Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Number Disconnected ❯ Chapter 4

Disclaimer: I don't own the G boys. I just borrow them to play with and return them a whole lot happier. :) The song "Maybe" belongs to Enrique Iglesias and all right are his.

Rating: NC 17

Pairings: 1x1, 2x2, 1x2x1

Warnings: Lemon, language, sap, angst, AU.

Notes: This is a direct sequel to the fic "Call Me". Many people expressed their desire to read a continuation of this fic so after much thought here it is. I hope it doesn't disappoint.

Author: ShenLong

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" Number Disconnected "

January 2003 ShenLong

Chapter 4.

Duo also found sleep evasive. He had worked his shift as normal but his mind hadn't been on the job and he knew it. Arriving home he had lain awake until the small hours, his head running wild with thoughts of Wing and what could be wrong. Finally he had fallen into a troubled doze only to be woken a couple of hours later with a violent thought. Wing had found someone else! That had to be it. That was the only thing Duo could relate Heero's unusual behavior to. For Wing not to want him to talk dirty to him, the tremble in his voice when he spoke, the reluctance to want to talk over the phone could only mean the Japanese man had found someone else and was trying to find a way to let Duo know without hurting him.

The pain in Angel's heart cut deep with this thought. He knew it had been too good to last, that eventually Wing would want to move on. Unable to find sleep anymore Duo took a shower and made himself a coffee. He watched the sun rise over buildings, tendrils of yellow, orange and red spreading softly then changing to blues and gold as light pierced the night sky and woke the earth to its soft touch. With a sigh Duo placed his cup in the sink and dressed to leave. Picking up his keys he knew it was still early but he had to find out what was wrong, he couldn't bear this torture any more. If Wing had found someone else then fair enough, Duo would accept that and leave the other man to continue with his life. But the thought still hurt.

He traveled the familiar road, parked in the same spot and rode the elevator to the floor he knew so well. Doors opened and once again he was staring at the barrier between himself and the man he loved dearly. Taking a deep breath he walked forward and pushed the doorbell with a shaky finger. Moments later it opened to reveal the beautiful features of Wing.

Heero opened the door and stared at Angel. He motioned for the long haired man to enter and ducked as Angel tried to kiss him. He hated himself for that as he saw the hurt and confusion pass through those expressive violet eyes but he needed to keep his emotions in check if he was to get through this.

Duo felt the stab of pain go deeper into his heart as Wing avoided his kiss, now he knew there had to be someone else. Slipping on a mask he walked over to the couch and sat down.

"Would you like a cup of coffee?"

Duo's head jerked up, the words were spoken softly and with a touch of hesitance. He nodded.

Heero quickly escaped to the kitchen and while making the coffee he composed his mind and his body for the unpleasant task ahead. Returning a few moments later with two steaming mugs he placed one on the small table in front of Angel then took a seat opposite him. Duo reached for the cup and took a sip. Cradling it in both hands he peered over the rim into Heero's Prussian gaze.

The silence in the room was only marred by the ticking of the clock. Counting down the minutes to the inevitable Heero thought.

"So what is it that you want to talk to me about Wing?" Duo's words were more a whisper than anything.

Heero stared at him for a moment. "I really don't know where to start..." he began.

"You have found someone else haven't you? You want to break off our relationship." Duo's words were slightly choked.

Startled Heero sat up. "No!... No there isn't anyone else. Why would you think that?"

"Then what the hell is it!?" Duo's voice rose a fraction. While he felt relieved that Wing hadn't replaced him he was still at a loss to explaining Wing's coldness. "Last weekend we spent the most glorious time making love and enjoying each others company. I left you all happy with a promise to ring me and you don't. I call you and you're all evasive and cold on the phone. You won't give me the merest hint as to what's wrong so what the fuck am I supposed to think?" Duo slumped a little and tried to get a hold of his anger that was threatening to burst forth.

"I'm cold and evasive?! I suggest you take a look at yourself Angel." Heero could feel the frustration breaking free but he was powerless to stop it.

Duo's eyes narrowed. "What the fuck is that supposed to mean?"

"You know very well what I'm talking about. I have told you all about myself and what I do but every time I try to talk to you about your job you avoid the topic."

"I thought you understood. I can't talk about my job, it's a client confidence that I am bound not to break."

"Hai, so you keep on saying but that's a load of shit isn't it?" Heero's temper had finally snapped.

