Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Never Again! ❯ Chapter 6

Never Again! by Kuno-baby

Chapter 6

"Vice Foreign Minister finally back. Here her heroic struggle to survive a debilitating illness, here at-."

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Relena jerked as the television was shut off. The press had been relentless with the story. Milliardo had released a story to the press about Relena being ill for the past year and recovering in a hospital in Vienna. Giving some obscure disease, the media was in a frenzy to report the story. Papers, radio and television, it was all they could discuss. Camera crews were camped outside Milliardo and Noin's estate, trying to get any picture of Relena.

"Vultures. I wish I could go down there and-" Milliardo growled, tossing the remote control on the couch next to him. Still all decked out in a black business suit from the press conference from the morning, Milliardo looked handsome, albeit furious.

"You need to calm down. Causing a scene is the last thing we need right now." Noin interrupted, flopping down next to him. She started rubbing his back in a soothing motion.

"Relena, are you all right?" Noin questioned the silent girl.

"Yes. I think I'll go make some tea." Relena said, staring at the blank tv screen.

"Relena, we can have someone bring you a cup." Milliardo said, concerned with her pale complexion.

"No. I can do it myself. Need to keep busy." Relena said, getting up from the floor, straightening her knee length t-shirt over her blue jeans. She quickly left the room.

Noin shook her head watching her go. "She has to be so upset right now. It's not normal for her to be this calm."
"She's doing well considering. Probably be doing better if Yuy was here at the moment. But least I know he's handling business on his end." he said, patting his wife's thigh.

"I'm worried this will be too much to take. With Dr. Grimes gone and the damn media hounding her, I don't know much she can take." Noin replied.

"Damn doctor. She was lucky all Yuy did was threaten her. I should have done more than fire her after the stunt she pulled. God, it scares me to think what her hypnosis could have done to Relena's psyche." he growled.

When Milliardo heard what Dr. Grimes had done, he'd been completely outraged. She was promptly fired, an action that depressed Relena even more because she had trusted her. Her medication seemed to be helping, but some days she would slip and become withdrawn and sullen. As much as he hated to admit it, Yuy was a lot of help. At one time he considered murdering the boy for sniffing around his sister, but during this horrible time, he was a godsend. She obviously still loved him and from the young man's actions, those feelings were returned.

It was a good twenty minutes before Milliardo became alarmed Relena wasn't back. Jumping up, the couple went off to the kitchen to search for her. They found her sitting at the kitchen table drinking tea with Pagan. Never more relieved, Milliardo sighed loudly.

"Afraid I was off hanging myself or something?' Relena replied, not lifting her eyes to look in their direction. She saw Pagan in the corner of her eyes flinch at her statement.

"No! Honey, we were just-" Noin began, flustered from the question.

"I'm not suicidal. I didn't survive a year in captivity to end my life anytime soon." Relena said.

She set her cup down in the saucer with a loud clank. Looking at their concerned faces, she tried to reassure them while keeping her temper in check. She didn't want to be treated like fine China, she wanted to feel normal again. Constant hovering only reminded her of David more and he was a chapter in her life she wanted erased.

"I love you all, but I can't go on like this. I think I should move back to my house. I'm disrupting your lives." Relena said.

"No. We love you and want you here." Milliardo said and Noin agreed.

"I know you do. You've been so supportive, but I have to go back sometime. I can't get better if everyone's worried I'll snap at any moment." sighed Relena, spinning her cup around in its saucer.

Milliardo and Noin walked over to the table and sat down opposite of Relena and Pagan. "I don't think that."

"If you were real honest with yourself, you'd know you do. Why did you follow me here if not to check on me? I have to go home and face my demons. Don't despair, I'll continue taking my medication and will find a new psychiatrist. I have to do this. Please understand."

The couple stared back at one another, their concern written plainly on their faces before agreeing.

"Does this mean Heero is coming with you?" Noin questioned.

"Only if he chooses. I've upset Heero's life also. If he wants to go, I-I'll be okay." she said *Liar! You really will hang yourself if Heero abandons you again. Be honest!*

Smiling sadly, she turned to Pagan. "That goes for you too, Pagan. If you want to stay here or go somewhere else to work, I'd understand."

"I ought to tan your hide for saying such a thing, Ms. Relena. I have practically raised you. I'm not going anywhere. You will always be like a daughter to me, so don't think otherwise." Pagan said, looking quiet affronted.

Eyes moist, she jumped up out of her seat and hugged her kindly butler. He put his arms around her and patted her back. Milliardo's eyes twinkled at the sight. She had a loyal following caring for her. He hoped this hellish episode would end for her soon.

***********

Heero walked the hallways of the Preventers headquarters to Colonel Une's office. People stepped clear out of his way seeing the cold expression on his face. Not bothering to knock, he strolled right into her office. He wasn't surprised to see Duo already there sitting down at her desk. He was dressed in his Preventers uniform, while Heero dressed in his familiar green top and black spandex shorts.

