leave Relena alone in the psychiatrist care. He knew it was for her well being, but he still felt like he was abandoning her as he left the room with Milliardo and Noin.

Relena's first session with Dr. Grimes would be conducted in her bedroom, where she could feel comfortable and safe. After explaining what would go on during her session, the doctor waited for her patient to become relaxed to begin.

"Relena, do you feel you're ready to discuss what happened earlier today?" Dr. Grimes asked. She seated herself in a chair in close proximity to Relena, but not too close to scare the girl.

Fiddling with one of her fluffy pillows, Relena sat back in resignation. "I got scared."

"Why?"

Silence.

"Why Relena?" Dr. Grimes repeated the question, writing something down on a note pad she'd pulled out of her briefcase.

"You're just here to prove I'm crazy so you can lock me away forever." Relena mumbled.

Dr. Grimes abruptly stopped writing. "Is that a big fear of yours? To be locked away again against your will?"

"Yes and I'm not crazy. I'm not!" stated Relena forcibly.

"Is that what you think? That everyone believes your crazy? Do you worry you might be because of what you did to your kidnapper?"

"It was in self defense!" yelled Relena, feeling agitated. She squirmed in the bed.

"You feel defensive about it. Why?" Dr. Grimes said.

"He deserved it! He was a cruel bastard. He deserved to die!"

"Did he?" Dr. Grimes questioned.

Relena turned her head away.

"You're glad he's dead, but it scares you that you feel some remorse because of it. Relena, your brother tells me you are an idealistic person. You believe that there is good in everyone. Do you still think that way?" Dr. Grimes asked.

"No. Some people are beyond help." sighed Relena.

"Was David beyond help?"

Relena said nothing and Dr. Grimes made more notes on her pad before continuing.

"You were held in a basement for an entire year chained to a wall. He raped and abused you, Relena. Took away your rights. Took you away from loved ones to satisfy his twisted version of love. Yet, I sense some pity for him. You hated him, but a part of you mourns him also."

"That's not true!" Relena snapped. She tossed aside her covers and scrambled out of the bed. She began pacing back and forth in the middle of the spacious room.

"He was all you had for a year. Your only human contact. As much as you despise him, you grew to need him too." Dr. Grimes said.

"He was a rapist! He beat me like a dog when I disobeyed him. He was a monster." Relena said.

"Yes, Relena he was a rapist. He abused you horribly. He hurt you and you murdered him in rage. You ended his life. You have to come to terms with it. You say he deserved it, but you pitied him enough that you feel guilty for killing him. You do mourn him because you're not heartless. You hate yourself for feeling such emotions for a person like him."

Relena bent her head and moved pathetically slow to the edge of her bed. Facing away from the doctor, she started to cry. "I'm a hypocrite. I've preached murder was wrong, yet all I ever thought about was killing him. I'm so relieved he's dead, but I don't feel whole anymore. I'm free but I still feel like I'm imprisoned."

"It'll be a long process to heal, Relena. Are you willing to put in the effort to work through your problems with these sessions?" Dr. Grimes asked.

"Yes. I just want to go back to being me again." Relena said, wiping her eyes. She turned to the older woman. The psychiatrist smiled and jotted down some more notes.

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"Heero, will you please stop pacing. You're as bad as Milliardo." Noin cried out exasperated. Noin watched the two worried men from her lying down position on the couch. She secretly thought it was adorable and hid a smile. But like them she was anxious too. Relena had been alone with the doctor for three hours now.

Both men stopped once they realized they were pacing the floor in unison.

The study's door opened and the psychiatrist entered the room alone. Everyone jumped up at the sight of her. "Don't worry, she's fine. The gentleman, I think his name was Pagan, is with her now."

"It went well?" Milliardo asked hopefully.

"She has a way to go, Mr. Peacecraft, but I think I helped her understand some issues today." Dr. Grimes said with a smile.

Heero started for the door, but was stopped by the tiny doctor.

"Mr. Yuy, I presume?" she questioned. She looked over the silent young man with the intense blue eyes.

"Yes." Heero said in that monotone voice of his. He didn't turn around to face her.

"Relena's going to need your understanding most of all. From my questioning, I know you're a very important person to her. Remember she's extremely fragile right now. She'll need your support more than ever." Dr. Grimes replied.

"She's got me." Heero said, leaving the room.

Dr. Grimes smiled to herself at that answer before turning back to the concerned family.

"Relena is deeply troubled right now. She's clinically depressed and mentally scared. I'm going to write a prescription for some pills to handle her depression. It will help with the mood swings. I want to see her three times a week from now on."

"What else can we do?" Noin asked.

"Just love her and be patient." the psychiatrist said, patting Noin's hand .

"What did you talk about?" Milliardo asked.

"That I can't say, but know she's really scared she's lost your love. She's worried she's lost her humanity. Please reassure her often you'll be there for her."

"Of course we will. She's my little sister, we love her." Milliardo said.

"Good enough. I'll be back here Friday afternoon at one. See you then." Dr. Grimes replied. She shook the couples hands and they walked her to her car. They waved as she drove away.

Milliardo suddenly pulled Noin in his arms and kissed her on the lips passionately. Noin was the first to pull away.

"What was that about?" she asked smiling, running a hand through her blowing coal black hair.

"I just wanted you to know how much I love you. And to thank you for sticking by me d-"

Putting a hand over his lips, Noin shushed him. "I'm your wife. I'll always stick by you. And you know I love her, too. We are a family. It's supposed to be this way. Don't you forget it."

Kissing her fingertips, he smiled gratefully at his beautiful wife. "I won't again."

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Inside Relena's bedroom, Relena and Heero stood looking out the window. He watched out of the corner of his eye as she smiled seeing Milliardo and Noin kissing out front. She laid her head on his shoulder and he put his arm around her tiny waist.

"I know I haven't been there for you before when you needed me, but I'm here to stay now." Heero spoke softly.

"I hope you mean that." Relena said.

"I do." he said.

It got quiet between them and for Relena it was enough to know he cared and understood. She was broken now, and like understood like. They were a matched set and that somehow made her feel secure and safe.

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Whew! Finished with another chapter. Next chapter, the cats out of the bag and the public finds out she's back. And Relena's therapy sessions turn ugly. See you next time. BYE!













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