"What are you saying Heero?" Duo's voice took on a dangerous tone.

"You told me you never got off on any of your clients talk, that you only think of what you do as giving pleasure to others, that you are merely a voice to bring them to the edge."

"So that's it then....You're still jealous aren't you? You're jealous that other people find my voice and what I say to them a huge turn on. You're jealous of the fact that I can make others come..."

"No! I'm not jealous of that at all." Heero swallowed and looked directly into blazing amethyst. "You lied to me Angel."

"Huh?" Duo was a little bewildered at that revelation.

"Yes you told me you never lied and I believed you."

"I don't lie Wing." Duo growled.

"BULLSHIT! You said you never got off when talking to any of your clients, that none of them ever stirred you enough to want to come until you met me. But that is a lie Duo... A LIE!!" Heero was in full rant mode now and knew by the look on Angel's face he had hurt the other man deeply but he couldn't stop himself.

"Wing, I don't know what it is that has made you change like this and doubt my word but I don't lie, I never have and I never will. None of the people I speak to have ever done it for me.... None! You hear me NONE! You were the first one that ever stirred anything within my soul, the first one that made me want to come with the sound of your voice...."

"CRAP! I know you got off just last week."

"Nani?" Duo was even more confused now.

"You were speaking with a client, describing how you were going to suck them off and at the same time you came yourself."

Duo racked his brain trying to recall what the hell it was that Heero was talking about. He had spoken with a lot of clients this past week, he had 'sucked' a lot of them off so to speak but the only release he had obtained was the other night when he had spoken to Heero on the phone.

"Does the code name Lightning mean anything to you?" Heero had managed to find that little bit of information out the other day when in the toilet at work. He had overheard Quatre and Wufei discussing Zechs and his 'phone' conversation.

"Lightning?" Duo knew the client, he had spoken with him a few times now and brought the man over the edge with several discussions on what he was doing.

"It just so happens that this Lightning person works at the same company I do. He passed comment the other day about how much he was enjoying having sex with a certain Dark Angel on the phone."

"I speak with a lot of different clients Heero. You know that. Just because I get them off doesn't mean I know them or want to know them. And as for finding release myself it just doesn't happen. It's just a job!"

"So you keep saying. Why then did Lightning describe in intimate detail every moan, every cry, every whimper that you made as you found your completion? He describe to a tee exactly how you sound when you come Angel! How could he do that if you don't get off? HOW?!!"

Duo's eyes flared with anger. "I don't get off Wing." he hissed. "I make those sounds and noises so they THINK I am coming. I have to... "

"Yeah I know... It's all part of the job." Heero's voice was dripping with sarcasm.

Duo had had enough. This jealousy and doubt was getting to him and he didn't want to hear anymore. "Contrary to what you have heard and what you wish to believe Wing, I don't get off when talking to the client, I don't even get turned on. You hear me? My cock stays soft, you know?... limp and in my pants. The only time I have ever gotten hard is when I speak with you. I didn't lie to you. I've never lied to you. I have to make those noises, it's what they expect and if I don't then the clients are going to stop calling and I will soon be out of a job and I need to eat Wing. You are letting your petty jealousy blind you here and taking as gospel the words someone else has spoken. Of course he is going to say I got off... he can't see into my world, he can only hear what I'm saying and panting down the bloody line. Dammit! I give them what they want to hear Wing, it doesn't mean I am actually fucking doing it!"

The two men were standing by now, glaring in anger at each other over the coffee table. Abruptly Duo went for the door, Heero right behind him. Reaching for the knob Duo paused for a moment and turned. He reached for Heero's face and cupped his cheeks in his hands. He studied the face flushed with anger for a moment before ducking his head and placing a kiss to those sweet lips he knew so well. Pulling away he released Wing and opened the door.

"I'm sorry Heero, I'm sorry you think I have lied to you when I haven't, I'm sorry you feel the way you do about my job but you knew what I was before you agreed to meet me." Duo stole another kiss. "Good-bye Heero. Don't call me." Duo had to choke those last words out and while his heart was breaking he knew he couldn't take them back, not now. He made it to the elevator, which was mercifully still there, and shot inside. It wasn't until the doors had closed and the car descending that he allowed the tears to break free.