"Yuy. Pleasantries aside, have you taken care of the business I asked you two?" Une questioned, crossing her arms. Dressed in gray pants suit, she was all business.

"Yes. Falsified records have been placed so the media can have their story and cover any tracks. The intern has been taken care of." Heero said.

"Is he dead, because all I did was beat the shit out of the guy?" Duo announced, holding his hands up in the air in surrender.

Heero remained silent and that was answer enough. Une and Duo exchanged a look. They knew when it came to Relena, Heero would do anything to ensure her protection.

Clearing her throat, Une got up from her desk, walked over and handed Heero a business card. "This is a very reputable psychiatrist. He's the best in his field and he's also mine."

Heero put the card on in pocket. Knowing Une's history, he realized how far she'd come. She wouldn't be the head of the Preventers if she wasn't the best.

"Back to the matter at hand, I've sent some Preventers over to Relena's home and her families. I've already gotten reports of reporters trying to scale the property trying to break inside. No one will be bothering her on my watch." Une said.

Dismissing the two men, they nodded and left her office. Duo grabbed Heero's arm, stopping him from walking away.

"Are you okay man?" Duo asked, talking quietly so not to be overheard.

"I will be when everything's back to normal. My only concern is Relena." Heero stated.

"I know. Just don't lose yourself in the process. Take care of her and yourself. If you need someone to talk to, I'm your man." Duo smiled, thumping his chest.

Fighting back a smile, Heero nodded and walked away.

**********

"I don't think this is a good idea right now." Heero said for the millionth time that day.

She folded a white shirt neatly before lying it down in her suitcase. "I'll do. It's for the best."

"There are at least thirty camera crews situated out front. I'd imagine there are twice as many at your home. This is a real bad time to want to leave." Heero sighed as she continued packing. He sat down on her bed in exasperation and resisted the urge to throw the suitcase out of the window.

"I know, Heero. But I have to do this now. If I don't, I may never leave this place. If you don't want to come with me-" Relena mumbled.

"Don't be crazy, I-" Heero stopped, eyes widening at saying something so insensitive to her. He watched carefully for her reaction.

Relena laughed softly, before grabbing his hand and sitting down next to him. "I'm not insulted by that. I'm actually glad you said it. Heero, don't treat me like I'm made of glass. I need to feel normal again."

She caressed her thumb over his hand and smiled when he linked their fingers together.

"Wherever you go, I go." he said bluntly.

"Thank you."

***********

Allowing Relena to leave was the hardest thing Milliardo ever had to do. He felt like a father watching his child leave home for the first time. He knew she felt smothered and for her well being, he had to give her space.

"She won't be leaving forever. She's just going home." Noin said, coming up behind him and wrapping her arms around his waist. She leaned her head against his back and sighed.

"I know, but I lost her for a year. It was pure agony not even knowing if she were alive or dead. If I could, I'd never let her out of my sight." he replied.

"Heero will keep her safe. He loves her." she said.

"I know. I hope it's enough." Milliardo said, before turning around to pull his wife in his arms.

************

Stepping into her bedroom for the first time in over a year was a startling experience. She walked around the room and was surprised by the immaculate condition. It was just like she remembered. In fact it was like she'd never left. Heero and Pagan hovered behind her as she touched items here and there. She looked behind her at the two for answers.

"We hoped you'd be found quickly, so we changed nothing. After the investigators searched the place for clues, your brother had everything put back in its place." Heero replied.

"Thank you both. I-I want to unpack. Alone. Could you give me a minute?" asked Relena. She opened her suitcase and began taking out clothes.

The two men left the room without another word. The instant the door closed, Relena burst into tears. She was so relieved to be back, safe and free. Picking up the beloved teddy bear Heero had given her, she laid on her bed and wept.

*************

Taking the bedroom next to Relena's, Heero felt awkward sleeping alone. He had become accustomed to being in her bed, it felt wrong to sleep by himself. He wondered if she was a sleep. She's been too quiet all evening. Once her staff had seen her again, their absolute joy had lightened the mood. You could really tell a person's character, when she hugged every member of the staff and knew every person's name. They obviously adored her.

Although she looked happy, he knew she was feeling overwhelmed and recognized the false smile she gave to the staff. Right after dinner she claimed tiredness and went to bed. It was still too much too soon for her. That was the last time he'd seen her.

He broke from his musing when he heard the door knob twisting. Even pitch black at night, he could see her silhouette at the door.

"Heero, are you awake?" she whispered, coming inside and closing the door.

"Come in, Relena." he said. Using the window for light, he let his eyes rove over her night gown before settling on her face.

She walked to the side of the bed and sat next to him. "I feel like a baby to ask this, but can I sleep with you tonight. Just tonight. I promise I won't keep doing this."

