Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Out Of The Shadows ❯ Chapter 1 ( Chapter 1 )

Out of the Shadows

A Mega-Musical

By Caroline and Cameron Manning

Crouching down inside a deep ravine

Those angry cries pass quickly by can't be seen

So many ways spent hiding in so many undone plans

Forgetting what it's like to fight when no one understands

Close call there in the shadows

There's no end to the dark

There's no one out there

All those memories pain and anger flood back one by one

They must be just around the bend they always come

At night as I lay sleeping they come to me in hands

Their lies remain the dreams the same it's only fleeting words

No one calls there in the shadows

There's no end to the dark

Cause there's no one out there no one but me

The hours pass so slowly the life's slipping out of me

No way's the right way is there a way out for me

My life's slipping out…

Rising up the night is done and bright lights come

Held back in my pitied world where everything's undone

A cold wind blows right through me I'm made a hollow shell

There's nothing left just ash remains enrich the soul no soul no soul

Some one calls there in the shadows

There's an end to the dark

Cause there's someone out there someone like me

The hours pass so slowly the life's slipping out of me

No way's the right way is there a way out for me

The hours pass so slowly the life's slipping out of me is there a way out for me

The hours pass so slowly the life's slipping out of me is there a way out for me

There must be a way out for me

Quatre pressed a button and found himself looking at the other gundam pilots. He smiled slightly.

"How about we all go back to the safehouse for tonight? I think we could all use some rest." There were various signs of agreement, so Quatre pressed another button and ended the transmission. As soon as the pilots' faces disappeared from the screen he slumped down in his seat, sighing as his smile faded. He began singing in a low voice.

I have a smile stretched from ear to ear

to see you walkin down the road

He touched a small picture of Trowa tucked in between some controls.

We meet at the lights,

I stare for a while,

the world around us disappears,

just you and me on this island of hope,

a breath between us could be miles,

let me surround you my sea to your shore

let me be the calm you seek

oh and every time I'm close to you

there's too much I can't say and you just walk away

and I forgot to tell you I love you and the night's too long and cold here without you

I grieve in my condition for I cannot find the strength to say I need you so

Oh and every time I'm close to you there's too much I can't say and you just walk away

And I forgot to tell you I love you and the night's too long and cold here without you.

He sighed again and when he reached the safehouse he hurried out of his gundam so he wouldn't run into the other pilots. A couple of minutes later the other gundams landed and their pilots got out. Duo seemed unusually happy.

"Hey Heero, guess what I want!"

"A small dark closet?"

"No silly! Wait…"

where was I? I forgot

the point that I was making

"Oh!"

I said if I was smart that I would

Save up for a piece of string and a rock to wind the string around.

"…What would the point of that be?"

"Shut up, Heero!"

Everybody

He looked pointedly at Heero.

Wants a rock

To wind a piece of string around.

Throw the crib door wide

Let the people crawl inside.

Some one in this town

He pointed at Heero.

Is trying to burn their playhouse down.

They want to stop the ones who want

A rock to wind a string around

But everybody wants a rock

To wind a piece of string around.

Duo stopped abruptly.

"Where's Q-man?"

"His gundam's already here, so he's probably already inside." Trowa pointed out calmly.

"Oh." Duo said. He looked at Heero. "I bet HE wants a rock to wind a piece of string around." Heero hit him lightly on the head as they walked inside the house. Duo and Heero walked quickly into their room, not to emerge for quite a while. Trowa looked around and found Quatre's door closed so he joined Wufei, who was sitting on the kitchen counter.

"I guess it's macaroni and cheese for dinner again." Trowa commented, putting a pot of water on the stove. Wufei shrugged and got out the box and set it on the counter. After it was done Wufei walked out of the kitchen.

"DINNER!!" he yelled. Heero, Duo, and Quatre walked out of their rooms. Heero and Duo took their bowls, looked at each other, then hurried back to their rooms. Trowa handed Quatre's to him and when their hands touched they both felt a shock. Quatre turned his eyes to the floor.

"Thank you Trowa. I think I'll eat mine in my room. I'm not feeling very well tonight."

"Are you alright?"

"Oh yes, I think I just need some sleep." Quatre took his bowl and hurried to his room. Trowa looked after him a moment before nodding to Wufei and heading to his room with his own bowl.

Meanwhile, as Quatre was wallowing in his misery, the lovers were having a quarrel.

"I can't believe you're being so immature, you know that missions come first," Heero raged at his braided love.

"I know 'Mr. Perfect Soldier' but I thought for once I'd come first. Besides, you promised you'd stay home this time," Duo yelled back.

"That was before the mission came in. I thought that you at least would understand that."

"Well I don't and I guess we can all see what matters most to you. Get out, I don't want to see you!" The braided boy pointed at the door.

"Fine! We'll talk when I get back after you've grown up!" Heero said as he grabbed his bag that he'd just brought from the previous mission and his laptop and slammed the door.

He hadn't gotten down the hall before he realized that Duo wanted him to leave. How could the braided baka think that he'd leave him for a mission? Sure missions come first but only because they're the only way to end the war quickly so they could be together all the time. Of course he'd never told Duo that, he just figured that he knew.