Heero stood in shocked silence as Angel left. He closed the apartment door and went back to the couch. Angel's parting kiss still tingled on his lips and those last spoken words cut deep into his soul. Sitting down he cradled his head in his hands. "What have I done?" he asked no one.

~ oOo ~

Duo managed to get home somehow. He had no recollection of the drive or making it back to his apartment. He collapsed onto the bed and stared at the ceiling. His chest ached with an emptiness and the feeling of loss was overwhelming. He ran the argument back through his head over and over again, reliving the hateful words and accusations. He hadn't lied to Wing... he hadn't. He never got off when speaking with a client. The fact that Heero didn't believe him... that he would rather take the word of a mere coworker over his own was what hurt Duo the most.

Duo rolled over, the tears still present behind eyelids as he tried to come to some sort of understanding of what had transpired. Heero was everything to him... and he was everything to Heero... or so he had thought. His mind sorted the facts into a logical order and he processed them one by one. Sure he had to pant and moan down the line, make it sound as if he was coming. The client expected it. When he had first discussed his job with Wing, hell when he had first become involved with Heero he had talked about this. He thought the other man had accepted that fact and moved on.

"You're a baka! Duo." he said to himself. Rolling off the bed he went into the bathroom and washed his face. He stared at his reflection in the mirror then rested his forehead against the cool surface. "I thought he understood, I thought he loved me...." A tear escaped. "You are a fool Duo Maxwell. Giving your heart away so easily. You should have known he was only after one thing." His reflection stayed quiet.

"I thought we had trust, love even. God how could I have been so blind?" His anger began to rise again as Heero's cutting remarks came back to haunt him. "It's obvious how little he must have trusted me then if he can take the word of an acquaintance over mine. Fuck you Wing! You hear me? FUCK YOU!!!" Duo's fist smashed into the mirror which promptly broke sending slivers flying in all directions. Blood dripped from several small cuts but Duo didn't feel them, the pain in his heart overriding anything else.

~ oOo ~

Heero spent the weekend in his apartment. He sat staring into space, only moving to go to the bathroom and even then only because he had to. He didn't eat, he slept on the couch and never bothered to shower. All he could think about were the words Zechs had spoken about the noises Angel had made when he came.... His Angel.

Correction...

His former Angel.

Monday morning rolled around and reluctantly Heero showered and dressed for work. He had thought about calling in sick but decided against it. He really needed to be busy. If he stayed at home he would spend his time brooding and fretting over the argument. He still seethed that Angel had told him to his face he didn't lie and Heero was having a hard time accepting that he had, but Zechs' words haunted him, tormented him, flaunted the fact that his Angel had gotten off with another person.

Work wasn't the sanctuary he had hoped for. No matter how hard he tried his mind would continue to stray from the task at hand. He began to make mistakes. He started staying back late, anything to avoid going home to the empty apartment. Most of the overtime was spent fixing up his errors but still his mind would give him no peace. When at last he did go home he would heat up a TV dinner, shovel the cardboard tasting stuff from carton to mouth as if on auto pilot. Then he would shower and go to bed. Sleep continued to evade him, opting rather to torture his mind with replay's of his argument with Wing.

It wasn't until three weeks later that Heero finally cracked.

~ oOo ~

Duo had hoped that Wing would call him but each day the phone remained stubbornly silent. He went to work, slipping into his alter ego and hiding the truth behind sad eyes, still hopeful that Wing would maybe contact him at work. None of the other employees had so much as an inkling to the pain that was hidden behind that smiling facade, not that Duo would have said anything. Mishka however knew something was wrong.

Duo continued to do his job. The callers still requested him but Duo's heart wasn't in it anymore. It began to show through. His velvet voice lost it's edge of huskiness, clients were getting disappointed and a couple complained. Duo found himself hauled in front of the big boss with a please explain request.

What could Duo tell him? That he had been having it off with one of his clients and had now been dumped? Sure like that would go down really well. He could just picture the boss giving him a friendly pat on the back and saying not to worry over it, take it easy and all will be well. More like his ass would be fried and he would be shown the door and Duo couldn't afford to be without a job. His skills were minimal and he didn't have any qualifications. When he had left home he was young and only had his basic education to stand behind him and who wanted to hire a raw seventeen year old with no skills?

So he evaded the question from his boss... passing it off as not feeling well lately. It wasn't a lie. He hadn't been feeling well, in fact it felt like someone had removed his heart and soul without anesthetic. Leaving the bosses office he slumped slightly. He'd been lucky this time and gotten off with a warning, but any more complaints and he would be out the door. He looked up as Mishka came down the hallway.

