Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Nobody's Home ❯ Nobody's Home ( One-Shot )

A thirteen year old girl sighed and lit the red and black candles, pulling out a thousand year old spell book. Only, she was interrupted by the phone ringing. She ignored it. The cold air whipped around her, blowing out the candels.

I couldnt tell you why she felt that way

She felt it everyday

And I couldnt help her

I just watched her make the same mistakes

Again

'So this is how it'll end,' she thought, bitterly, standing at a cliff, brown and dark purple hair blowing in the strong winds. “Say syanora, Sabby!” she cried, snapping off a friendship bracelet and ran to the edge of the cliff. The haunted cliff. Her wrists were already bloody from cutting up her wrists. “So this is it, this is my life, I dont understand why I am alive anymore. I HATE THIS!” She roughly tossed the silver and black bracelet over the cliff. It started to rain.

She didnt see anyone coming or hear anyone. “Its your fauly, Satan. You cursed me, my life and made me who I am not. This is how my life'll end. I've made my mistakes and now I can die, without anyone getting in my way. I'm fed up with what I am supposed to do. My father hates me, my mom left. My best friend killed himself. So why live?

I get into trouble. I am in a gange. I do drugs. I cut and burn myself. Wounds cannot heal. Do you ever feel like breaking down? If it isnt me, then why? Why does this even happen? Christ, help me,” she whispered, falling to her knees and crying softly.

The rain softly washed out the self-inflicted cuts on her wrist. She sighed, finally able to get herself together and stood and quietly walked walked down the dark, cold streets.

She silently entered the house and and walked to her black painted room. She looked around in disgust. This is her house. Her room. Her carpet was stained with blood. Her blood.

Whats wrong, whats wrong now?

To many, too many problems

Dont know where she belongs

Where she belongs...

Duo could've sworn he'd seen cuts and scars on her arm. He been curious why a thirteen year old would be outside in the cold.And in the night. He shrugged and continued walking to his apartment. Once he entered, he checked to see if he had messages. He did. Heero. Heero left a message saying that theres a meeting tommorow once Noin gets done with work.