"I'll tell him how I feel when I get back." Heero thought to himself as he walked to the hanger, passing by Wufei and Trowa, giving each a nod goodbye. He climbed into the cockpit of Wing and looked at the picture of Duo he had in there. Heero traced his lover's heart-shaped face before taking off.

"I love you," he said to an empty cockpit.

"I hate you," Duo yelled to an empty bedroom. "I hate you so much Heero!" Enraged, Duo went to take a shower when he passed by a picture of Heero and himself on the table. In it he was smiling and Heero held him protectively in his arms.

"Oh Heero, I miss you already," Duo whispered.

He no longer felt like taking a shower, instead he decided he needed to talk to someone and who better than Quatre. He went down to the blonde's room where he knocked loudly, then went in.

"Hey Q-man, can I talk to you?" he asked.

"You and Heero had a fight and you feel guilty." The Arabian answered without looking up.

"Whoa, how'd you know? Oh, wait, that Space Heart thingy. I always thought that was cool, I mean…"

"Duo, do you have a point?" Quatre said, interrupting him.

"I just wanted to talk. Sorry, didn't know you were in a bad mood. I'll leave," the American answered, heading for the door.

"Wait. Do you want to tell me what happened?" The empath asked.

"Yeah. You see it started out good. We went to our room and he checked stuff on his laptop, I went and massaged his neck cause he looked tense and after a few minutes he said he needed to talk to me. Then Wufei came and called out dinner so we went and got our food and came back to our room. We ate like we always do, I talked and he'd go 'hn' every once in a while. Then he said that he got a new mission and needed to leave tonight. See, the problem was he promised to stay home for once. We were gonna go to the beach for the weekend. So we started yelling at each other and I threw him out."

"Duo, you didn't. You know how sensitive he can be," Quatre said.

"Sensitive? Heero? Q-man, what are you on? He hardly ever shows emotions and he doesn't let anything get to him."

"That's what you think. He feels more than people think, especially about you. Remember, I'm an empath, I know how he feels."

"Quatre, he feels nothing, he's unbreakable."

"You're wrong, Duo."

Do you always have to tell him

Everything on your mind?

You know that too much

Honesty can be so unkind

Everytime you throw him to the floor

Why are you surprised to see

He's breakable

You always try to find

What's holding him away from you

But do you ever see your anger

Standing there right between you?

And everytime you throw him to the wall

Why are you surprised to see

He's breakable

Tell the world that he's

breaking your heart

Go tell the world

Nothing's ever your fault

Go tell them all

Everytime you throw him to the floor

why are you surprised to see

He's breakable

And everytime you push him to

The wall why are you surprised to see

He's breakable

"Think about it Duo, alright?"

"Yeah, yeah, I'm going to bed. Thanks," Duo said, but in his head he added, "I think."

He went back to his room and decided to go straight to bed. As he got in bed he realized how cold the bed felt without Heero. After tossing and turning for a while he fell asleep only to dream of an angel with cobalt eyes and messy brownish hair that was always out of reach.

Quatre lie in his bed, staring at the ceiling. He felt guilty for being so harsh with Duo but there was nothing he could do about it now. It was another pilot that was keeping him awake, however, the pilot who lie in the room next to him, forest green eyes closed tightly against the dark.

What would morning taste like with you

Trowa's voice echoed hollowly in his room.

Would a shower feel the same with you

Quatre turned his head into his pillow.

Did you ever think what loving me could mean

When you're all alone do you imagine me

His voice was muffled against the pillow.

Trowa hugged his pillow against himself.

Would I smell the same after hugging you

If I slept in your arms could you sleep too

Did you ever think what loving me could mean

When you're alone do you imagine me?"

Quatre hugged himself.

Fingers memorizing my skin

I lose myself so your search can begin

Contemplating what you might do

When I'm all alone I'm imagining you

Trowa touched the wall separating him from Quatre's room.

If I touched you here would you

Get the butterflies

Could I see your chills would you

Show me how you cry

Did you ever think what loving me could mean

When you're all alone do you imagine me

Quatre held his hand over his heart.

I can't breathe you took my breath away

Breathing you'd be worth my last days

Did you ever think what loving me could mean

When you're all alone do you imagine me

Both boys leaned their heads against the wall separating them.

Contemplating what you might do

They sang in unison,

I'm imagining you.

'What a sad lot we are,' Wufei thought to himself. He'd known when Yuy left that he and Maxwell had a fight. Usually Maxwell went with him to send him off. He would never understand them and their constant bickering.

"Like I can talk." Wufei said to his empty room. "I'm in love with a woman who already has a boyfriend."

Then he remembered the way that Quatre had looked when they landed and Trowa's pained eyes as he watched the blonde go to his room alone.

"We are sad indeed." He thought to himself." We pilot the deadliest machines man has yet created but socially we are all babes, two of us in love but neither know that the other feels the same way. The other two are lovers yet they forget that so easily. And am I not the worst? Sad, sad, sad."

Wufei then crawled into bed, dreading the morning when he knew Duo would be depressed along with the other two watching each other.

"Goodnight Nataku," he said to the empty room as he fell asleep.