"Are you okay Angel?" she asked.

Duo smiled a wan smile. "Yeah I guess so."

Mishka reached out and ran her fingers down his cheek. "You want to talk about it?"

Duo stared at her. He could read the sincerity and genuine concern in her face. His mask crumbled and he pulled the girl to him in a warm embrace. "I think I could use a friend right now."

Mishka squeezed him. "Come on, lets go get a cup of coffee and you can bend my ear all you want."

"Thanks Mishka. I... I'd like that."

They sat in a little cafe just down from their work place and ordered a coffee. Mishka stirred her cappuccino and played with the froth on the top waiting for Duo to say something. Duo stared deep into his Latte as if it were a crystal ball that could give him the answers, show him how to make it all right again. Seeing the braided man wasn't about to start the conversation of his own free will Mishka decided to do some prompting. "What's wrong Angel? You were so happy, bouncing into the office full of life. Now you look like you have been hit by a truck that backed up for a second shot."

Duo gave her a twisted smile. "You reckon?"

Mishka nodded. "You're losing weight and your eyes have lost that mischievous twinkle. I miss the real Angel... tell me where did he go and what happened to make him leave?" Mishka's eyes were soft as they silently begged for him to tell her what was wrong and how she could help.

Duo took a sip of his Latte and his eyes took on a far away look. "I met someone... "

"I thought you must have."

"I know I shouldn't have done this, that I was breaking all the rules but Mishka, I didn't care."

"It's Wing isn't it?"

Duo looked at her sharply. "How..."

Mishka smiled. "It's not hard for me to put two and two together. Around the time Wing joined up you began to change. You became... I don't quite know how to explain it... Happier? Contented? Given the fact that Wing hasn't called for over three weeks now and you have been coming in to work looking like death warmed over I would say you fell hard for him and now he's dumped you and found someone else."

Duo looked at the girl through new eyes. "I guess it is a little hard to hide much from you." he grinned ruefully.

"I just do my job."

"Well you are right in most cases but he didn't dump me for someone else."

"Oh?"

"No. He accused me of lying to him. An acquaintance of his also rings up and requests my services, apparently this guy was mouthing off saying how much he enjoyed hearing me getting it off on the other end of the line." Duo glanced at Mishka to see how she was taking this. A smile in return told him she was listening and not judging. "You know yourself what the job is like."

Mishka nodded.

"The fact is I didn't get it off... I never have with a client. None of them ever did it for me... Until." Duo swallowed hard and blinked rapidly forcing the tears away. "Until Wing."

Mishka slid her hand over the table and covered Angel's with it. She squeezed gently in reassurance.

"I knew something was wrong when he didn't call on the Tuesday night. I finally got through to him on the Thursday and that's when he told me we needed to talk. I thought he was going to tell me he had found someone else... that I could have accepted. When I went to his place on the Saturday to talk he accused me of lying to him, of betraying him, breaking his trust." Duo's breath hitched and his voice cracked. "I didn't Mishka... I never lied to him. I don't lie."

Mishka felt her own heart break at the obvious distress of her friend and coworker. "I'm sure you can fix it Angel. Just try talking to him again... explain things and if it helps you can always get him to speak with me and I can put him straight." She gave a soft smile.

The tears had begun to well again and refused to go away. "I wish I could Mishka but... Well we had a huge argument. A lot of things were said, hurtful things.... I walked out in the end. He wouldn't believe I was telling the truth." Duo's eyes clouded and the tears ran over, spilling down cheeks in a waterfall of sadness. "I kissed him good bye and told him not to call me..."

Mishka sat and thought. Her hand continued to hold Angel's as the young man let his pain flow freely. She hurt for him, she knew how their type of job could cause problems with relationships which is why the ruling of no involvement with the clients was there. But Angel didn't need reminding of that fact. He already had that by what had happened. She passed Angel a tissue. "Is there any reason why you can't call him?"

Duo looked up through watery eyes. "He wouldn't answer if I did."

"How do you know?"

Duo shrugged his shoulders. "I just do."

"Well Angel I'm afraid there isn't a whole lot you can do about the problem then. My advice to you would be to try and call him, ask to meet again and talk this thing out. Then if you still can't come to an agreement I would say it isn't meant to be."