He shrugged and went to get ready for bed. His thoughts rested on the girl.

~~~The next day.~~~~

The girl sighed and walked silently to school. She was really tired from crying all night. And waking up crying. 'I cant stand this anymore!' she thought as she bagan to run so she wasnt anymore late for school.

Once she got there, she silently slipped into the class room until she heard someone say, “Nice of you to join, us, Star,” Star let out a groan.

“I didnt mean to be late, I just-woke up late,”

“Agian? Thats your sixth time, go sit down.”

She wants to go home

But nobody's home

Thats where she lies, broken

inside! With no place to go

No place to go

To dry her eyes

Broken inside!

Star sighed and felt tears come to her eyes as she looked over at the empty desk next to hers. Yes, he was really dead. He killed himself. She drowned out her teachers words and layed her head in her arms and cried softly. “So, Star do you know the answer?”

She blinked and her head shot up. “Huh?” she asked. The class giggled. Noin sighed.

“Never mind. Can I speak to you after class?”

Star didnt reply, obviously meaning that she didnt care. “Whatever,” she muttered, laying her head back into her arms.

She fell asleep for the rest of the class, that was until she was woken up by cold water. “Holy-!” she exclaimed.

“You fell asleep. What is going on?”

“Nothing.” she replied.

Noin looked at her concerned. “If you ever want to talk-”

“I know.” Star cut her off. “I'm seriously fine.”

“okay, you may go.”

Star got up and walked out of the room.

Open your eyes and look outside

Find the reasons why

You've been rejected

And now you cant find what you've

left behind

Be strong, be strong now

Too many too many problems

Dont know where she belongs

Where she belongs...

Star sighed and played around with her food. Truth is, she wasnt hungry. She had an eating disorder. She is anorixia. And she cuts. She took a small sip from the chocolet milk then spat it out when a voice asked, “Why were you crying today in class?”

“H-huh? What do you mean?”

The boy looked at her. “You were crying. Thats why you fell asleep, when the teacher called on you to answer, I looked over at you and you were crying. Why?”

Star coughed and shrugged. “I guess I was just crying because of some...stuff. Why do you ask?”

“....Because....that boy that used to sit by you....is he....dead?”

Star became depressed again. “Its none of your concern.”

The boy stared at her. Before finally answering, “Okay,”

~~After school~~

'Whats wrong with me now?' she thought as she leaned against the stone wall, her eyes watching everyone else. Her shadowed eyes gave a evil glow. She let the tears fall. Her hand searching for the knife and lighter. Which she successfully found. She heated the 'blade and then brought it down onto her arm and pressed the knife deep into her skinf, feeling the burn and the pain. She slowly dragged it down, letting the blood run down.

'Where do I belong?' she thought, bitterness and hate was all she felt. She silently put the knife away and walked away form school grounds.

~~With Duo and them~~

Duo sighed and boredly messed around with the pistol, just thinking about that girl from the other night.

She wants to go home

But nobody's home

Thats where she lies broken inside

With no place to go

No place to go

To dry her eyes

Broken inside!

“This is it,” Star whispered to herself. It was midnight. And it was storming out. She smiled softly to herself. “I am finally going to die tonight. Toni, your dead, I know. But, you broke my heart when you killed yourself, so now...this is how I am going to too,”

“Star,” came a familiar voice. Star jumped and turned around. It was her homeroom teacher.

“Yeah?”

“Why are you out here?”

Star shrugged, the wind blowing violently. “Just to think. I need to be alone for awhile. Why?”

“Just wondering. Your acting...strange.”

“Me? No...”

“It seems like it, your isolating yourself from a lot of people...”

“So? Its not like isolation is bad. I perferr to be on my own.”

“Why?”

“Because. I just do, please, can you leave me alone, for once?!”

Her feelings she hides

Her dreams she cant find!

She losing her mind!

Shes fallen behind!

She cant find her place

Shes losin her faith!

Shes fallen from grace, shes all over the place!

Yeah!

'What am I doing?!' she thought, she sprinted to a church and ran inside. The church she used to go to. She shuddered as she entered the warm place.

“Welcome, little one,” a man said. She looked at him. Her black hoodie was drenched. Her eyes were shadowed by the hood she was wearing. She slowly pushed the hood off so her eyes could be seen. “Or should I say Star?”

She gave him a weak smile. “Yeah...its been so long,”

“Why have you been crying?”

“Father Maxwell, its just...I have many mistakes and I cant go back to the Lord, Jesus Christ. I am sorry. I came to tell you that. Good night.” she slowly walked out of the church. She put the hood back on and walked back to the Hell she dared to call home.

She slowly walked inside. Her father was now arrested. She blinked and looked at her teacher with confusion. “Okay, what the hell is going on?!” she snapped.

“Your ftaher has been convicted with child abuse.” Noin explained.

“Thats a lie!” Star shouted. “The a fucking lie!”

“Star, please calm down.”

“How can I?! He does not abuse me! I swear!” she cried, angry tears streamed downher pale face.

“No, your denying the truth,” a quiet voice spoke up.

She whirled around angrly. “YOU! You had to do with this! Why the hell cant people just leave me alone for once?!” she screamed. Then she ran out the door.

She wants to go home

But nobody's home

Thats where she lies, broken inside!

With no place to go!

No place to go!

To dry her eyes!

Broken inside...

Star ran to the graveyard. “Fuck you, Toni! You left me...you killed yourself! Why the hell arent you here?! Why the hell did you die!? I hate you! I hate everything!Why the hell did you leave me in this hell?”

Angry tears just slid down her face. Thats where a crazy smile came to her face. “No more, no more pain. No more of the fucking lies. I can just die...no one would care. No one would miss me. I'm sure of it...” she pulled out the knife and slashed her arms, till her body was numb and her arms were covered in blood. She let out a giggle. “This is it, this is how I'll die.” she smirked. “When you died, Toni, you killed apart of me. I know that you can fucking cant hear me, but I dont care. You left me in a lie. You always lied to me, Tone,” She took a shuddering breath.

“I cant stand the pain. I cant stand anything anymore. I hate this...” she whispered and then started to cry softly, she fell asleep wth her head on her knees.

~~The next day~~

Star woke up adruptly and looked around. She was in the graveyard still. She looked at the bloody knife that was on the ground next to her. Then she looked at her arms. 'Oh yeah...' she thought. Cuts were scattered and criss crossed on her arms, just making her arms look red and cut up. Which they were cut up.

She felt regret take over her body. 'This is what I'm addicted to,' she thought. She quietly stood up and looked at the tomb stone. “Hope your happy, Toni, because I'm not,” she hissed out then walked down to the park, her mind blank, since she was very tired.

She sighed and sat down on a swing and let the wind blow softly around her frail frame. “Hey,” she blinked and looked up. Her eyes met with violet.

“Oh, hi.”

“You didnt need to run off last night. Although, you had the right to.”

“Whatever,”

“We were all concerned of where you ran off to,”

“Who the hell are you?”

“Oh, I'm Duo. I've been watching you from afar,”

“Thats nice,”

“And your Star,”

“I know.”

“Why were you so upset?”

“Will you ever stop asking questions and get lost?” she retorted.

Shes lost inside oh, oh, oh

Shes lost inside

Shes lost inside, oh, oh, oh!

Duo sighed. “Why wont you answer any of the questions?”

“Because I fucking dont want to talk about it,”

“Why?”

“Look, I have friend who killed himself!I gave up on my fucking faith, nothing matter in this fucking life! My dad hates me, my mom left me! So, do you fucking think I'd ever stay around and watch my only family member be taken away from me?!” she screamed, standing up and glaring at him, tears ran downher face.

“Woah, relax, I was just wondering. Anyways, Star, why ae you upset?”

Star growled. “Just go away...disappear...leave me alone...” she finally broke down in sobs. She couldnt take it anymore. Thats where she remembered Toni always telling her to strieten up, to hold on to the next day. She stopped crying all together. She looked at him. “You wanna know?”

“Yeah,”

“Promise not to tell anyone?”

“Promise,”

“Okay, it goes like this....” she started to explain to him. Hours passed. She showed him her arms which held burns and scars. They chatted for awhile and she said that re-called something about the Maxwell church and it was re-constructed.

After a while, she decided that she should get home, then remembering that she couldnt. “Never mind about that,” she muttred, glumly.

“Come with me,” Duo said. She looked at him then shrugged and fallowed him to the Preventers Station or whatever it was called. “hey you guys, I have her with me!”

“Okay!” Quatre came out of the office. “the others are gone right now and they said that if you want you can take care of her or you can leave her Noins custody.”

Duo shrugged. “Its up to her and Noin.”

Shes lost inside, oh, oh...

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You decide who lives with in your mind. Please review and note that everything Star had shouted and said is coming from my heart and is how i feel.