He pulled the covers back and moved over to let her in. Relena climbed inside and laid her head on his chest. He put his arm around her waist like he did every night and before he knew it she asleep. Hearing her soft breathing, soothed him and he soon joined her.

************

"Lena, be a good girl and give is a kiss." David sneered, kissing her face as she turned her head in every direction to avoid his lips.

"Don't touch me, freak!" Relena snarled. She pushed against his chest with her free arm as he laid on top of her.

He snickered at her struggles. He slipped a hand between her clenched thighs and she flinched. She cringed as he explored her.

"You should be honored I want you so much. You were my first. And I'll always treasure being yours."

Your first...Your first...Your first...Your first...

Relena gasped as she sat up in bed. Heero remained sleeping by her side. Throwing the covers back, she ran into the bath room and turned on the shower.

**************

Heero rolled over and came instantly awake when he no longer felt Relena's presence in bed. Quickly scanning the room, he was surprised to hear the shower running. Looking at the clock, it was well after midnight. He got out of bed and went to the bath room door. Opening it, Heero sucked in a stunned breathe.

"Relena!" he shouted. She ignored him and kept sitting at the bottom of the tub, the shower head soaking her to the bone. He took in her glazed eyes and became worried. He turned off the water and picked her up in his arms. Taking her back to the bed, he laid her down before going back to grab a towel to dry her off.

"Damnit, Relena. Say something." Heero said, drying her body briskly with the towel.

She turned her head and suddenly leaped forward to kiss him on the mouth. Almost knocking him back, Heero was thrown for a loop. She wildly kissed him, aggressively holding his face still. Heero quickly caught onto the manic quality of her actions.

"Relena, stop! Stop! What happened?" Heero asked, holding her upper arms, pushing her away.

"I can't stop thinking about him! He won't leave me alone. All I can see is his disgusting, mocking face! He violated me and he had no right. My first time-I-It should have been with someone I loved." Relena said, voice cracking. *It should have been you.*

Heero gently pulled her against him and held her close. He stroke his hands down her back, not caring she was soaking wet. "I wish that too. But what that bastard did to you wasn't sex but rape. Your not being a virgin doesn't define you."

"Do you still want me? Even if I'm not a virgin?" Relena asked.

Heero froze at the question. Any answer would be opening a big ol' can of worms. Hell, yes he wanted her, but she was unbelievably vulnerable now and he couldn't forgive himself if she-

"Make love to me Heero. I need you so much right now." she said, running her hands down his back

"Relena, you're confused right now. You don't know what your asking." Heero said, stepping back to put distance between their bodies.

"I love you and always have." she said, moving closer.

"Relena, I can't-"

"You don't want me because I'm damaged goods, do you? You care for me, but not in that way?" Relena said, sitting back on the bed.

Heero grabbed her up against him and stroked her wet hair. "I will never feel for another woman what I feel for you, Relena."

She sighed in relief before leaning in to kiss his lips. Feeling his control snap at her near naked. Wet body against his, Heero slid his mouth over hers, his lips gently tugging at her, his hand gliding through her hair. When Heero held her she felt whole again.

He had to be gentle with her. As much as she cared for him, he knew she had to be insecure over her role in their relationship. If she only knew the strength of his feelings for her. He raised his head and cupped her chin in his hand.

"If you want me to stop at any times, I will." he said, his voice husky with emotion.

They kissed one another, caressing lightly as they learned one another bodies. She tensed for a second when he kissed her neck before relaxing against him. She stroked her hands down his back and shoulders and moved restlessly against him. Not wanting to overwhelm her, Heero leaned only his chest over her body. He whispered loving words to her as he stroked his hand over her collar bone, sliding lower to cup her breast. He kissed hermouth, closed eyes, the tip of her nose. Cautiously, he lifted her gown over her stomach, watching her face for any sign of fear. She nodded her head and he quickly removed the wet gown.

"Heero." Relena whispered. She ran her hands through his hair and gasped when her cupped her right breast in his palm, taking it into his mouth. Heero suckled gently. He clenched his eyes closed, so tense he couldn't breath. He swirled his tongue slowly over her nipple and she cried out, pulling on his locks. Nipping at the tip, he slid over to the other breast and repeated the process. He was on fire, but tonight he would devote all his attention to her. She deserved do less.

**********

Relena rolled over on her back, stretching her arm out, hitting Heero in the face with it. He blinked before smiling and drawing her close. She was beautiful when she was sleeping. She looked so innocent and untroubled. He needed to keep her that way. For the first time in his miserable life he was happy. They could be happy. He would make sure of it no matter what it took.

Don't kill me! The full blown lemon between these two is coming soon. I just wanted to show a relationship mild stone. One chapter done and Lord knows how many to go. To all my reviewers and the people who bother to read this, thanks a bunch. Next chapter will be all love and sweetness...okay, I lie. New therapist appears and things get more complicated for Relena and Heero. See ya next time.