Duo wiped his eyes. "I know what you are saying is right Mishka but I just can't bring myself to do it yet. Besides if he really loved me why hasn't he called or tried to get in contact with me?"

"That I cannot answer but one of you needs to make the first move. Don't leave it until it's too late Angel."

"I'll think about it Mishka."

"You do that Angel."

"Shit! Look at the time. We had better be getting back, my shift starts in half an hour and yours started five minutes ago." Duo stood and reached into his pocket. He dropped a couple of bills onto the table before leaving with Mishka to return to work. They entered the building and Duo left Mishka at the reception desk where she took over from the rather tired looking day shift girl. Just as he was about to head off for the staff room he paused.

Mishka looked up at him. "What?"

"If you knew I was seeing Wing how come you didn't say anything to the boss?"

Mishka winked. "I like to see you happy, besides what he doesn't know wont hurt him."

"Thanks Mishka." Duo leaned over the desk and placed a swift kiss to the girl's cheek then left her in peace.

~ oOo ~

As much as he wanted to Heero refrained from slamming the door to the supervisors office. His face burned, tears pricked behind his eyes and the hollow feeling in his chest grew larger. He had just been hauled over the coals for the mistakes he had been making of late. In short he was told to leave his own problems at home and get back to what the company was paying him for.... perfection. One more fuck up and he was out.

So blinded by his tears of humiliation and pain he forgot to look where he was going and collided with someone. "Kuso! I'm sorry." Heero said as he stretched his hand out to give his victim a hand up from where they were currently sprawled on the floor. Heero realized it was Quatre.

"It's okay Heero, no harm done. Just watch where you're going next time please." Quatre bent to pick up the files he had dropped when he noticed Heero's flushed features and grim expression. He could also see pain and sadness behind those Prussian blue eyes.

Heero bent to give a hand with retrieving the files and papers when he felt a hand upon his arm. He turned and met with the level concerned gaze of Quatre.

"Heero... are you okay?"

Heero shook his head dismissing the question. "I'm fine." The tremble in his voice betrayed him.

"No you're not. Look you can tell me to mind my own business if you want but sometimes it's good to talk. I'm a good listener."

Heero studied the face of the smaller blonde man. He knew Quatre was a kind soul, but not having more than a 'office' relationship with the man Heero was a little hesitant to reveal just what was bothering him to a complete stranger of sorts. Then he sighed. He had kept this bottled up inside for so long now that it was slowly eating him away. Who knows, maybe the opinion of a complete outsider was what he needed? "Okay."

Quatre was to say the least a little stunned. While the offer of help was genuine he hadn't for one moment thought the stoic man would agree. "Let's go somewhere a little more private shall we?" Quatre led the way to his office and shut the door. He sat in his chair behind his desk while Heero took up residence in the one opposite him. Folding his arms he looked at Heero. "You haven't been yourself lately Heero." Quatre frowned as he thought. "In fact ever since Zechs was bragging about his phone conversation a few weeks ago you have been... different."

Heero looked past Quatre and out the window. "I.. I met someone."

Now Quatre's interest was piqued.

"Please Quatre promise me that what I am about to tell you will go no further."

"You have my word Heero."

Heero visibly relaxed. "I met someone a while ago now. They were everything to me. We shared so much together, walks in the park, dinner at fine restaurants, watching videos just curled up on the couch... and making love...." Heero's voice went husky. "He could touch me in places I never knew existed, his hands, his voice, his body... Oh Quatre he was beautiful."

"I notice you are speaking in the past tense here Heero... What happened? Did he leave you?" Quatre's voice was gentle as he coaxed the Japanese man to tell him all.

"No... Well yes in a way... I drove him away."

"Oh"

"I... I placed a call ages ago now. After hearing you all talking about phone sex that time I finally decided to give it a go and see what was so damn good about it. Well I rang a company and they put me through to one of their employees. This guy... his voice... the things he said and how he said them... it was incredible. Now I know why Zechs is so taken with it. I began to call on a regular basis and we really seemed to get along well together. I asked him to meet me and he did."

Quatre drew in a sharp breath.

"I couldn't tell anyone as he wasn't allowed to meet and date with the clients. That was okay. I could handle going out places away from town and spending time alone with him at either his apartment or mine. He wouldn't tell me much about his job and that annoyed me a bit. He did say though that I was the first one to ever arouse him when talking on the phone. He also said he had never *come* when talking with clients, that no one ever did it for him until he heard me. And I believed him."

"So what happened?"

"He said he never lied Quatre... but he did. He lied to me!" Heero couldn't hold back his tears any longer. They burst forth in a flood. Instantly Quatre was beside him.

Jumping out of his seat Quatre moved swiftly around the desk and placed his arms around Heero's shaking shoulders. He spoke softly and soothingly to the man, letting the tide of emotion run it's course before probing further.

Heero felt it all break free, the tension, pain, grief and anger of the past few weeks, restrained so deep inside finally exploded and he was powerless to stop it. "He lied to me Quatre..."

"How did he lie to you?" Quatre's hand began to rub in small circles over Heero's back, effectively calming him.

"When Zechs was talking the other day... you remember in the lunch room?"

Quatre nodded.

"He said he had placed a call and had the best sex of his life, that the other guy moaned and whimpered down the line as he came and Zechs heard it all..."

"Yes."

"Well Dark Angel... he is.. He was my lover."

Quatre felt as if a bucket of icy water had just been thrown over him. No wonder Heero had been upset that day the way Zechs had been describing his latest 'conquest'. It must have been torture for Heero to sit there and listen while someone described in intimate detail how your lover had brought them off and then followed with their own release. "So what happened?"

"I called him and told him we needed to talk."

"I gather it didn't go too well."

"Hn. That would be an understatement. We kind of had an argument. Ohhh Quatre it all got blown way out of proportion. I.. We both said some pretty horrible things to each other, things that should never have been spoken."

"It's okay Heero. We all do stupid things like that."

"But I kept on at him... I kept accusing him of lying to me..."

"Did he admit to any of your accusations?"

"No. He insisted he didn't lie... he said he didn't get off... that it was all part of the damn job.. But Zechs described his moans and sounds exactly as Angel does sound when he comes..."

Quatre thought for a moment. "Angel told you he has to make those noises?"

"H...Hai."

"Has he lied to you before?"

"Iie."

"Then why would he lie to you now?"

"I.. I.. I guess I don't know.."

"For what it's worth Heero I believe him. I think you are letting the fact that it was someone you know that was being intimate with the one you love get in the way. You are allowing your jealousy to blind you."

Heero hiccupped softly. "You know Quatre... I think you're right. I have been a fool."

"Why don't you call him?"

Heero's face clouded with the memory of Angel's departing words. "I can't."

"Why not?"

"He... When he left he kissed me good bye and said don't call me. Ohh Quatre I have made the biggest mistake of my life."

"Heero listen to me. I know only you and Angel can make this right. You need to talk to him, apologize and let him know how you feel. Then if he is as special as you say he is he will forgive you and hopefully you will be back together again."

Heero sighed. "I need time to think Quatre."

"Of course you do. I'll let the supervisor know you have gone home sick. But Heero..."

"Hai?"

"Don't think for too long will you. It's already been over three weeks."

Heero gave Quatre a hug... something he never thought he would do and quickly left the office. He stopped by the wash room to tidy up before leaving the building and walking through the afternoon crowds. He made his way out of town a little and stumbled upon the park where he and Duo had wandered all those weeks ago. To Heero it felt as if it were only yesterday. He sat down upon the very bench he and Duo had shared and stared at the ducks that had once more congregated looking hopeful.

~ oOo ~

Duo sat in his small room, his shift had started fifteen minutes ago and he had only had one call in that time. In one way he was relieved. He really wasn't in the mood for dirty talk tonight... he wasn't sure if he ever would be again. As he hung up the phone his mind wandered once more to the parting of ways and he wished with all his heart he could turn the clock back and change things.

// If I had one single wish,

I'd go back to the moment I kissed

You good bye,

No matter how I try,

I can't live,

without you in my life. //

His mind changed tack and he wondered what Heero was doing now. Was he feeling the same way? Did he have any regrets? Or was he moving on with his life? Duo knew then he had to call... he had to make that effort just one last time and see if there was anything there, if there was even the remotest chance of them making up and starting again. Anything had to be better than living the way he was.

// Maybe you'll say you still want me,

Maybe you'll say that you don't.

Maybe we said it was over,

But baby I can't let you go.//

~ oOo ~

Heero stood and began to walk through the park. Everywhere he looked he saw Angel. His tired mind tried to find a reason for him to be the way he was towards Angel.... Why had he doubted his lovers word? Angel had told him he didn't lie. Maybe he was telling the truth, maybe he was just faking it as he had said he did, maybe it was Zechs who was lying. The more Heero thought about it the stronger the conviction grew that it wasn't really either one of their faults. Sure he had gotten angry when Zechs had slipped out his little tid bit but was his anger justified? No. But then Angel hadn't really listened much to him and his fears either. Fuck! The more he thought about it the more the problem seemed to be so infantile.

// I walk around trying to understand,

Where we went wrong

And I can't pretend.

It wasn't me, and it wasn't you,

But I'm convinced

We gave up too soon. //

Heero stopped walking and sat down again, he had wandered all around the park and found himself back at the bench once more. He stared at the ducks. "It wasn't his fault, and yet it wasn't mine either. So what am I going to do about it?" The duck quacked in response. He had to let Duo know he was sorry. He had acted like a child and he needed to apologize. There was no excuse for letting his jealousy take over, after all he didn't own Duo and he had known all about the type of work Angel did. Angel hadn't lied to him... in fact quite the opposite. He had been open and honest from the start. "I have to tell him." The duck looked surprised as Heero jumped up and broke into a jog. He knew Angel would be at work so he headed straight for the building Angel had pointed out to him once. He could only hope he wasn't too late.

// Maybe you'll say you still want me,

Maybe you'll say that you don't.

Maybe we said it was over,

But baby I can't let you go.//

~ oOo ~

Duo reached for the water bottle and took a drink. He knew he was going to be in big trouble now. The last client had thrown a torrent of abuse down the line at him and then hung up after promising him a complaint was going to be made. To be honest Duo didn't care anymore. He had already lost the one thing that mattered most to him in life so what was his job after that? In fact it would be a welcome relief to leave, after all it was the job that was responsible for his current heart break. Before he left though he needed to do one more thing. Duo reached for the phone and began to dial Heero's number.

// Nothing left to lose,

After losing you,

There's nothing I can take....//

~ oOo ~

Heero's jog soon became a run as he raced through the streets in his endeavor to reach Duo and apologize. He just hoped that his Angel could see it in his heart to forgive him. If he didn't then Heero would accept that and never bother Angel again. If he did accept though; That was something Heero wasn't going to think about, but he let his heart hope just a little.

//... When I run to you

When I come for you

Don't tell me I'm too late.//

Heero burst into the building and skidded to a halt. He looked around wildly but couldn't see Angel anywhere. Then he noticed the reception desk and the woman sitting behind it. Quickly he approached the woman who was looking at him a little unnerved. Realizing the scene he was making with his abrupt entrance he tried to calm himself. Wide green eyes stared back at him.

"Can I help you sir?"

He recognized that voice. "Mishka?"

"Yes, that is my name. May I ask what is yours and to what purpose are you here?"

The sudden commotion in the foyer had alerted the boss and he now came out of his office to see what was going on.

Heero turned his attention back to Mishka. "You know me as Wing, Mishka. I need to find Dark Angel... I have to talk to him. Please."

Mishka smiled and then stole a nervous glance at the boss. She leaned forward and whispered, "I shouldn't do this Wing but I can tell you are genuine. He's down the hall, room two." She placed a hand on his arm as he was about to run off. "Be gentle with him Wing, he's in a lot of heartache."

Heero smiled. "I will Mishka. I... I love him. I need to tell him that before it's too late."

"Then go Wing. He needs to hear that."

Heero sped off. He was aware of the man shouting to him to stop but he ignored him and kept going, eyes looking at each door until he found the one numbered two. With a deep breath he reached for the handle and opened the door moving quickly inside. His eyes scanned around and he saw Angel.

Angel.

Sitting in the chair with the phone in his hand looking a little startled by the sudden invasion, his face pinched and drawn, body thinner than Heero remembered, dark circles under those expressive violet eyes, eyes that for a moment lit up with hope then suddenly dimmed.

Duo looked up startled as the door to the room was flung open and a figure raced in. he recognized Wing as he entered and for a moment he was stunned at Heero's appearance. He looked wild. His hair while usually messy was even more tousled. His body had a sheen of sweat and his ribcage moved rapidly as if he had been running. Duo also noted the gaunt lines and dark circles that adorned that sweet face. He allowed his heart to lift for a moment and hope sprang to his eyes but then it faded just as quickly as it had appeared. He quickly replaced the receiver onto its cradle.

Knowing it was now or never, Heero walked over and knelt before Duo. He took one of Duo's hands into his and cleared his throat. "Angel.... I'm sorry."

// Maybe you'll say you still want me,

Maybe you'll say that you don't. //

"I'm sorry for being such a narrow minded jealous jerk. I knew deep in my heart you wouldn't lie to me but I let my jealousy of your job blind me to what I had. Others may have listened to you speak but only I knew what it was like to lay with you, to have the person behind that voice as my companion and I'm sorry for ever doubting you. Can you ever forgive me?" Heero was nearly in tears.

// Maybe we said it was over,

But baby I can't let you go. //

Duo felt the lump rise in his throat and it took a few moments for him to be able to clear it enough to speak. "No Wing, It is I who should be apologizing. I said some pretty nasty things to you. I should have explained my job to you in better terms. I should have realized you were bound to feel insecure about us...."

Heero silenced him with a look. "Angel... it wasn't your fault. I should have listened to you, I should have trusted you. Deep down I knew you hadn't lied... I guess... I guess I just couldn't face the fact that I was jealous of the other clients... I want you only to talk to me, I don't want to share you with anybody else.. I..."

It was Angel's turn to bring silence and he did so by reaching for Heero's lips and kissing him soundly. "Hush Wing. It isn't your fault and it isn't mine. I guess we can chalk it up to experience ne?"

// Maybe you'll say you still want me,

Maybe you'll say that you don't.

Maybe we said it was over,

But baby I can't let you go.//

Heero smiled. For the first time in weeks he felt light and happy. "Can we... "

"Start again?" Duo returned the smile and lay his hand upon Heero's cheek. "I'd like that Wing. I'd really like that."

Heero jumped up and pulled Angel into his arms. The embrace was fierce, Heero unable to let go in case Duo changed his mind. Chuckling lightly Duo returned the embrace then kissed Wing soundly, removing any doubt from his mind that Duo still wanted him.

The ringing of the phone brought them from their lip lock and they stared at each other. Duo's eyes traveled from Wing's face to the ringing phone and back again. Heero's eyes followed the same course, then Heero's face lit up with an evil grin. Duo looked at him in question. Still smirking Heero reached for the phone and quietly placed the receiver to his ear. He listened for a moment and then a glitter of mischief flashed in his eyes.

Angel watched as Heero picked up the phone. He could just make out Mishka's voice announcing the callers name when he saw the flash of was that mischief? in Heero's Prussian depths. "Uh oh. What is he doing?" Duo thought to himself.

Heero smirked when he heard the callers code name. Lightning.... With the evil look still on his face he cleared his throat and then spoke calmly but with a touch of finality. "I'm sorry but as of now this number is disconnected." Heero hung up.

Angel stood with his mouth opening and closing, completely lost for words. Heero turned and looked at him, for a brief moment he thought he had done the wrong thing but then he saw the light in Duo's eyes and he knew he hadn't. "You didn't mind did you?" he asked as he walked back over to his lover.

"No... It's okay Wing. I was gonna get shown the door anyway after tonight."

Heero once more wrapped his arms around Angel and kissed him. Taking Duo's hand in his he led the man from the room and down the hall. He paused in the foyer and smiled at Mishka. He noticed the person who had to be the boss standing to one side, anger lighting up his face.

"What the hell is going on here? Who are you and what the fuck do you think you are doing?" His eyes fell on Angel, noting the clasped hands. "Angel get back to work or you will find yourself fired."

Heero's gaze leveled and his mouth opened but Duo beat him to it. "Don't worry about firing me boss... I quit. I have a better life now, one that doesn't require my voice."

It was the bosses turn to look stunned. Duo reached for Heero's lips and gave him a searing kiss, noting with satisfaction the bosses face turning crimson. He caught Mishka's face from the corner of his eye, she was smiling and dabbing lightly at her eyes. Duo broke the kiss and turned to look at Mishka. He gave her a smile and a wink. She gave him the thumbs up. With a toss of his head Angel grasped Heero firmly around the waist, pleased to feel Heero's arm reciprocate and the pair left the building to begin a whole new life together.

One that didn't include a telephone.

~ oOo ~

Please note there will be an epilogue to this... full of lemony goodness... promise ^_^